Depression and Weight Issues - September Chick Chatter!

Morning all! :wave:

I haven't really caught up - welcome to all our new faces, :hug: to those who need it, hope everyone is doing okay. Hope - STOP beating yourself up!! We all do it, we all hate ourselves, we all know it is a horrible downward spiral effect... :no: Thinking of you. Hang tough, chick!! Make good choices TODAY - yesterday does NOT matter now! :yes:

September already... back to school today for me.

Will check in soon!

Good Morning,

WOW September, if officially feels like summer is over :( even though we have 21 more days left of it lol.

:wave: Heather .... enjoy school chickie, how's the new bod feeling?

I'm off in an hour to get new adhd meds for my dd.... see ya later taters.

:hug:

Hello everyone :)

Today's going quite well; I had a 2-hour long meeting which was very productive, and afterwards had lunch and a good conversation with a colleague about depression and my past and my parents and everything.

So now I'm going to carry on with a paper, and then this evening I'm out running.

How are you all doing?

Good morning all. SOSDD, so I really have nothing fun to report. Hope everyone has a good day! :hug:

I've been doing double the workout I normally do and have been extra careful with calories. Regardless the scale has moved up instead of down. Ooof. So... instead of letting the numbers discourage me, I've decided I need to come up with a system of goals that are NOT number related (well, lbs related numbers anyway).

I was doing fairly well with the whole diet blog thing, but I feel off the wagon with that quite easily. It seems I felt too redundant posting what I wanted to say on these forums and in my diet blog. I should start it again though - especially to keep track of exercising.

So, here are my new ‘goals’...

Ultimate Goal:
Old: Reach 150 LBS.
New: Fit comfortably into a size 8

Mini Goals:
Old: 199
New:

Fit into size 14 jeans.
Exercise for at least 6 days a week, including:

Do 30 Day Shred every Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.
Complete 30 DS, move onto Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones (without dying) and do every Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.
Do at least 30 minutes of cardio on Tuesday, Thursdays, Saturday, Sunday
Do at least 45 minutes of cardio on Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

Remain under 1700 gross calories a day (net will be around 1300-1400).
Start Shopping smarter so I can save money AND be healthy.

Salsa - I'm adding you to my blogroll. :)

Salsa - I'm adding you to my blogroll. :)

Ooh! :D

Good morning,

Aww Hope :hug: today is a new day.

Leenie I find canning to be fairly easy especially fruits and pickles.

marbear congrats on the new goals. I'm way to number oriented, it gets so discouraging after a while.

Salsa sounds like you are having a good day so far.

Hard to believe its September already, where on earth did the summer go? I'm so grateful that we had good weather, I just wish I had managed to get out and enjoy it more somehow. We have until next Tuesday before school starts here, so we have a trip to the jeans store to get in this week. I haven't been getting out for my walks and the stupid scale is going back up, not impressed.

Take care everyone and I hope you have a wonderful day.
K

Hi, just wanted to join in here and say you all are such an inspiration to me. I have been calorie counting and exercising and in August I lost a whopping 15 pounds! I did not expect that and I am so very pleased with myself. :broc:

I have a pdoc appointment right after Labor Day and I am sure she will be pleased with my progress. Before embarking on this weight loss journey I had talks with my pdoc and my reg doc about what it would take to reach my goals. They have both been very supportive and had great ideas for me.

I have been keeping a food journal, keeping my calories to no more than 1,500 a day, making sure I get at least 5 servings of fruit and veggies and exercising every day, even if it just playing with my granddaughter or going for short walks at work on my breaks.

Hello everyone,

hope you're all doing at least ok today.

buddly - I know what you mean about it being September already. One the one hand it feels good to me to get back into the rhythm of things, but on the other it would have been nice to have a little bit more time off. However, the Summer was really stressful for me, so I think on the whole I'm glad I can move on.

hydra - hi, welcome :) August was my first month too (well, ok, I started in the last week of July) and lots of pounds came off. I hope you continue to do well :)

This morning I had an appointment at a clinic, which was quite nerve-wracking, but ok. I now have meds, which apparently make you fuzzy - so I'll have to be careful out on my bike!

Good Morning Ladies..

I haven't caught up on the post yet. Will do that sometime today. I've just been feeling crappy the last week. I don't know why. Trying to get back into a routine.

Hope everyone has a good day..

Morning all. Welcome to the newbies! :)

I've been doing very well on my diet. Today isn't a good day emotionally, so I'm afraid I'll end up sabatoging myself. I'm going to try very hard not to though. I've detailed it in my blog is anyone is interested - but don't feel like getting into it again. Mostly because it makes me think I'm totally crazy.

Hope everyone has a good and on-plan day.

Hello ladies,

how are things going today?

This morning I started on my meds...with mixed feelings. Before now I'd just had stuff to help me sleep, and now I have Real Anti-Depressants (har har). I'd read all the paperwork that came with them, along with the injunction to never come off the medication without consulting your doctor, and that you need to be on them for an average of six months at the least.

It was with some trepidation that I took it this morning. I know, it's just the first one. I dunno - maybe it's like, right, this is it, I'm committed to improving my mental health too, now. This isn't a wagon I can just let myself fall off, because from what I've read the consequences of "forgetting" to take your meds can possibly be quite nasty. In that sense it's just a bit overwhelming.

Ok, enough of me.

marbear - I'm off to read your blog now :)

purefire - I hope that the next few days will be better than the past for you. I'm sure they will.

Salsa, I think it depends on which meds you are on. I know there is one that a friend of mine used to take that if she forgot she felt nauseous. Most of them however I've found have no consequence if you forget a pill, except maybe being depressed again if you miss a few days. I'm not advocating skipping doses or quitting abruptly, but I just don't want you to worry too much them, they are there to make you feel better and usually do.

