Trying to Start Over...
Hey everyone!
I used to post irregularly here awhile back and then quit altogether when I kept stringing one bad day after another. I pretty much binged my way through the months of August and September. I'd have a few on-plan days, then a bad binge, then a week of bad eating, then some on-plan eating... Well I'm sure you get the picture! But, I've managed to make it three weeks binge-free and decided I'd like to try and make it a binge-free month! I haven't had one of those since...well...January. Ugh.
I was especially proud of myself yesterday. We took my little brother out to dinner for his birthday and I did not binge afterwards! I ate light throughout the day and then allowed myself to relax and enjoy myself at the restaurant (Bravos). I believe I did pretty good...ate some of the Spinach and Artichoke dip appetizer, two pieces of bread ( one before dinner and one with dinner) and then about half of my entree (which was just pasta in a tomato sauce with chicken and veggies). And then two bites of my brother's free gelato! Usually after I go out to eat and don't stay strictly on plan, I'll consider the day a complete failure and proceed to binge like crazy at night -- shoving anything and everything into my mouth. I didn't do that last night. All I had was my 1pt WW ice cream snack. And I didn't feel hungry or like I was denying myself anything.
It was a big step in the right direction, but I still feel like I've got a tenuous hold on this whole binging thing. Like at any moment I could go plunging over that binge cliff and it'll take me two more months to resurface. I can't let that happen. So, I'm adjusting my ticker to my actual weight (which is 10 pounds higher than I was 2 months ago) and I'm holding myself accountable!
If you read all the way down here, thanks! I know it was long, haha. But, I'm going to try and post here regularly because no one in my life knows of my binging habit and I think I need support. And I can think of no better support system than all of you!
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