100 lb. Club - It had to happen sometime I guess
10-01-2009, 07:36 PM
I have a confession :( I made muffins today. Now I often make muffins... I run a daycare. But today... I ate muffins.
and an extra slice of sprouted grain bread with peanut butter.
Now the one muffin was accounted for. But I had to SERIOUSLY cut back on dinner to try to make up the calories for the other two and the bread/peanut butter.
When all's said and done (with a 6 inch, 310 calorie sub for dinner) I end up with 1677 calories for the day. So it's not the calories that bugs me...
IT'S THAT I DID THIS! I NEVER binge. and it was. Mindless eating. It was horrible.
sigh. I guess I'm not as good at this as I thought I was.
10-01-2009, 07:40 PM
Yeah, you've lost...what...152 pounds and you just ate more than you had specifically planned for the first time in a year? You SUCK at this. ;)
Perpective, dear. You were caught with your guard down for some reason. You coped, which someone who actually DID suck at this wouldn't do. Get back up. Move along. :)
10-01-2009, 07:41 PM
You know what, it happens. I had a beer today. It was one beer. 12 grams of carb. Took me way over my daily allowance. I forgive myself...tomorrow will be better. You too. Tomorrow will be better. It will!
10-01-2009, 07:44 PM
IF they were whole grain muffins consider it a cry for fiber...lol! You are doing great, you are an inspiration and a few slip ups are okay. Tomorrow is another day, one that you can rock the hades out of. Good luck on your tomorrow.
10-01-2009, 07:46 PM
Oh my darling. This has nothing with you being "good". YOU are good and wonderful and kind and generous and sweet and, and, and.
And most of all - you are human. H - U - M - A - N. Human.
Welcome to the club!!!
I remember the first time I discovered that I was - human. I was shocked. I mean how could I? I had been so *perfect* for so long. Ha. But like you said, I felt it was BOUND to happen. And actually I was kinda relieved when it did happen. Because then I went firmly back to plan. No harm done. And it gave me the confidence to know that although I had fallen a tad, I DIDN'T STAY DOWN. I knew that one off episode was not the end of my journey, but just PART of my journey.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move on dear friend. Move on. Forgive yourself. If that's even the right term. It's not like you murdered someone. Breathe. Relax. And before you know it, this will be long forgotten. :hug:
10-01-2009, 07:47 PM
I know how you feel but you have done so well! Here's a big hug for ya :hug::hug:
10-01-2009, 08:02 PM
You're such an inspiration to us all - so pat yourself on the back for what you've accomplished so far, pat yourself on the back for being honest, and especially pat yourself on the back for getting right back on program. We love ya!!
10-01-2009, 08:22 PM
Thanks everyone. Your words were just what I needed to hear right now.. big sigh. Things are going crosseyed in my world and it just snuck right up on me.
*deep breath* I will eat my dinner tonight. I will get in my water, I won't let this get me down.
Oh and the muffins WERE oatmeal, with flax seed... and chocolate chips (but just a few... lol)
10-01-2009, 08:53 PM
cfmama it was like my Twix bar yesturday. Dont cry over spilled milk. Jest clean it up and move on that's what I did. Your weight loss is nothing to sneeze at. Tomorrow is another day you can do it .
10-01-2009, 09:07 PM
Warm - fresh from the oven - baked goods get me too! Even now.
Great job accounting for it with adjusting your plan.
No harm done - and lesson learned. Some temptations never go away!
10-01-2009, 09:13 PM
You are AWESOME at this. You are amazing. Einstein messed up calculations sometimes, a few muffins do not mean you don't still totally rock at this. Tomorrow is another day.
10-01-2009, 10:06 PM
You are human. What advice would you give someone else? Forgive yourself and just keep going.
10-01-2009, 10:25 PM
Three muffins and a slice of bread is a binge?
You've done a great job, cut yourself some slack and chalk it up to an off moment.
10-01-2009, 10:29 PM
If you never slipped up, how would you learn what you need to learn to withstand temptation the next time? Take a step back and look at this whole thing objectively. What possible causes led you to eat off-plan? Is there anything you can do to keep this from happening to you again?
Don't be too hard on yourself. You are always so kind and understanding to all of the rest of us. You deserve the same kindness and understanding for yourself. :hug:
10-01-2009, 10:59 PM
Girlie...it happens. You caught yourself and are aware of what just happened. Which is a big thing....bigger yet I know you'll be even more diligent about it not happening like that again.
