Chicks in Control - Binge Emergency

I have been trying, going back and fourth from obsessive thoughts to binge eating. I seem to be positive all day and eat well then at night or when something happens I talk myself into eating crazy and then I'm back to square one. I know one thing that would help and I thought it might help others is to have a thread of Binge eating 911, When we feel a binge coming on or when we want to reach for that junk food we simply get on here and post it and ask for support. I know that if we have constant reminders of how we can succeed it can work or atleast help! so let me start by saying when I wake up I will be binge free and when I feel the need I will get on here and post and lean on my chicks as I hope I can do for someone too. Heres to a life of non compulsive over eating.:carrot:

Count me in! I was doing well today and tonight I fell apart again... stressed, on my period, yes, but that's not an excuse! The bingeing only makes the stress worse anyway.

Thanks for starting this thread. =)

Count me in! I was doing well today and tonight I fell apart again... stressed, on my period, yes, but that's not an excuse! The bingeing only makes the stress worse anyway.

Thanks for starting this thread. =)

No, Thank you for joining me in the battle against this horrid disease. I know how periods can be! haha, chocolate lover here! Anyway's I also figured if I'm steady on here getting help/helping others and does a few daily workouts I can try my very hardest to stay clean from COE. Remember before you binge click here and post about it, plus the time it takes to respond your craving might just go away!

What a great idea! I will keep checking this thread and post when I am having a binge emergency too!

Good idea. I'll use it when I need to, for sure. :)

Oh my gosh...story of my life! I do great all day and then 9pm rolls around and all I can think about is food! I've found that something that helps is planning a night time snack for right before I go to bed. Usually it's something sweet and knowing that I have that waiting for me prevents me from binging between dinner and bedtime.

But I'm totally in!

This is an excellent thread! I have been battling thoughts all day. So far I've been doing really well. Unfortunately, I didn't do so well on Monday. Or Tuesday. or yesterday :(

This is an excellent thread! I have been battling thoughts all day. So far I've been doing really well. Unfortunately, I didn't do so well on Monday. Or Tuesday. or yesterday :(

you can do this, you can do this, YOU WILL SUCCEED! One thing that helps, as dumb as it may seem is saying your ABC'S as healthy foods per letter and by the time you get done the craving is not so bad. I am starting today binge free, the first day since Jan/2009! We will achieve and we will spread the warmth of success to others in need!

Oh my gosh...story of my life! I do great all day and then 9pm rolls around and all I can think about is food! I've found that something that helps is planning a night time snack for right before I go to bed. Usually it's something sweet and knowing that I have that waiting for me prevents me from binging between dinner and bedtime.

But I'm totally in! I can understand where you are coming from, myself losing 100lbs aswell and then falling off the wagon, its tough! some days you wonder, why even bother? It's like this inner working tick, a personality of its own that compel's us to eat, and eat... I think I'm gonna come up with a name for my "other" personality, hahahahahaha but I am glad to of found you all and I hope to continue.... it would be cool to have a 3fatchicks convention every year so we all could meet and show support!

Has anyone thought of mini goal self giving? Like giving yourself a treat when you reach each mini goal? I was thinking that I would get my nails done when I'm one week free from binging!

Actually, for the past two weeks I have told myself if I was binge-free I could go get the corduroy pants I want on the weekend... so far no pants. Maybe next weekend!

I'm starting today binge-free as well. Hopefully I can get a running start with a fairly low stress week next week before things get really crazy. I'll be sure to practice my ABC's... apples, broccoli, carrots.... ;)

Actually, for the past two weeks I have told myself if I was binge-free I could go get the corduroy pants I want on the weekend... so far no pants. Maybe next weekend!

I'm starting today binge-free as well. Hopefully I can get a running start with a fairly low stress week next week before things get really crazy. I'll be sure to practice my ABC's... apples, broccoli, carrots.... ;)


Awesome!<333:carrot:

So today was a success! I ate very well, just my healthy meals and a couple figs for a snack. Even if the urge to binge hits me, there aren't any 24 hr supermarkets in Paris. All I have are bananas, green beans, and hummus :D.

I also think this was a great idea and you can also count me in!! I should have posted yesterday at lunch when my bingeing started to get out of control. Because the rest of the night I was at work and had no real time to get on the computer. This left me an out so I just kept on going with the binge. I generally DO just feel like crap today though. And I didn't get all that much pleasure out of eating the food when it was occurring so I don't understand what my motivation to do the binge IS. But anyways, most of you read my post today. I need to pick myself up and brush myself off which is what I'm attempting. It feels good knowing this thread is here....

~D~

So today was a success! I ate very well, just my healthy meals and a couple figs for a snack. Even if the urge to binge hits me, there aren't any 24 hr supermarkets in Paris. All I have are bananas, green beans, and hummus :D.

WAY TO GO!!!!:carrot:
I so want to go to Paris! Lucky woman!

I also think this was a great idea and you can also count me in!! I should have posted yesterday at lunch when my bingeing started to get out of control. Because the rest of the night I was at work and had no real time to get on the computer. This left me an out so I just kept on going with the binge. I generally DO just feel like crap today though. And I didn't get all that much pleasure out of eating the food when it was occurring so I don't understand what my motivation to do the binge IS. But anyways, most of you read my post today. I need to pick myself up and brush myself off which is what I'm attempting. It feels good knowing this thread is here....

~D~ Thanks babe, I know you feel down about yourself but I know you can do it. we can all do it! I have done so good today but it's the night I'm fearing but I think this time it will work! good luck and come back!

protein shake this morning, and I got a job interview Monday! yay!

I had a protein shake this morning too!!! haha That's usually what I have before I go to lift weights. And congrats on the job interview, good luck!!!

~D~

Yay! Congrats on the job interview Christy...I hope it goes well. You'll have to let us know!

Yesterday was my weigh-in day. I stayed at 165 which I thought was good considering the non-planned Italian meal I had on Sunday. No binging either this week...so far, so good!

I can usually do during the day at work unless someone brings in treats then they sort of haunt me all day secretly calling my name. Then I do 1 of 2 things- I resist really well then go home and say, I did such a good job today I deserve this treat which turns into the entire package. Or I sneak the treat and then another, then another when no one is looking. Which wouldn't be so bad if we were talking grapes but no, we're talking Krispy Kream donuts. Evil things.

I don't know how to combat this either. I actually got pretty close to my goal weight a few years ago but have gained back a lot of it from emotional eating. I'm not really hungry but I'm missing something in my life.

Sarah in MD

sarahyu -- I do the EXACT SAME THING. I have a coworker who is a lovely person and means well, but almost every day she brings in muffins, donuts, cake or cookies -- and it's SO hard to resist all day! I too feel the urge to sneak as much as I can when nobody else is in the room ... you're not alone.

I don't know how to make the fight easier, but I'm going to keep trying. One day at a time. Good luck to you too. :hug:

One of my coworkers is constantly baking and bringing things in to share. Luckily she's really cool about accepting "no thanks" but still with brownies or cookies or whatever sitting on the table the temptation is hard for me to overcome!

What a fantastic idea with this thread! :)
This is totally me - doing great all day, then coming back from work and eating like the world was about to end tomorrow!

Count me in :)

I am in, too! I am going to be here a lot next week. My husband is leaving town Sunday and not getting back until late Friday night. That means six long nights of just me and the fridge/pantry after the kids go to bed. Being alone is a huge trigger for me, and I really need to just camp out here instead.

I can usually do during the day at work unless someone brings in treats then they sort of haunt me all day secretly calling my name. Then I do 1 of 2 things- I resist really well then go home and say, I did such a good job today I deserve this treat which turns into the entire package. Or I sneak the treat and then another, then another when no one is looking. Which wouldn't be so bad if we were talking grapes but no, we're talking Krispy Kream donuts. Evil things.

I don't know how to combat this either. I actually got pretty close to my goal weight a few years ago but have gained back a lot of it from emotional eating. I'm not really hungry but I'm missing something in my life.

Sarahyu, I totally hear where you coming from - this totally me.

So I just found out that I'm going to be alone for most of the day. Like WardHog, this is a big trigger for me. I'm going to focus on all the work I have to do and hopefully won't think about all the junk downstairs I could eat with no one knowing. Ugh.

:dust: Emily, and Ward, you can do it!

Hi everyone,

What a fantastic idea! I suffer from this problem also. I think I have pinpointed the times when I experience it the most and getting better but sometimes....ahhh!

The reasons why I think I binge:

1. I don't eat enough - ie like yesterday I didn't eat anything for 8 hours because work was so crazy. Now first thing, there is no reason I couldn't have excused myself for a moment and ate some of the sandwich I had in the fridge - nothing is more important than taking care of my body. So, eating often and having healthy foods that I can grab and eat on the run in these circumstances is very important (fibre bar, veggies, fruit, little pieces of chicken, protein shake, etc). When you are literally starving everything looks good and you want to eat it all.

2. Eat slowly and try not to do it while watching TV, etc. This helps not eat so much.

3. Eat off a smaller dinner plate, it looks more full and helps control portion sizes.

4. Feeling really tired and/or sick - I still haven't mastered this one yet - this often leads to consuming an entire bag of chips :(

5. I have figured out that I can never completely eliminate all food that I enjoy from my life. For me - saying that I can't have chocolate or a dessert once in awhile in ludricious. It just leads to me eating an entire bag full of it sooner or later. So, in the past few weeks I have allowed myself some chocolate and I find after a few pieces I am ok and don't need it everyday. I allow myself a cookie once in awhile. I don't view it as a treat or a reward but more of a just something I like. I eat it slow and enjoy it. The things I don't allow myself is chips - I crave salt once in awhile so I just have some seasalt on my tomatoes at lunch. And if I eat something high in sugar or fat I make sure that it stays within my calorie range. I am finding this is helping a great deal. I eat less of it and I don't binge...

And coming on here and thinking and talking about it is another great aid. To talk to people that have this in common with you is so important. All my skinny friends just never get it !

I am in the middle of a binge and trying to get it under control! It started with a fight with DD and expanded to a fight with DH and then it was Chinese food then pizza and cupcakes and I even made cookies and ate them......... I feel awful, my stomach hurts, I feel nauseous and greasy and really pitiful.... I went in the bedroom and cried for awhile...It just doesn't feel good wanting to throw up and eat at same time... I am hoping I can stop now.... I really want to stop now...

Fro the next 10 minutes, only 10 little minutes do something else. Scrub your toliet, scrub a trash can, scrub something very vigorously, like you were on a mission to rid the world of germs.

At the end of those 10 minutes, if you still don't feel better, find another activity to keep you busy for 10 minutes. We can all do something for 10 minutes.

I am not a binge eater, but I do, now and then if I get to stressed binge drink. Bad, I know.

But, if I can focus for 10 minutes on something, and then another 10 and another 10, at least some of the time, I can fight it off. I find very vigorous physical activity works great. Pulling weeds, scrubbing, emptying the closet, cleaning, sorting, tossing, throwing out, etc.

It's kind of like the vigorous cleaning and throwing is a cleaning of the mind and soul and a great stress reliever.

You doing ok, lost?

I just got lost in an apple crisp and some muffins myself... should have come here and posted but honestly it all happened so fast.

thanks chicks ..... yesterday did not end well, it went on for a little while and I cried myself to sleep....... I was just inconsolable for reasons I don't get yet. Spent some time talking to DH before bed, gonna throw myself into work today - feel pretty darn bad about last night and am terrified that it somehow undid everything I've done to this point..... gonna try for a no binge day, for myself and to show my daughter there are other ways..........

My husband left for his business trip about half an hour ago and I feel like diving into the cookies right now. I am going to have my planned snack of a hard boiled egg and then try to get busy doing something else. ugh.

Ward, I hope you're keeping busy!

Lost, don't let yourself fall into that belief that you've undone everything - a step back is not a LEAP alllllll the way back to where you started. You can go on from here, so don't let go! =)

Lostbutstillstrying.....I had a similar day like you yesterday. I cried and ate and cried and ate and promised myself I won't binge today, but I already did :(
But I'm telling myself it's just a little fall, we got to pick ourselves up and try again. We can do it! At the end of the day.....food is not everything!

Wardhog......you can do it :) I totally tend to eat out of boredom, but recently instead of eating I started simply going to youtube and looking for some funny videos or people or pets and laughing my face off :)

wiosna, great idea for a distraction! I hope you have a much better day today.

thanks iriswhispers, you're my rock this week!

wiosna, thanks - we can do this, we can pull out and have a great week!

WardHog, throw yourself into a project! nothing like cleaning some really gunky thing to kill the appetite!

ok....add me to this list. Im a major weekend binger in need of frigging help!

oh my gosh ladies! what wonderful support you all are showing! SO SORRY i have been away for the weekend at friends house with my daughter but i have to say i have not binged in 4 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and its because of this group! now i need to work on eating more healthy foods!

ok....add me to this list. Im a major weekend binger in need of frigging help!
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! And thanks for coming here!:hug:

Ok. Today has not been going my way. Nothing major, just stupid little things. It makes me realize how much I feel a need to be in control. When things don't go the way I had them planned in my head, I just shut down.

