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Butterfly50
09-16-2009, 12:32 PM
I was sitting here and I was thinking . I want to lose 155 Pounds to Get at least to 160 is one of my goals right now. I thinking that 155 Pounds Omg is Almost My 19 Year old son . I Know this may sound weird but when I look at my self I dont feel like I weigh this much. and then when I look at photos of me I see it jest shows all over. why is this ? I have taken a few Before Photos is when I get to loosing I plan on using them as a pep me up. This jest starled me when I was Looking at the amount to loose and it hit me. How did I ever let myself get this big and not notice ?

Even though I have only lost 8.5 Pounds My husband tells me that he can tell already that I have lost some weight to keep it up. It makes me feel good. Better then looking at the stinkin Pictures:(


Ryanne
09-16-2009, 12:38 PM
Yeah, I'm supposed to weigh between 102-115 for my height. My goal right now is 131 which is a hundred pounds... ideally I would like to lose 106 lbs. for a healthy bmi range. Thing is, if I look at it that way, the amount I need to lose is another "ME"....I have eaten my twin! I don't feel big either, but when I see pix...wow! Worse even is video...argghhh.... but we are both well on our way to getting it off, and I am confident we will keep it off!
I don't know how I got this big...one thing is I probably dieted myself this big if I really stop and think about it..so many times I have lost weight and then gained it back plus more pounds...so ya... it doesn't matter how I got here as much as what I am doing now for my future.
The realization is an awakening...and a real eye opener. :fr:;)

toastedsmoke
09-16-2009, 12:40 PM
I was just thinking the same thing right now as I was looking at success stories. Where was I when I was gaining this weight and why didn't I stop. And I'm only young, how can I have so much weight to lose? It almost seems insurmountable. I'm blocking my mind from looking at the big picture. As far as I'm concerned, my fall equinox mini goal is where my head is right now in terms of how much weight I need to lose and after that my halloween goal. I just can't think of the whole thing if not I might just cry... or eat cake... if I had cake...


Alana in Canada
09-16-2009, 12:55 PM
I remember when I started this journey I was utterly shocked to see how BIG I was--somehow a picture is harder to deny than the person in the mirror!

Just remember these are BEFORE pictures. Take heart. In twenty pounds take another picture and put it side by side with the other one. You WILL notice a difference. (But if you don't, 'cause self-perception is the trickiest of visions, then post here and we'll see the difference.)

AbbySinthe
09-16-2009, 12:55 PM
Oh my god, I'm so with you on this one. I look at pictures of me and I am shocked. That is NOT what I see in the mirror every morning. Since I've lost some weight, I'm actually feeling pretty darn good about the way I look. And then someone takes a picture of me at one of the many bbq's this summer and I'm like "What the H$%*! I'm thinner than that!" Totally shocked the crap out of me :o But those pictures have been a huge motivator. I was slacking in August but after I saw the pics from me on Labor Day weekend, whoa! I'm back in the game!

Onederchic
09-16-2009, 12:56 PM
I agree. At 330 pounds, I never "saw" myself as "that" big. Boy oh boy was I ever wrong :o. Good thing is, we have the power to change it and we are all working hard to do just that. We rock :D :hug:

nelie
09-16-2009, 12:58 PM
I never saw myself that big. When I told my friend I had lost over 150 lbs, she was stunned since that was more than she weighed. She went around telling everyone that I basically lost her.

Lori Bell
09-16-2009, 12:58 PM
It can be overwhelming, but you are doing great and that is awesome! One day at a time. :hug:

My 17 year old son weighs 175, and when I got to the point of that much weight loss I was really kindof freaking out. I was like OMG, what in the **** did I do to myself. I've now lost about 55% of my total weight...(I've lost 30 more pounds than I weigh), it's kind of weird when you look at it like that. Where did it all go?

rockinrobin
09-16-2009, 12:59 PM
I sometimes wonder how and WHY the heck I let myself get to be 287 lbs at only 5 feet tall (short?). And why I didn't do something sooner. But I don't spend too much time dwelling on the past. What's done is done. I wasted enough time living "that way" for so long. I don't want to spend another minute wasting any more time on THAT. I can't go back and change the past. We can only work on NOW and our FUTURE.

