Depression and Weight Issues - July 2009 Chick Chat - Come Chat With Us

Good Afternoon Ladies. :hug:

I figured since it was mentioned I would start July's Chick Chat. :wave:

Venting again. I can't wait for the 4th to be over.

I think I said it last night but I'm on bad day #2. This time for a whole different reason. :lol:
I think I only had about 2 hours of sleep last night. :yawn: I woke up at 4am completely awake and started cleaning. I've been on the run since 7am and just got home. My best friend doesn't have a car at the moment so I've been bringing her to work and the picking her up at night. I've been driving her every where today and now I am ready to collapse.

Then I had to deal with the guy I am seeing. He's my ex and we're trying to work things out. Right now he is living with me because he got evicted from his apartment. He called me a little while ago and was complaining about everything. I'm going to the fireworks with my son tonight and don't know what time I'll be home. He's upset about that. Then I made plans for tomorrow and he got mad today. He was surpose to work and go spend the afternoon with his son at his son's grandmothers house. Now he doesn't have to work and his son's mother said she doesn't want him there. So he's going to be home alone for the 4th. He mad me feel like crap for making plans tomorrow. I am so pissed off at him. :mad: We are not going out. He was never like this when we were going out. I don't know what his problem is now but he is being possessive and controlling and I'm tired of dealing with it.

My mom is doing better. I could tell this morning that he meds had kicked in.

I am normally a patient person and can deal with almost anything. But the last few days I've had it with everything and can't deal with anything.

Leenie ~ Thanks. Its funny how kids are these days. The act like grown ups and always seem to figure things out fast.

Hope ~ I've been playing the role of mom for my mother for years now. When things are bad her boyfriend comes to me and I have to deal with it.

Heather ~ I'm glad your home and ok.

I finally got a chance to eat today. The bad part is I was so hungry I had a Weight Watchers Smart One meal and ended up eating both serving in the box. The only good thing was that it was only 400 calories so I've had about 600 totally counting my coffee :coffee:

I hope everyone has a Happy 4th. I'm going to go to the cemetary which I'm not sure I can handle but it is his birthday and I want to at least try to visit him. Then I am going to a festival after.

Purefire =^.~=

Thanks for starting up July's thread... I forgot we were in July haaaaaaaaa.

Don't blame you for not putting up with some one who's controlling.. thats a scary issue. And sorry he is acting like a baby.. men.

Well its almost time for bed.. yeah, 8:30 lol haaaaaaaaaa.
Have a good night chickies... TTYT

Leens

Hello ladies!

It's been a month since I have posted; I've been too ashamed. I have really put my weight loss on the back burner for the past month and am feeling guilty. I wasn't going to come back on, but I missed hearing about all of you!! Happy 4th of July to all my American chicks!

MissRicer, I'm so glad you're back. You should never be ashamed here! Only a month off plan, I'm impressed! ;) I'd gone over a year until recently without doing anything that is positive for my health. That's what we are all about: support through THICK and thin.

I had a nice 4th. We went to a friend's house that we hadn't seen in a while and cooked out. From their house we just walked out into the street and could see the fireworks. It was really nice.

What's sad is the entire day I was just praying something would happen and they would cancel on us. It wasn't b/c I didn't want to see them, it was b/c I didn't want them to see me. I hate the way I look and trying to find something to wear in the summer just sucks when you're fat. I'm embarrassed about my appearance and my crappy job (aka: lack of career). I would love to be able to change this feeling and hiding behavior but it isn't easy.

How was everybody else's day?

Hi Everyone,

Hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July. Mine was ok although I was a complete idiot :lol: I was going to the fireworks and there was no parking but my car is small enough that I can normally park it anywhere. The only spot I found was where I had to drive up the curb to park. While doing this I got a flat tire. The only good thing about it was that when I went back to change the tire after the fireworks someone saw me and asked if I needed help.

Missracer: There are times when we all have that problem. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Sometimes it's hard to stay on track when your trying to loose weight on your own or there are things in life that make it hard to want to. No matter what the ladies here are always supportive. 3 years ago I came to this site. I ended up losing 30 lbs out of the 45 I wanted to loose. Then I stopped coming. I gain all the weight back and then some. Recently I came back. We all have our ups and downs. In the last 2 weeks I lost 6 pounds. I also gained the 6lbs back along with 4 more. It's hard. But you have us to talk to. if you need to talk you can always send me a PM.

Hope: You really shouldn't worry what people think of you. If they are truly your friends, that won't care what you look like. They just care about you. Things happen and we all have tough time. Everything happens for a reason and finding a job is hard with all the cut backs everyone is making. Give it time and I'm sure you'll find something. Keep thinking positive. That's all you can do. When your positive alot of good things can happen.

Leenie: I had a long talk with him today. I told him that it needed ti stop. He was never like this before. So hopefully now things change.

Purefire =^.~=

Good Morning,

Heather darling, how are you feeling?

MissRicer good to see you :) and ditto's to what the others said... don't stay away from "US" who better can relate and understand then "US". There's no shame on this board or anywhere else on 3FC's. Anyway, we're glad you decided to come back.

Hope you must be very young... because when you hit my age, you really learn not to care what people think of you... maybe that comes with menopause... or is it mean-o-pause lolol. We are our own worst critics and please darling, don't let your weight keep you from being or doing anything you want. Be proud of who you are and what ever job you may have.. nobody and I mean nobody is better than anyone else, regardless of age, weight, race, money or job status.. God doesn't love us differently, and neither should we. :hug:

Purefire that stinks about the flat tire but I'm glad some one was able to help you. Good for you for telling your bf how you feel... its good to know he has the tendency to do this now and stopping it in its tracks. Hopefully he won't act like that again.

Well girlies, nothing new here... we might hit the mall later today in hopes it will be empty lol but thats about it on the agenda (((love it))).

Have a great 5th of July ;)

Leenie

Hi girls,

Leenie, am I young? Not really, I'm a couple of years away from 40. I definitely don't care what people think the way I did in my 20's but I'm at my heaviest and it's not pretty. Though I feel pretty normal most of the time I realize that when I'm in the situation of seeing people I haven't seen in a while I fall into the old pattern of avoidance. I hope that gets better but I'm not convinced it will.

Purefire-glad you had some help with the flat tire. That's the worst when that happens. I hope your bf got the message today.

Heather, how are you doing today?

Not much new here. Just work and a nap. Blah.

Hey Ya'All. :wave:

I hope you all had a great 4th -- those who celebrated. I did absolutely nothing. DH worked, and there was fireworks right outside my door, but they were blocked by our trees so I was like forget it. lol.

So it was just me and my cats. lol. The new cat keeps trying to "play" with our older cat, and he just doesn't want too. lol. But she does not give up. I told DH, "See Women always rule the household." lol. And I believe she will too. lol. Cuz our older cat is just like, "leave me the heck alone!!" lol.

I actually got bored. It was my short week at work so I had 4 nights off, well DH took off Wed and Thurs night instead of his usual Thurs and Friday night, so we didn't do much. We did go and see Public Enemies w/ Johnny Depp, but that was about it. It was good, not GREAT or anything, but good......

But the house was all clean, I was doing laundry (FUNNN) and there was abosultely NOTHING on tv and I did not wanna watch a movie.........and our computer isn't working at the moment, so I found my old diaries from HS and read those! HA! HILARIOUS! :rofl: I have kept them because I thought maybe someday I would write a book loosely based on them......but they were truly funny. Amazing how fickle teenagers are! lol.

Anywho that is about it. Its "back to the ole grind" tonight.......yay. Oh well nothing else to do, right? lol...........may as well be here, at least I am getting paid! HA!