Purefire, hope you feel better soon.

Marbear, how did the day go? Did you stay on plan. I know it probably helped to vent in your blog. I've been meaning to write out some goals and mini-goals myself. Dh will be out of town this weekend so that would be a good time to do it.

Heather, how is school going so far? Has anybody commented on the new body? Do they even know?

Hope - I had a great day OP, thanks for asking (see below). Mini goals are great. You should start a blog - they're fun if you remember them! Rememberig is something I need to work on.

Salsa - I'm on welbutrin. If I forget for a couple of days it's like I have PMS. Not bad for me, not so pleasant for the hubby :) My husband used to be on Paxil and he got pure evil if he forgot. So Hope is right, it really depends on the medicin - and the person.

Pure - Feel better :hug:

Heather - Hope reminded me - I meant to ask for a new body update. You havn't mentioned feeling bad - so does that mean you feel good and are rockin the awesome new bod?

I didn't end up sabotaging myself yesterday, which was awesome! I actually did really well. My net caorie goal is 1550. I ate 2099 and burned off 576 leaving me with 1523 :). (in actuality, my HRM said I burned 644 calories, and I didn't eat all of my dinner - so I was a bit lower. But I like over estimating calories and under estimating exercise - makes me feel better!)

As far as why I was in a funk - I kind of feel like a jerk about that now. In short, I was all blah because I don't have any of my "own" friends. There are my DH's friends and "our" friends (all of "my" friends from HS and College have converted to "our" friends). I want "my" friends so when he's off with his I can be off with mine. I.e. - Tomorrow, he was supposed to go to his friends house leaving me alone - alone is not a good place for me to be. I can VERY easily work myself into a severe depression. After I went off about it in my blog, I found out his friend asked if I was coming and decided to make it a cook out so I would be included {insert me feeling like an a$$}.Sigh. In either case, I'd still like to have a friend that's "mine".

Hope everyone has a good day. Those who have a long weekend - enjoy.

:wave:

I would love to stay and play but the boss lady is here :(

I'll catch up this weekend.

:hug: to the new Chickies

Leenie

Hello Everyone.

So far the day has been a not so good one but that is only because I am royally pissed at my oh so wonderful boyfriend. He's doing the same crap he was doing before we broke up and got back together again. When we got back together he had quit and did good for 2 months but it all started all over again. He was sleeping when I left the house this morning so I ended up leaving him a nice little letter. His the biggest part of my problem lately. I just don't know what to do anymore.

In the last week I ended up gaining back 4 lbs. Not overly happy about it but it is my fault :p I know I was emotionally eating and barely exercising. I got myself back on track. Which I guess is good.

Going to go find something to do with my son along with going for a walk wiu him.

Hope everyone has a good day

Hi, Everyone.

I am having a bad night. I cannot stop crying. I wish there was someone I could talk to. My symptoms get worse around the Holidays because I have nothing to do. On holidays, I'm reminded that I don't have any friends or boyfriend. I hate staring at the phone hoping for someone to call. I don't know how I'm going to get through the next three days.

Hey Everybody!

I was doing great, lost 4 or 5 pds (could have been some water weight) and exercising every day! Yeah, felt fabulous, don't know what the **** happened, but I had like a 4 day binge fest and ate more peanuts and raisins than I can even describe. The sweet and salty thing must have really gotten me, I am wondering if it was mid cycle pms... Now, I am bloated, feeling fat, and back up all the weight that I lost... But, today was good other than exercise and I am looking at tomorrow to be fixing that. I also found a really old friend on line that I hadn't talked to in years and who used to be my best friend other than DH. We have been emailing, texting, and talking on the phone for a week and it just feels....so good!

I also bought some Gloomaway spray from Origins and some of there moment of peace cream yesterday. Normally I am not a grapefruity type person but it reallly attracted me, I had to have it...not usual...I have found several articles that talk about aromatherapy to head off binging and I am going to see if it is a useful tool for me.

DH will be getting his next MRI next month and is flying to a hospital away from me to do it...the first time I won't be there with him and his first trip alone since his surgery...a little nervewracking...

Hope you all have a nice holiday! I am going to have one dog to visit this weekend but other than that I think we are going to go to Dave & Buster's and maybe see a movie...fun stuff!

See ya Peeps!!!

Hi girls! :wave:

Hope - yes, plenty of notice at work, and not all good - 16 year old boys no longer talk to my FACE... small school in a small town...

Anyway - I am having one of those super-crazy-productive days - so I'm going to keep at the total organization for as long a it lasts!!

Hang in there chickies! ;)

Heather :D

Good morning everyone :wave:

Ambrosia :hug: try getting out of the house, go for a walk, just something. I know how hard that is, but its worse sitting alone with our own thoughts. I'm sure others will have some better advice as I'm just crawling out of my own pit here. But I do know just changing the scenery can help and getting out in the fresh air is always beneficial.:hug: I hope you can see some light soon and take care of yourself.

Raven I've been wondering how you've been. Sorry about the binge it sure does sound like good ol' pms cravings tho.

Not much going on here. DdC goes back to school on Wednesday but DdA goes back to uni on Tuesday. No major plans this weekend as kids are working all different times. I do have to take DdC in and do the jeans shopping and pick up a few more school supplies. It definitely feels like fall out there now.

Well have a great weekend everyone.
Take care,
K

16 year old boys no longer talk to my FACE... small school in a small town...

:rofl: :lol3: haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you go girl.

Good Morning,

What a great morning, cool and crisp... gotta love it.

Have a great Sunday Chickies :hug:

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Hi all..

hope everyone had a good Sunday

Happy Labor Day :wave:

Going out to breakfast with some friends and the rest of the day is mine (((( I think)))) ... school starts tomorrow, dd has butterflies in her tummy lol, ahhh I remember those days.

