100 lb. Club - A year from now, you'll be glad you started today
07-22-2009, 10:07 PM
One year ago today, I stepped on my scale and saw the proof of what I already knew was true. Still, it was shocking to see the highest number I have ever seen on the scale: 228 lbs. I swore, the last time, that I would never be above 200 lbs again. And yet there I was. Fat. Lethargic. Depressed. And now, disgusted with myself.
The only reason I stepped on the scale on July 22, 2008 was the fact that I had a plan. I was going to try this Weight Watchers plan that had worked for my mother – and this time, it was going to work. I didn’t like living this way. I felt uncomfortable and ill at ease. Especially around people I had never met before. I had little desire to go out with friends or with my husband. I was unmotivated and spent my life watching TV and eating. My husband and I rarely had sex, partly because I was embarrassed about how I looked, and (although he will not admit this to me) partly because my husband no longer found me physically attractive. In September, I was about to embark on a new chapter of my life – graduate school. And, by God, I was going to be thinner when I got there.
And so I began. I didn’t eat a super healthy diet right away, but I did manage to write down what I was eating and stay within my points. I started exercising on the third day – walking on the treadmill at what I thought was a very brisk pace (of about 2.3 miles per hour :lol:). I was slow, but I was moving. And, more importantly, I was proving I could exercise and not die.
I set up mini-goals for myself – lose 15 lbs by my anniversary (done!), lose 20 lbs by the start of school (done!) and many others. I also decided to break my weight loss into 10% mini goals – this is how I decided on my goal weight of 134 lbs. It’s five 10 percent blocks from where I started. So, my goals were 205, 184, 166, 149 and 134. So far, I have reached four of those goals. :D
I found exercise that I could commit to – some I love (hot yoga and swimming) and some I like (weight lifting and hiking) and some I am learning to like more (running). Speaking of swimming, I now own two bathing suits! For years, I have not even owned one!
I have struggled, cried and rebelled during the past year. I have eaten food I didn’t even really want just to prove that I was still allowed. I have stopped exercising for a few weeks once or twice. I have worried about eating at restaurants. I have obsessed about the scale. I have developed a group of women at my school with whom I exercise and talk about life. I love these women. I have wanted to quit – but never more than I wanted to succeed. I have forgiven myself. Not only for the small struggles along the way, but for not caring about myself enough to do this before. I have found a whole new person inside of me – and I love her.
Today, I run and dance and laugh and play. I eat food that I love in portions that will only nourish me and make me stronger. Well, most of the time, anyway. ;) My depression has lifted. My husband can’t keep his hands off me. I have so much energy, I am constantly thinking of new things to do to fill what little spare time I manage to wrestle out of my day. (hmm... maybe wrestling? :lol: )
Oh, and I lost 85 lbs.
07-22-2009, 10:12 PM
CONGRATS! This is amazing and inspiring. Thank you!
I love this quote:
"I have wanted to quit – but never more than I wanted to succeed. "
I will keep that in mind! :)
07-22-2009, 10:15 PM
That was just what I needed to hear today.
Thank you for the inspiration!!
07-22-2009, 10:17 PM
Your story is very motivational, thank you so much for sharing.
I don't know what it's like to have a year of success, only what it's like to look back and wonder why I DIDN'T change my lifestyle a year ago. I'm tired of that, so hopefully, in a year I can know what it's like to actually be proud.
Congrats on reaching your goals, I'm very happy for you! :)
07-22-2009, 10:18 PM
Actually, I just put this pic: http://www.trackdiet.com/img/weight_loss_scale.jpg with your quote....on a word doc and printed it out and put it on my fridge. :D
07-22-2009, 10:23 PM
I'm so glad I read this post today. I've been having a pretty discouraging evening and this really was a nice pickup. I'm going to bookmark this so I can go back to it later!
07-22-2009, 10:26 PM
Thank you for posting this!
07-22-2009, 10:27 PM
:congrat: You are so right!
One year can make a HUGE difference (it was an 85 lb. difference for me too :))
07-22-2009, 10:29 PM
*tear. You made me cry like a baby. Because it is all so true and genuine and speaks to my heart. A year from now I WILL be glad I started this and I will be so proud.