:hug:

Morning chickies! :wave:

Sassy - that's funny... wonder if I could find my old diaries - THAT would be such a good read - very 'put it in perspective', eh? LOL ;)

Purefire - sounds like you have a lot on your plate, and it's so hard to put ourselves first when other people are pulling at our emotions! Hang tough, chick! :hug:

MissRicer - I will echo what's already been said, because it's true - we have ALL been where you are just now, and probably, to one degree or another, all will be again at some point... and we ARE here for support - I often go MIA when my eating and weight is 'off' - and these girls still love me just the same - and we feel the same about you. That horse might be running from you right now, but you'll get back on - you WILL! Keep posting - that's why we're ALL here :)

Hope - I don't know if that feeling ever entirely goes away... I suspect there will always be a part of each of us that can find something we don't like about ourselves enough to start thinking we should 'avoid' situations... seriously, even on my BEST days, I think 'Not bad, that will do'. Seriously - I never think 'You are smokin' hot, chick - go get 'em!' :lol3: Even just typing that makes me laugh.

On that note - here's weirdness... so I ELECTED to have my bod carved up like this, and it IS a vanity thing, to some degree... I WANT to look better. Right now, I could NOT look worse. Seriously, everything is swollen, and in the wrong place, and I feel skanky and unsexy and uncomfortable... just plain - AWFUL. I don't care if I am in 'cocoon-mode' - I look dreadful, which makes me FEEL dreadful. I am weepy and scared and just plain silly... but that's where I am right now. I go back to the clinic this afternoon, and that will be very revealing - in ALL ways!:lol: - so I will check in later. Emotions are crazy things!!

I'm still very tender, and there is an emotional toll with having my ex here to help... he IS helping, but the emotional stuff is hard.

Chat later - have a great Monday all!!
Heather :D

G'day ladies...
It seems like everyone had a good 4th, which is awesome. I'm glad everyone enjoyed :).

Heather - Glad to see you're feeling well. You'll look beautiful, I promise :cool:

Hope4me - I totally get the avoidance thing. I'm not sure I have a solution for you - as I havn't found on myself - but I understand if you need someone to vent to :)

Sassy - I re-read my old Livejournal recently, and decided I was the DUMBEST teenager ever. Seriously, I'm surprise I didn't end up dead in a ditch somewhere... I'm glad you're amused you :)

Everyone else: HI! ;)

(If you’re not in the mood for a rant, please stop reading here and have a great day…)


I've been in a wicked funk the past couple of days. We went to my husband’s co-worker’s house for the 4th. It was a bunch of people I’ve never met before, which made me think that I should stay home so my husband doesn’t have to introduce his ‘fat wife’. (My husband would never actually say that mind you. He’s sweet and still thinks I’m pretty for some reason I don’t understand). But still – I feel like I’m somehow an embarrassment and I get really freaked out about going somewhere where all of the women are skinny and pretty. I was reassured when I met the hostess and she wasn’t a toothpick, and totally normal looking.

Yesterday and today my funk took a different turn. I went into “I’m a complete failure” mode, which I’m not – I just… blah. I’m 25 and I have a BA, MBA, and am working on my second masters. I’m employed full time, I’m married, and quite content with life – normally. On paper, I’m a success – in practice I feel like I’m giving up on something wonderful that’s sitting just out of my reach.

I’ve been told I’m quite talented with the creative arts, though everything I’ve ever done outside of school is hidden in a closet. My husband encourages me to get my stuff out there but I just can’t bring myself to show it to anyone. Writing is even worse. I can’t even be in the same room as my husband if he’s reading something I wrote. We’ll be together 5 years this September, and I let him read something I wrote for the first time a month or two ago. Every once in a while I get this feeling like I’m supposed to be doing something more than what I am. Like either I should be a fabulous writer or artist… if only I could deal with showing my stuff to other people. My therapist blames it on the “emotional plate of armor” I have protected myself with over the years – my art shows a part of myself I don’t want anyone to see, yada yada. The dissatisfaction then shifts to my marriage, which honestly is perfectly fine. My husband is great, we’re happy, we get along fabulously, and we have the same goals and aspirations. Wonderfulness… or not. I think I spent too many years watching Disney movies and reading books where these fictitious perfect men are created and instantly give their wives perfect lives… So I spent much of my life, whether dating someone or not, dreaming of my prince. Maybe not even my prince. I’ve always been big into the Sci-Fi Fantasy so I spent the majority of my life reading the work that preceded Twilight (yes, there were books about vampires and magic before Harry Potter and Twilight – not that I’m disrespecting those books because I think they’re quite good - I just get irritated when people think they’re revolutionary. I could recommend lists of books that preceded these that were just as good if not better.)

Now that I’m married to a normal real person, I find myself still daydreaming about some character that doesn’t exist, and it makes me feel horrible. My husband is a great guy, and if I found out he was daydreaming of the perfect woman I’d be pretty miffed.

Bah. I hate becoming so discontent with my life. I feel that part of a high school education for girls should be introducing them to REAL stories of life – so they don’t go into the real word and instantly become jaded with how life really turns out – even when it turns out “good”.

Hello Everyone.

I'm tired of the last week and how things have been going. Last night, I almost lost it and it was over nothing truly important. My bf's son is staying with us for a month and it was all three of us in my small room. It pissed me off that I had to leave my room to change my clothes.

I had plan to put him in the spare bedroom, but it was completely trashed. My mother is a pack rat. So today she went to NH and she will be gone until Friday. I am going thru the whole house and cleaning. So far I've thrown out 13 bags of stuff. And I'll probably be at about 50 by the time I'm done. The garbage men are going to freak. But it feels good to just clean. Plus its like a workout so it makes it better.

HI GANG,:wave:

WOW LOOKS LIKE EVERYONE HASN'T HAD A GOOD START TO JULY SO FAR :(DON'T WORRY GANG EVERYTHING WILL BE OK:D I HAVE THOSE DAY'S MY SELF :yes:

ON A GOOD NOTE :carrot:MY HUSBAND AND I HAD SUCH A GOOD TIME AT SIX FLAGS :dancer:WE GOT THERE RIGHT AT 9 SO WE WENT ON THE ANIMAL TRAIL 1ST:o IT WAS SO COOL:) I COULDN'T GET OVER HOW THEY JUST ROAM AROUND IT WAS GREAT THAT THE ANIMALS HAVE SUCH BIG SPACE TO MOVE AROUND IN LOT BETTER THEN THE ZOO OF COURSE :D THE MONKEY'S WERE ADORABLE:jig: THE PEOPLE WERE SO NICE AS WELL ;)TOOK US AN HOUR TO DRIVE THREW :scooter:SOME OF THE ANIMAL'S DIDN'T WANT TO MOVE OUT OF THE ROAD:s: THE MOST FUNNY THING IS MY HUSBAND MADE A MJ GLOVE NO JOKE GANG:yes: HE WORKED HARD ON THIS GLOVE PUT THE GLITTER ON IT THE WORKS AND PUT IT ON OUR ANTENNA OF THE TRUCK :)WHEN THE ANIMALS WOULD SEE IT THEY CAME RIGHT UP TO IT AND OF COURSE SMELLED IT WHEN THEY REALIZED IT WASN'T FOOD THEY JUST WALK BY:carrot: IT WAS COOL MY HUSBAND GOT SO MANY COMPLIMENT'S ON HIS GLOVE HE EVEN TOOK PICTURES OF IT !!!:rofl:

