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07-24-2009, 08:56 PM
I have been super stressed out this summer because of the run around I've been getting with my 8 year old and a diagnosis....it's either PDD-NOS or bipolar. Today he tried something that totally shocked me and just sent me over the edge. I don't know how to handle him anymore and with school starting soon I just don't know *sigh*

So now I'm sitting here feeling a bit guilty....I binged slightly on a ww blueberry muffin, an extra frozen fruit bar, 14 extra ff pringles and a 100 calorie pack of grasshoppers. I haven't ate that much junk in over a year :( Now I feel all yucky and my eye is still twitching in frustration.

Blah...I need a break :lol:

I straightened myself out right after though....I just felt like I needed to be held accountable ;)

07-24-2009, 09:22 PM
My kid (now 20yo) was dx'd with NVLD, CAPD, SAD, and Depression... there were times - I understand the frustration and the guilt.

If you need another board to help with that issue, I used: http://www.conductdisorders.com/ It's a great place for .. as they say: "soft place to land for the battle-weary parent."

07-24-2009, 10:45 PM
Sorry you are so stressed...hope things calm down soon. I am terrible with food and stress too.

07-24-2009, 11:38 PM

07-25-2009, 12:15 AM
I don't have children, but i know my share of "it pushed me over the edge & I want to throw myself off a curb moments!" You sound like your ok back on track, i try to come up with a plan. so the next time im looking over the side of the curb contemplating throwing myself off... i know exactly what to go. like hit the treadmill, even if you've already worked out for the day. or just going for a drive. anything that takes you out of that place.

07-25-2009, 10:02 AM
I so feel for you! My oldest has behavior issues. He is ODD and ADHD which we don't medicate (ODD is unmedicatable anyway). This is part of why we homeschool. There are days when I just can't take it any more :( Just remember, you can do better tomarrow :hug:

I second www.conductdisorders.com!!

07-25-2009, 11:06 AM
Thanks ladies....I'll check out that other website.

I know there are others reading my first post and can't believe I would call that a binge but in all honesty that was for me. It wasn't planned and I ate junk, no matter how few calories the stuff I ate carried. I was an emotional binger before and I suspect it will always be something I have to fight against. I just don't keep things like nacho cheese Doritos, little debbies, full fat ice cream, cookie dough, etc in my home anymore. Not even for my family.

I normally do exercise or get busy when I feel stressed but with my other two children picking up on my mood it was like a tag team match and I was the sore loser.

Today is another day. I signed up for a pole dancing class on August 4th to get me out of the house and I'm feeling better after a hard run early this morning :)

07-26-2009, 12:16 AM
((hugs)) I work for a children's mental health agency in Ontario, we have a lot of funding to provide services to kids on the spectrum, there's so many different and varying levels. Hopefully there's something around where you are? even just to talk to someone who understands is a blessing to a lot of folks. All the best.

07-26-2009, 12:23 AM
I know there are others reading my first post and can't believe I would call that a binge but in all honesty that was for me. It wasn't planned and I ate junk, no matter how few calories the stuff I ate carried. I was an emotional binger before and I suspect it will always be something I have to fight against.

It doesnt matter what you ate hon, its all about HOW you felt when you reached out and ate for reasons other than hunger. So, hugs to you :hug: Goodonya for recognising it and moving on. That is HUGE!

ps. and yay for pole dancing class!! Some of my most "conservative" friends have done them at hens (bachelorette) parties and had sooooo much fun!!! Looks like a great workout too.

07-26-2009, 03:08 AM
I'm right there with you in a way. My son is almost 8 and we've dealt with issues for as long as I can remember, they don't believe it's ADHD, but we don't have people up here that he can see, so we deal. He's definitely got sensory issues and he's impulsive. This week has been more violent behaviour which is not something he usually does so I was in the same boat, luckily I did not react in anyway except tears in my van after a meeting with this daycamp workers. I'm glad you caught yourself and are back on track.

07-26-2009, 10:56 AM
I don't have kids, but I do hope everything works out and you're able to get some clarity on what his diagnosis is, so you know what you can do to improve things.

Great job handling the stress with only a small slip and continuing on with exercise. :)

07-26-2009, 04:27 PM

Sorry to hear about all that. :(

If it makes you feel any better.... my brother Matt (who's now 19, and has been living with me for the past year and a half because of his father's illness and death) had HORRIBLE ADHD growing up... passed on from his dad who was almost worse, except for the fact that he was older and not so hyper... and still deals/struggles with it..... but he has turned out to be the most AMAZING, strong, determined kid I know. He pulled all his childhood and middle school bad grades up to AB honor roll in high school, graduated on his own with only my help... and even now that his dad has passed and he's no longer on insurance and cannot even get his meds (for the past 3 or 4 months)..... but he's still rockin it and strong. And going places. Growing up he was so frustrated, and still gets that way, but now he's come to realize what it does and tries his best to keep from losing his cool with it, and letting it dominate his actions and his life.

These kids can do it.... they DO get through it, and quite often it makes them amazing, wonderful people for it. All we can really do is support them and keep them afloat until they know they can do it on their own... and you know what? It's so worth it in the end.

07-26-2009, 04:36 PM
I had childhood onset bipolar, I wasn't diagnosed until 14, but was sick far before that, and didn't get real treatment until I was 18 because my family was against it.

It took me five years to find the right meds, some are luckier than I. I"ve been MOSTLY stable for about 5 years now, since Abilify. It was really hard growing up, I won't lie, but I wish Ihad had a supportive family structure like the one you are giving to your son by seeking help. My fam was so against it, now they are thrilled I'm on meds cuz I'm not freaking out on THEM anymore. ha!

Hope all goes well.

07-26-2009, 07:55 PM
It makes me so sad to hear of people against helping their loved ones, despite the fact that it's obviously something they need. *sigh*

Some things just can't be helped....

07-27-2009, 11:55 AM
I have two special needs children myself, so I can realate in some ways. Hang in there, and forgive yourself. You have done such an amazing job.
Sending you a hug.

07-27-2009, 04:34 PM
:hug: I think it's good to realize that food is always going to be an issue. I know for me it will. I have a special needs child too, and it didn't help my already bad food habits. He is much better now that he's older and so am I. Hang in there, Tanee. Take care of yourself as well as your son.

07-28-2009, 01:17 AM
Thanks chickies :)

I'm glad and sad that I'm not alone...if that makes sense lol

Tomorrow his pediatrician wants me to come in for some results....I'm nervous as all get out but I can handle it. I haven't slipped since the other day. Today I totally cleaned my house since it stormed but yesterday we spent a lot of time outside either walking and looking for bugs or jumping on the trampoline.

I figure once in 14 months isn't too bad :)