Right now I'm feeling frustrated. I need to restructure my plans for the evening and I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it. What am I not not NOT doing? OPENING THE PANTRY DOOR.

You can do it Iris....stay away from that pantry. I'm in the middle of a bit of a crisis. I binged on Saturday night for no reason (I'm sure there is a reason, but it's buried so deep in my subconscious I can't find it!). I got back on plan Sunday, no problem. But today, there is a candle party going on in my house. The table is loaded down with pastry-like items and Chex mix that I have a hard time avoiding. I've already had a handful of the Chex mix. I feel so weak...I wish this were just a matter of will-power. I'm sorely lacking in will power right now.

Ok. Today has not been going my way. Nothing major, just stupid little things. It makes me realize how much I feel a need to be in control. When things don't go the way I had them planned in my head, I just shut down.

Right now I'm feeling frustrated. I need to restructure my plans for the evening and I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it. What am I not not NOT doing? OPENING THE PANTRY DOOR.

Remember that this emotion is temporary and the pay off of being healthy is forever!!! YOU CAN DO THIS! Walk around your whole house as many times as it takes, just go in a room turn on some music and wiggle, dance and move! you might just laugh!:hug:

You can do it Iris....stay away from that pantry. I'm in the middle of a bit of a crisis. I binged on Saturday night for no reason (I'm sure there is a reason, but it's buried so deep in my subconscious I can't find it!). I got back on plan Sunday, no problem. But today, there is a candle party going on in my house. The table is loaded down with pastry-like items and Chex mix that I have a hard time avoiding. I've already had a handful of the Chex mix. I feel so weak...I wish this were just a matter of will-power. I'm sorely lacking in will power right now.

foxxy, Just turn into a maniac and throw all the food in the trash.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, No but seriously, Let yourself has something, just a portion and it will be better than going nuts and then eating a bunch! Walk around the room talking to people, smell the candles, chew on ice, do what ever you can to make your mind focus on something else! YOU CAN DO IT!!!

I just love this thread! You ladies are so strong and I definitely will be coming here for support!!! It's so hard when my little sister can sit there and eat french fries and chicken nuggets and I'm trying to focus on my salad....

foxxy - how did last night go?

lulu - welcome!

I got through last night with out bingeing and I'm so happy for that!

Good job Iris!!!! :-) I also made it through last night without bingeing ;-)

~D~

I'm joining up too! I THOUGHT I could make it through last night without binging (which would be my first day in a long time), but finally caved about 8:00. Gee, wonder why I didn't sleep well last night? Today will be better -- because tomorrow I want to post that I had ONE DAY WITHOUT BINGING.

Is this a thread/forum for bulimics, too?

I would say yes, you are certainly welcome to participate! I didn't start the thread, but as a binge eater who progressed to bulimia, you can use the place to overcome binging.

I'm not in a binge emergency yet, but I kind of feel like I will be in a day or two! There were cupcakes at work and I managed to contain myself around them (2 bite-sized cupcakes), but I kept having visions in my head of taking the whole box into the bathroom and eating them ALL -- where nobody could see me (not that I actually would at work). I'm embarrassed about that... but I wanted to get it out in the open...

Anyway, I'm starting to get a nagging feeling -- a feeling that I SHOULD be binging, almost! Does anyone else get this? Binging is such a normal habit for me that I kinda feel like something's wrong. I feel like I could use some reassurance that this is a normal feeling when you first break out of the binging habit. It is, isn't it? Does the feeling of "But I SHOULD binge, that's what I do" ever pass?

Well, I'm sorry to report that it did not go well Monday night. And I am so frustrated by the fact that it didn't. And I had every intention of being on plan yesterday. And I was...up until I went out to dinner after class with some friends. Bad choices at the restaurant led to bad choices later in the evening. Really, really bad choices. I'm just so upset that I let myself do this to myself. Why is it so hard for me to stop? How come other people can make a decision to not binge and stick with it? What's wrong with me that I can't do the same thing?

But, Duqserb and Iris, I'm glad to hear that you guys were binge-free! That's awesome and really inspiring!

Skyra, I know exactly what you mean. I get that feeling to. What's worse is, I also get the feeling that I "deserve" to binge because I've been so "good" for a few weeks. That's total nonsense and I realize it, but that doesn't stop me from thinking it. If anyone has any tips or tricks on stopping that line of thinking..let me know!

Hope everyone is having a good day! Tomorrow is my weigh-in day and I was going to skip it. But I realize that ignoring the scale won't erase the three days of binging I had this week. So, I'm going to be accountable to myself, my actions, and you guys and weigh-in tomorrow. I know it'll be bad, but hopefully taking ownership and facing my actions/choices will help me move on and make better ones next time.

Thank god, i have gotten past the worst of food binging. i was so bad in the evenings, i was in such denial. It never even occured to me what i was really doing. Thanks to this board, it sunk in one day and i've not looked back.


Once in a great while, i'll have a bad evening but this board saved my life and my figure.

...I kept having visions in my head of taking the whole box into the bathroom and eating them ALL -- where nobody could see me (not that I actually would at work). I'm embarrassed about that... but I wanted to get it out in the open...

Why do we have the desire to eat when no one is looking? My dh went off on travel this week and I stopped off at the store and picked up a 1/2 gallon of ice cream (it was on sale you know) and a package of chocolate chip cookies (no sale, paid full price for it). It's not something I would do when he's around, I wouldn't dream of eating a 1/2 gallon of ice cream if anyone was looking. But since no one was looking.....

So, it didn't turn out as bad as it could have, about 1/3 of the way down into the ice cream I realized I was getting slightly nauseous what with the cookies I'd been eating. I put everything up and didn't get anything else the rest of the day. I feel kind of proud of myself that I didn't eat the entire 1/2 gallon in one sitting-it actually took 3 days but hey, it's an improvement for me. And I still had cookies left. I brought then into work to share with my coworkers.

Sarah in MD

Do you ever feel like you are standing on a mental ledge and have to find somebody to talk you down?!

I was having this obsession with an over-sized chocolate chip/M&M cookie that DD brought home from a birthday party and has been working on eating piece by piece (and would be devastated if I ate it) and I just could not stop thinking about it. I was trying to calculate how much I could break off or sneak, or claim broke off when it "fell" I mean its just ridiculous....

...and then my sister called and I talked with her for 30mins or so..... and this "need" just kinda passed.... and now I feel pretty silly

lost -- that's exactly how I feel. People have told me "most food cravings disappear in 2 minutes, just do something else and it'll be gone before you know it" but that's not how it works for me, at least not when I'm stuck on something. I have had times where I have literally fought going to get chocolate (or whatever) for HOURS. It gets very tiring. And usually I cave in because I think, well, if I've wanted it this long, I must really want it, and I shouldn't be TOO mean to myself...

Silly brain. Oh well, I'm working on rewiring my brain where food is concerned. That's what's important, right?!

lost, I do know what you mean! Good thing your sister called =)

sarahyu and Skyra, I also have these needs to eat without being seen - some days I find myself hoping my roommates won't be home when I get home so I can raid the fridge. I am trying to make myself stick to eating in the dining room rather than sneaking back to my room with food but it's hard sometimes!

Hello to everyone else - I hope you have a very strong day tomorrow!

I am getting so close to finishing my 4th binge-free day. I am starting to feel less bloated and I feel good. I had a really early dinner, though, and now I am heading home to a empty house...I am hungry so I know I need to eat something and I hope it is healthy...I have to make a plan before I get home or I will be in trouble.

You can do it Karen! Do you like tuna? If you have some in your house, 1 can is only 100 calories..if it's in water that is. And the protein will fill you up! Good luck! I'm coming to the end of my third day and I also feel good :-)

~D~

I've made it through 4 days! YAY! :carrot: That is the longest I've gone without binging in a long while.

Still feel the urge to binge but I'm still fighting. Karen -- dugserb -- iris -- so glad you're in with me on this!

Tuna--what a great idea! Too bad I didn't see your post BEFORE I ate. I had a 1/2 sandwich with peanut butter and honey. Not exactly low calorie, but I didn't stand there and eat the peanut butter straight out of the jar and I didn't get that crazy rush feeling. It feels foreign, but I think this is how a normal person eats. (eat when you are hungry, pick relatively healthy choices, eat a reasonable amount, don't get obsessed, don't get too excited--it just food, etc.)

Day Four: not too bad and no binges for me!

Well now you know tuna's a good option for next time :-) And congrats on not eating the pb outta the jar!! That's also my biggest problem. I partially solved it though by finding a brand of pb that's not as sweet and actually has omega-3's which are good for me :-) It's the Smart Balance brand if you wanna check it out. Day #3 for me! Yeeyyy for us!

~D~

I'ts funny how knowing I'm not alone, that other people have this strange desire to eat everything in sight sort of makes me feel more in control. Does anyone else feel this way?

Before, it was a deep dark secret that I felt no one else could understand. But talking with you guys I realize that others do understand and I'm not as odd as I believed. And somehow it gives me more power over my eating. ???? The mind and emotions are very strange.

Sarah in MD

I am so screamingly frustrated! I had a binge that started at 8pm last night and didn't end until my DH pulled the food from my hands and asked me some hard questions! Why is this so hard? I didn't even like what I was eating, and my stomach hurt because it was to much! why!?!

...so now its binge-free day one again and time for some self examination, why is it that as I get SO close to my first goal of being under 300lbs that I keep sabotaging myself? Why am I so self destructive?! Why eat till it hurts?!

I do the same thing. I do my best and eat healthy all day long and as soon as night comes I eat and eat and eat. I eat more calories at night than I have eaten all day long. To make it worse, every night I wake up in the middle of the night and eat! It's hard to have will power at 3 am.

:hug: lost. I have had those nights... but you know, the great thing is you have an awesome attitude about starting in again right away to day - stick with that! You can do it - we're all rooting for you. =)

Sorry gal's, I have been in a "Funk" as of late, I mean I have not binged but I have been in my own world, moody ec... I think its from the lack of food, I don't know...ugh.. But I have been thinking of ordering ourlife fresh meals to my house, the ones Ruby is on? I really need to get my life under control. I think what helps is getting out of the house and i signed up for a 14 day free trial at our local gym The Rush fitness complex. I am going to go down there next Friday when we get paid. I also start school this tuesday, I'm finally getting my GED and applying for college! This week is going to be tight on funds so i think ill just go get bags of frozen boneless skinless chicken breasts and bags of veggies. we will see.... I need to make 50 bucks work for a week for myself and my hubby...

I just wanted to say how grateful I am for all the online support and honesty. It really helps!:hug:

I am also a bit in a funk, the PMS is starting to get me (I usually get really moody). I usually start EATING when my emotions start getting to me like this, but I am committed to staying on plan.

I didn't make it to the gym today, which was another bummer, but so far I am on track food-wise.

I am going away for the weekend with my girlfriends and I have lots of healthy snacks packed. Wish me luck! I will let you know on Sunday how I did!!

Five days binge free!;)

Karen

I also think the support all week has been phenomenal! On my fifth day of being binge free and I have no intention whatsoever of ruining that tonight! Let's all do our best to stay on track this weekend as well ladies!!

~D~

Hey Ladies..not sure how I didn't see this thread before now..but I want to join if that's okay...I am doing okay the last couple of days..definitely have my times though...also, I have have LOCKED up cereal at my house...horrible it has come to this...my hubby and children all eat it and it MUST be here...so, it had to be locked away from ME and my MOUTH...

so glad you guys understand..so glad I am not alone..what the **** took us this long to come up with this thread idea??????

Christy, Karen, D...so glad to hear you girls have stayed strong! That's some inspiration I need! Today is Day 3 for me. I don't want to binge, but the urge is ever present. Why is that?

Thighs, I totally understand about food that must be in the house, yet must stay away from me. Unfortunately, my family won't lock it up...instead the jar of cookies and plate of pastries is sitting on the counter.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Ok. I want to eat. I need to not eat. I was still hungry and decided to grab a little more to eat before bed - started in and started justifying just bingeing and starting over again tomorrow - NO! I want tomorrow to be day 7, not day 1!!! Channeling all my strength tonight.

IRIS STAY STRONG!!!!!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! Just hold on to that "good, I can do this" feeling. And think about how AWFUL you'll feel if you binge! You're right...be a day 7 not a day 1!!! God grant you strength girlie...I want to hear GOOD news tomorrow!

~D~

Hey guys... I'm sorry to admit that I binged tonight. Not on one thing in particular, but I just kept eating and eating ... no matter what I ate I still felt hungry! I think it was more of a mental hunger than a physical one... I ate almost twice the amount of food I do normally; there's no reason I should have been hungry, but I felt such a strong need to eat...