Congratulations, and thanks for the inspiring post.
07-22-2009, 10:39 PM
Amazing! Congrats :hug:
07-22-2009, 11:03 PM
Your story inspired me. I am starting my own weight loss journey tomorrow; your post could not have come at a better time. Congratulations!
07-22-2009, 11:31 PM
Thanks for that Mrs Wolf. I've been feeling anxious and impatient today. It's good to be reminded of what I have to look forward to
07-22-2009, 11:33 PM
You are where I want to be, girl! What an amazing job! Thanks for posting your story and congrats on your awesome success!! :carrot:
07-23-2009, 12:09 AM
You are an amazing woman and I hope to be as successful as you have been in totally transforming my life in a year. Your post is one that I will be re-reading when I am having a tough time and in need of inspiration. Thanks so much for posting your story. I really needed to read that today.
07-23-2009, 12:16 AM
Oh Heather. I am so happy for you. Your post was brilliant and I found myself nodding my head up and down in agreement throughout.
Congratulations on a spectacular, life-transforming year.
Oh and I'm going to PM Sandi and ask that she sticky this in the section for posts to remember. Because this my dear is a keeper.
Thighs Be Gone
07-23-2009, 12:17 AM
WOOT! WOOT! It's simply all I can say! HIGH FIVE SISTER! I could have written most your post MYSELF!
That's us overhead! :)
p.s. Edited to add--I began my journey just before you! -83 pounds and counting! Yes, an amazing year!
07-23-2009, 12:21 AM
I have chills. All so well said! Congratulations on your transformation!
07-23-2009, 12:27 AM
Tears. Yes Robin please get this stickied because EVERYONE needs to read it. I am sitting here at 11 months and one week...three more weeks and it will be my one-year anniversary.
One year ago, July 2008, I weighed <>370 lbs. I used to do things like...
Deliberately oversleeping so I could rationalize driving into work and parking in the parking garage, so I didn't have to walk 2-3 blocks to the Metro, and from Metro to my office. I didn't want to walk **3** blocks because I was huffing and puffing by the time I got to my desk.
Getting hot and sweaty from just taking a bath.
Bathing only every other day, just didn't care enough to bathe every day.
Wore tennis shoes EVERY DAY 2005-2008.
Wore SWEAT PANTS and sloppy ts or sloppy sweatshirt EVERY DAY 2004-2008. Every day.
Could only manage going up/down stairs maybe 3 times a day, no more.
I didn't go to my 20th HS reunion, I was too fat. (Boy I'm really crying now y'all.) And so, so many other things.
That was one year ago, just one short year. During that year I turned 40, and instead of being traumatic, it was exhilerating. Now, I go hiking! I wear high heels! I walk 3 miles a day! I keep my house spotless! I RUN LIGHTLY up and down stairs ALL DAY.
Losing weight isn't magic. Nothing special. It was just time, I had the click, I committed, I did it. And here I am. If I hadn't, who knows where I'd be right now. Drinking, smoking, eating like I was...early heart attacks run in my family.
Heather, I feel you. You are very special. Thank you for starting this thread. I needed to reflect on this.
If you are fence-sitting JUST DO IT. Just do it. You will be sitting here with us a year from now. Crying, sobbing! And so incredibly happy.
07-23-2009, 12:59 AM
That is the best quote ever,,
This is what i needed to read tonight. You have no clue how much you just helped me out..
P.S. you look WONDERFUL!!!!
07-23-2009, 02:34 AM
What a wonderful post Heather! Congratulations to you, on all your success! I agree wholeheartedly with all you wrote and the part about forgiving yourself for not doing it sooner hit very close to home. I wish I could have gotten my act together sooner and taken care of myself. There is no way to go back, only change our future. So I'll echo your words of encouragement to anyone reading this thread that is thinking about starting. A year from now, you'll be glad you started today! You'll get so many wonderful rewards for all the hard work it takes to lose the weight, so don't wait - get started!
07-23-2009, 07:49 AM
Congratulations, and thankyou for such an inspirational post.