Have a great Monday.

:hug:

Not a good day. I went off plan this weekend – and somehow gained 7lbs in 2 days. I PROMISE you I did not eat 24,500 calories over the course of 2 days. I’m not even sure that’s possible. I fall asleep when I eat to much, I’d pass out for the entire day after 3,000 – let alone 12,500 a day.
I’m trying to be good today but the lb weight gain is discouraging, especially since I had been doing so good for 2 weeks and saw a 2lb gain when I was good. Then I go back to "not-hyper-vigilant" and I gain 3.5 lbs a day? Oog.

:hug:s to everyone.

Hi everyone,

marbear - it could be any number of things combined with going a little off-plan (but you knew this, right :) ).

ambrosia - how have you been over the past few days?

I'm doing ok over here, just done my first week on meds, which hasn't been too bad at all (although I'm on a lower dosage for two weeks). Over the past couple of days I've been really tired. My sister and I have figured out that I'm likely not taking in enough calories for my activity level, but it might also be a side-effect of my anti-d. Tomorrow I've got another appt with the doc so I'll mention it.

Other than that I noticed myself worrying about the future a bit, so I've been trying to kick that into touch.

How is everyone? :hug: to all who'd appreciate them.

My name is Ryanne, I have been around for a few weeks, mostly lurking reading posts, and hanging out in the 100 pound support group... but I thought I'd come in here for some other than just weight loss support... and I hope you don't mind...cuz I'm kinda going through a rough spot right now. I have been diagnosed with Chronic Anxiety, Chronic Depression and Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. The current problem I am having in a switch in meds, Doc took me off Lexapro and changed it to Prozac and I am having a little side effects from the prozac and a lot of withdrawal from the Lexapro. Mainly agitation... and I am having a hard time with it right now. Doc says to give it 30 days, but if I really can't take it, they will switch me to something else. I'm afraid most of my agitation has been aimed at my Sweetheart, and I'm afraid if I don't learn to "control" this, I just may say something more that I shouldn't, which I've already said a lot that I shouldn't... I just don't want him being in the hot seat... I love him so much, and I am trying really hard. I just don't know what to do to keep from hurting him...and stay on track with the eating and all that... Right now, I am pms ing on top of it, so I swing between anger and wanting to cry.
I am a stay at home mom and I really have no friends left since I quit my job in March to stay at home with our youngest before he has to go to school next year, so we were down to one income when my husband had to be off work for a week for surgery and doesn't get paid for the week off.
So money is tight right now, and getting tighter.
I hate that I had to switch meds now... but I will just be glad when all these symptoms are over. I just needed some support in this from someone who might understand what I am going through. :hug:

Welcome Ryanne, looking forward to getting to know you better. Changing meds can be ****, I remember last summer when I was going through paxil with drawl as well as the new side effects of the wellbutrin, I was a complete wreck, it can improve tho. Good luck

Ambrosia how did you make out this weekend? Hope you are doing better.

Salsa good to hear you aren't having many problems with the new meds.

Hope how are the classes going?

mom where are you??

A big Hi and :grouphug: to all.


Still pretty quiet around here. Its definetly fall tho. DdC starts school tomorrow, her last year, wow. Having problems getting myself to phone my doctor's office. I need prescription refills, but I just don't want to deal with it. I better get over myself soon :)

Have a great day everyone and take care,
K

Ryanne - welcome! :hug:

Hi girls,

I haven't been here in few days but I've been reading. I feel like I've been at work every waking minute. When I haven't I've been preoccupied with my dogs fighting. I came home one day to find them bloody. It was terrible. It has completely stressed me out to the point I'm not sleeping and/or having nightmares. I'm afraid to leave them alone and constantly monitering them. We have been thinking we may have to give one away and that would kill me. I just don't trust anybody with them. They are like my kids. Tonight we bought them some of the training collars that gives them a gentle shock when they are getting out of hand. I hope that works. I have to try them on myself before I put it on them. I'm afraid to hurt them. Anybody ever use these?

Welcome to the newbies!

I've missed you guys. Still haven't gotten a handle on the food and exercise thing but I really need to try to feel better. I've been pretty down about myself lately and the stress at home hasn't helped.

Hope you all are doing well.

Morning!

Hope - :(. Have you had your dogs long? Is this a new behavior? You can try doing what parents do with people-size-children who fight - keep them at opposite ends of the house :).

Salsa - I'm glad the meds are behaving.

Ambrosia - You doing ok?

Bud - quiet is GOOD!

I havn't taken allergy medicin today, so even though my eyes are itchy and I keep sneezing - I'm 200% better than yesterday. Allergy medicin makes me useless! So no allergy meds - just coffee :)

Have a great day all!

I just wanted to say this is the first day I haven't felt symptoms of agitation, I did get dizzy a couple of times today... but other than that I am doing much better.
I also wanted to thank all who welcomed me. :)

Today's been ok, but ended a bit strange. My father's come over to visit; when things got really bad with me here he offered to come over for a few days. I was looking forward to it, but now that he's here (I met him at the station, took him to his hotel and then we had dinner) I don't know whether him being here will help (events in my youth have, I think, contributed to my problems).

I'm trying to just get some rest and take tomorrow when tomorrow happens. But it's hard not to sit here and analyse and project and interpret all kinds of stuff. I know I'm worrying too much, and I have control issues and need to let go and go with the flow, but it's so hard :(

How have your days been?

SOSDD... hope everyone has a good day!

Not much going on in here lately, huh? I miss everybody. I'm been somewhat MIA myself. A lot on my mind...

I have a test tomorrow I'm studying for and TOM is here. Blah. We found out today that dh has a pituitary tumor. It is not cancer but it has to be operated on soon. We don't have a date yet. I'm a little out of sorts with this. I'm not really too worried but I can't wait to get this resolved. Surgery is never a good thing.