AT 1030 THE PARK OPENED UP:o IT WAS SO NICE OUTSIDE STILL GOT BURNT BUT THAT'S OK :mad:THE PARK WASN'T CROWED AT ALL WE MUST HAVE GOTTEN ON EVERY RIDE AT LEAST 5 TIMES :carrot::cb::broc:THE LONGEST WE WAITED WAS MAYBE 15 MINS TOP:dunno: I KNOW I GAINED LIKE 10PDS :censored:ALL I DID WAS EAT IT FELT LIKE :(BUT I'M BACK ON THE WAGON TODAY ;)THE FIREWORKS WERE GREAT :^:THEY STARTED AT 10:o THEY WERE SO PRETTY :yay:THEY WERE RIGHT OVER THE WATER:^: OF COURSE WE GOT A GOOD SPOT CUZ BY 9 WE WERE SO DONE WITH THE RIDES :sp:THAT WE WENT TO SIT AND THAT'S WHERE WE STAYED TIL IT WAS DONE:^: WE HAD A BLAST WILL GO AGAIN AND BRING THE KIDS I KNOW THEY WILL LOVE IT :yes:WE JUST HAVE A BIG FAMILY WE HAVE 7 KIDS ALL TOGETHER SO HAVE TO SAVE UP FOR THAT NEXT TRIP:)

SUNDAY I DIDN'T DO REALLY ANYTHING:^: LITTLE BIT OF HOUSE WORK OF COURSE :)WENT TO SEE MY KIDS FOR A LITTLE BIT :carrot:IT WAS MY OLDEST DAUGHTER'S B-DAY SHE TURNED 14:cool:OF COURSE I ATE SOME MORE DAD MADE DINNER:D YES THERE STILL THERE GOING GOOD JUST READY TO HAVE MY HUSBAND AND HOUSE BACK TO OUR SELF'S :^: (NO ARE KIDS DON'T LIVE WITH US WE GET THEM EVERY OTHER WEEKEND )THAT'S ANOTHER STORY ONE DAY IF ANYONE WANT'S TO KNOW THAT ONE :dizzy:MY HUSBAND WENT ON THE BIKE ALL DAY HE ASKED IF I WANTED TO RIDE BUT HE WAS WITH ALL THE BOY'S SO I STAYED HOME AND LET HIM PLAY WITH HIS FRIENDS:grouphug:

HOPE EVERY ONE'S WEEK GET'S BETTER WILL CHECK IN TOMORROW:hug:S

Hola all.

UMPH just sooo tired :yawn: tonight for some reason, do not wanna be at work. :p lol.

Anywho.........

Heather -- Yes it definitely put things into perspective! lol. I was actually responding to the questions I would ask like, "Oh your such a nit-wit!" lmaooooo or to the question, "Will I ever find Mr. Right?" I was like YES! lmaoooooooo I wanted to go back in time and slap myself! :club: lol. BIG and *gentle* :hug: to you. You will look marvelous after everything is done being swollen and what not! ;)

Marbear24 -- Thanks yes it was quite amusing! :lol: Big :hug: to you as well. I can sympathize with how you are feeling. I feel like that a lot. Esp since I have two college degrees and here I sit at a Callcenter. :rolleyes: Not that there is anything wrong with that, I'm glad I have a job period, but just wasn't where I saw myself, for sure.........I too do not understand why my DH thinks I am "sexy" I am like what part of "this" is sexy? But he gets really angry if I talk that way.......I dunno, but we are all here for ya to at least listen, if we cannot help in any other way......:hug:

Purefire -- Aww a pack rat. My Grandma was one as well. It took my Aunt, two Uncles, my mother and late step father a LONG time to get her room cleaned out after she passed away...........I do understand how great it feels getting things clean and your right, Great Exercise!

Jellybellyjen -- Glad you and your hubby had a great time. :) Enjoy the house to yourselves...........:D

Big :hug: to all that need them right now!

Good morning everyone:wave:
Hope everyone starts to feel better soon:grouphug:

DdC made it home yesterday, she survived her four short flights, she was only alone for the last hour flight other than that she had team members with her. She lost her first two fights so that was the end of the competing but she had a good time and it was a good experience for her.
DdA got a really good burn on her left forearm at work yesterday. Last night as I was changing the dressing it had some relatively large blisters on it. Not going to expose it this morning and wrap it really well for protection before she goes back to work this morning. Also our boss asked if DdA, DdB and I would work at one of the other stores Wed night while they are at their staff meeting. So it will be the three of us and a supervisor from a different store, should be fun or at least interesting.
Finally got the garden all planted. We did have a couple of really nice days but it started raining again last night.
Well I should get going and start my day here. Hope you are all well.

Take care,
K

Hi girls,

Ok I just pushed a button and lost my entire post! :mad:

Glad to see everybody in here!

I'm off today and went to the eye dr. this morning. My eyes are still dilated so I'll be staying out of the sun until I go to the dentist this afternoon. :cool: Sounds like a fun filled day huh? :)

I'm getting ready to watch the Michael Jackson memorial. I was a huge fan and can't believe he's gone. (No, though none of us will ever know for sure, I didn't believe the allegations against him from people who made a habit of extortion and fraud. There, Ive said my peace. :soap:)

Gotta run till later. Have a great day everybody.

Ladies -

Hope - Glad your eye apt went went and good luck with the dentist. Talk about a fun day, eesh. You should do something fun tonight to make up for it, you deserve it!

Jelly - Glad you and the hubby had fun! :)

Pure - you can find some amazingly fun stuff cleanin up after someone who is a packrat! Look for treasure! :genie:

Sassy - I never want to be at work, don't feel bad! You should start making your journals into stories - if you can do it at work, it might wake you up.;)

I feel better today. My body never lets me get super bummed for too long. 2-3 days tops, and I'm in a good mood whether I want to be or not. It's weird being physically happy when I'm mentally yearning to crawl back into bed. Ha! Maybe the energy will help me get my laundry done tonight!

Everybody have a goooooood day.:hug:

Hi Gang:carrot:

Hope Everyone Has A Great Day!!!!:D I Don't Have Much Going On So Far This Week!!!!!:) I'm Going To The Bar Tonight W/shango(husband)and Friends From Work Just To Brake Up The Week And Relax For A Bit ;)Tomorrow Have To Take Taylor(14 Yr Old Daughter)to The Doctor's For Her Yearly Check Up!!!! :dizzy:We Have Our Kids This Weekend So We Will Be At The Pool!!!!:carrot::carrot:

TALK TO YOU ALL SOON!!!!:hug:S

:wave:

Have a great day :D

Hi gals! :wave:

I'm trying to do too much, and have to slow down. I'm frustrated being so slow, but I MUST wait out this healing process. It is odd to weigh more (please, PLEASE!, let it just be the swelling!!) and be larger than when I went into surgery. We train ourselves to measure clothing sizes and numbers on a scale - it's hard when those don't match up!! Must give it time, but it is making me a little teary.

MissRicer - where are you? Come back!! Post here - we'll support you. Lying low, licking wounds - I am the QUEEN of that... but coming here always, ALWAYS, helps! :hug:

How's everyone else?? (and Hope, I HATE when I type a post and lose it - stupid computers! gah!!)

Heather :D

Ok I need to go back thru and catch up on Junes post cause I was a little lost on some things. I feel so stupid because I want to lose weight so bad and cant stand to look at myself and everytime I start something it never becomes a long term routine. Like we did the c25k for a week. I felt great then we missed a week due to things going on and last night I couldnt make myself go do it....why...I was counting calories and just forgot a day or two then had no desire to do it. I started doing the 30day shred and couldnt find the same time of day to do it and started missing days. I dont know I am totally getting my life and family in order and on schedules maybe I just need to give a little more time and add it. I got my kids in a good routine with bed time and everything.
I just can NOT stand to look at myself after I get dressed and I cant stop eating junk. I dont over eat but I drink soda and eat stuff I shouldnt.

