Introductions - I'm Back. With My Head Hanging Down in Shame.

So, back I crawl, head low, mad at myself and sick about what I have allowed myself to come to.

I joined last year and was doing so well... Lost over seventy pounds and was chugging right along. Then we moved, I broke my scale, all **** broke loose around here (I won't bore you with the details) and I just lost focus. I was depressed, angry and unhappy and dealt with those emotions the only true way I know how. That's right, folks, I stuffed my face.

A lot.

In the time since I last posted here (in January) I have managed to put most of my lost weight back on. Not all of it. I think... I no longer own a scale so I am not sure but by the way my clothes fit and the way I feel, I have managed to stop myself short of that total disaster.

I have recently gotten myself back on track. I still have things to work out and things I need to work on. But I just can't go on gaining weight.

So, if it is okay, I would very much like to re-join this community.

Welcome back!!! :) I am sure lots of us (me included) understand that tale.

Thanks. :D

That is one of the only ways I was able to drag my arse back here, knowing that I am not alone and that the lovely people here wouldn't judge me as harshly as I would...

I hear ya!!! I am STILL my own worst critic I think. Some days are better than others :)

Sorry to hear that things went so bad for you. But it is good that you are working on getting yourself back to where you want to be.

I am returning today too... again! We can hang our heads in shame together. ;) Seriously though, coming back is a reason to lift our heads UP. We haven't given up and we should celebrate that!

Welcome back, Rain Dancer :D

We can do this! Don't give up on yourself.

Hugs
Michelle

Sorry to hear that things went so bad for you. But it is good that you are working on getting yourself back to where you want to be.

Thank you. :flow1: I have some work to do but I am hoping I get there. :D

I am returning today too... again! We can hang our heads in shame together. ;) Seriously though, coming back is a reason to lift our heads UP. We haven't given up and we should celebrate that!

You are right. It is a good thing, isn't it? At least we haven't given up. :D

Welcome back, Rain Dancer :D

We can do this! Don't give up on yourself.

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Michelle

Thank you. :D

I am not giving up. I am just having to get back into a good frame of mind. :D

No shame necessary, pride that you've come back, confidence that you can do it.

If you can manage it, get yourself a new scale or find a doctor's/gym/store scale that you can use regularly. Yes, the number will be hideous but next week you'll see a difference, and that's such a motivator. Good luck!

No shame necessary, pride that you've come back, confidence that you can do it.

If you can manage it, get yourself a new scale or find a doctor's/gym/store scale that you can use regularly. Yes, the number will be hideous but next week you'll see a difference, and that's such a motivator. Good luck!


Thank you for your words of encouragement.

I'll get a scale, soon. I am just not ready to get in it, just yet. lol

I'm guessing that the vast majority of people reading your post have similar stories. We've all done well losing, only to gain it back again. This isn't to say that gaining it back is inevitable, but to serve as a caution that we aren't done when we lose--we need to learn to maintain!

So maybe just consider these last few months as a training ground, as a warning. And welcome back! This is a great place, as you know, and you'll soon be back in the game!

Thank you for your welcome back and your kind response and encouragement, Windchime. :D

A single battle lost, but not the war. Just keep looking ahead and we'll all be here to fight with you!

Welcome back! :)

The only difference between you and me is that you left the board. I was here all along. Losing gaining losing gaining losing ... It's incredibly common. How else can we learn what really works ;)

Don't be a stranger! Stick with us.

A single battle lost, but not the war. Just keep looking ahead and we'll all be here to fight with you!

Thank you for that. :D

Welcome back! :)

Thank you. I am happy to be back. :D:D

The only difference between you and me is that you left the board. I was here all along. Losing gaining losing gaining losing ... It's incredibly common. How else can we learn what really works ;)

Don't be a stranger! Stick with us.

I think that was a big factor in my recant failure... I ran away. I was embarrassed and didn't want to admit I was having such a rough time of it so I just bolted. I think that I would have been better off sticking around. :^:

I am not going to be a stranger and I am going to try to stick closer, this time. :D:D:D

If this recent time has taught me anything is that I need support and to give it and that I still have sooo much to learn and so much work to do.

Thank you. I am happy to be back. :D:D

You're very welcome! :)

Welcome back! YOU CAN DO IT THIS TIME. It's really just mind over matter. You have to just teach yourself new ways to deal with emotions that aren't knee-jerk reactions of eating (overeating.) But you can do it. No doubt about it! :)