Gotta run, I'll check in tomorrow after class.

Good Morning,

Ryanne glad your feeling better :hug:

Salsa, hope all went well with your dads visit. I'm sensing things went well... your a smartie ;)

Hope good luck with your test. Oh Thank God your DH will be ok.... surgery is tough but the outcome will be good. Smile sweetie, things will be ok.

Nothing new here, sosdd ;)

Got lots to do but no energy to do it...yadda yadda yadda.

Have a great week Chicks !! :hug:

Morning Chicks! I am silly busy with school, but all in a good way :) Came down with strep throat in the second week - I usually catch something, but usually a little later in September than that! Ah, the joys of being a teacher! :lol3: Had it treated straight away and feeling much better already.

Sorry not to catch up with you all individually - I've been away so long I don't even recognize everyone - but :welcome: to all our new members and big :grouphug: to the rest of the 'oldies' - !!!

I have to step up what I know I have to do to lose this last 25lbs, or I'll just comfortably eat too much cake and sit at this weight forever. Okay... 10 week boot camp, here I come!! :eek:

Chat soon,
Heather :D

Good Morning,

Hey Heather, good to see you.. good luck w/boot camp. Can't wait to see pictures :D

Nothing going on today, work, school for dd, vet visits for the pups... :D

How' is everyone today?

Hi everyone :)

Leenie, yes, things are going well. It's almost like I'm learning the art of non-confrontational conversation ;) I'm astounded! My father's here until Wednesday so we've only got a little bit of time left. We've been talking about lots of things, mainly his background, my mother's background, and all the events round them getting together, getting married, having me, and all that. It's been hard on both of us, but I know I've been trying really hard to be open and honest (hopefully without being painful) and I can tell he has too.

In other news, my personal trainer has told me not to weigh myself at home. My reaction to this has showed me how daily weigh-ins are such a part of my "control everything" thing I've got going on. Letting go of my daily scale is pretty scary :(

How are you all doing?

It's very quite around here lately... Haha, that being said my life is kind of boring right now :) I've been trying to figure out how to convince a friends she's about to marry the WRONG guy - from 300 miles away. Friend #2 lives in the same state as her and is meeting her later today. Hopefully she can convince her of it. Let's list the reasons he's crazy:

1. When he gets mad he either storms out, or relaxes by cleaning his shot gun
2. He accuses her of cheating on him every 2 minutes
3. He has posession of her phone and answers all of her calls.
4. He hides his kids' baby moitor around when she's having conversations with guests so he can monitor them
5. She works and pays all the bills and he can't hang onto a job for a week.
6. Despite the fact that he doesn't work, they have $$ for vacations and a new condo - and he's had a history of selling drugs. Wonder what he's doing now?!?

Sigh. WHY CAN SHE NOT SEE THIS IS A BAD THING!!!!!

Hello to everyone.
Salsa - letting go of the scale is HARD.
Heather - good luck with your bootcamp.

All - have a great day :hug:

Good Afternoon Chickies

It IS quiet in here... that could be a good thing right? everyone is busy having fun ;)

Wow Marbear... he's scary... imagine when they marry :fr: Control freaks scare me.

Salsa, hope the visit went well..today's the last day right? Personal trainer.. that is way to cool !!!!

Nothing new here, sosdd... just plodding along.

Whats up with you chickies?

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Hi everybody,

Wow, you can almost here crickets in here. ;)

Dh is having surgery in the next couple of weeks. I hope to know a date soon if not tomorrow. He is completely stressed out over this. He is stressing me out. I can't wait till this is over for both of our sakes.

I was on my way home from work today to go to the dr. with him and I almost couldnt get into our neighborhood due to all of the roads being blocked off b/c shots were fired at a nearby school. Nobody was hurt but it was kinda scary. Police were searching the woods and had the interstates blocked off. Scary days people.

Gotta run, I'm off friday and saturday so I'll try to catch up more then. Have a great day tomorrow everyone. If you feel the urge to say a prayer for dh, don't let me stop you. ;)

Hope - prayers for both you and your hubby.

Well, my father's visit is over, he left yesterday (I took him to the airport). I guess I can look forward to getting enough sleep each night now! But it was good that he was here, even if it wasn't always easy.

Tomorrow I have my first appt with the psychiatrist; all the notes about me from other doctors have been passed on. I'm kind of nervous about it, but I know it has to happen.

Does anyone else get frustrated that you can't say how long treatment/therapy will last? I'd like to be better now! At the same time I know the journey is important, and I can't rush these things, I have control issues, yardi yardi ;) *sigh*

Good Afternoon,

Hope... please let us know when DH gets his date for surgery so we can pray with you. I'd be stressed too... its scary.

Salsa your so smart :hug: I'm glad your visit w/dad went well. Good luck with your new doctor, I hope this person is the right one for you darlin.

Nothing new today, which is ok. We are still waiting for the end of the month to find out if we have our jobs. We are merging with another company and everyone here is on edge to say the least... but I'm trying to let it go... give it to God but its hard.

Other than that... things are good, no complaints ;)

Hope everyone is having a great Thursday.

Leenie

:hug: G'day ladies!

Hope - I'm sorry about all of the stress you're under, and my thoughts go out to you and your hubby. Keep us posted.

Lennie - Thoughts out to you as well as far as the merger is concerned. I have faith everything will turn out well for you. You're a great lady, great things will happen for you :)

Salsa - Glad the visit went well. I reccomend not thinking about an "end date" for therapy. It's a process, just go with the flow. You'll know when you're ready for it to end.

Shaming my exercise plan up a bit, as the hubby has decided to join me. Will elaborate later - being dragged to lunch by my co-worker.

Enjoy the day!

Happy Friday chickies!

