I know how you feel, really, believe me I do. All I can do is tell you what I've been telling myself for the past couple of months. "Just DO it. You have no choice." And if you want to reclaim yourself and put your body, will and emotions back under your own control.... (there is nothing more precious to me that this sense of control and focus).....if you want to succeed.... tell yourself that! You HAVE no choice, really......if you truly want to win your battle and start down the road to a more healthy life.
Good luck Michelle. I'm pulling for you. We ALL gain by the success of others in the same fix. And I want the same success for you that I crave for myself!
cheers
pattyjo