I feel like I am running into a brick wall every day!! It is so bad that I think about coming here and checking in with you guys but I feel like crap cause I cant even say I am doing anything right. I dont know.

I just want change but my motivation is not as high.....

Awww momof4 :hug: I've been wondering how you've been doing. I feel like I'm in a similar place, I'm so fed up with myself. I know I have to make the changes and know what to do and yet I still make poor choices. Take this morning, its almost 10am and I'm still lying here with a ton of things to do. I'm trying to think of something for breakfast, do I have what I want which is left over dinner, but its really high in carbs go for the lettuce and thai tuna, don't really feel like that, have a protein type drink? what about a homemade egg mcmuffin thing? and then I start thinking of the calorie numbers, get overwhelmed and opt out of making a choice which means I'll skip breakfast and be starving for lunch and grab whatever. I don't know, I just can't get it together. Congrats on getting your kids on a good bed time routine, that is a huge start. :hug:

Hope that is one busy day off you had!!! Hope you had a nice long soak in the tub after all was said and done.

Heather give yourself time and be good to yourself.:hug: The swelling and retained water will go soon enough and you'll have to go shopping for a whole new wardrobe!!

marbear glad to hear you are feeling better, makes it a bit easier to get things done.

Bit Hi and :hug: to everyone else!!

Don't have to go to work until 6:30 tonight. I get to work with both of my daughters as we are going to a different store and covering while they have their climate meeting. Sort of feel sorry for whoever our supervisor might be. Its not raining and the sun is out today so that is great. Came out of group yesterday and walked into a downpour, crazy. My mom had her gallbladder surgery yesterday morning and wasn't doing very well last night, my sister had to take her back to the hospital for some more painkillers. Haven't heard this morning how she is. DdA's burn is looking terrible. All part of the healing process I know. We are going to stop in at the after hours clinic on our way to work and get proper documentation as she really needs to make an accident report incase it becomes infected or anything. Plus the doctor will let us know if we are doing the right things.
I better get going here or else I'm going to lose my day.

Take care everyone and note we are on the downward slide to the weekend!!
K

Hello Ladies.. :wave:

Jelly ~ Have fun at the bar tonight with your hubby and friends. It's always nice to relax during the week. Have a great weekend with your kids as well.

Hope ~ You do need to slow down. Doing to much isn't good for you after surgery of any kind. Don't pay attention to what the scale or your clothes look like until the swelling goes down. You'll drive yourself crazy.

Miss Racer ~ You should really come back. We are here for support when ever things are good or bad.

momof4 ~ I really know how you feel. I've been doing the same thing and it's driving me crazy. Take one thing at a time. If you drink soda drink diet. If you want to eat something that is bad for you. Pick one day a week to do it. If you want help trying to stick to something send me a PM and we'll come up with something.


So far the first 8 days of July have been really crappy. I have been so moody and keep getting aggravated and then pissed at every little things that happens and gets said. :eek: Then tonight I finally realized as I sat down at the computer that I hadn't taken my medication in about a week. :nono::yikes: I feel a little better now that I've taken them. :cp:

I'm also sore. My legs, shoulders, arms and back are killing me. I have been cleaning non stop since Monday. I finished cleaning out the front room and finally got it set up into a bed room for my boyfriends son. The only thing I have left to do is hook up the DVD player and his Xbox and it is done. I also cleaned out the shed and reorganized all of my boyfriends stuff that he has out there. Now I can put some of my stuff in there. I'm still cleaning out the basement tho. Its been three days and I'm still not done. I only have 15 totes to finishes going through and I'm done. I ended up throwing out 43 bags of trash between both so far. The garbage men are going to love me in the morning. My mother is literally a pack rat and she is going to freak when she gets home. I ended up with 4 totes worth of stuff. I am moving in a few months and the treasures I found. OMG. :sp: I still have to clean my room out. All the totes that I brought up are sitting in the corner and I have to finish cleaning out the attic. So I have a few more days of cleaning ahead of me. :?::censored:

Other than that I have been running like crazy. I haven't seen my son since Sunday but I've talked to him everyday. (Long Story). I was surpose to go to Maine but it didn't happen so I took the three days to clean but I should be going to Maine on Monday. Who knows.

Hopefully things start looking better tomorrow. I am going to watch what I do and what I eat and hopefully I get all my cleaning done. This weekend is the Whaling City Festival. I normally spend all three days at the festival but I don't know what I am doing yet. I think I am going on Saturday with my mom and on Sunday with my best friend. Both my boyfriend and my best friend both work at the festival considering their boss runs it every year.

Hope everyone has a good day tomorrow.

Pure..

Buddly-Wow that totally sounds like me in the morning. I cant decide what I want so I dont eat or I have no energy to make myself anything so I dont eat. I hope your mom and dda is getting better. Sounds like alot going on at one time.

Pure-I am trying to drink more water because that is what will help me lose the weight and I hate diet soda. I have tried doing one day of the week junk food but it ends up then I cant not eat it I just want more then. I dont know something has to give soon!


I put shorts on I just bought and they wer tight...Tom already left town and the scale doesnt show i gained weight. I must be holding water since all i have been drinking is soda. Its like this sugar and junk has a hold on me and I cant get out of it. I want so bad to RUN around with my kids at the play ground. I know I am not a little kids anymore but I want to have fun and enjoy playing with them while they still want me to. I dont want to enjoy watching them...I want to get in there and play with them. i need to go to boot camp where I cant get away I HAVE TO DO IT....UGGGGHHHH Why do we get stuck in such ruts...I wish I was taught growing up how to eat healthy and about food not just made to eat what was on the table. Plus my mom hardly ever left me have junk food or soda so its like I have to make up for those years. She doesnt really let her foster kids eat much candy then when they arent home they want candy. Kids need to be taught a balance and truly taught about food and shown. Ok I am getting off my soap box now. I am sitting here soaking my foot in vinager to help kill fungus on my big toe. I guess I am gonna go to bed now!! talk to you all lata!!

Pure - Be glad you havn't been in Maine! It's done nothing but rain! It's actually nice out today though, so hopefully the weather will hold out for you. Where are you headed in ME?

Mom - You know what's really good? Baked chick peas. Bake them until they're crisp and throw some salt on them. They make a great substitute for junk food. So do rice cakes.

Heather - SLOW DOWN!!! Don't go too fast and hurt yourself...

Not too much here. The sun is out so that's a good start to the day. Work has been UBER frustrating. I feel like I'm a babysitter half the time, which is not cool. I'm trying to get back into writing on my lunch break. Actually, I'm trying to get back into the habit of remembering to take a lunch - and writing on it. It's a good release and who knows - perhaps I will write a book someday :)

All - have a great day.

:wave: Hi Chickies

Heather yes, its swelling from the surgery... bet your looking better and better with each passing day. :hug:

Have a wonderful day chickies, I have to get back to work ;)

Luv yah !!

Hi Girls! May I come and join in on your thread? I may be a little lost at first, but I am sure eventually I'll catch up.

Hope4me... I too have social avoidance when I am not at my best. I have been feeling absolutely horrible about myself for about the past year and have managed to avoid several social scenes. Those I have attended, I generally wished they would "disappear", and usually ended up with a headache after each because I was tense and self-conscious most of the time.

Does anyone else tend to hold their breathe when uncomfortable? Maybe it's from trying to suck my stomach in the entire time.