My appt with the doc (a Real Proper Psych; everyone else up to now has been either a GP or someone in the temporary crisis care bit) is in about an hour. I'm getting nervous, but trying to take deep breaths and drink lots of water (I woke up late, so breakfast/lunch was suitably big, lol ;) ).

I'm going to feel much better about this once the first step is done. I am already getting better :) and I am the person principally making myself better, by getting help and following professionals' advice and getting more exercise and eating better and all that.

This "empowerment" stuff is weird :dizzy:

Leenie - you're so kind :) Thank you for saying I'm smart! :o :hug:

marbear - thanks so much for your words. I'll try to keep them in mind. It is a bit soon to be asking when it'll be over when I've barely started.

Hope - I know you're away, but I'm still praying.

I hope everyone has a good day. You ladies here are invaluable to me.

Hey Girls TGIF !!!

1/2 hr to go and I'm freeeeee. I love my job but I'm freeee ;) till monday that is. Tonight I won't be home until 9 PM, dd has swimming and pioneer girls... talk about tired haa !

Salsa you are smart :yes: and you don't need me to tell you..ya hear ;)

TY Marbear :hug:

Have a great Friday Chickies :hug:

Leenie

Hi ladies,

Dh's surgery is this coming wednesday, just found out for sure today. I'll have to let work know and switch my schedule around a bit. He'll probably be in the hospital for at least 3 days. It's just a waiting game now.

We've decided tonight to try and get a new home for one of our dogs. They got into another fight tonight and I can't take the stress of it anymore. Being gone most of this next week in hospital won't help. I just can't leave them alone together that long. I called a friend tonight and she is going to try to find somebody, which she is usually good at. I have to do this quickly before I change my mind again. It's like giving away one of your kids. It completely SUCKS! :(

I've got class tomorrow so I'll check in after that. Have a great weekend y'all.

Hope... :hug:

Hi everyone, here's to Saturday :)

Hope: big hugs for you, and more prayers.

Yesterday's appointment was a bit weird. First of all the psych asked if a student could sit in, which threw me completely. I managed to not just go with the flow - normally I would have said "Oh, sure" and then felt horribly uncomfortable - and say "No," and so there wasn't a student hanging around.

That might sound unfair but I was nervous enough meeting more new doctors and I wanted to minimise that as much as possible.

Then this psych...I don't think we really clicked. She was quite clinical and sterile in her manner. And the set-up of the room, ugh - we were sitting at her desk. I felt like I was at a job interview.

At the end another psych came in to talk for a bit (as "my" psych is in the last stages of her training). I guess I'm now Officially In Therapy. I'm to continue with my anti-d meds and use the sleeping meds only when necessary. Then they arranged for some blood tests to be done - anaemia, thyroid, etc.

In the evening - I can't believe I did this, this is why I'm typing it up! - I went to a party :dizzy: A friend of mine celebrated his birthday (he knows about my issues though, he has similar ones) and I was invited. So I dressed up a bit, even put make-up on :o and went along (I put a photo up in the progess pics thread in the 100lb club if anyone wants to drop an encouraging comment ;) ). It was all right, I felt a bit shy and uncomfortable at points, but managed to relax a bit. I actually felt good and somewhat attractive! And I got wolf-whistled whilst cycling to my friend's house - and I managed to respond with a smile rather than ignoring it or getting paranoid.

Today a friend is coming round for dinner, so I need to do some serious tidying up round here.

How are you all doing today?

Hi Ladies.

Jumping back in again.

Have a wonderful Sunday.

This is a great thread!!! Happy to be here!

HI everyone, hope you are having a good weekend.

Hope :hug: thoughts and prayers are with you.

Welcome Noellem, this is a great little corner and I look forward to getting to know you better.

Salsa hope you and your psych start to mesh.

Not much new around here. With kids going back to school most of us are sick with a stupid head cold. So things are moving in slow motion for me. Its kind of nice to have a routine again though, actually managing to get regular walks in. Usually a 25 min walk after getting DdC on the bus in the mornings and another 45 min walk 3 times a week while she is in judo. Definitely helps my mental state.

Should go and do something.

Take care everyone,
K

Back for another try....how has everyone been?

Morning everyone!!:wave: I fell off the wagon :stress:and ive been running:running: after it trying to catch up:whoo:!! So I finally got back here:cheer2:....I got so down I had gained 6-8 lbs:sorry: just depending on what day it was. I want control:drill: of my life but every time I am close to it its like I trip and fall and roll down the hill:stars:.... I am thinking about going on a short juice fast :chin:to detox and break some crappy eating habits:corn::cbg:.

Still Extremely busy:whoo:...Just started homeschooling my 5 + 6 year old and having a hard time keepin on track cause I feel blah:cry:...I was getting up early and doing it and had all my stuff done before the girls got up (2 + 3):carrot: but then I couldnt get myself outta bed :faint:so I have been doing their school when I do nap time but i dont feel as motivated about it:no:.

My foster teenager has been giving me a really crappy time:tantrum: for about a month and a half....she has ranaway:running:, cut, stole food:chockiss: and money, lied, smoked in the house:smoking:,:fr: and she thinks we are going to do legal gaurdianship with her:yikes:?? Is she crazy :rollpin:...feb will be 3 years we have had her and this is the worst time ever:dizzy:UGHH...

We have been busy with the youth. :crazy:We took them to six flags sat. and i am wayy sore from it i feel like I cant move:fr:!! When we took over the youth last may (08) we started with 7 kids now we have 25-28 kids:spin:. Right now we are working on purchasing a building for teen ministry right down from the school.:crossed: We are going to do an after school program. :yes:

Also,I just recently took over the church drama team :dancer:(WHICH i absolutely love!!! that is my heart). I am making them work hard for a drama :dance:this sat for our youth night!! :rollpin:

Then I teach Kids church once a month and :chin:considering doing it more cause the kids ask all the time if im teaching them (even my own kids want me to teach it...weird!!):shrug: I do it like a mini youth service with music:cp: and not just sit around a table :nono:with papers and lessons!!