There's a good side, though: I didn't feel the usual feelings of blankness or disgust (I paid attention to what and how much I was eating); I didn't stuff myself to feeling sick; and I only ate one cookie. There was a whole bin of them, but I didn't feel nearly as strong an urge to eat every single one. Most of the food I overate on was pretty healthy, actually (like edamame).

So even though I ate far more than I needed, and will reset my counter (sigh), I'm still proud to have gotten as far as 5 days. It's also heartening to know that even after just 5 days, my binging habits have changed at least a little. And I'll get right back on track.

Iris, I hope you made it through binge-free ... same for the rest of you. :hug:

Skyra....even though you binged it's actually GOOD that you recognize the differences in the WAY you were bingeing. And pat yourself on the back girl, you made it for 5 days!! We can't expect to stop bingeing cold turkey. But doing these little challenges makes us realize that we CAN go a few days without bingeing and before ya know the span of time between each binge will get longer and longer and finally there will be NO bingeing! So just keep your head in the game girl..you can do it!

~D~

I agree with D, Skyra...it's great that you're recognizing the changes in your bingeing -- I wish I could do the same! And I'm glad to hear you didn't feel disgusted with yourself...there was no reason for you to! You're human and WILL make mistakes...learning from them is the most important part and it seems that you have.

Iris, I hope you had a good night last night!

Today is Day 4. I'm a little stressed out and that's never good for my eating habits, but I can and will control what goes in my mouth! Have a good, binge-free day everyone!

dugserb and foxxy -- thanks so much for the support. :hug: My head is definitely still in the game... weekends are the hardest for me... here's to going today binge-free!!

Hey Ladies. Way to work it for all of us. I am so glad we have this thread.

Doing okay so far. I didn't exercise this morning BUT I cleaned house. I am enjoying some egg whites, brocolli and tomatoes now with some parmasean.

Going out w the hubby today. Babysitter is on her way. I am so glad he supports me on this. He KNOWS when we go out together that my dietary needs are paramount. If we eat he always suggests "safe" places that have good choices for me! I have to also brag here and say that hubby spent the week in NYC. He got to go to Central Park every day! He said it is beautiful and amazing right now--but that it was nothing without me! I am such a lucky gal! It made me want to cry.

Sorry, I had to write it somewhere. Now returning to your regularly scheduled "Just say NO to the BiNgE" thread!!

Aw, Thighs, your DH is so sweet! I hope you have fun on your outing!

Ok....so it's Sat night, towards the end of being binge free for 6 days...and I'm starting to feel a binge coming on. I'm not stressed, I'm not upset/emotional, and I'm not even bored. I bought some nutella yesterday and when I put some on my english muffin awhile ago when I was having dinner I felt like I wanted to eat the whole jar. Just slather it over numberous pieces of bread and gobble it down :-/ Eesh....haven't had this urge all stinkin week. Damn you nutella. I've been doing so good I CAN'T give in. Sucky thing is I know nobody is online now so if I needed a quick pick me up I won't get it. Gotta do this on my own. Let's hope I can....*breathe*

~D~

duqserb, you have done so great all week. You can do this! Can you throw the nutella out the window or something? I can't even have that stuff in my house - too dangerous!

Don't do it! You'll be so disappointed in yourself if you do. Plus it sounds like you thoroughly enjoyed your english muffin with the nutella. The second one never tastes as good as the first. You know that it's just not worth it. If it fits into your plan, you can have another fabulous one tomorrow and thoroughly enjoy that one! Step away from the Nutella! :drill:

Thanks guys! I def don't wanna throw it cuz I just payed $5 for the jar yesterday! I thought I'd get it cheaper at this little italian deli, wrong! I'm basically staying out of the kitchen...even though it's only 10 feet away from me (gotta love dorms). But I think I'll be ok...if I have ANYTHING else tonight it'll be a piece of fruit :-) thanks again tho..I appreciate the support!

~D~

Sooo I just did something a tad bit nutty lol I went into the kitchen to make myself a cup of green tea. While I'm standing there waiting for the water to boil in the microwave I reach into my cabinet grab the jar of nuttella aaaannnndddd scream at it I DON'T NEED YOU!!! Then proceeded to shove it way in the back of cabinet and then I started listing off every reason why I DID need the other stuff in my cabinet...like tuna for my omega 3s and protein...and my kashi cereal and oatmeal for my fiber and to help keep my cholesterol in check ect ect Then I moved to my fridge and did the same thing! Needless to say I walked out of my kitchen feeling empowered! A tad bit crazy..but empowered! lol

~D~

dugserb -- AWESOME!! I think I might try to do that next time food is tempting me. :) I say if it makes you feel empowered, do it!

D ~ that is awesome! I really like the idea of talking down to food you don't need. Like you, I just had this urge to binge. No reason. I'm not all that hungry. I think it's cause I've been writing my thesis all day and it's really starting to wear on me. I just now went downstairs to make some 100 cal popcorn and while it was popping I had a bite of a pastry and about 10 Cheez-its. I was two seconds away from opening the PB when I mentally shook myself, put down the PB, grabbed my popcorn and ran away! I'm under my points for the day, so I don't think those little nibbles put me over. I'm just mad that I can't figure out the reason behind it. Next time, I'll yell at it before I put it in my mouth, haha.

haha I'm glad all you guys liked my strategy. I'm telling ya.....it was pretty awesome lol Just like you wouldn't take crap from a person who was treating you bad or was not good for your health...well you shouldn't have to take any crap from a food group either! That sounds so stupid but I'm sure you know what I mean. It allowed me to REALLY vent my frustration at a moment I was tempted to binge. I suggest all you ladies try it ;-)

~D~

So I survived the nutella last night and actually went to sleep kinda hungry! Which I know isn't good but I had already brushed my teeth and was ready for bed, wasn't about to eat anything then. So then I jumped on the scale this morning and it said 145.8! So now I KNOW that I don't have to count every single calorie...just don't overeat and don't binge and hopefully I'll lose a couple pounds :-)

~D~

hooray dugserb! congrats not eating the nutella and it's good to know you don't have to count every calorie and still lose weight. I'm a little discouraged because I haven't lost weight yet ... but maybe 5 days of non-binging isn't enough to lose any. at any rate, I'm still chugging along and it's good to know other people are too.

I'm going to try and prevent a binge by announcing to you all here and now that I WILL NOT touch the pumpkin pie my mom will be bringing home tomorrow. She home-schools a little girl and they're constantly making pies together and she NEVER leaves them at the little girl's house, but brings them home instead. I asked her not to today but she got all mad and said I have to have self-control and I can't deprive others. Sigh. So, I hope that by making a promise to you girls that I'll actually stick to it. I can't seem to stick to promises I make to myself.

don't do it!

You can do it ! Don't eat the pie! if it gets overwhelming just throw the pie away and tell your mom you didn't have any self control and ate the whole thing! if you keep eating the "whole" thing, she'll probably stop bringing them home

Haha, that's a good idea Lost!

Well, it turned out not to be a pie, but two mini loaves of pumpkin bread and about a dozen pumpkin muffins. I love pumpkin. But, when I came home from a long day of subbing (and I'm famished I might add) I can honestly say the urge to eat them is not great. It's there (I think it will always be), but it's not something I'm dwelling on. Now later tonight might be a different story...

Anyway, I'm going to have some oatmeal and then thankfully I have class tonight so I don't have to look at delicious baked goods until after that.

Sorry I haven't been around - I had a kind of bad weekend and didn't binge EAT but instead DRANK because of something I found out that really upset me. I don't usually do that - alcohol is not my "substance of choice," food is.... but neither is good to such excess.

I just wanted to tell everyone that I made my first appointment with an eating disorder psychologist! I am so happy about this. I also have had a binge the past two nights on cereal! ugh! But I started over today and have made me a healthy scramble with no fat. I used 6 eggs, 2 cups veggies and 2 oz of cheese and this has lasted all day and kept me full! with just 80 calories an egg and eating it through the day i have gotten protein and veggies. Sorry I have been in that funk! I have made it apparent now to stop in atleast once a day, no excuses! love and light to all!!!

christy, I hope your appointment goes well and is helpful for you!
Cereal is a major binge food for me too - I've finally come to terms with the fact that I just can't buy it.

christy, I hope your appointment goes well and is helpful for you!
Cereal is a major binge food for me too - I've finally come to terms with the fact that I just can't buy it.
im not going to eat it anymore either.I have been focusing on healthy foods. I'm going to be going grocery shopping next week to replenish my cabinets. no more boxed processed foods. I want to go whole, like veggies, fruits, multi grains, and proteins of soy, chicken and fish. I was vegetarian but i tend to binge worse that way but however im staying away from red meats.

ugh....i'm lying to myself. Yes I'm not binging all day but what I am doing is eating huge meals at meal time until I feel uncomfortable. I think I need to go to my local Walmart and get toddler plates and bowls and only eat one plate/bowl. I have to look at this through the psychological way. my husband gets paid tomorrow so I am going to go looking then. I'm tired of this feeling.....

I've had a REALLY bad couple of days ladies :-( I had one bad night Monday which led into Tuesday which led into yesterday. I didn't even realize how stressed I'd been because of school until I had eaten 3 peanut butter and honey sandwhiches yesterday. Then at work the chocolate urges took over again. My stomach is so distended and bloated that I can barely fit in my jeans and I physically hurt to the touch. Now I don't even feel like going out for my best friend's bachelorette party on Saturday because I'll paranoid all night about how fat I feel and look. I hate this...I go from 1 week being in the best mood ever then the next week my good mood disappears and here come the binges. If I didn't have 8 hours of class today I'd be curled up in bed watching tv nonstop and not going out in public at all *sigh* I just hope my stomach goes down at least a little bit by Saturday...

~D~

I've had a REALLY bad couple of days ladies :-( I had one bad night Monday which led into Tuesday which led into yesterday. I didn't even realize how stressed I'd been because of school until I had eaten 3 peanut butter and honey sandwhiches yesterday. Then at work the chocolate urges took over again. My stomach is so distended and bloated that I can barely fit in my jeans and I physically hurt to the touch. Now I don't even feel like going out for my best friend's bachelorette party on Saturday because I'll paranoid all night about how fat I feel and look. I hate this...I go from 1 week being in the best mood ever then the next week my good mood disappears and here come the binges. If I didn't have 8 hours of class today I'd be curled up in bed watching tv nonstop and not going out in public at all *sigh* I just hope my stomach goes down at least a little bit by Saturday...

~D~
I understand the feeling of not wanting to be seen.... I actually did not know what bad of shape I was in until a little while ago when it was hard for me to bend over and help change my two year old, I was out of breath! *sigh* The only thing that makes since is to just try again. Just stop at the next meal and start over. I'm sorry I'm not mcu help but I know there has to be light at the end, ya know? *super hugs*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:hug:

D -- I know what you mean. This morning my stomach still felt full and I could barely pull my jeans on. They were uncomfortable all morning. And I was just thinking... "seriously? Did I get myself into this AGAIN? I must look awful."

Unfortunately you can't change what happened, so all you can do is know that your stomach WILL go back down and you can try again. I believe in you! You're one of my biggest inspirations here! :hug:

This is great idea, I'm in! Some afternoons for me are so hard, about once a week. Once I get natural peanut butter on my mind I can't resist. I eat so much ( I mean almost the whole jar)and a half of a half gallon of frozen yogurt with it that I feel sick, in pain and uncomfortable. So, It's been three days now since I did it. I decided not to buy either item anymore! I hope I don't give in.

I had a bad day yesterday.... I binged on chocolate from Halloween! ugh... I love sweets so damn much!

I digged into the halloween candy as well... after I found out that DH lost his job. We don't know what we're going to do.

Then came the cereal, then the cookies. The junk food is all around as I live with 4 men.

Sigh. I really am disgusted with myself.

My roommates are eating Doritos RIGHT NOW next to me... they offered me some and I said no thanks but they're still there... I'm so tempted! someone talk me out of it??

You don't want those Doritos! You want a healthy snack instead! Craving something crunchy and salty? How bout 100 cal popcorn? Find a healthy alternative!

YOU CAN COUNT ME IN 100%!!! I will be here when your having that craving girl look for me...i will support you when can chat from our hair to our toe nails anything and everything...and I will do the same...I have posted my IM so you can always IM me anytime...but dint grab the JUNK FOOD I have dint this befire I am trying to quit the binge eating attack...tooo :D

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So tomorrow I'm starting a healthy fasting. wish me luck!

thanks foxxy! :D

What do you mean by a "healthy fasting" Christy?? Just curious..

~D~

I like where this is going! I definitely need someplace to go OTHER than the vending machine - looks like i found it. Did good today, not so hot yesterday, ready to try again tomorrow.

Skyra - just say NO - you can do it! Those doritos will make you feel like CRAP later.