I have also been avoiding responsiblities for some time now. Not the necessary ones, but the ones that I constantly think I "should" be doing. I put tremendous pressure on myself. I used to work non-stop. A busy-bee that never settled until "everything" was done. I was also thinner then. I was also much more high-strung then too. (ADHD). Since I have been on antidepressants, I have become much calmer, but I don't like how I have also become more lethargic and complacent. I am afraid to stop the meds, though, because I have tried twice, and I have never felt so depressed in my life. I didn't want to die, but couldn't find the will to want to live each day. I cried constantly and could deal with just about NOTHING. Thank God my DH has patiently stood beside me through all of this.

Thanks for letting me go on. I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you.

Hello Ladies.

Momof4 ~ Water works for me in losing weight as well, but I can't drink it as it is. I have to put a flavor packet in it or I won't drink it. I have been on a diet soda kick lately. My boyfriend works at an auction and he can get cases of soda for free and there is a ton of it in the house. I am going to try limiting it to 1 bottle of soda a day. Then the rest of the day drink water. As for breakfast.. Lately I have been buying either Slim fast drinks, special K meal bars or Slim fast mean bars. I don't normally eat breakfast, but if I have them in the house they are a meal replacement and I can normally last til lunch before I am hungry again. Plus I have been buying the Special K Protein water mixes. They help curb the hunger as well. Its always an idea if you don't want to make breakfast.

Marbear ~ My mother went to Maine and she said the same thing. All it did was rain. I don't know if I am going Monday. I seriously doubt it because my bf is working a festival this weekend and Monday is the day that they take everything down. Oh well. Maybe the week after.

Heather ~ I hope you are doing better. :hug:

Welcome Blueenough. I do the same things sometimes. Its hard to change it and I drive everyone crazy.

Today is day 4 of cleaning up the house. The basement is almost done. I have a few totes to go through and then sweeping and it looks wonderful. Trying to catch up on laundry as well. I have been picking up my room and cleaning out the attic and all the stuff I brought into my room from the basement. Once I have both done. I am done. I also changed my whole room around and cleaned it top to bottom.

I only slept two hours last night. My bf and his son were playing video games and then put in a movie and I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. When I got upset and went downstairs to clean the basement at 1am my bf came down to ask what was wrong. I want to sleep but I can't do it with them in the room. I fell asleep an hour later and slept for 2 hours and my mom's bf woke me up so I could move my car. I've been up ever since. :censored:

I am taking a small break and enjoying a cigarette. :smoking: and having my coffee. :coffee: Then it's back to work. I think I have another 2 hours of cleaning to do. Then I have to make lunch for my bf's son and then run to take him to the auction tonight.

Busy day.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Purefire

Can't stay long but...

Welcome Blueenough!! Glad you joined us.

I've gotta get to work soon, blah. :p I'm really frustrated with the eating right and exercising thing. I'm not doing as well as I should be. Maybe that's an understatement. I'm maybe doing what I should about 1/3 of the time. I guess that's still better than nothing but the lack of visual or scale results that show from that such little effort tends to throw me into depression and frustration. I hate the mental games that trying to improve my health causes me to me to start playing. I don't think I'd be this stressed if I was eating junk and not exercising at all. Weird.

Catch y'all when I get home tonight around 10:30pm.

Hmmm, nobody's been here since I left.

I just have to say to Purefire: I can't believe how hard you've worked! But also I can't wait to hear what your mom's reaction will be. True hoarders are hard to change. I hope she doesn't flip out on you too much. I'm anxious to hear what she does.

I'm tired b/c I've been filling in for a lady who's on vacation plus trying to do my job. She will be back on monday. I'm just trying so hard to do everything she does ( with only 2 days of training) and sometimes I just can't fit everything in.

See y'all tomorrow.

:Hug: to everyone. I

'm quite tired today - and lazy, so I'm copying this from another post I wrote. (I post to two forums regularly, so if you happen to be on both - don't think I'm crazy!)


"I didn't get up an exercise this morning. I got home from work last night and immediately started cleaning - didn't finish until 9:30 - and I was so wound up I couldn't fall asleep until almost midnight. That is not helpful when you have to get up at 5am. My guests arrive between 5 & 6… and last I heard they planned on making us dinner tonight and taking us out to dinner tomorrow. Eeek. I may be a very sad and off-track chicka on Sunday!

I haven’t seen my therapist in like a month & a half because of vacations, visits, etc… I have an apt at 5 tonight (my husband will have to babysit the guests until I get home). I have to give her what I have written so far on this stupid story. Ugh. I wanted to write a book, because my brain is filled with… ridiculous nonsense. (Seriously, I’m just way too weird sometimes.) Anyhoo, what seems to come out is something based upon my grandfather dying when I was in middle school. SO… apparently I need to “get it out of my system”. Goody! Now I get to write and proofread what I went through when I was 12 and lived with someone slowly dying for 2 years. My husband read it. He said it was “Beautifully written but horribly depressing.” Haha, ya think? This should be an interesting appointment…"

:wave: TGIF


:welcome: Blueenough

hi everyone,:wave:

Today is the longest Friday I have ever had.:( The clock just won't move today.:mad: Hope everyone has a great weekend sounds like everyone has a busy weekend:carrot: (busy is always good);) I don't have to much going on this weekend have my kids that's always fun.:D We will hang out at the pool all day tomorrow :cool:that's all we have planned so far.Hope you all have a great weekend and will talk to you all soon:^:

:hug:s

Hello Ladies. :wave:

I finally finished 98% of my cleaning. The basement looks amazing. My mom is home but I haven't heard her reaction yet. I've been out of the house all day.

I am so tired. I went to the Whaling City Festival today. It's one of the biggest festivals around here and I love going to it every year. I got there at 11am and left at 8pm. So in all I probably spent 7 hours walking around. My legs hurt. I have to go back again tomorrow with my best friend and the guy she takes care of. Her boss runs the festival so we will be there all weekend. Talk about exercise. :p

My friend has decided to do the diet and exercise plan with me but while we are going to the festival we decided that this will be our cheat weekend. There is no way to eat right when you are at this thing. All there is, is basically junk food. So each day we get to pick one thing we want to eat while we are there.
Today mine was Crab cakes :p

It was a good day.

hope everyone has a good weekend

Hi Everyone!

PureFire... I am sooooo jealous that you indulged on crabcakes!

Leenie... Thanks for the warm welcome. I am looking forward to having an "extended family".

Marbear... Did I thank you yet for the baked chickpea idea???? I love chick peas anyway and can't wait to try it.

Heather... you doing okay? I admire your self-improvement endeavor. You're inspirational!

Momof4... How DO you do it? I have 2 under 13 and some days.... arghhhh!

Sorry if that I missed some of the rest of you. Just getting acclimated here.

:hug:

WOW what a weekend. My foster daughter went for a walk to clear her head last night and never came home. Finally when she did text me she said she was going to kill herself where no one could find her. I had to go to the police then to the crisis. She ran out of texts at 12 then finally turned her self into the hospital at 3am. The police called me. Then the hospital called. They already had a 302 on her from me reporting her suicidal comments. She just finished a set of steroids for her poison ivy and has only been off of them a few days so I am assuming they are messing with her head. I dont know I am so mixed on the whole subject. i dont know where they will send her after the mentil place. She left me a message this morning when I was sleeping. She wants me to bring her clothes but its lik an hour away where they took her. I spent my family night last night looking for her and at the police station so i dont really want to spend another family night driving to take her clothes. One way I think she didnt care about anyone else last night and bout how we felt. I dont know I think I am just tired of her using me and expecting me to do everything for her. She tends to manipulate me a lot. She expects I will run to her when she needs. But its a two way street. Such a long mess of a story I hope people dont judge me and think I am being harsh because I everyone knew all the things I have done and given up for her they would say the same thing I am saying.
I am just so torn..... I just stayed home today cause I was exhausted and didnt really want to talk to anyone. I did miss a few nights of meds and a few mornings so that is not helping I know.

