Well, crap. I'm back.
Hi ladies.
I've been here before. Now I'm back. I got down to 134 at my lowest (about 3 months ago), had a multiple month binge, am around 145 now.
I'm doing better on my exercising (am training for a marathon!) but I am still having binge/unhealthy food choices.
I'm mad at myself because everytime I lose this 10 lbs (and I've done it about 6 times) I say I am never going to let it come back. And then I do. And I creep back up to 145 ish and I feel uncomfortable in my own skin.
Its just vanity weight. I'm still in my healthy BMI range (just barely, another lb and I'd be considered overweight). But I feel so insecure about it. I'm 5'5" and curvy and 10 lbs makes me look quite chunky.
I know its not the end of the world, I just feel disappointed in myself.
I also don't want to gain another 10 because then I will be unhealthy. I eat great about 80% of the time, super healthy and super good calories wise. But the other 20% of my time I swear I eat about 40% of my calories.
I'm going to weigh every day, even when I think its been a gain (I usually avoid - and I think I need to *see* the consequences of my eating.
Thanks ladies for listening.
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