Stay strong Skyra! We started about at the same time and I understand--the first week wasn't so bad when the resolve was new, but this is getting tough! Stick with me! I need you!
KL
PS Christy: what is healthy fasting? You are making me worried...

welcome nrz242! This is a great place--much better than the vending machines!

Karen -- I need you too! I am managing to control my binges but I'm still eating more food than I need ... overeating instead of binging, if you know what I mean. I know conquering the binges IS a step in the right direction, but sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough and I'm tempted to quit... I'm glad you're here to remind me it's worth fighting for! Stay in this with me :)

I have been SO hungry today and I just haven't been able to feel full at all. So I've eaten a lot, but I've been hungry so it's not a binge. woohoo day 2!

(also in case anyone is wondering -- I RESISTED THE DORITOS! and had salad instead. thanks for the support.)

What do you mean by a "healthy fasting" Christy?? Just curious..

~D~

I am doing mainly V8 Juice/water.
But I do eat.

a day would be like this

B- two hard boiled eggs. black coffee, stivea
S-8 oz V8 Juice
L-Salad or 2 more hard boiled eggs
S-8 oz V8 Juice
D-Baked Chicken breast or Fish, 2 cups of veggies
S-8 oz V8 Juice

water water water all through the day! and if I change a snack it would be like a Medium apple with one string cheese

I have to be cautious because I just found out my Diabetes is back....
But I started today and feel great!
Tonight I'm walking!

Karen -- I need you too! I am managing to control my binges but I'm still eating more food than I need ... overeating instead of binging, if you know what I mean. I know conquering the binges IS a step in the right direction, but sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough and I'm tempted to quit... I'm glad you're here to remind me it's worth fighting for! Stay in this with me :)

I have been SO hungry today and I just haven't been able to feel full at all. So I've eaten a lot, but I've been hungry so it's not a binge. woohoo day 2!

(also in case anyone is wondering -- I RESISTED THE DORITOS! and had salad instead. thanks for the support.)
Boil some eggs! the protein will fill you up! and way to go on not eating the DORITOS!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
:carrot:

ok gotcha Christy...and I hope you're drinking the LOW sodium V8!! Otherwise you're getting way over your daily intake ;-p That might be something I'd have to try...

~D~

christy -- I really don't like eggs... I wish I did, they can be so good for a diet!

Good luck Christy! I drink low sodium V8 juice every morning w/ my breakfast. Only about 4 ounces though because I still think it has too much sodium. Gotta watch that salt!

Chirsty: I am no longer worried--I thought you were not going to eat ANYTHING! Good luck!

Help! The halloween candy is calling my name! It is almost 10pm. I had a snack 30 minutes ago so this is NOT about hunger. I just think I might need a PB cup... (need? lol)

If I let myself have one, will it just be one? The stupid thing is that it won't even taste that good--I know this.

What am I going to do with all this candy!?!?! I can't throw it out, the kids will kill me!

God, I hate these obsessive thoughts! Why can't they go away and leave me alone!!!!!!!:mad::mad::mad:

Karen, don't do it!! One PB cup (at least in my experience) is never just one!!

Eat something healthy instead! Or make tea! WHATEVER IT TAKES.

Karen we can do this!!!! I just posted my own HELP post in the other thread.....we GOTTA be strong girlie....gotta be strong...gotta be strong....gotta be strong. Just keep chanting that to yourself and even scream at the candy if you have to...tell it....I DON'T NEED YOU!!! It worked for me at one point as silly as it sounds lol

~D~

I know this is probably old by now and everyone here is on topof thing but I so am not.
Lost weight about 10 years ago and it has been a constant struggle to keep of.
Now exercise every day but at one point it was twice (how mad was that)but I am also so good most ofthe day then at night I am totally preoccupied with what I am going to eat -so good to know I am not alone .Why on earth does this happen?I am so jealous of my husband who eats his evening meal and goes to bed 4 hours later having not eat another thing.

I know this is probably old by now and everyone here is on topof thing but I so am not.
Lost weight about 10 years ago and it has been a constant struggle to keep of.
Now exercise every day but at one point it was twice (how mad was that)but I am also so good most ofthe day then at night I am totally preoccupied with what I am going to eat -so good to know I am not alone .Why on earth does this happen?I am so jealous of my husband who eats his evening meal and goes to bed 4 hours later having not eat another thing.
we are all here to help/listen. my husband is so tiny! hah! he can eat 3 pizzas and not gain an ounce! ugh....i understand, but, keep your chin up and come back here, there are lots of good folks here to lean on!

fw37, Hi, I know what you mean. I've only been maintaining for 4 mo. and it is a constant struggle. you have been doing it for 10 yrs. That's great! I get hungary every night around 9pm. I grab a few grapes and carrot sticks, it helps alot. Don't give in and keep up the good work!

Thanks for your positive comments-my hubby is lovely but seems to think it is easy to just stop(darn men).He also thinks that I should not worry about my weight-what are they like?Will be back for sure.

fw37, I think men don't take weight loss as seriously as women do. It's not easy to stop! Mine didn't care too much about eating healthy all his life and he never got real heavy from it. Sooo lucky! He found out he had borderline high cholesterol, and the doctor told him he should excersize and watch what he eats, even then he didn't listen. Now a year later he is trying and we take walks together every day. He doesn't think there is anything wrong with the way I was binging and also doesn't care how much I weigh. They just don't care!!

The halloween candy on the counter in our front office had had my undivided attention all afternoon. Three fun sized mm's and a starburst later and I'm begging for help! I wish I could just go out there and toss it all in the bin! Do you think that would be rude? Do you think ppl will get pissed if I do that?

Hi, I'm new, and I'd really like to join this thread. Having read the experiences in this thread, I realized I'm definitely a starve-then-binge girlie. I used to be a starve-and-starve girlie, but then my ex boyfriend would put huge plates of macaroni cheese in front of me for supper, so unsurprisingly I turned into what I am now, which I didn't think was binging, exactly, but... well.

How awful, to be in denial like that... I mean, it makes a lot of sense: I still have leftover anorexic habits but now they're punctuated with the most unbelievable, incredible binges, week-long things. (e.g. I went with my hubs to see his friends in Spain, and I ate so much during that week that they said I could eat more in a meal than the two men combined. Which was true. I could.)

But I just thought it was a lapse in self-control. I didn't label it as "binging". You're witnessing an event here, ladies... I was reading this thread casually, thinking, "I'm not really a binger, but it might be helpful to read," and eating my bologna sandwich, and I suddenly thought, "Man, I don't think one sandwich will be enough, I'm going to eat five of them and I won't be able to stop myself..." This is a normal sort of thought for me, so I tried to deal with it as I normally do: finish the sandwich, park my arse on a seat and not get up for ten minutes until I don't feel the need to eat every single slice of bologna in the world.

You can imagine what happened next: as I was eating, and subsequently parking my rear, I saw the exact same thing in the posts I was reading. And then, "Oh my god I really AM a binger, just not willing to believe it!"

So I guess you'll see me around here sometimes.

lost - My heart just bleeds for you... When reading your posts I felt like crying. You're such a brave person and I just want to give you a hug! Hang in there.

Nenu, I hear ya, I realized I was a binger only after a few months. So I'm trying to cure the problem now before it gets worse. 3fc really has helped me get past it, I'm binge free for 3 days now. Just remember it's never to late to try and stop, tomarrow is a new day!

fruitlady - For years and years I just labeled it, "a lack of self control", or "disordered eating" or something that was a general label for a very specific issue. But now that I think of it, it really is the sole reason I'm now ~172 lbs rather than 110, like I was during my teenage years. I'm not a junk food junkie; I like it, sure, but my favourite foods are "good" food. I'd much rather have a sandwich made of thick, grainy whole wheat bread, chicken, avocado and homemade mayonnaise than a McDonald's burger, for example. But I'd have nothing to eat all day and then THREE lovely sandwiches, or a lovely sandwich, a big plate of macaroni cheese with homemade cheese sauce and a homemade chocolate lava cake, for example. ALL AT ONCE. Which must be 2500 calories or more.

The reason I came back to the thread so soon is to tell you ladies what happened at dinner tonight.

Today for breakfast and for a late lunch I ate a bologna sandwich with light bologna, fat free cheese, light mayo and light bread. (I don't know the calorie count but they're 4 WW pts each.) Tonight we went to dinner at a lovely restaurant which has the most gorgeous, biggest spinach salad in the world. I was very pleased with myself for getting the dressing on the side.

But then I had a bread roll with butter! And then a 3 oz piece of my hubs' steak! And then I wanted dessert! And when my hubs (who had a headache and who wanted to go home) finally vetoed dessert, I meekly asked him if I could get TCBY on the way home! (A child's size is cheap - 2 pts.) And he said, "You'd just be throwing away points. It won't be worth it."

Bless his heart. I don't know if that sounds like a lot of food (which it doesn't when I write it down), but you have to believe me when I say this spinach salad comes on a platter that is larger than my head. It's HUGE. MAMMOTH. If Godzilla were to eat spinach salads, his would be the same size. Bloody ****, if Godzilla WERE a spinach salad, it would be the same size.

All the time the words were coming out of my mouth, I was hoping he would say no. NO, YOU CANNOT EAT MORE. Because I couldn't say no to myself. :(

Edit:
I just realized I didn't even tell you chickies everything I ate for dinner... I also had 1 dinner roll, about 1 tsp of the whipped butter, and I polished off my husband's cooked spinach from his plate when he was done! I didn't even remember I'd had those things.

Does anyone else get this? The memory-wipe afterwards?

At least yor husband seems to be trying to help-mine(although is very sweet ) doesnt really see a problem.Have to admit this is probably because I hide a lot of itt so well.

Mango 30 I sometimes get that prob when people bring goodies to work and leave then lying about-its awful I end up not being able to concentrate.I am determind to stop it though not really because of my weight which is ok but I am so so sos sick of it filling my thoughts.KEEP POSITIVE Mango

Hi Nenu, The huge spinach salad sounds good! I love it. You could have ordered something alot worse than that. Give your self some credit! I'm the same, I would rather eat healthy foods than junk also, because I just love the flavor much more. But you also can gain weight from too much healthy food also, more than your body needs. Cows get fat on grass! Keep trying, don't give up!

So they called me from school and I had to go pick up my son. He's coughing his head off and I got him an appt. for this afternoon. So, what do I want to do right now? That's right. EAT. Going to take a shower now and I hope I can white knuckle my way through.

Wardhog dont doit keep strong.

Don't do it! If you have to munch on something, choose veggies!

Wow! I thought I was the only one who liked to binge in hiding. I have always had a problem with my weight and binge eating. When I was a teenager I went as far as buying a small refrig and putting it in my room to store my own little goodies so no one else would get them. I'm now at the point where I HAVE to do something. I'm getting married in June of 2010 and refuse to be one of those huge brides with back fat and a double chin in my pictures. I want to be proud of them and show them off. Sooo I'm determined! But it is still so hard. I've been on my diet now for 2 weeks and I'll do so good for a few days and then BOOM! I found myself making chocolate chip cookies after my fiance' had gone to bed. I need help!!! I must say though, I did really good yesterday and didn't binge at all. And I had lost a pound this morning! That makes it so worth it...but it's hard to resist the urge when it hits you cause you don't think about that one pound loss when all you can focus on is devouring the bag of chips...lol

mslrb, Hi! I know where your coming from. I'm on day 4 of the binge free challenge. I have learned to talk myself out of a binge. Just think how rewarding it is to lose just one pound, and say to your self " No food tastes as good as thin feels" and how gaining is not worth the binge. Which is isn't! Good luck!

Fruitlady, Im sure tryin! This is my second day binge-free....so far. If I can just make it through tonight lol..night's are always worst for me. Hopefully I can make it and lose another pound by tomorrow. I'll let ya know how I do :D

Did okay so far today ladies. Went to a buffet (a yummy, mostly healthy) one and made great choices. I got dessert too--two small bites.

Did my four mile run this morning and walked 2.5 miles this afternoon.

good for u Thighs!! I know it can be tough going to a buffet and not gorging so props to u! Keep it up :)

mslrb, yes, please let me know how you do. I know nights are hard, if you have to eat something try baby carrots or grapes. They don't seem to do as much damage. As the days go by the urges to binge get better I think. Good luck, you can do it!

fruitlady, i eat a small apple when the urge comes. im on a diet called hcg so cant have carrots or grapes

Hi All!

I'm very new but I just wanted to say how comforting it is to know that others feel the same way I do when it comes to food. I turn to food a lot when I am stressed out which has been happening on and off for a couple years. I totally can relate to what others are saying and know how frustrating it can be! I hate the feelings that drive me to binge, coupled with how awful I feel after. I think this thread is a great idea and I will look to it when I'm in need.

Good luck to everyone!!

and good luck to u too dreamer!

