Hello all,
Congrats on your weight loss since I last put in an appearance!!
Yes, I'm still here... I've not fallen off the face of the planet after all! I'm still stuck on the same old weight (thankfully no gain), and am still battling away.
I've been moaning for the past few months, that I'm still doing the same things food wise, but nothing has been happening with the scales for me. Although I do SOME exercise, I've been aware that it's nowhere near enough to make any more difference... this is where the worm finally turns (I hope!!). This weekend, I bought a swimsuit and I plan to wear it on Tuesday. This will be a HUGE, MASSIVE step for me. I don't need to tell you all the stuff I've been going through for years with regards to body image etc. A year and a half ago, I felt terribly self conscious walking through town fully clothed, never mind the thought of stripping down to a swimming costume and allowing everyone full view of all the lumps, bumps, flab, cellulite, stretch marks.... the list goes on!!!!
The reason I'm telling you all this? Well there's still time to chicken out before then, and the idea is that if I tell you all, then I also have to answer to you all if I don't go... pretty dumb maybe, but there's some kind of logic in there if you look hard enough!
Something so simple as going to the swimming baths, my weight has made it a huge ordeal. People who have never had a weight problem would have NO IDEA what I'll be going through, just to get from the changing room into the pool. I still see myself as the 260lb girl I once was, which makes it even worse.
So.... wish me luck.... and I'll be back here to report on the 'experience'. Most probably saying how stupid I am for making such a damn fuss!!!
Karen
260.5/168.5/140