Ok well I will have to do personals later just not really into it right now.

blue I dont know how I do it some days!!

Hi girls,

I had written a small post last night but the computer froze as I submitted it so I see it didn't make it.

Momof4, wow, I can't even imagine what kind of a night you had. Glad to hear your foster daughter is ok. I'll second it, I don't know how you do it. Did you get any rest today?

Purefire, well, what did your mom say about the house?

Marbear, how was your therapist appt?

Blueenough, did you try the roasted chickpeas? I've always meant to try it but haven't gotten around to it somehow.

Jelly, how was the weekend with the kids?

Heather, you doin ok? Haven't seen you in a few days.

I was off today. We went to see 'The Proposal'. I was pretty good, predictable but good. On another note, I haven't worked out in nearly a week. What is wrong with me? :?: I've had the opportunities but haven't done it. The good news is I still want to work out. Lots of times when I go a few days and don't do what I should it can lead to not working out for the next 6 months or a year even. I don't feel like that is going to happen. I hate this battle! :mad:

How was everybody's weekend?

I did get to sleep in. i had to turn the phone down in order to rest. then I got to swim in my moms pool today. I had to take two of her foster girls home with me cause we are going to the zoo and they have to ride with me. Which was ok cause they helped and bathed my girls for me while I got clothes laid out for tomorrow. Honestly if I was a little more organized things would run smoother but sometimes its so hectic there is no time to step back and organize. but when you have to get soooo many kids ready if you dont lay stuff out it never goes right in the morning SOMEONE cant find something..LOL


I am exhausted for some reason tonight. Everyone texts me and keeps asking how kaci is when I havent even been able to talk to her and I get tired of telling everybody the same thing but I dont wanna be rude and not answer...

hope-how is everything going for you over all? I am glad you WANT to work out....i havent wanted to ...i want to get skinny but its almost like forcing yourself to go to the dentist...it will be good for you but it is torture...UGGGHH...I AM DRINKING WATER!!! In like 3 days I have only had one pepsi....(I think) but I have been drinking water or skim milk. That is a step up for me!!

PureFire-so you can get started at my house with cleaning since your almost done...LOL



I will catch everyone later I need to get sleep for a long day at the zoo...

Hello Ladies :hug:

momof4 ~ Something like that is very hard and stressful. Your foster daughter is in a place where they can help her. You shouldn't jump for her and do everything that she wants. People with suicidal thoughts don't care or think about anyone else. They just think about themselves. (I have been one of those people.) Giving her what she want won't help her. You have to let her know that you are still there for her, but she needs to learn to think of other people instead of herself and not try to manipulate you. She needs to start doing for herself. You need to relax and rest and you need to take your meds. Without them things with seem alot worse than they really are.

Marbear ~ How are you doing? What happened with you therapist? Hope things are a little better.

Heather ~ How are you doing. I hope you are feeling a little better.

Jelly ~ Hope you had a good weekend with your kids.

I hope everyone else had a good weekend.

It has been such a long weekend.. My body is so sore from all the walking I did and pushing my best friends boyfriends wheel chair. It was a workout just pushing the chair especially up hills and on grass for hours. I kept saying I need to start working out and walking again. I haven't gone for my normal walk in over a week but this weekend I did alot of walking and pushing a 180lb guy in his wheel chair so I guess that should be considered working out. :p

I was actually worried about my mother's reaction. She came home on Friday and I met her at the festival. She had bought me a few things since I hadn't planned on going to the festival til later that day so I told her I would pay her back for what I got. When I saw her Saturday morning. She was like "I'm so impressed" When she looked she said "I can't believe you labeled everything. It looks wonderful. Then it was "well you don't have to pay me back you earned everything I bought for you yesterday." When I clean, I clean. I still have to finish the attic and repack a few boxes. The boxes I have stuff in don't have lids that fit on them and my apartment will be on the 3rd floor so I have to fix that.

Today I did bad on my diet but not to bad. I had a bloomin' onion at the festival which was so good, a smoothie and 2 mcchicken sandwiches for Mcdonald's. Today was the last day of the cheat weekend. So tomorrow I got back to eating right. The good/bad thing was that I was worried about what the scale would say at the end of the weekend so I weighed myself everyday. I lost 2 pounds. Now I am waiting to see the results when I get up in the morning. I normally weigh myself once a week. I think I was just worried that I would gain alot. The walking seemed to balance things out.

:lol: :rofl: I just found this so funny and I had to share. My boyfriend asked what I was doing and I told him I was posting a reply on here. He goes "you can post on there and tell them your boyfriend is hot!" :lol::yes: :rofl: He's horrible, and so conceited but it made me laugh. :lol:

Too restless and unmotivated to really post... so I'll leave you all with a :hug: instead.

Morning all - I am doing okay, thanks for thinking of me! It's a slower recovery than I expected: everyone said to me 'You're so fit, you'll be up and about in NO time!' Yes, up and about, but SO SLOOOOW! The pain has faded more to discomfort than anything, and very manageable :) The water weight is coming off too, so I am trying to focus on eating well and taking a short, slow walk every day. Being stuck in the house, bored, makes me want to eat - gah! LOL

Looking forward to being able to drive myself again, and just do little things - I vacuumed this morning, but I can't actually get the vacuum up and down the stairs, just push it around on one level. Dumb things like that, haha ;)

Hope, I really enjoyed The Proposal, and described it to friends the same way - very predictable, all been done before, but good talent and very enjoyable fluff! ;) Hang in there - WANTING to get a workout in really IS the hard part of the battle!! :hug:

Mom - you are stronger than you know. Tough days - and no one here is judging you. Thinking of you!

Marbear, Purefire - big :grouphug: atcha girlies. Pure - catching things before we "totally blow it" is a HUGE part of keeping on keeping on - good on ya!! :yes:

Leenie, Buddly, Sassy - where you girlies at?? Miss ya!!

Anyone heard from JudoMom? If you're reading this hon - thinking of you every day. :hug:

Chat soon, chickies!
Heather :D

thanks guys.
Pure-thanks I am at times a very giving person and I have to make myself be realistic. I am just trying to figure everything out in my head...

heather- I hope you start feeling better that you can get out and do more things. My stepmother in law had that done and I know she was in a lot of pain for a while. thanks for not judging me


Well our trip to the zoo was eventful. i told my dh something was wrong with my tire the night before but they thought it was a belt and it would be fine. Well it got worse and ended up blowing luckly it started making a loud sound before it popped. so we had to go a little ways and get another one on that cost a lot my parents paid for it but I need to pay them back...BLAH I hate money special with me not working and only on one income!!!! but it would cost me more to go to work with child care.... i am trying to do some babysitting at home just not getting very far..

Trying to sort everything out with my foster daughter. She told her mom she didnt want to come back here. But kids play the head games between parents. She tells me when she comes home she is glad she lives with me cause of stuff that happens at her moms. Her and I have gotten close and her and the kids. She has broken my dh trust and he has long term issues with that so it takes a while to get it back and she expects it to be over night. I am just trying to figure out what she really thinks. I am not going to be another person that gives up on her.

I dont know I am exhausted and a lot to think about.

Have a good night everyone!!
lata

:wave: and :hug:

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Hi Ya. :wave:

Sorry been mia.......our computer at home is totally hosed so I can only get on at work and just haven't been able to get here......