I am so glad I found this thread! I have a HUGE issues with compulsive binging. I eat so much and then, I can't even remember half of what I ate. :?:

I can be good all day and then, at night, I have these urges and if I ever give in to those urges, my binges can last days, weeks, or even months. This happened to me one year ago. I was about 3 lbs. away from my goal and looking mighty fine. Then, I started to binge. It went on and on and it was like I was on a mission to destroy myself with food. Nothing tasted good enough. I would eat something (in secret, of course) and I would feel like I could do better and then I would stop, but that day never came. I gained about 70 lbs. in about 8 months time. :o

Now, I'm on a mission to lose the weight. I thought I had it under control, but then, I got sick...body aches and major weakness. I ended up eating everythign I could get my hands on and this went on for four days. It was a combo of being sick and also having plataued with my weight for over a month. I ate tons of my kids Halloween candy too. It's just a horrible and exciting feeling all at once.

Now, since Monday, I've been working my butt off :carrot: trying to undo the damage. I can't go back because I don't see an end to it. I can totally see how someone can become so obese that they cannot get out of bed.

Now, I want to eat again...which is why I'm here now. I'm chewing gum like it's the last piece on Earth. ;) I would love to go to sleep, but my husband is on a business call and it's quite loud. I'm just here because I can tell you all understand the disease that this is. Unless someone has this problem, they just don't get it. Not all overweight people have this intense addiction to food. When my cravings are severe enough, I can't even think straight and I"m not even sure if I'll remember this thread.....I hope I do.

Thanks so much for being here.

hi luckymommy. :hug:

We're here for you. I'm glad you found us!

I feel so lucky to be here. :hug:

Hi luckymommy, Welcome, this thread has helped me alot with binging and it will help you too. This is something that our families just don't seem to understand. You can do it!

Thanks fruitlady!!! It already helped me last night! :) :) :)

luckymommy, That's great to hear! Keep going strong!

we're all here for u luckymommy! i know exactly where you're coming from. sometimes my cravings are so intense i can't focus on anything else. im now on my 3rd binge-free day though :)...it hasn't been without cravings though!! when i get them i try to distract myself with something, such as cleaning or looking at stuff online. Just got to take one day at a time. Each day binge-free is a sucess! And makes you feel so proud of yourself. It's so nice to feel good about yourself and realize that you can control it if you just set your mind to it. That doesn't mean you won't have days when you slip up and fall off the wagon but the key is when that happens just realize you made a mistake and get back on the wagon. Don't let it drag you down and pull you back under. We're all here to support each other. With help we will succeed! :)

mslrb, I agree with you 100% Having people you can talk to that have this in common and understand what you are going through really makes a difference!

I did good today. For breakfast I only had One chocolate almond biscotti with coffee and stevia. Then lunch I had a kashi curry with 2 light tofu smart dogs. Snack was a small gala apple and 2tbsp of peanut butter. For dinner is will be spaghetti squash and pasta sauce and dessert will be sugar free jello and a sliced bananna.

I have a mini goal of being binge free until my Anniversary of 7 years on the 19th, then I'll do another mini goal and reward myself!

I binged yesterday and felt so disgusted with myself. I am now starting fresh today, but already had thoughts of doing it again, but I know it's not worth the weight gain. I know i will be thinking about it all day, god, do I have a mental problem?? This isn't normal, is it? please don't let me do it again!!! Help!!

Oh fruitlady, please don't be so hard on yourself!!! We are all here for a similar reason and most of us will get off track from time to time. But, if you can stop being so hard on yourself, you might just let it go and move on to your good habits. You have lost so much already!!! :) Focus in on the big picture and you will be great!

Hi luckymommy, Thanks for your advice, I am always hard on myself when I binge. I know I shouldn't be, but it just comes natural to me, lol

There are very pretty homemade cookies in the lunch area, and I need to go in there to get my afternoon snack out of the fridge. It is not OK for me to have a cookie today - no room in my calories. And after binging last night, I don't think I could eat just one cookie anyway. I'm posting here to stay accountable.

Thank you all just for existing. :hug:

Edited to add: Turns out people loved the cookies, they were all gone when I went in there, except one sad-looking one that wasn't too tempting. Made things easy for me! :)

Hooray mayness! WTG on not eating the cookies. :D

ok so i feel absolutely terrible. me and my fiance' stayed at our weekend house on the river and his parents came out and we cooked....and i binged..not just that day, all 4!!! (i have mondays off) :( i ate a hamburger,beans,chips and dip, fried chicken, cheese toast, cinnamon rolls,cookies,pizza,bread (ugh reading all of that makes me sick!)...,pretty much anything i could get my hands on. i feel so awful. i was doing so good too. why can't i just say no?? i get it in my mind that it will be ok if i just eat a little bit. not like i can gain that much weight. i trick myself into thinking its okay to eat all of that and then i do..and afterwards i come down from my "food-high" and feel so guiltly and bad about myself...why couldn't i have been born skinny and not have to go through this!??!!??! whats worse is that i only have 6 months to lose 80lbs for my wedding. im never gunna reach that goal if i keep slipping up like this :( :( :(

mslrb, It will take lots of willpower to lose that much in a short amount of time. So, keep your goal in your mind at all times. That will help you say no to tempting foods. It's hard to stop eating junky food once you start, so don't even have one bite. I know it's hard, I did it for 14mo. while I was losing the weight and I just convinced myself of how bad these foods were for my health and I eventually i didn't even any them anymore, still don't. To me fatty, cholesterol, too much salt, saturated + trans fat, processed foods are disgusting. Eventually you might feel the same way. Good luck!

mslrb, I feel your pain and frustration. Having this problem absolutely sucks, no doubt. However, what's done is done. Put it behind you and don't dwell on it because that kind of thinking will not serve you well. You can't change the past anyway. What you can do is plan ahead. Think of it as a lesson to be learned. How can you do things differently the next time you go away? For me, any change in my normal routine has to be really thought out. For instance, I went away this weekend too, but I decided that all my meals will be veggies with chicken or shrimp on top. Dressing on the side to dip my fork in. I will exercise X amount of minutes doing this, that and the other. The key is to have a plan. I did plan on having some frozen yogurt and I did have it twice, but only a tiny bit and mostly with fruit inside. I've been where you're at plenty o times. I know exactly how you feel. Just move on and do better next time.

Another thing I want to mention: I have a VERY hard time not binging when I go to my parents house. I hardly ever go there for that very reason. Sad, but true. It's a trigger for me for some reason. I started binging when I was still living with my parents and I did it alone when nobody could notice. It was the beginning of the mess I'm in right now. If you know this place is a trigger, try to plan, plan, plan and if nothing helps, then I say avoid it if you can.

Hugs to you.

I am so glad this thread is here! Right now I want to EAT, I blame the biscotti I bought I had on after dinner and now I want another one(or maybe 3 more) It's hours before bed time. ACK! I'm super annoyed, I just want to eat and honestly, I'm sad that I can't :-( But I won't I'm at 1400 calories for the day so I just simply can't eat. Boy am I glad this thread is here!

Mikayla -- don't do it! You don't need that biscotti and you sure don't need the extra calories! Chew some gum or drink some tea instead.

:hug: looking forward to hearing good news at the end of the night!

Mikayla...I'm thinking about you too. It is SO hard at night, when we've hit our calorie limit. All I can say is kudos to you for counting calories...it's one of the best ways to stay accountable. Try to distract yourself by doing something you love..something that relaxes you....sometimes, I find some great songs on youtube that I used to rock out to when I was a teenager and I put them on and dance around and if the kids are asleep, I just watch the videos, even look up the lyrics. I also look up weight loss success stories online. Just hang in there...think of how proud you'll feel when you wake up tomorrow and you didn't have those extra items! On the flip side, remember the horrible feeling of waking up after eating too much. I also can't wait to hear good things about what you did tonight! :)

nnngh... I'm not tempted to binge, exactly, but I'm up to 1500 calories already today and I am so tempted to snack... even though I'm not hungry. I've chewed gum and drunk coffee but the urge is still there. I had SUCH a great workout, I don't want to sabotage it. Could somebody be so kind as to talk me off this ledge I'm standing on?

I have been locked away... In Binge ****... One eating episode turned into a weeks worth of cramming! I just kept going and going.... I'm trying to get back on track today, God willing. My blood pressure is out of whack! And right now, even as I'm typing this, I want to consume large amounts of food!

christy -- you're here now, that's always a good sign, that means you have a lot of support and for me at least that's half the battle :)

thinking of you. you CAN eat healthy today! i'm rooting for you!

Christy- I was in your same position last weekend. I know you can pick yourself up and dust yourself off. I am sending lots of hugs and happy, positive thoughts in your direction! :)

Today is SUCH a hungry day for me. I've had a protein shake (which usually fills me right up--not today!) and tons of vegetables and fiber, but I'm still ravenous. And there's half a cake downstairs... good news is that I don't feel particularly tempted to eat the cake. Yet. For now I'm just drinking water and hoping the hunger will pass so that I'm not tempted to eat and eat and eat.

I feel pretty committed now to this weight-loss thing. This is day 7 binge-free for me, which is a definite breakthrough. Just need to keep holding on...

hey thats awesome skyra hang in there i know you can make it just like that fih says in finding nemo just keep swimming just keep swimming lol sorry i forgot her name...i wish i had you rwill power i collapsed yesterday and binged all day...am starting new today tried to log in but no luck last night...but good for you... :)

This is awesome! I have had a problem with binge eating for years. It started about 6 years ago and just seemed to get worse and worse until I looked up and realized I packed on about 80 lbs by doing this. I have kept it under control for about a week. I had a weak moment in the store yesterday while a rack of candy was staring me in the face. Normally, I would have bought several items and eaten them all in the car on the way home. However, I somehow only walked out with a 3 musketeers. It still isn't great but I figured it was better than what I normally would have done. I'm so happy I found this! I know it will be such an inspiration for me!

cabinwife -- good for you! Glad you found us. :hug: And you're right, the 3 Musketeers wasn't perfect but you did BETTER and what matters is that you're steadily improving. Baby steps and all that. :)

Wow what a great thread or post or whatever you call it! There have been so many times that I want 2 eat! Actually right now! I eat every 2 hours (thank God) Eating every two hours is really helping me understand my relationship with food. Thanks 4 starting this... Cathy

Ack! So I had some pasta and meatballs last night (though it was whole wheat pasta) - and I had a slice of pizza. I figured I was ok because I was still at 1800 calories for the day (I'm fairly tall so I can still lose at that); HOWEVER, this morning I feel RAVENOUS. I am intensely craving a cheese scone which I am sure is like 600 calories. And more pasta and meatballs. And bread. And cheese.

I've had some coffee, and I even went down to the gym to try to work out (which usually curbs the cravings). I could only last 5 minutes on the stairmaster though (usually I work out in the afternoons, so I don't think my body has taken to it in the morning). I have to go to the library today because I need to work on an assignment due tomorrow which has got me stressed. WHAT SHOULD I DO? I intensely feel like binging. I'm thinking of incorporating a cheat day in my plan, most likely Saturday, to help me starve off these feelings, but I'm not a fan of the idea.

Should I just ignore my cravings? I'm hoping they'll go away, but they just feel to be getting stronger. ACK! Or should I indulge them just a bit? This is day 10 of my plan and I don't want to ruin all my hard work. :(

Mouse -- in your current state of mind, "just a little bit" will almost definitely turn into a binge. Drink a lot of water or tea, chew gum. If you're hungry, by all means eat, but if you're not, focus your attention on something else and know that if you continue to resist the cravings, they WILL go away. They don't last forever.

10 days is AWESOME and I'm proud of you. :hug: You are strong enough to make it to day 11. Hang in there and post again if you need to.

BTW, at least in my experience, "cheat days" don't stave off binges -- they make them worse. I get into a "oh, but it's a cheat day, I can eat a pint of ice cream AND half a pizza!" mode. And then the next day it's near impossible to go back to eating 1500 calories. Besides, in one "cheat day" I can easily destroy the work of 3 or 4 days of watching my calories, so it's just not worth it, at least for me. Do what you feel is best, but since you don't seem like a big fan of the idea anyway...

Aw Skyra, thank you for the response. Unfortunately, I went for it. I had some more pasta and meatballs, about six cookies, and then I went to Subway and had one of their disgusting flatbread melts (seriously, I normally wouldn't WANT to put crap like that into my body). I'm figuring all of this comes to 1500 calories EASILY.

I think the cravings are subdued for now and I want to get back on track for the rest of the day. My only concern is that I'm a bit of a carb addict, and by giving myself another hit I am just fuelling the addiction. (Literally: I saw a video from ABC news yesterday that talked about a study which showed the MRIs of a food addict as compared to other addicts - smokers, drug abusers, alcholics - and the same regions of the brain were affected by all groups when presented with their substance of choice.)