07-23-2009, 08:12 AM
I just want to post a quick reply before I head to the gym (I will post more later).
Thank you so much for you kind words. Now I am crying! You all have inspired me in the past year to keep going. There is so much I want to say...
I will be back....
07-23-2009, 08:27 AM
Thank you Heather and :congrat: You look amazing! You story and other who have lost their weight is one of the huge reasons I stay on this board. I need the inspiration and a belief that at the end of my year, I'll be able to write a post like yours. :smug:
07-23-2009, 10:10 AM
thank you very much for this!!!!
07-23-2009, 10:12 AM
This post has ABSOLUTELY been added to the posts to remember!
What a great post...what great responses!
Truly an Inspiration!
07-23-2009, 10:28 AM
Congrats Heather...your post and your story are both amazing! You should feel so proud of yourself! I just recently had my 1 year anniversary as well and what you wrote serves to remind me how quickly that year flew by and what I've gained (and lost!) in the process!
Thanks for writing that, I know it will inspire many many people.
07-23-2009, 10:44 AM
Wow. A simply wonderful reflection. If this isn't a reason to stick to it...
Thank you for your well written inspiration to us all.
07-23-2009, 11:09 AM
What an amazing and inspiring story! Thank you for sharing!!! Oh.. and WAY TO GO!!!! YOU ROCK!!
07-23-2009, 11:37 AM
Thank you for sharing. I weigh 228 today. I can't wait to see what I weigh one year from now!
07-23-2009, 11:45 AM
Lottie – thank you so much. I am glad that my words can help you! And you are doing so well! And I quit multiple times – I just restarted again immediately. ;)
Lissus – thank you.
Just Sharing – I urge you not to spend time looking back with regret. The future is so much brighter than the past. Plus, you can’t change what has happened, but you can affect how you feel next year at this time!
Matt – I hope your evening improved! We all have those days… :hug:
CoffeeLuver – I love your avatar! I, too, am a coffee addict! :D
Counting Down – Congratulations to you! I can’t wait to get to maintenance myself. Only 9 lbs more!!
TraceyElaine - :hug: You will be glad, and you will be proud. I believe it and I hope you do too!
Beck – thank you!
Chic – I know that you and I have almost the same starting day! You are an inspiration to me and you look fabulous. :hug:
Jrmohr – good luck on your first day! If I can do it, so can you! :cheer2:
Aclai – the days add up quickly! I am so impatient, too. Just live every day the best you can, and you will be where you want to be in no time!
Chickiegirl – you can be here too! Just keep going! Never give up! :)
EsperanzaBella – I am just a regular person. That’s proof that it is possible and that you can do it, too! The tough days are temporary, but the changes you are making will last a lifetime. :hug:
Robin – you are my hero. Your post means more to me than you will ever know. I am grateful that anyone can get something from what I wrote. I have gotten so much from this site (and from you) this year…
Thighs – Woot indeed! It’s been wild, but I wouldn’t trade this year for anything. WTG on 83lbs! That is something to be proud of. :dance: See you in maintenance this time next year!
Barb – look at your bad self! :D Thank you!
DCHound – I am in awe of what you have done in just 11 months. I have followed your posts and seen the pictures. I relate so much to what you have written. Thank you for your words and your example to all of us!
Shannon – I am grateful I could help. :hug: You are doing great! Just keep on trucking…. :cheer2:
H8cake – love the name, btw! Forgiveness is very important to me. I am really hard on myself and I need to give myself permission to fail and struggle sometimes. I just try to remember, when I look back, that I did the best I could with what I knew then. When I knew better, I did better. Congrats on your success, too! Wow!
Rosinanthe – thank you so much. You look fantastic, hottie hotpants! ;)
Pita – you will be able to write a post like this! I know it. I am not special, or magic, I just did what anyone can do! :cheer3:
Dimanamar – you’re welcome. And welcome to 3FC!
Sandi - :o aw, gee! Now I’m embarrassed.
Foxxy – Congratulations to you! What a fabulous success you have had!
Lori Bell – Speaking of inspirations… I have followed your journey this past year. I am in awe of what you have accomplished. I love what’s in your signature “16 beautiful months to freedom” That sums up how I feel every day. Free at last!
