Weight Loss Support - Forget new tricks. This old dog is trying to remember the OLD tricks...




Katarina
10-09-2009, 09:47 AM
Hi All,

Ugg. This whole process is so frustrating. I had gastric bypass surgery in 2001, at 340 lbs. By 2004 I was down to 155 (!!!!). Over the past few years I've developed a taste for fried food, alcohol and lazy living...and by July 21, 2009 I was 197.

Seeing the scale pushing closer to 200, I flipped. Since then I've been fighting to get back down to where I wanted to be. My weight today is 178. My faulty memory remembers that my lowest weight was 165, when I met my husband....and for 2.5 months I have been fighting for the goal of hitting 165 by the end of this year. I'm 13 lbs away from reaching that goal. Checking my Dr records, however, showed that I was off by 10 lbs. Like I said above, apparently in 2004 I was down to 155. My ultimate goal has always been 150...and to find out that I was just 5 lbs away from meeting my goal, before I let myself go has been a crushing surprise. Plus, to realize that even if I make 165 by January 1, I will STILL be 10 lbs heavier than when my hubby met me.

I'm frustrated. Yes, I know...I've only been back on track 2 and a half months...and I can't expect to take off in 5 months the 42 lbs that took me 5 years to gain. I've done the weight loss thing before (considering that I'm 162 lbs lighter than my highest weight) and I KNOW how to do this..but I feel like an old dog trying to re-learn the old tricks. All of the difficulty with adjusting to my changing body, all of the insecurity and frustration...all of the weight loss struggles are back, and it is like starting all over again.

My goal of 165 by January 1, 2010 (my birthday) still remains. My mini goals will be posted below. I've joined a gym and I'm doing at least 30 minutes of cardio, 3 times a week, to kick things up a notch.

My Re-Birthday (Gastric Bypass surgery anniversary) is April 20, 2010. I would like to Finally hit 150 by that day. It will be finally hitting my goal 9 years after surgery. I'm just feeling overwhelmed and having a hard time forgiving myself for regaining this weight after going through all the struggles to lose it in the first place.

Ok...thanks for letting me vent.

Kat



Mini Goals:

175 Need New Pictures, 10 lbs less than last set of pictures

172 before Thanksgiving weekend (10 year HS Reunion) No longer obese, Lowest Weight since July 2006

170 Exactly my highest pre-surgery weight (340)

167 30 lbs lost

*165 before my birthday, January 1, 2010 June 2005 weight

Fit into Size 12

Be too small to shop at Lane Bryant


Havisham
10-09-2009, 10:02 AM
Kat, don't forget the amazing things you HAVE achieved. Even if you touched the dreaded 200, try not to see that as a set back - see that as still 140lbs less than you were - that's HUGE (no pun intended).

I confess I struggle with even mini goals, so I try one day at a time. If I can have a day when I can look back and be happy that everything I hate and drank was 'ok', then that's great. If one day becomes one week, then cool. If I fall off the wagon once, then ok, I can live with that (especially because the GI diet actually recommends 'cheating' 10% of the time - he says this isn't a diet it's a life plan and in real life we don't always eat the 'right' stuff).

Maybe some mini-mini goals?

For my part, I bow down to you - you ROCK!