I know the key to losing weight is consistency. I have lost weight before, at least twice, where I was able to stick to my eating plan for over two months (I have never come close to goal, however - I think my best attempt was my first: two years ago, when I made 145). BUT THEN SOMETIMES SOMETHING COMES OVER ME AND I FEEL LIKE I JUST CAN'T DO IT ANY MORE, that it's not worth it (haha, sorry for the all caps, but that's just how all-consuming the urge feels).

How long would you say it takes for the cravings to go away if you resist them? I waited for almost two hours ... haha ... and then I couldn't take it anymore.

I guess I will just pick up and try again.

So, I am working on day 3 here. But it's my birthday and my (food pusher) Mom just brought over cupcakes. I can't trash them because the kids already saw them. :sigh:

Mouse -- oh man, this is not going to sound heartening, but I'll be honest. The time it takes for cravings to go away can vary. I read once in a dieting book that most food cravings disappear within about 5 minutes. (Of course, I read that and thought, "WHAT?! That's not true at all!" But maybe that IS true for most people? I'm not sure.) Sometimes my cravings ARE only temporary, so as much as I can I try to chew gum and do something else in the hopes it'll go away quickly. But then there was one day where my roommate made a cake and I craved that cake for 7 straight hours. Sometimes all you can do is go to bed and try again the next day -- I find that whenever I wake up my cravings have stopped. I feel sick if I eat anything unhealthy in the morning so starting with a healthy breakfast can help get me back in the right mindset.

:hug: I'm sorry you caved in, but I understand. I've done the same thing. All you can do now is try again. And you're right, consistency IS the key. You CAN lose the weight this time! We're here to support you!

Haha, WardHog - ironically they were giving out free cupcakes on campus yesterday, but I resisted ... (haha, but of course I screwed it up later - but still, I was proud about that, because usually they get me every time - so it can be done!).

Skyra - seven hours? Yuck. I think I've had the same experience more than once (and I have a hard time going to bed hungry, I just can't sleep -- so lately I've been eating a banana every night before I go to bed to help me sleep. It has actually worked well so far.)

I'm a little surprised that I binged like that today -- I slept really well last night, and have been eating well except really for the pizza last night. I think maybe the stress of school has been doing me in. However, I'm not going to do a cheat day, for the reasons you mentioned before, I will just continue to stick with my plan (which is healthy and working for me so far).

Consistency is key -- but I've been struggling with this (how do you keep going when the motivation's not there? I guess you just do). I'm young (21), and even at my high weight I am 160, so I'm hoping I can "retrain" my body and this won't be as hard to keep up in the future.

Thank you for the support! It is much needed + appreciated! :D

BTW, at least in my experience, "cheat days" don't stave off binges -- they make them worse. least for me.

Isn't that the truth...I don't think I ever thought of it that way... when I cave into a temptation... what does it really do... do I actually feel better?

H. E. double hockey sticks NO! Thanks Skyra for the light bulb moment!

Cathy :)

You're welcome Cathy! I do what I can. ;)

Mouse -- bananas are great snacks. :) I eat them at night when I'm hungry too. And as for getting motivation ... you're right, the motivation isn't always there. I think everybody has their non-motivated days. A couple things that help me are a) posting something on the forums (reading success stories, or checking in with other people who struggle with binging, are particularly motivating for me) or b) looking at myself in the mirror (naked!) and saying to myself, "Do you want this to be the best you ever look? Do you want this to be the healthiest you ever are?" (A resounding no, of course.)

(PS. I'm young too, 22, and I've never been fit or particularly healthy, so I'm hoping I can retrain my body too and that maintaining will be easier than losing. We'll have to see how it works out.)

Hey all, new to this place. Been doing good for two weeks on my own, had an overwhelming urge to binge today. Not a huge one, but one nevertheless. Now i know about this thread, I will check in here before i hit the fridge. Thanks.

Kiwi2cute

I really wanna binge right now. I know that if I do, I'll feel horrible in the morning. A combo of PMS, severe migraine head ache pain and having the kids here on Thanksgiving vacation is making me weak. I feel like eating so many things. I wanna go to the fridge and go crazy, but I"m trying really hard not to. I'm watching The Biggest Loser so that's helping too. I'm really hoping that typing this here will help me stay focused on my goal. Thanks for listening. By the way, this is a step up for me because normally, I don't even think straight to come and post.

I didn't binge last night! I realized that I still had some calories left, so I ate half of a Pomello (it's like a grapefruit) and that helped me with that terrible urge to binge. I got on the scale this morning and I was down another pound! Yippeeee!!!!

luckymommy, how did last night work out for you? :hug:

I know that when I'm feeling sick/weak/worn out I tend to get that urge to binge. It makes sense in a way, biologically - my body feels weak, it thinks I might be hungry, and I start thinking about food because that will "fix it." But if the weakness is from other things, food WON'T fix it... maybe I'll get an hour or so of a sugar rush, but the next day I'll feel even worse. What you did yesterday, identifying the reasons you want to binge, is usually helpful - thoughts are more reliable than feelings, and knowing logically that I don't NEED more food can help me deal with FEELING like I do.

LuckyMommy, You made a wise decision and it paid off didn't it? You lost a pound. Now next time you want to binge, do the same thing. Great job!

Thanks Mayness and fruitlady! I'm here again because I want to binge yet again. It sucks to be back in the struggle so soon. Just a few short minutes ago, I was fine! I was proud! But now, my husband has put together some left overs from Thanksgiving and I want to make myself a huge plate of food too. I didn't even eat the best parts (which I won't mention, since it might make readers want those things). Now, I'm feeling like I want it, I want it, I WANT IT!!!! Ahhhh!!!! Ok, hopefully, typing this will give me some accountability. Just when I think I have things more or less under control, I'm finding myself back at square one: the struggle square. The turmoil square. The longing square. Ok, enough whining! Sorry! ;)

Don't apologize...Support is what the forum is for. I'm also here tonight because I wanted another plate. Holidays are emotional times for good reasons as well as less pleasant ones, and it's hard to watch others indulging when it almost feels Scrooge-like to try to maintain control. Even if you slipped after you posted, that doesn't mean you have to slip again. Look how far you have already come! You are an inspiration to me. I know you can make it to your goal! :hug:

Luckymommy, Fight it with all your might! Remember, nothing tastes as good as thin feels!

Thanks K8t and fruitlady! I have found this board to be a life line. There is nobody I can call or that understands how this feels. Luckily, I went to sleep after that post and I didn't give in. It's the first thing that popped into my brain this morning when I woke up: I didn't binge! :) Yes, it could have easily gone the other way, but it didn't. I'm not sure that would have been the case had I not come on this board. Thank you so much!!!

:cheer3::cheer2:YEAH!!!!!:cheer3::cheer2:

Good for you, luckymom!!!!

That's great luckymommy!!!

wow luckymommy. My binge triggers have been running rampant. I am on my period. Stress with relationship. Stress with school. Migraine headaches. I don't know why I think eating will help with that god awful pain, I just get sick to my stomach....

you did great. I need this thread. I needed it LAST NIGHT. oh well, there's no rewind button. Just keep pressing on.

Hi everyone :) wow, as horrible as it sounds I'm glad there are other people out there that have the same problem I do. It's less harsh feeling not so alone about it. I binge. I eat compulsively, to celebrate, to fill a possible void, to get rid of boredom. I'm learning ever so slowly in my heart (because in my head I already know this) that eating more never solves a problem. It makes my problem bigger. I work at night, my husband works during the day. So I have a lot of opportunities to hide overeating. Even then I eat at home and when I go to work I am absolutely surrounded by candybars (we have a snack food fund), things people bring in, the Holidays are here. I know I have to be extra dilligent but it is just so hard. I feel like I have no excuse to let my guard down because I know if I do I go overboard...or if I do and say, "ooooh it's just one day", I might just do it again later that week. I've done it about 3 times this week. I'm not as cruel to myself as I used to be, I used to punish myself with food thinking I deserved nothing better so I'd keep on eating. I've discovered I don't have just one trigger food. It is also impossible for me to keep only healthy food in the house. My husband (who has the metabolism of a horse) doesn't have the same problem I do and I could never ask him to get rid of everything just for me. I've also learned to control it a little bit on a day to day basis...but if my friend offers me something it is soooo hard to say no. I know I know, I should tell people not to offer me things. I just need to vent a little. I didn't used to be obsessed with food. I'm getting better but what I really want is to lose ten pounds. I'm not overweight but I would really feel a lot better about myself if I had a little less jiggle. Plus I feel like it would help me learn how to control myself. Knowing I can do that would just help soooo much. At the same time I know it will be me and know one and nothing else pulling myself out of this vicious cycle of losing a pound or two by eating right/exercise for a few days, and then overeating it back on. Each time I do it I want to give up. I don't want to get as bad as I was before where food was my heaven and my ****. Hopefully this forum will help. I feel inspired when I read everyone's posts :) I'm not alone. The darkness is a little less dark.

Welcome Laeah. :hug: Yes -- you're not alone. Glad to have you here.

Skyra

I'm having a binge emergency :(

I've been doing SO well on my diet for 3 weeks. Honestly, my cravings haven't been too bad, I've been filling up on smaller portions, and I've just been truckin' along.

But for some reason, today has been hard. I've been studying for tests all day (finals are coming up). Before, I would always let myself munch on the worst foods during studying. My thought process was "I'm doing a really boring and un-fun activity...might as well make it more enjoyable with a Snickers bar or 3." Well I'm having those same feelings, but somehow celery and carrots just aren't as enjoyable as junk. I've felt the craving for some garbage brewing all day.

I keep going to my cupboards and fridge thinking "Alright, I've been good, time to give myself a treat." But I know that if I start with that, it will just snowball into a big nasty binge. I HAVE been good on my diet, but I do NOT want to set back my progress. Fortunately, I tossed most of the unhealthy junk snacks. Bingeing on celery and carrots can't be that bad, lol.

Ugh, somebody snap me out of it!

Mkendrick, I'm glad you came here and posted. Oh, I so get what you are saying, but you have successfully lost 8 pounds and been following your diet for 3 weeks. The urge to binge will disappear, but those calories won't if you give in! It's not worth it.

Did you know that sugar slows down our ability to process things mentally after the sugar high leads to a sugar low? Then you will just feel like you need another hit to be able to focus. You will be hurting your studying efforts if you give in to that old habit. Have yourself a piece of fruit with a nice big glass of water if you are feeling the need for something sweet!

What's a treat you can give yourself when you are done studying that doesn't have calories attached to it. A bubble bath, a sappy movie, a moonlight walk? Come'on, you can do it!

I'm having a binge emergency :(

I've been doing SO well on my diet for 3 weeks. Honestly, my cravings haven't been too bad, I've been filling up on smaller portions, and I've just been truckin' along.

But for some reason, today has been hard. I've been studying for tests all day (finals are coming up). Before, I would always let myself munch on the worst foods during studying. My thought process was "I'm doing a really boring and un-fun activity...might as well make it more enjoyable with a Snickers bar or 3." Well I'm having those same feelings, but somehow celery and carrots just aren't as enjoyable as junk. I've felt the craving for some garbage brewing all day.

I keep going to my cupboards and fridge thinking "Alright, I've been good, time to give myself a treat." But I know that if I start with that, it will just snowball into a big nasty binge. I HAVE been good on my diet, but I do NOT want to set back my progress. Fortunately, I tossed most of the unhealthy junk snacks. Bingeing on celery and carrots can't be that bad, lol.

Ugh, somebody snap me out of it!

For next time you feel this way don't do it! Stop yourself! Remember that eating that candybar/junk will only feel good until you swallow it and after that the guilt will swallow you. If you absolutely have to keep your mouth busy get some fruity gum. I know people say diet soda is not good for you but it's the lesser of two evils and can feel like you're indulging if you don't mind the taste. Good job on choosing carrots and celery though :D. Although I hope you don't truly binge on them...that sounds like a nasty tummy ache hehe.

Thanks for the replies guys :)

Just saying "hey, I'm having a binge emergency" helps to put it in perspective.

I did NOT binge or break my diet, and I don't plan to for the rest of the night (or ever, but one step at a time...). And that does feel good, I feel in control.