I just bought a really really good organization book:hyper: and it teachs about making box holders with dividers from like shoe boxes and cake mix boxes...then a pencil and misc holder with caprisun box and yogurt containers..really really good book:yes:. I am sooo tired of looking for stuff:headache: and not finding it or trying to clean up and stuff not having a place:sp:....

When you have 5 kids wait 6 including my dh then you have to be organized :yes:because its very frustrating tryin to leave and not being able to find shoes or socks or a brush:tantrum:...then my husband and kids can NEVER find anything:bomb: I will walk right where they were looking and pick it up from right under their nose:dunno:...UGHHH WHY CANT THEY SEE:frypan:?????

Ok well I guess I have rambled :blah:on long enough to catch all of you up on my life for the last month.... I probably need to go since my children have the cushions off the couch:yikes: and are using them as slids?!? I mean REALLY:?:!?!

G'day girlies. Welcome to the new. Not too much here. I'm feeling good... for now. I get to go to the docs today for my physical (frickin' joy...) and get reamed out for being fat. hooray! I'm probably not going to be feeling as good this afternoon! I do need to talk to her about my meds and such so we shall see.

Salsa - I'm glad you said no to the student. You def need a therapist you are comfortable with. If you don't "do" white and steril ask her for an environment change.

Hope - hope everything is ok with you and yours! :Hug:

Mom - Welcome back! ;)

Pure - you came back! For a couple seconds at least :) Looking forward to a laonger post.

Everyone else - have a good day!

marbear-I get to go to the drs for physical too and probably get yelled at for the weight gain...but I told them because I want my thyroid checked cause I have symptoms of thyroid problems....suddne weight gain, losing hair, constantly tired and sluggish.... so I am with ya on that one!!

so Yeah dr. pretty much said I am having energy problems and issues because of my weight...he is such a sweet dr. He is older and we have seen him for several years. I asked him after he was done if it wasnt the lab work what could the prob. be he said the easiest thing but the hardest thing to fix...weight. He asked what I weighed in high school and in my 20's I said well I weighed 121ish out of school. He said well carrying around 100 extra lbs is probably a lot of the lack of energy and sluggishness...its a good point my body has to carry around all this extra weight of course its gonna run out of energy...BUT TO FIX IT SEEMS LIKE IMPOSSIBLE even though I know its not...ughhhh
I need a total life makeover...for reall....
1. work on what I am eating and eating healthy things
2. excercise and move every day
3. get my house organized
4. get my kids and my life on some what of a basic schedule
5. get a better consistant way of correcting my kids
6. Learn how to and be on time (reading a mags about how we say we have to leave at this time or we have to be there at this time but we never give a "load" time...so true for me we may walk out the door at the time we had to leave but loading is a chore in its self)
7. have more patience(even though everyone asks me how I am so patient I dont feel I am esp at home I tend to go off or lose it more than I would like...)
8. keep a checkbook balanced
9.be better at handling money
10.learn how to save money

I am just a mess and complete and total mess...even though I look like I have it together to everyone else I am really falling apart and just making it look good...UGH Why

why cant I do what I know I have to like answering to myself is no motivation. If I had a job I would get up and go to it but I cant make myself get up earlier or even at the same time every day...ok ok im shutting up just venting and writing stuff out seems to help me sort it in my head...but things better get fixed soon!!

:wave: @ Beautiful Chickies

:welcome: Noel !!!

LIZ !!!!!!!!!! hey purdy mama, whats shakin with you? I'm so glad your back.. do tell, do tell :hug:

Hope... many prayers for DH and you girlie :hug: I know you both must be anxious about Wednesday.

Purefire, Mom, Buddly, Marbear, Salsa and the rest of the Ladies :hug:

Gotta run... toodles and have a great night.

Leenie

My phsyical wasn't bad - for what it was. Most awkward and horrible 5 minutes of the year! My doctor wasn't mean about my weight - though I think that's because she thinks I'm doing "good things" to loose weight. We shall see... My blood pressure was really good too - which is odd, as I normally have a bit of blood in my caffeine system ;). 120/72. Weird. Maybe it's all of the exercise. Funny thing was I had a slight fever, which the nurse let me brush off as being warm from my workout earlier in the day. Then the doc came in - apparently I have a sore throat too. Good thing I can no longer tell the difference betwee stress and being sick! Ha! Perhaps I need a vacation...

Mom - I can jump on the "being more organized with my finances boat". I work for a bank, you'd think I'd like - balance my checkbook or something along those lines once in a while, huh? :o I think that getting a schedule down will make everything else a bunch easier :hug:

Hope - big :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: I hope you get the hugs before tomorrow, as I'm sure you could use them.

Everyone else... do a :carrot: its one day closer to the weekend!

well I actually got up and did the boys school and worked on some things. I wrote out therules and consequences. My mother in law was a case worker that tried to help families fix problems before the kids were taken away and I was telling her bout somethings with my foster daughter. So she gave me some ideas that worked with my boys and my fostd. So I worked on it. I would put the kids in the corner but not track how long or anything so now I set the timer and start it over if they are going to be bad while standing there. Just some other things.
I just have to stay focused. I gotta find the time to do the work out...ate pretty crappy already today!! Ok well gotta get kids lunch!!

Have a good day

Mar-thats awesome your appt went well!!

Hey Chickies!