I am grateful that I didn't let it get any worse and that I took the action I did when I did.

rockinrobin
09-16-2009, 01:02 PM
Oh and about those pictures. I always wondered why I looked so big in them (the rare pics that I allowed) and why everyone else looked exactly the size that they are. Hmmm.

But funny thing is, now I look at the pics of my self (& there's lots of them, I became a camera hog) and think "that can't be me. I can't be that small, why am I so much smaller in the picture then in real life?". Funny. And odd. And very, very nice. :)

maryquitecontrary
09-16-2009, 01:03 PM
This is true for me too. They say the camera adds 10 pounds, but its not an extra ten pounds I see when I look at pictures. It is a heck of a lot more.

This morning someone tagged me in a photo on facebook, for the whole world to see. And it looks entirely different from the person I see in the mirror. I wanted to untag myself, but didn't. I need the reminder that the photo is probably a closer representation to how i look to others. It hurts a lot though.

toastedsmoke
09-16-2009, 01:10 PM
This is true for me too. They say the camera adds 10 pounds, but its not an extra ten pounds I see when I look at pictures. It is a heck of a lot more.

This morning someone tagged me in a photo on facebook, for the whole world to see. And it looks entirely different from the person I see in the mirror. I wanted to untag myself, but didn't. I need the reminder that the photo is probably a closer representation to how i look to others. It hurts a lot though.

Oh I have a speedy untagging finger. I untag myself from the rare photos taken of me that I don't like/have control over. And it's silly because those pics are the me the rest of the world sees. Can you say M-O-T-I-V-A-T-I-O-N?!?!

jelder227
09-16-2009, 01:14 PM
Self perception is a really odd thing. As is the perception of those close to us. My husband swore I looked the same as when we got married (I had gained 35 pounds). He didn't notice the difference until I lost most of it, and he was out of town when I did most of it, so he saw it all at once! Kind of floored him. Having lost the weight, I don't see much difference when I look in the mirror. I didn't think I looked that bad at 185, but when I see photos, I sure didn't look great.

Unfortunately, now when I look in the mirror, I see what is left to lose, rather than the fact that I look a lot better. Occasionally I catch a glimpse in passing in store window, and I'm surprised that's really me. I look pretty good!

I'm really hoping that when I'm done with all of this I have a more balanced perspective.

findingfawn
09-16-2009, 01:16 PM
Some days I'm like there is no way I'm big enough to weigh this, but then there are days when I feel like I belong out in the pasture with the family's cows!

I know exactly how I let myself get this way... I was in a happy marriage and having babies and knew I no longer needed to impress anyone. Now I am done having babies and am in a very strong happy marriage and it's time for me to wow my hubby once again... and then again and again and well you get the idea.

KboP
09-16-2009, 01:44 PM
Facebook is the whol;e reasonI started this again and properly. Irealised that I had beend ieting for 3 years and when I saw the photo I was like "whos the fat girl in my dress"
What a shock when I was the fat girl, BUT while I am on this journey I refuse to get upset by my size as long as I am doing something, i.e making good choices, exercising.
And hey at least I have my 'before' picture all picked out

SnowboundChick
09-16-2009, 01:45 PM
I don't understand that perception either. I never saw myself as big and still don't unless I look in the mirror or look at recent pictures. It's just weird that I thought I was okay and not bad and then reality is that I have 150lbs to lose to get to my first reasonable goal.

nelie
09-16-2009, 02:41 PM
But funny thing is, now I look at the pics of my self (& there's lots of them, I became a camera hog) and think "that can't be me. I can't be that small, why am I so much smaller in the picture then in real life?". Funny. And odd. And very, very nice. :)

I've been my current weight nearing 2 years and I still have trouble picking myself out of a group of pictures. The only way I know is because I know what clothes I was wearing. I did have an instance looking at a picture and trying to figure out who was in the picture, only to realize I was in it.