I had a quarter of a cucumber sliced up instead. Cool, refreshing, and tasty. Who needs ice cream anyways ;)

Woo Hoo... Three cheers for you! :carrot::carrot::carrot:

You can count me in too!!! Right now, I am reading a book called 'Life is Hard..Food is Easy'. I have been struggling with this crap for 47 years and I am sick, sick, sick of it!!! I'm sitting in my cubicle at work eating some healthy soup that I made, but right outside my cubicle is a French Silk Pie that I am fighting with. Everyone is having a piece to celebrate my co-workers birthday. I know that one piece will throw me off for the rest of the day!! It's like if I have one slip, I blow it for the rest of the day and eat totally out of control. We need to help each other!!!

justbeu, when you see your coworkers eating the pie, don't imagine how good it tastes, imagine their butts getting bigger with each bite, haha. Good thing you're not eating it! Hehe

I'm struggling. I have been since thanksgiving. I knew it was going to trigger me. I overate both on thanksgiving and the whole weekend that followed. On Sunday I stepped on the scale and it said 195 lbs, a gain of 6 lbs. I know most of it was poo in my colon, and water retention from a lot of salty foods, but still, it scared the **** out of me since it took me 5 weeks to lose 5 lbs before that. So, on Monday I stopped eating, I slipped once and had some pizza, then purged it because I made myself feel so bad about having had eaten it. Then yesterday I ate nothing, but drank two beers and had some creamer in my coffee. Today, I've had a latte, a bottle of diet coke and a coffee and its after 5pm and I cannot bring myself to EAT anything until I know I've lost that 6 lbs I gained. Its, like, literally become neurotic. Help!

mkendrick -- I LOVE your idea! haha. today at the store my roommate bought an Icee, and I really wanted it... but those things are 100% sugar... so I bought some flavored water instead and looked at her and imagined her butt getting bigger as she drank it! :lol:

Mango, you have to eat sensibly or your body will rebel and make it harder for you to lose the weight. The 6 pounds will come off. You have still lost a lot of weight, even if you gained six pounds. Keep making healthy choices! Skip the beer, creamer, diet soda, and latte. They give your body little in the way of nutrients and can all trigger binges. Come'on girl... What you are doing isn't going to get you where you want to go!

I don't usually go on this site from home, but I'm having a binge emergency.

We drove down to the Verizon store to try to take care of a cell phone issue and the entire national Verizon computer system is down. And then on the drive back, my husband and I got in a bit of an argument... making me feel like complete crap. We've got a friend visiting so we both agreed, for his sake, to put all the grumpiness aside before we walked back through our front door... but that just means I'm holding in the frustration, trying to resist the urge to bury it in peanut butter until it shuts up.

I'm going to take some "me time" to cut my nails, maybe even paint them, and listen to some dance music. Then, I'll go back and hang out with the boys and watch TV or play video games or whatever.

I've technically still got 100 calories or so to use tonight... I've done really well today, even making myself a healthy vegan dinner while the guys ate my favorite boneless chicken wings. But I'm not gonna risk it until I know I'm in control and I'll be able to STOP eating if I start.

Mayness, you're doing the absolute right thing....coming here for support, distracting yourself and comforting yourself with fun activities that don't include food and you still have that 100 calories to do with as you like. Just hang in there. Close your eyes and visualize yourself stepping on the scale in the morning and see it go down after you resisted your urge for what your body doesn't need. Binging never helps make things better. You and your husband will work things out, but this food thing is between you and your food. Can you do some push ups and crunches? Those help me get out frustration...also, there's the plank position, which is torture for me, but it gets my mind of things. Hang in there..I KNOW you can do it!!!!!

Ditto what luckymommy said. Thinking of you. Hang in there!

Mayness, good for you for making a constructive plan for dealing with your stress. Sending you some positive "thin thoughts" tonight.

I have been away for a long time.... I was in and currently in a downward spiral of self medicating through food and self abuse. Where I'm going with my life is...somewhat a blank canvas.... I have ate and ate so much and so long that I felt like just eating myself to death, giving up completely... But One good thing is that I just started therapy, Seeing a Psych doctor and getting on Medication. My doctor has refered me to a local treatment center here in asheville. I feel so sad, I worked so hard to loose over a 100lbs then I quit smoking and put on weight and just kept going... But I wanted to post on why I have been away for so long... I want to start over, But is there hope once you get to 370lbs again???

Thank you so much ladies! :hug: It ended up being a good night... I did use those 100 calories on crap (sugar free hot chocolate, a mini candy cane, and a Jell-o mousse temptations thing) but I was under my limit. I was sleepy so I went to bed by 11pm, which helped, haha.

And this morning I was down a pound! :dizzy: Probably still losing water weight from the Thanksgiving weekend. It really helped knowing that there were people out there supporting me. :)

christymourning, welcome back and of course there is hope. You are a winner experiencing a setback. I am very sorry for your pain and what you are going through, but congratulate you on getting help. Even at 370, you are still 100 lbs lighter than before. I'm sorry you have regained 22 pounds, but don't lose sight of the huge amount you have already lost. In addition to that, you have quit smoking which is another healthy choice. Good for you....You can beat this!

christymourning,

Thank you for sharing what you're experiencing. It has prompted me to post here tonight instead of running out and pushing down my misery with some artery-choking "comfort" foods. I have had a nasty bout of depression creep into my day, building over the last few weeks. I feel like I could have written your message over my own name.

From your words, I read so much of what you've accomplished and it helps me. You already demonstrate "hope" because you:

1) Realized that you were using food as medication for feelings
2) You are taking positive action through recommended therapy
3) You quit smoking!
4) You've already released 100 pounds
5) You posted here and have helped at least one other person (me!)

My suggestion: Forget, for right now, "370lbs." It's a scale reading; You are not a number. I believe you can move beyond these feelings that are pulling you down because you wrote this:
"But I wanted to post on why I have been away for so long... I want to start over,"

I've got a bunch of things to sort out and want to start over too.
I love second chances!
I'm picking up that "do-over card" and running with it.

Thank you again for your message. It helped turn me right around.
We can do this, christymourning:hug:

Jean

christymourning,

Thank you for sharing what you're experiencing. It has prompted me to post here tonight instead of running out and pushing down my misery with some artery-choking "comfort" foods. I have had a nasty bout of depression creep into my day, building over the last few weeks. I feel like I could have written your message over my own name.

From your words, I read so much of what you've accomplished and it helps me. You already demonstrate "hope" because you:

1) Realized that you were using food as medication for feelings
2) You are taking positive action through recommended therapy
3) You quit smoking!
4) You've already released 100 pounds
5) You posted here and have helped at least one other person (me!)

My suggestion: Forget, for right now, "370lbs." It's a scale reading; You are not a number. I believe you can move beyond these feelings that are pulling you down because you wrote this:
"But I wanted to post on why I have been away for so long... I want to start over,"

I've got a bunch of things to sort out and want to start over too.
I love second chances!
I'm picking up that "do-over card" and running with it.

Thank you again for your message. It helped turn me right around.
We can do this, christymourning:hug:

Jean

Thank you. Thank you so very much, I am crying.... I know I am worth it we are all worth it and by god, I will wake up in the morning and start my healthy life instead of diet. I will do this. I must do this. Everyone here has been so kind and I believe still that we should form a convention one day and have a meet up! hahaha... I will kick myself in the arse and get going again. And I'm sorry I didnt respond to your im, I was laying down putting my 5 month old son to bed dear<33333

Christymourning, you can definitely do this! You definitely know how as you have already demonstrated. I firmly believe that almost every person who reaches their goal has some set backs. It sounds like you're being kind to yourself....a lot of times we beat ourselves up to a pulp because we are our own worst critics. However, we (that includes me) must not do so because we are human and we all have challenges. The key is to forgive yourself and look forward....when you do look back, do so with pride, for to me, you are an absolute winner and an inspiration.

Christymourning, you can definitely do this! You definitely know how as you have already demonstrated. I firmly believe that almost every person who reaches their goal has some set backs. It sounds like you're being kind to yourself....a lot of times we beat ourselves up to a pulp because we are our own worst critics. However, we (that includes me) must not do so because we are human and we all have challenges. The key is to forgive yourself and look forward....when you do look back, do so with pride, for to me, you are an absolute winner and an inspiration.

Thank you so very kindly. I honestly am going to try my hardest on my own road to freedom. I know that there will always be days and times when I might slip but what I have learned is I can always get back up, brush the dirt off and go back to kicking butt! I started a new ticker today and I am cheering for my life back! Thanks again for your kind words!:hug:

Now THAT's what I'm talkin' about! Way to go, christymourning! :carrot:

We're gonna get this done!

Hugs,
Jean

ps: No apologies about the IM; Just wanted you to know I care! :hug:

The one thing to remember for today. "I control food, Food does not control me".

Entering my food intake on Myfitnesspal! This morning started off with a cup of Kashi heart to heart oat flakes with blueberry clusters 200cal and 1 cup of smart balance 1 percent lowfat milk 140cal. Now time to do some moving!

Yeah, Christymourning!

Christymourning, we're all here for one another and thank you for your hugs. It is SO awesome that you started the day off so mindfully! You are going to do incredibly well! Reading that you started off so great made my day! Wooohooo!!!!! :) :) :)

if anyone is interested im starting a challange!

http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/chicks-up-challenge/187785-commitment-bootcamp.html#post3039697

I've come to this thread as my "safe room" in the midst of an office gone amok, where plates of home baked goods are sitting around on tables near peoples' cubicles, within the break room, on conference tables in the middle of the office. I can smell the sugar everywhere. I am chewing sugarfree gum. I am drinking water. And I am posting here. No, I can't have "just one" cookie or brownie. No, I am not going to "just try a bite." No, I'm sorry, I'm sure you'll get praise for your baking efforts from my colleagues who are scarfing it all down, if that is what you need. I know you like & respect me, but you don't need to express that by feeding me. I am not having it. Nothing will be eaten standing up, alongside the platters, and nothing will be carried back to my desk. This stuff is just not for me. It has no power over me. It's just sitting there inertly. It's like office furniture, like a fax machine, like a printer. Damn it ... Lord help me. This time at the office shall pass. Eventually. Keep me away for now.

oh, I hear you, saef. I feel exactly the same way. My supervisor told me she is bringing in a cake this afternoon... there's just no way I can keep myself in check if I have even one bite of cake -- so now I'm just here trying to steel myself to say no. it's so hard. but I have to remember... I want to LOSE WEIGHT more than anything. I'm tired of tight pants and bloated bellies. I want my exercise tonight to be progressive, not just trying to make up for cake. and I want the expense of the healthy food I'm buying to be worth it.

*sigh* but I'll still be tempted. I know. but I am NOT NOT NOT going to eat that cake. i'll get tea instead. I only have to resist it for half an hour, until our kids arrive. I think I can handle that.

Great post, Saef! Wish you were in the office next to mine the last few years - LOL!!!!!! You hit it by describing stuff that is just not for us, "sitting there inertly." I remember the same (what felt like) admonitions from those feasting at a gathering, urging me to "try just one," warning that "cutting out ALL sugar isn't good," and assuring me "you don't want to get too thin."

Yeah.

And peeling away the layers, the "stuff" at most of these functions (especially office party baked goods) isn't really "food." At least not food in the sense of nourishment to fuel our bodies.

I'm all about live and let live - happy to join in the chat while drinking my water or coffee. I've found some individuals aren't comfortable chowing down if everyone isn't doing the same. There has been the occasion when someone would tell me I couldn't possibly pass up on trying something they deemed delicious. There are those who cannot understand that "just a bite" doesn't align with how I'm wired. Maybe it's a primitive tribal thing: that if we don't partake of the "kill," we're anti-social :rofl:

Hope the rest of your day goes smoothly.

:bravo:
Jean

Hi Saef,

I can't imagine having to avoid all of those temptations. I work from home, so my temptations are not there, unless I put them in the house. ;) I was wondering if maybe you could make a joke and say something like "sugar is like crack to me, just a little and I lose it." Or, maybe you could fake a diabetes problem saying you're "borderline diabetic?" I know it's not honest, but it might get those food pushers off your back. It really annoys me when people pressure others to eat. THEY are the ones with the problem, but they make us feel like we're abnormal for turning something down! As IF! ;)

Yes, this is a safe place to come, that's for sure. I got a lot of saliva just from reading your post and everything you have to avoid....but, you're right....all that stuff is just more matter taking up space in the office. You are in control, not it.

:)

Thanks, everyone. It's 7:21 PM. I made it!!! I got through to 5:15 PM, when they took the stuff away for the day. And then I went to the gym at our office, as I usually do, and I did not feel bloated, or guilty, or like I had to overwork, or like I was compensating for something. I did not have even one bite, not a nibble, not a crumb, though people kept telling me, "Have you had any of those cookies that so-and-so made?" and "Go look at them!" I did not even go look. It really helped that I had a lot of work & I had this thread to look at. Also, there was no formal gathering -- they just put the stuff out, from 8:30 AM to 5:15 PM, and you could go take as much as you wanted at will. Which would have been a disaster for me, even worse than a set & timed party time. I would have kept walking over there. But I did not!!! And tomorrow is a work-from-home day, when I get to work on my laptop at home, where I don't have any stuff like that lying around.

Everyone: We all need a "safe room" when facing a spread like this. Everyone should come here when they need to. If you don't really want this stuff, if you have not planned your indulgence and you get blindsided by someone bringing in stuff that could trigger a binge, tell us about it. It works. I can testify!