FindingFawn – Thank you.
Wendyland – you can do it!! Go, girl!
All these responses have been so overwhelming! Thank you so much.
07-23-2009, 12:00 PM
A very inspiring post!!...thank you for sharing and congratulations!!!! :)
I love that quote. I think it's something everyone should see when they sign up for this site!
07-23-2009, 01:02 PM
Great post with a great title. I will be at the one year mark in about 5 weeks. You are bringing it all back to me. I know what you mean because I am so, so glad that I made that decision for the last time in 2008. In 2008, I was thinking about how "if only" I'd done it in 2007. Now ... thank God I have been doing it.
I am looking forward to life again and the weight loss is helpful for my depression, agoraphobia (don't know if I have posted about these things before, but there it is). My husband has a work party next week, and I'm going with him. My best friend from high school, who is now a fashion model/designer, wants to get together this fall and go to the beach "like old days." I told her yes and I am shocked at myself that it sounds like fun. Yesterday I felt really low and wanted to kill myself, but my vanity said -- what about the weight loss? All this work? (Yes, really. I do/should have more going for me, but sometimes it is the fact that I've already lost all this weight that does it for me.) I know that might sound sad/unhealthy, but the weight loss means so much to me.
07-23-2009, 01:21 PM
I'm crying too. Can this post be made a sticky? hehe! Thank you Heather for sharing your story. You are a hero! Congrats Beautiful!
07-23-2009, 01:31 PM
Your post is so inspiring!!
and you look soo good :)
07-23-2009, 02:11 PM
Thank you for sharing your story. I really needed that today! You have done such an amazing job! COngratulations!
07-23-2009, 04:06 PM
Congratulations on all your success! Your story is so amazing, inspirational and heart-felt! And you are a beautiful woman inside and out.
I love the quote about wanting to quit but never more than I wanted to succeed. I also like how you said you forgave yourself for not starting sooner...I am now forgiving myself for all the times (and there have been many) that I've started and gave up only to gain back all the lost weight and then some. I know this time I will succeed, because this time I won't quit. And a year from now, I hope to be close to goal and look (and feel) as wonderful as you do.
Thank you so very, very much for sharing!
07-23-2009, 08:19 PM
Thank you for your post. It is so inspiring. What a difference a year can make. My results aren't quite as drastic as yours.... yet that is. Actually, I am currently just a little under your starting weight. I am so much healthier and happier than I was a year ago and look forward to being where you are a year from now!
07-23-2009, 08:37 PM
I was very moved by your words. Thank you so much for baring your soul.
07-23-2009, 09:14 PM
Thanks for posting! So incredibly beautiful! You have inspired me, right along with a lot of other folks! Congrats!!! :cheer:
07-23-2009, 10:55 PM
What a wonderful, inspiring post. Thank you.
07-23-2009, 11:28 PM
This is such a beautiful post, and it did make me cry too! Congrats on your success. I still struggle through this journey on a daily basis and posts like this help keep me going. thank you :)
07-23-2009, 11:34 PM
Such a wonderful, inspirational journey! The old you sounds very much like the old me so it really struck a cord in me. Congratulations for being good to yourself, for loving yourself enough to better yourself and for sticking with it!! You should be immensely proud of yourself!
Thank you for sharing your story with us! It brought a tear to my eye and a smile to my lips!
Heather I truly loved reading your story! You are such an inspiration to all of us.
07-24-2009, 03:39 PM
Congratulations on your success and thanks for sharing your story. Posts like this lets all of us know that it can be done. :)
07-24-2009, 04:03 PM
great story and thank you for sharing.
07-27-2009, 03:22 AM
What an inspiration! I'm marking this to read the whole thread again later today!
03-01-2012, 08:36 PM
Wow...this made me tear up. Wonderful story of determination.
02-24-2013, 06:37 PM
This is what I need to keep reminding myself. I plan on being a "story" 1 year from 2/1/13.
I wonder how many stories are out there with you all? I would love to hear about them as I know that there are a whole lot of you that have lost lbs and in a year your life has changed. Thank you for posting them here if you can.