TG its my "Friday" :D

DH and I have bought a new car. :cool:

Its a 2009 Kia Optima, Black (http://www.kingskia.com/new-inventory/vehicle-details.htm?vehicleId=8a85f04c7f000001013638d44f3f cde3&useHistory=true#).

Anywho, no real plans on my days off, except getting our new kitten fixed. Thats about the end of it. lol. I would like to go and do something, but I don't wanna leave her at home alone when she will be recovering from her surgery.

Well I hope you all are doing well!

:hug:

Sassy, congrats on the new car! Very nice!

I'm sick of being fat. Did I mention that brownies are the devil? :devil: I think I've said that before. TOM is visiting and I don't feel well. Can you tell?

:hug:

Good Morning,

Boss lady is back.. can you tell lol. So I can't stay long. Who said brownies ;) yes they are evil but in a good way.

Have a blessed day everyone, I'll be thinking about you.

:hug: Leenie

Mmmm, brownies... :lol3: Hang in there Hope - we can win the war on brownies! :yes:

Nothing new here, bored bored bored. Hahaha - SO not like me to force myself to rest, so I'm making little plans for something every day... finish a book that taken me ages, read magazines on the deck, have a friend over for lunch... walk a little bit almost every day. That last one is SO hard for me - yesterday I walked 12 minutes, then turned around and came home... so about 25 minutes all told. I was so tired - I've run 10 miles and felt less tired! The body is a funny thing, isn't it?? :yes:

Well - have I bored ya'll enough?? Have a great day everyone!!

Heather :D

hope-TOM IS EVIL....not the brownies..I can tell mine is coming soon and it will probably end up being while we are camping which will SUCK!!! I have just wanted to eat junk and am forgetting my meds...

heather-Atleast you are planning stuff and not allowing depression to overtake you. Since you are having to rest you can easily slip into a depression so that is awesome your keeping yourself "active" LOL..Your doing more walking than me and I dont have an excuse...that sucks.

I am sick of being fat but feel soooo trapped. Every time I get dressed I want to cry when I go anywhere I feel like everyone is looking at me and making fun of me (i am sure they probably dont even look my way) Its a CONSTANT thing that I deal with but YET I cant, dont, wont whatever eat right and excercise. Yes I am busy and have lots of kids and things I am responsible for but that is all excuses. But like today I had so much to do but couldnt even get myself off the couch like couldnt even MAKE myself...granted I have missed ALOT of meds this week so that is part of it. I think maybe I should do biggest loser because then there is no turning back. I never sent in my application cause I figured I would have lost weight before that next show. But I think maybe I need to...I dont know...UGHHHH....I had done well drinking soda so I was like I will have one since I have went with out for a while...AS SOON as I drank it then I wanted more. Its like I cant just have a little cause then I just want more...it must be that sugar sensitive thing....ERRRR


I feel trapped and cant get away and do what I should be doing...anyone ever feel like that. It is an awful thing.

Hi Ladies :wave:

I haven't been up to posting or doing anything. I'm completely tired. I've only been sleeping about 2 or 3 hours a night and yesterday I couldn't even fall asleep when I tried taking a nap. I only slept 5 hours last night. All I want to do is sleep but I try to stay awake during the day.

:hug:

Hi y'all. I am new here. I just posted in the new member thread and burned our dinner while doing it. UGH!!! I'm micro-defrosting another steak, hubby is looking at me like I have lost it.. At least the steamed vegetables arent burned...just mushy. Gotta go...the microwave just beeped.

Looking forward to chatting with all y'all.

Welcome oogi


marbear ~ What's going on? How are you feeling today? Congratz on the losing 5 lbs.

momof4 ~ I'm the same way.. Always giving. It's good to figure out things in your head, but at times you'll drive yourself crazy doing it. It normally helps to talk things out. It's good that your parents were there to help you out with your car. My son has being doing the same things. He tells me one thing and then tells my parents something else. Don't give up on her, just let her know that you are there and wait for her to come to you. I also hate looking in the mirror when i get dressed.

Sassy ~ Welcome Back and congratz on the new car.

Hope ~ Brownie are the root of all evil along with chocolate.

Heather ~ Being bored is a terrible thing. it's good that you are trying to find things to do.



I finally took a nap this afternoon and feel so much better.

I'm sleepy...:yawn:

I'm baking brownies for a bake sale tomorrow at work. Yes, the root of all evil is in the oven at 325 degrees. :rolleyes: I don't plan on having any now that the pan that was in our house is finally gone, but there is a girl at work who is needy and will benefit from their sale.

Welcome Oogi, looking forward to getting to know you.

Momof4--I feel your pain on the weightloss front. I'm sick of this fat and having to think about it, or ignore it, or overcome it, or whatever I'm doing with it on any given day. :p You are not alone.

Purefire, glad you finally got some sleep. You deserve it after all the cleaning you did.

Marbear, :hug: back at you. Feelin any better?

Heather, I know you are bored but try to think of all the times you wished you had time to read and catch up on stuff like that. Try to enjoy it, you'll be back to work before you know it.

On a good note, I did get my workout in today and yesterday despite TOM. :s:

:wave:

:welcome: Oogi, glad you joined us.

Heather the rest will be so worth it in the end, I'm gathering you really don't want any scar tissue to build (which is very painful btw). Keep plodding ;)

Mom :hug: feel better hon, and yes, i feel trapped and not able to come out of it (pretty much all the time).

Hope YEAH on the workout :bravo:

Purefire I know what zombie feels like too, if I get 3 hours uninterupted sleep a night thats alot.. some times I don't know how I got to work.. can't remember I'm so tired.. scary huh. hang in there and try to get some good sleep :hug:

Sassy, Jelly, Blue, Buddly, Marbear :wave: and to all the other beauties on this board.

TTYL, Leenie

Morning Ladies. :hug:

I think I'm just tired of being tired. I went to bed somewhat early last night and even had the chance to sleep in but my body didn't agree with me wanting to. I was up at 7:45am instead of 7am. :yawn:

I finally started doing my walk again. My legs are sore but I liked getting back out there. I was trying to walk when I got up in the morning and then late at night before I went to bed. I actually slept better when I walked at night.

Going to go spend the day with my son. Hopefully we get to go see Harry Potter :dizzy:

Have a Good Day Ladies.

Hi Ladies - Thanks for the warm warm welcome! Dinner last night turned out great after I cooked the second steak. The burnt one :devil: will go to the dogs...

Purefire - Good for you on your walking again. :carrot: I have problems translating wants into actions (like WALKING) but walked the dogs for a mile this am. It feels great and gives you energy, doesn't it? I'm hoping to creep into making it a habit in spite of the translation problem.

Did someone say chocolate? argh...

Hi ladies,

Just stopping by to say hi. Nothing interesting to share. :hug: to all!

Me too :wave: same old same old!

Tgif .... Sosdd ... Ttyl ;)

Good Morning! actually it is afternoon here...just got back from walking one dog. If it wasn't for this forum, that would never have happened. YAY 3FC!

Hello everyone,
I really didn't know where to go after such a long time. I'm needing a place to vent, sometimes, but don't want to get on anyone's nerves.

I've gone through so much the last 3 years,(or, our family has) I doubt if anyone would even believe me. I've eaten so much, that, I'm larger than I've ever been. I tried venting in the thread I was in 2 yrs ago, and was told I wasn't the only one with problems. That I needed to get over it. So, I guess my feelings got hurt.

Here goes. If you don't want to read, it's ok. I just need to put it down, somewhere.