Hi all,

I made a turkey for a Hanukah dinner, along with potato pancakes (called Latkes) and I made frosting for the kids to dip pretzels in for their dreidal game (my son has a dairy allergy so I have to do alternative things). Anyway, now my house smells AMAZING and I desperately want to eat a turkey drum stick. I looked up the calories and one turkey drum stick has about 356 calories! Yikes! :yikes::yikes: I can't believe it! In the past, I would have thought, "oh, it's turkey...a well known diet food!" :rofl: Now, I'm really counting my calories. I know I'm not hungry, so I"m here because it helps. I desperately want to eat. My mouth is drooling and I feel like I have an itch I can't scratch...meaning, the ONLY thing that will help now if food. But, will it help in the long run? No. I really really want to lose weight. I have never been able to step back before a binge and to think about it. Luckily, with this life saving place, I can type and as I type, I examine my thoughts, my goals, my actions. I guess it doesn't matter what I want or what I think....what matters is what I DO. I will NOT have that turkey. I will not. Ok, I'm still wanting it and I'm still drooling, but I feel that I have the power now. Thanks for listening, friends. It's nice to know that there are others who know exactly what I'm talking about. :hug:

Oh, I know what you mean, luckymommy. :hug: Thanks for posting. It always helps to read that someone else is going through what I'm going through.

Congratulations to everyone for resisting...I'm proud of you all. I admit I flopped yesterday, big time, and have to start over again. Posting here is a good idea. I wish I could come here during the day, but Internet sites are restricted at work so between the hours of 7am and 7pm, I'm on my own.

Hi K8t. I'm sorry you can't come here during work hours. I usually have my binge cravings at night, but still, it's not easy. I was going to suggest that maybe you could write out your thoughts on paper (or type it on a Word document) and then, put it up on the board when you can get on. Maybe that way, you'll feel like you're still getting that support? I know it's a weird suggestion, but I thought it might be worth mentioning. :)

Ok I'm seriously testing myself now.... I've got a box of celebrations (chocolates) .... just under 1kg of them.. they're sitting in my bedroom. I bought them for nye, but I keep wanting to have "just one" ... hmph I'm resisting and wont stop resisting because I can't bear the thought of putting anymore weight on. But this is really killing me!
xx

SoulSurvivor, it's so good that you came here to post....it helps to keep us accountable for our actions. Otherwise, it's just us and the scale. ;) I admire your conviction to keep away from the off limit food item. I have some stuff here that my parents brought over and I'm not, will not consume it. I've got bigger goals and so do you. Well done!

Thank you lucky!!!
Just as I was getting over the chocolate craving I saw your post about the latkes and it got me drooling lol lol I want some!!! I've also got a craving for lokshen pudding mmmm
but I'm gonna go and sleep instead of thinking about food, I'll just torture myself!!!
Good luck to everyone, and well done for EVERY good choice you make!
Xxx

I've never heard of Lokshen Pudding, but that's probably for the best, since it's likely to be very tempting! ;)

You know, as I read this thread, I wonder if we should mention certain foods specifically or not. I think when we write down the words, we have to picture the thing, and that may not help us. And when people read the posts, they often describe themselves as being made hungry by what they are seeing. (I'll bet it's sort of like recovering from a porn addiction.)

I don't want to limit anyone's free expression, but I am just wondering about this. Does reading about other peoples' binges make you more likely to do it, or to think about it? Or less likely? Are people getting strength from this thread & feeling more resolve, or does seeing this seem to give them permission, because everyone's feeling this way, so we're all human & frail & we might as well give in occasionally?

Just wondering ... and trying to be as honest with myself as I can be.

You know sometimes I just sit here looking at all the threads everywhere on this site, searching & searching ... for something ... and sometimes I find it, and sometimes I don't. But at least I try, and at least everyone who posts here & who reads these posts is trying.

Hi Saef,

You are so cerebral and I really admire that. I hadn't thought of this at all, but I"m so glad you brought it up. Yes, when I read what someone else had, it makes me want it too much of the time. However, I am not at the state of mind that since someone else is having a binge, that it's ok for me to do it too. It did used to be that way, but now, I'm doing better with it, I suppose...at least for the time being. I'll be interested to hear what others are experiencing. In the meantime, I will definitely be more mindful of not mentioning particular foods specifically.

Also, I can relate to searching for something all over the sight. I search for it too. Somehow, maybe I'm searching for the key to success...something that will click in my brain and I will no longer have to struggle like this....but I'm not sure if I'll ever find it. I can honestly say that I have made huge improvements and that's something that I never thought I could do.

I'm having a binge emergency. This is my spot when I feel this way. I'm so glad I can have it. I'm still within my calorie range. I just have a horrible, horrible craving. I want to eat and I feel like I have this terrible itch that I can't scratch. I hope I don't sound like a broken record. My husband is having a similar craving. I'm having that dreaded combination of sleep deprivation and PMS. I wish I didn't have to endure PMS!!! I guess my husband is having sympathy PMS, like how men get sympathy pregnancy weight gain? ;) Anyway, I'm just writing here because of desperation.

I've had gum, I'm too tired to do push ups and crunches. We're watching t.v. and I hate sitting like this in front of the t.v. I think that is kind of a trigger.

You know what? That just gave me an idea! I'm going to get my crochet stuff out! I know it's so silly, but I used to do it a long time ago and I couldn't eat while doing it!

Wish me luck!!! Thanks for listening.

Good luck luckymommy! You can do it -- you're strong! :hug: Great idea on the crochet stuff... keeping your hands busy will help a lot :)

Thanks Skyra! I survived the night!!! I did some crochet and then, I went up to bed. I couldn't fall asleep until past midnight and my son woke me up at 4 a.m., so I might have to post here again tonight! ;) Thanks so much. I would have binged for sure if I hadn't stopped by here.

Hi everyone!

:::waves hello:::

I think I'm a binge eater in "recovery". I used to do a lot of bingeing... I mean... a whole LOT. I would cruise fast food places like crazy, getting different favorite items at each place and think nothing of it. If there was any kind of sweet in the house, I would pick and pick at it until the whole thing was gone. =( But I feel like I've gotten better this year. I think being on Prozac has helped a lot. I can have a bag of cookies sitting there and not eat them now - before it was a compulsion (I HAD to). I can have ice cream sitting in the freezer and not think about it. But even though the binging stopped (for the most part) I still was eating an unhealthy diet - which has very recently changed.

But you know what... I am having cravings. Like... powerful cravings for something specific. I tend to get really grouchy when I don't give in. I've changed my eating habits in the last eleven days... that's when I joined up on this website and started my blog. I have a lot of weight to lose - much of it from times when I did binge. I hope that changing my eating habits doesn't cause me to relapse into binging behavior... I am feeling really antsy today. I want junk food pretty badly. My fridge is stocked with healthy stuff but there is some bad food in the pantry. Ugh. I DONT WANT TO GIVE IN.

I learned that I have hypothyroidism and I'm insulin resistant from PCOS. These are also going to be part of the battle ahead, I'm afraid. So I really, really need to not go back to bingeing.

Hugs all of you who have struggled like I have and are still struggling! I know this recovery process is probably going to be ongoing for the rest of my life... but with a good support system, hopefully I won't go back to the bingeing... especially when I'm feeling the way I am today!

Hi Bridezilla! Welcome!!! You've come to the right place! As you can see, I post here whenever I have those intense cravings.

I was just wondering...would it be possible for you to take out the unhealthy stuff from the pantry and to replace it with healthy options?

I highly recommend having a plan not only for what to do on a regular basis, but also what to do when you have the cravings...intense urges to binge. You can even write out a list and look at it because I find it's hard to think straight when we're in binge mode.

You can definitely do this!!! It's so worth it!!!

Yeah... I'm glad I found this thread. I'm definitely in need of some love and support! Well... today didn't go too badly. I didn't binge. I did have two items today that I shouldn't have - an individual bag of fritos corn chips, and a small piece of brownie... ugh. But other than those two mis steps... did pretty well. I had lots of veggies and a few servings of fruit. Did a salad for lunch and a small hamburger patty with catsup, mixed vegetables, and a tiny bit of mac n cheese for dinner. My calories are going well. I'm recording everything in my fitday page and feeling pretty good about it. Over the last week I've consistently burned 1,000 calories more than I've eaten... some days over 2,000. Yay! And I'm not starved. Although I will say that I was feeling pretty awful earlier today. I slept a lot.

I cleaned out and reorganized the refrigerator today! Yay! I like it. I can see everything clearly and threw out a few no no items. Upon closer inspection the pantry doesn't have anything really noteworthy of stuff I would want to binge on... there are these cookies I hate that my bf loves... a big bowl of candy that my bf likes and I don't (at all). I think the worst thing in there is the large variety of cereals. Some are healthy ones that I bought for myself and some are the sugary variety that my bf eats but I can't really imagine bingeing on cereal! Definitely not my thing. So I think I'm safe-ish. I think the worst thing is when my bf's dad comes home with bad things like cookies/cupcakes/etc... OMG... as I was writing this he came home and handed me a sugar cookie. Ahhhhhhhhh. Its now on my desk and staring at me. Grrrrrr. =(

:(

Binge emergency right now guys... I'm glad I've been here long enough that when I feel an urge to binge, coming here is the first thing I remember to do :)

Today I was Xmas shopping and feeling really excited about giving people gifts. I don't make a lot of money so it felt really good to be able to buy people things. My dad loves these sampler boxes of chocolate, so I bought him one of those, feeling excited about getting him something he really likes. I didn't even think about the fact that buying them would mean having a box of chocolate sitting in my house for two days.

Now I'm sitting here. All my roommates are in bed, so I'm alone, and the chocolates are sitting in a bag in my room. I keep thinking things like, "If I eat them, I can go buy another one before Christmas. Nobody will even know." Or "I love those chocolates too, it's so unfair that he can have them and I can't." (Even though I know I am CHOOSING not to have the sweets and I'm not a victim or anything, those self-pitying voices are there right now and I have to acknowledge them in order to beat them!)

But I KNOW there are 1200 calories in the box. I KNOW that if I open them up, I WILL eat the whole box. I KNOW that I will feel bloated and upset and it will mean that I've binged 3 days in a row. And yet...

I keep telling myself that I am strong. I am strong... but I'm struggling.

I'd like to start joining in this thread too :)
I have been having a few binges lately, but they have been of about maybe 800 cals and I've made a point to exercise off the equivalent calories and move on.
The past 2 days have been awful though, and I have no drive to exercise at all, which is senseless as i love running :(
So hopefully by writing out it'll give me a bit of clarity and the drive to go and exercise, cause goodness knows I need to!

It all started out with 1 large portion of chips for lunch on Saturday, then later I had an attack of the 'You've screwed up already so don't worry...' That evening I ate Turkish delight (Yuck, don't even like the stuff!) Some chocolate biscuits, 4 slices of pizza, 1 slice of cheesecake, half a bag of big doritos, 6 WW cakes and some bread and cheeses.
Then last night I had... 200g white choc, chips, rice, vegetable curry, bombay potato, 4 rolls with cheese and pickle, 200g of honey almonds. This was in within about a 2 hour time frame. In fact I'm probably forgetting a few bits and pieces, but does it really make a difference given the amount of calories it all amounts to anyway! It is still completely shocking/mortifying.

We always have way too much food around at Christmas time :mad:
And stupid, half the food there I don't even really like! I don't even get any good feeling from binges anymore, I used to get a very short lived kinda high, but now I just feel horrifically fat and gross :(

Sorry for the big wall of text, just really needed to vent it all I think. I like to think I can always do everything by myself, but I'm beginning to learn sometimes I need a bit of help too. Thank you for giving me a place to turn to :)
Good luck to everyone.

Hi Skyra!

How did you do??? I hope you were able to resist the urges. That is SO hard. I know how you feel because I did the SAME thing about 15 years ago! I bought some amazing stuff for a woman at my husband's school who had helped him a lot. It was one of those things where a gift would not have been expected, so I was so tempted to eat the stuff that I ended up eating it! I felt terrible afterwards. As you can see, I've been dealing with this stuff for a long, long time! Anyway, I really hope you were able to resist. It's not easy, but it can be done.

Hi Serendipity! I really hope that posting here will help in itself. Do you have some strategies in place in case you have the urge to binge? For me, counting calories and keeping an online food journal have been a huge help because they don't limit what I eat...but just how much, so I feel more in control of the food than the other way around. There are those times when I feel the urge and it is so overwhelming, that I feel like I will chew off my own foot if I was chained down just so I could reach the food. But, I do have some things in place that have helped a ton. Coming here and posting. CHewing gum. Taking a walk. Doing push ups/crunches. Watching youtube videos that have to do with weight loss or just music that I love and helps me ease the stress a bit. Crochet helps. Painting my nails. Going to my closet and trying on clothes that I hope to fit into soon. Visualizing how I will feel weighing in the next morning if I binged vs. how I would feel if I didn't.

If you do binge, then just move on. It's done and feeling bad/guilty about it is really counterproductive. Drink lots of water, work out and be more active than usual.

Anyway, I hope you're feeling good today. :)