I only have a few minutes today because...I AM GOING TO EXERCISE CLASS!!! :) Finally! Actually, I am going to try Power Pump and then possibly do a yoga class as well...nothing like throwing yourself back into the thick of it right? Things are going pretty good except for the weight gain...having trouble sticking with the no sugar life...have slipped back in...been eating way too much and I am simply refusing to get on the scale right now...I know it is ugly and I am just not going to suck my hope out of my life right now...

Hope...big hugs girlie...I am sending much positive energy your way for your DH...

Mom...your life makes me tired just reading about it...hang in there girl...

To all the other lovelies have a fabulous day!!!

luv luv everybody!!!

Raven

Soooo thyroid test came back fine...reason for my appointment was stated as overweight..its very depressing seein that wrote on the dr stuff...

Silly me I said I would play in an alumni soccer game at the end of oct. They needed girls and so I dont know why but i said yeah!! I guess i figured that would MAKE me work out...ugh what did I do??

I didnt get alot accomplished I had to send dh and ds to soccer practice while I went with the others to drama practice...had to teach the rest of the song for sunday!! It went ok but I was very snappy but I didnt feel well all day!

Have a VERY VERY messy house...Hours to clean minutes to trash!! But I really am not into cleaning it right now...Kinda pooped from the day... but it all starts again tomorrow..

Ok thats bout it
raven-have a good day, have fun with all your physical activities wish I could jump in there like that!!

Quick update...Dh had his surgery this morning. It went great and things look good. Thanks to everyone for their prayers and well wishes. I'm just home on a quick break to let the dogs out. I haven't even seen him yet. I'm getting ready to head back to the hospital now. Check in later.

Hope :hug: I'm so happy for you all. Here's to a speedy gentle recovery for your DH.


FYI !!!

I will be traveling in the next few days, so if you need any assistance please do not hesitate to contact any of the other mods, or super mods Jennifer / Suzanne 3FC's.

:hug: and have a great weekend ladies.

Love yah !!

Just got home for the night from the hospital. Dh has a major headache which is no surprise. I would have stayed if I wasn't dealing with dogs here at home. I guess a good night's sleep in my own bed wouldn't hurt though. Hope you are all well. I am reading but haven't had time to do personals. Love you gals though!

Night, night...

Hope, I am so happy that the surgery went well. :hug: prayers for a speedy recovery as well.

Leenie have a safe trip.

Hi Liz! welcome back! How have you been doing?

Raven congrats on getting back into the exercise groove!

marbear those are great b/p numbers!! Hope you are feeling better and aren't catching the colds that seem to be hitting every where.

Mom how are things going? I hope you get a few minutes just for you out of your over packed schedule!

Noell How are things?

Well I'm finally starting to feel better, at least I don't need medicine to breath, always a good thing. We had such a beautiful day today, really warm and breezy, I am so glad I met up with my friend and went for a good long walk. And I really savoured it as they are calling for showers or flurries on Monday, depending on the temps, ewww.
I have to smarten up and get organized as my mom and I are planning on leaving town for a week on Saturday. Head down to her old home town as she hasn't been there since she moved here four years ago. She feels like she is in a rut so we figure a little road trip will do us both good.

So take care everyone,
K

Morning Ladies

Things have been kinda hectic here. I started going back to school last week and I am still getting use to it.
Diet is completely horrible.

Getting back into a schedule and trying to fit everything in.

Longer post coming later.

hope-glad surgery went ok...hope you get sum rest!!

Eventful day...busted teen smoking before school again, pharmacy was slow filling script for dh so i suffered for it because he had to do the boys school while I went to the store and I wasnt back when he wanted..i literally broke down while i was cooking him food. I had myself so worked up i didnt eat... then drama practice went well, got some cleaning done, working on laundry, and gonna put a movie on....
trying to leave on a retreat for the weekend!

hi girls,

Mom, you need to take it easy on yourself, it's not your fault the pharmacy is slow. Your husband needs to realize that too. It's not going to kill him to help with school. I can't imagine doing all that you do.

Buddly, glad to hear you are feeling better. I know it's been a long road for you in getting the meds right.

Purefire, I hear you on the school thing and getting everything scheduled and done. My eating sucks.

Liz, I'm glad your back. I remember seeing you when I first started posting here. How are you doing this week.

Dh is getting to come home tomorrow. He is doing so well and I'm relieved. I will pick him up after my class in the morning. I can't wait. It has been a long and strange week. I feel so lucky ( though I complain too much), that I have the good things in life that I do. Other people are going through so much worse it seems like. I need to count my blessings more.

night night

Hi, jumping back in here. I have had an interesting September....lots of stress, good and bad. I am looking forward to October, lots of family birthdays and Halloween, my favorite holiday! :dracula::bat:

I had recent pdoc and reg doc visits and they were both very pleased that I have lost weight. My regular doc wants me to shoot for 160....I agreed to 180 and then re-evaluate at that time. My pdoc upped my lithium, reduced my risperdal and kept the lexapro the same. I am feeling very hyper and up and although I am concerned about that I feel good overall.

I am working on mindfulness techniques with my therapist and I am not quite sure how to apply them to my weight loss journey. I have been sticking on plan with only one bad binge this month, I forgave myself and moved on.

Have a good weekend everyone!!!!!:grouphug:

Hope - Glad the DH is doing well! :hug: I think once he get setles home you deserve a relaxing "you" day.

Mom - Sorry the teenager and your DH are stressing you out :( I'm glad the rest of your day went well though.

Bud - Glad you're feeling better.

Pure - Where's our longer post?!? Haha :D hope everything is going well with you.

I had a nt so good day yesterday. I have shin splints (maybe stress fratures) and I feel into the "great I'm so fat I' breaking my bones" mood. Ooof. Not good. Plus money is really frustrating me. I start student teahing in the spring, so money right now is a concern beause I won't be working in the Spring. (Student teaching is an unpaid internship). Blah.