Just count it, own it and move on :hug:
10-01-2009, 11:29 PM
I am sorry this had you upset. Think about this: you are still young and hopefully have 40 plus years to live. Is it realistic to think you'll be perfect everyday for the rest of your life? You've released yout feelings into the universe...would you hold the same expectations out of your family or other loved ones? You are a winner, period. You are still in control, period. We care about you always. Hug yourself and say, "next."
10-02-2009, 01:06 AM
I was right there a few days ago - all you can do is pick yourself back up and move on. Big hugs!
10-02-2009, 01:23 AM
You are an inspiration to everyone, not only because of your accomplishments, but because of your set backs. As everyone has said, you are human, and you couldn't be an inspiration without being so.
Wake up tomorrow and show those muffins who's boss!
10-02-2009, 02:12 AM
I think Robin said it perfectly.. is there ANYTHING that woman doesn't have an amazing answer for?? :)
10-02-2009, 03:25 AM
You can get past this. Use it as something you can look back on and tell yourself "this happened before and I got past it." I know the fear, believe me. People who are addicted to food are geniuses at lying to themselves when it comes to food. For myself, I have to be ever vigilant. And yet, here I am again, having gained it all back. It's the downhill once I start believing my own stories; I have a whole repetroire. The good thing is that I've used them so much I pretty much recognize it when I start doing this. I'm hoping I can step back this time and not get caught up in this.
As far as the muffin, my strategy would be to just go ahead with my food plan and not adjust the calories. That way it really hits home that this was Extra food; it was something you didn't "want" or plan to eat. It puts it in it's place.
Of couse you can put new foods into your plan, just the low cal type. Maybe you need a change. When I want some CARBS and something yummy, I make french toast with sirup, only about 300 calories for four; and I add some of that pre-cooked bacon. I feel like I've had something and there's no guillt.
You already know you can do it, so move on and put this behind you. and be :cool:
10-02-2009, 03:37 AM
Thank you for sharing that confession. And I thank all of those who gave you wonderful encouragement afterwards. I came here tonight to find motivation, because ALL of mine was gone, and had been MIA for several damaging weeks. I joined this group tonight and while browsing I found your muffin story and it was fabulous. I realize that this is a place I can come to and really be honest and with the encouragement and wisdom of others right where I am a bad choice won't turn into a bad week, month, or year. And your bad choice would have been the healthiest thing I had ate in a while if I had overindulged in your flaxseed muffins. Glad you realize it's no biggee. Put the cheat of the extra 2 muffins behind you and roll on with the great work you have done that has gotten you 150 lbs down! AMAZING!
10-02-2009, 08:49 AM
I made muffins today. Now I often make muffins... I run a daycare.
When I decided to lose the weight, I sat down with my family and told them that there would be lots of changes coming to the household and one of them was NO HOME MADE BAKED GOODS. At least for a while. That is without a doubt one of the hardest, no probably THEE hardest things to resist.
I have baked again. This is what I do. I DO make muffins or cupcakes. Any cake recipe can go into a muffin tray. Anyway, I make EXACTLY enough for the amount of people I will be having. EXACTLY. Sometimes I'll make 2 for everyone. Whatever the case is. But this way I know for sure that if I take any, well then I would be leaving someone else short and of course I would never let that happen. You could even freeze the batter if need be, which is much better (safer) then freezing the already baked product. This has been a lifesaver for me.
I even do it for my kids birthdays and the such. An added bonus is, is that THEY don't over eat as well. They've got forced portion control also, which I LOVE.
10-02-2009, 09:58 AM
You mean you actually are human? Here all this time I thought you were an alien! No, I'm just picking! None of us are perfect, we are human and what is important is that this did happen so that you can open your eyes and be more aware. One oops happening is no big deal, now forgive yourself and move forward!
Robin.. I LOVE the muffin pan idea for making cake and such!!! Thank you!
10-02-2009, 02:22 PM
Well today is a new day. Stayed totally on plan all of last night, got in my water, dropped 1.6 lbs over night. And while I totally know that's NOT related to what I ate yesterday... it was still nice.
Menu made for today (muffins ALL FREAKING GONE) and onward/upward.
10-02-2009, 05:40 PM
OMGOSH, if that were the only food mistake I had made after losing 150 lbs I would be doing cartwheels of happiness. You have been doing so wonderfully, dont even give it a second thought. Just dont let it happen again......You are doing incredibly awesome!
10-03-2009, 08:32 PM
:hug: Everyone slips up and now and then. You wouldn't beat up your mother for it and tell her she's no good...and it's not ok to do it to yourself either. You recognized what you did, owned up to it, and have moved on. That's AWESOME, and that's life! :) Don't let it get you down. Just look at what you have already accomplished!