Butterfly50
09-16-2009, 02:55 PM
I am so glad that I'm not alone on this I thought I was Crazy. But Isnt it funny how our brain works? When I lost 50 Pounds 4 Years ago I was feeling pretty good. I would look in a mirror and still see me .To me it didnt seem like I lost anything. I would accept all the complements and things people would say about how good I looked But I never seen it. I seen the same person in the mirror all the time.

This time I have decided to Take a monthly Pic so I can have the before after shots to show my brain that I am loosing weight and I am looking good. This will Help motivate me too.


Thanks for Everyone that responded and letting me know that I'm not alone.

MoveMoveMove
09-16-2009, 03:09 PM
You are definitely not alone. I've always wondered about this difference myself. Even standing up in pictures isn't as bad as the ones where I'm sitting down. OMG, we had a mini family reunion this summer and had the waitress take a picture at the restaurant and let me tell you honies, I couldn't believe what I saw. But still what I see in the mirror everday, even naked, is not as big as that picture. For me, I think it's because I've been overweight since around age 8 and have gotten used to the look.

maryquitecontrary
09-16-2009, 03:14 PM
I am really trying to not untag myself from that photo, but it is horrendous.

I think I will untag myself when i get tagged in another photo where I actually don't hate the way I look. (and it will be a snapshot someone else took, not a self-shot photo, where i pose for 20 minutes, suck in my gut and extend my neck to eliminate the double chin)

I hate to think that people from high school and college are seeing it though, err.

Elladorine
09-16-2009, 03:27 PM
Sigh . . . I want to get down to 150 myself, and I had over 200 pounds to lose at my starting point!

I don't always feel much different (visually) in my old photos after losing over 90 pounds, even when I compare old photos with more current ones side-by-side. It's crazy! Even when I look at the difference seen in my avatar it's like my head is playing tricks on me or something. But I know other people can see the difference, and more importantly, I know I can feel the difference. It's weird how our self-image gets all skewed no matter what weight we happen to be at.

I wish I hadn't stopped losing weight a few years back (when I lost about 75) but at least I didn't gain any of it back. Knowing that I once weighed 360 seems so distant and surreal now, yet at the same time not so far away. I'm wondering how strange it'll someday feel to know I once weighted around 270 as well . . . ;)

ubergirl
09-16-2009, 04:20 PM
Well, I guess I'm horribly hard on myself, because what I noticed, when I first started hanging around 3FC is that when I looked at before pictures that look like me I was picking out pictures of people who weighed about 400 pounds.... a hundred plus pounds more than where I was when I started...

Now, I keep trying to remind myself that while I certainly look heavy, I probably don't look like one of those people who has to be lifted out of her house in a crane...

Butterfly50
09-16-2009, 06:01 PM
ubergirl I know what you are saying I watch all those shows and I sit their and think omg how do they live like that. Unknown to myself what I was doing to myself. Now that I have decided to loose weight and look out for myself I dont watch shows like that any more. I want to be able to start looking for the good in me.

findingfawn
09-17-2009, 09:05 AM
This post hit home last night... really hard.

We only have one mirror in our house besides the bathroom one that only shows like sholders up on me. This other mirror is usually hidden with a mountain of clothes.. it's on hubby's dresser and he never ever puts his clothes away and honestly it's not my favorite chore either since we are just going to get them out again to wear them. For once his dresser is semi cleaned off.

We spent a few hours last night up at his mom's house (our future house, we are buying theirs when their new house is built because it's bigger than ours) to work out on the gym we bought and walk the private road that I can't wait to live on. Hubby and I even got some jogging in, and I was so proud and feeling "10 feet and bullet proof". We came home and I went in the bedroom to change.. and wala.. there was that mirror!

I DO NOT FEEL THAT FAT!!! When I look at my legs, they don't look big, when I look down, my tummy looks like it's getting flatter.... but then I look at that mirror and I see myself as one of those people that you see out that you know has to have you beat by 200 pounds or more and you think I will never be like that.

It was really hard to take a second look in the mirror, but I made myself so that I KNEW I would get up and exercise with all my heart this morning.. and I did!