My ladies, have a reat day! It looks to be a beautiful Saturday in ME, hope the sun is shining everywhere else. :sunny:

Marbear, nope, rainy and dreary here. I like rainy days though. :rain: Money is always an issue for me too. That's why I'm going back to school as well.

Hydra, it's good to have you back. Getting your meds right can be a challenge. Good for you in forgiving yourself for a slip. That's half the battle.

Dh is home but having a hard time getting comfy to sleep. He still has to be propped up. I have to go back to work tomorrow but I will come home to check on him at lunch. It's been a long week.

I need to get back on the exercise wagon. I've been stuffing myself all week and feel very fat.

Hope you are all having a good weekend.

Hello Ladies :wave:

I started school on Sept 14th and its been really hectic. I'm still trying to get back into the whole being back to school after 12 years. Going on week 3 and I already have midterms which start tomorrow. I've been driving myself crazy and doing things like I never did in high school, note taking, flash cards... so. So far I seem to be doing ok and have been getting very good grades on all the quizzes I've been taking. But I keep reminding myself that this is a positive goal and I 9 months I will have my certificate for a great job and if I want I can continue school for an even better job.

My diet has been straight up terrible. I hit a weight I haven't seen in 7 years. So I am not happy with myself on that end. I've been eating really poorly and I haven't been exercising at all. I haven't gotten on the scale in over a week I just don't want to see the results.

Thru unemployment I finally have insurance again. Which is good because I need to go to the doctor and have something done about my meds. They are working but then at the same time they are not working. I want to stay on what I am on but what to be put on something else.

Plus I have been sick with a nasty cold for the last week so its been really hard to do anything.

I guess I am done with my little ramble.. Have a wonderful Sunday Ladies :hug:

Marbear, how are the knees felling?

Purefire, how did school go today? Do you go everyday?

Heather, what about school for you? How are things?

Mom, how did the weekend go?

Gotta close at work tonight so getting ready to go in. Miss seeing everybody daily...

Was a good weekend...Rainy and dreary today, but the kids slept in. After I killed myself getting everything done friday all I come home to a messy house again...I hate clothes stacked up and instead of just folding them for me he just kept piling them on a clothes basket not even in their own basket...UGHHHHHHHHHH

I need to go clean and get clothes done and kids lunch...so much to do!!

Morning chickas -
Shins still suck, but that is life. I've been busting butt on the elliptical since I can't run. I've been taking vitabin B every morning and I've seen a significant improvement in my moods. Almost eerie.

Hope - Hope the hubby is doing well.

Mom - *Breath* It's just laundry :) You'd have a heart attack in my apt if messy laundry stresses you out! Speaking of, I really do need to fix mine!

Pure - Sorry you're stressed, but glad you're back in school.

All - :hug:

I'm Claudia and I'm back to the Forum after a long break.

I've had major depressive disorder for years, but for the past 3 months it has been getting out of control. Since I am an ER RN, I was able to ask for help before things got totally out of hand.

I reached out to my work and psychiatrist and am on my second week of an adult partial program to deal with my illness. We are manipulating my medications, and I am getting intense group and individual therapy.

The issue with that is that since I am finally addressing years of suppressed emotions, my eating is getting a little out of hand.

I am vegetarian and have very healthy eating habits, but when anxious, or trying to hide, I OVER eat. So today, after having some intense therapy, I came home and ate a LOT of healthy food.

Now I am stuffed, and feeling lousy. BUT, I am happy and proud of myself for having come here and faced it all rather than beating myself up and talking negatively to myself. I guess I am becoming kinder and more accepting of not being perfect...

Thanks for listening.

Peace,

Claudia

Its not sooo much that it stresses me out cause it usually doesnt until I cant find stuff then it really bugs me because with the 4 younger kids and my dh always needing stuff i cant stand digging thru baskets of clothes to find stuff...it was that I worked my BUTT off friday to get the laundry caught up. I left with a load drying, one washing, and one left to do...instead of my dh folding the last two as they came out he just stacked them on a basket in a big heap then washed a few blankets...it just sucked because I had it caught up and he left it "pile" up on me...lol... but I have come to the point that laundry is laundry and there is ALWAYS going to be dirty laundry no matter how much I do laundry. So...yeah!!


was a pretty good day not very much stress...so hey I am doing good!!

leenie and cathy where are you! I posted a while back....have to start coming regular....started counting points last week, taking the stairs at work and pushing the fluides...lost 7 lbs so far!
How the heck is everyone here?
Liz

SOS DD.

Hello to Claudia!

Mom - Yes. I've had to come to that realization myself. I let laundry pile up for like ... two weeks. (Yeah, I'm bad) - then I do it ALL in one weekend. Once I'm done, if my husband wants to shower I almost cry because I know that means his clothes now go into the "dirty clothes" and the evil cycle starts again!

Liz - Awesome on the 7lbs!

Everyone else :hug:
Have a fantastic day!

:wave: to Everyone,

:welcome: Claudia

Liz... I'm here, just very busy these days with work. Actually insane is more like it. I'm so happy your here. 7 LBS woweeeeeeeeeeee girl, thats fantastic, how are you doing it?


Gotta run... time to pick up my DD :hug:

Toodles ;)

now that it is getting gloomy out I am looking into a gym...not just to work out but to get me out of the house as well as the kids. They have a thing mon thru fri 9-12 for kids instead of normal child care and teach them to stretch and stuff!!

I had a rough weekend. Almost no sleep and had to force myself to eat. I was too wired for getting serious about exercising. I feel much better as of today and I have a call into my pdoc to see her for a med adjustment.

I am off tomorrow and I have my granddaughter right now so that always makes my day! I am still on plan and I need to get motivated to exercise more this week.

Weather is messing with me i have been sneezing and runny nose with sore throat all day...blahhh...having some rough times!