Our son (then 26) got on drugs, his ex-wife told him that his 2 little girls were being molested. While high one day (she had supplied him the night before and spent the night with him.) our son shot the guy(thinking he was protecting his daughters). The other guy drew his gun, but, police was told he didn't have one. He didn't die, but, had surgery. His ex-wife told that our son just went in the house and started shooting, and she didn't know why. She got a court order against him and he couldn't see his daughters. (They were his life.) While waiting our son's trial, the guy dies of a heart attack and charges were dropped on our son! His ex-wife is close to her brother, and they knew our son would try to see his girls. May 18, 2008, while my husband and I were at church, her brother burned our house down. Our son was inside the house asleep, and, thanks to passers by, was awaken, and escaped. He burned my husband's work truck and all of his tools. There were a lot of witnesses, especially from a church that is straight across from our house. He went on trial, and was found not guilty! We have found out that one of the guys on the jury was a friend of his! Our son lost his mind......between not seeing his girls and shooting someone, and almost burning up. He is now in a mental institution.
We took his ex-wife to court for grandparents rights, and have the girls 3 weekends a month. We are having to get reacquainted with them. Our son can't see them until he is out. The girls won't talk about him. The other family has turned them against him, and the youngest, now 7, doesn't remember him.
We have been so blessed with help from everyone! It was on the news, and in the paper. We were helped and are still being helped. People around here don't like what happened, and know that he's guilty! We were even given a mobile home to live in. Through friend, neighbors, strangers, etc., we have been encouraged.
We know, though, that when our son comes back, that there probably will be more trouble.
Of course, there's a lot more. After all, it's three years! I know there's a God taking care of us, and he will take care of this evil family some day. We won't have to worry about that. But, this is all so hard to live with. I never dreamed we would ever have to go through anything like this!
Now.....I can't stop eating!!! Maybe by coming back to the forum, it will help me. I hope so.
I've been reading some your posts, and hope things get better for you. Maybe I won't write so much next time. I'm not on depression meds. I have severe RA, and other medical problems. I have a feeling I need depression meds, but, holding out.
Thank you for letting me vent.......

Oh ladies, I'm such a turd!

My guests this weekend got me off track, and I couldn't put myself back on the wagon... hence my "non-posting" this week. Haha. I feel like posting while being bad is like going to class without having done the homework. So I don’t. Eek!

I was sick Monday & Tuesday - which put a downer on my week. I need to be extra good this weekend and next week. Thursday one of my best friends from high school is coming up for the Bday and my parents are here the following week. Friend from HS = Drinking = Not good. (But oh so fun! :) ) Therefore I MUST be good until then!

I'm oddly positive today. May be the sugar and chocolate in the large hot chocolate I just finished. Wheeeee!

Oogi - I'm sorry about your dinner, but it made me smile :) You should think of it as a tribute to how dedicated you are to succeed! I'm glad dinner #2 turned out well.

Momof4 - :hug: I understand the paranoia of being in public and thinking everyone is staring at you. Don't let it get you down! Have you tried the Poland Springs or other flavored Seltzers? They've helped me overcome the soda crazes I used to have.

Hope - Mmm. Brownies. Ha, they are the devil. Seriously.

Heather - I'm glad you're feeling well! 25 minutes is better than no minutes at all!

Purefire - Amen on being tired!

Angel - Welcome back. I'm at a loss as to how to respond to your post, but by all means vent away. I'm sorry the people on the other forum weren't supportive of you. Hopefully we can help you feel better :hug:

Leenie, Sassy, Pure, and everyone else - Have a great weekend!

(I’m going to give the shift and 1 keys a rest now. I went a little ‘!’ crazy today…)

I am going go crazy..rainy days are crappy and my head is going to spin and green stuff is going to come out...I feel like I am goign to just go off the edge. Kids are fighting, screamin, crying, just awful.

Angel, I agree, I don't know what to say. You are most welcome here to talk about anything you would like as much as you want. To say you have a reason to be depressed is an understatement but I hope we can be of support. :hug:

Oogi, :bravo: on the walking! Good job!

Marbear, if I didn't post every time I went off plan you'd never see me! :dizzy:
I'm always behind on my homework.

I actually got my workout in today. Yay me. Now I need to be in bed. See y'all tomorrow.

Good Morning,

SOSDD but better because its Saturday and I'm home. We are off to see FIL today, they don't think he will survive much longer, he is really doing poorly (he is 86 and in hospice care). I need to get a wee bit cleaning done today lol.

Angel Lover :welcome: back to 3fc's. I'm sorry your feelings got hurt way back when from another poster :( My stars lady, my heart sank reading your post. Food is comforting and everyone needs a release, I'm glad you recognize its become a problem :hug: they say thats the first step. Your Faith sounds incredible, I admire you for that as its not always easy to leave things in God's hands. Please know you can always post here with us regardless if you are on meds or not. Again, welcome back.

Hope yeah for you ... exercise is not easy :bravo:

Mom I agree, rainy days are very depressing, if we have more than 2 boy do I feel it.

Marbear, you need to post whether your doing good or bad... thats what support is about, besides you'll receive no judgment here. We love you the way you are so please don't feel you need to be perfect to post :no: Ok Gosh if I only posted on good days, I'd have about 10 posts out of my what... 10k lol

Oogie good for you for walking ;)

Heather :hug: <--- gentle of course

Have a great day Chickies :wave:

Good Morning Ladies.

Angellover ~ Welcome.

Hope & Oogi ~ Woohoo on the exercise and walking.

Marbear ~ continue posting whether you are having a good day or a bad day. We all have them both and it's always good to talk about them instead of hiding from them.

Heather ~ :hug:

Jelly ~ Where r u? Thinking about you.

Mom ~ I agree. Rain does suck.

I'm going to Maine this weekend. So I'll be mia until Monday. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

:hug:

Good Morning Ladies. We are up and off early this AM to Pepper Place - a weekend farmers market/craft thingy downtown. I'm looking forward to grabbing up some fresh fruits and veggies. Ta-Ta

Morning chickies! :wave:

:welcome: to our newest members - you are very welcome here!

I ventured out last night with my niece to see the new Harry Potter film... it was very good, but I was SOOOO tired afterwards - it was long!! Sitting for two and a half hours really made me stiff and sore - I feel about 900 years old!! :lol:

Nothing new here - managing to stay on top of things, take it easy and not go completely batty!! ;)

Have a good Sunday, all! :yes:

Heather :D

:wave:

Jesus decided to take my FIL home this morning... I know he's glowing.

Have a great evening :hug:

Oh Leenie, big hugs to you and your hubby. :hug: I know it's hard but you are right, he is healed now and happy where he is. Is your hubby taking it ok? I think it is a little easier when it is expected though you are never completely prepared.

I was off today and slept most of the day away. We got up at 1pm and had some left over mexican. I finished up a referral for a friend and dropped it off to her then we took a nap! I had to set my alarm so I could get up and go to my friend's house for dinner. We ended up taking a walk which I needed to do to wake up. I hate when I end up sleeping the day away. Now it's midnight and I didn't get any cleaning done or my bills taken care of. :mad:

Heather, you may feel 900 yrs old but you will you'll soon look 18 again (probably better)! I'm still jealous. ;)

Purefire, how was your trip?

Oogi, how was the farmer's market. Get any good veggies?

Marbear and Momof4, doing ok?

Buddly and Sassy--where are you guys?

So sorry leenie..

was sick this morning...had the runs and made myself go to church after the immodium kicked in because I had kids church to do...couldnt let the kiddies down!!

Ok day other than that...typing with a sleeping child on my lap so its a little difficult.

get my hair done tomorrow...ya...we leave for camping on my birthday wed!!! This is like my last happy birthday cause next year I will be 30 I am telling you I never thought I would get to that age and I will probably cry...I better be in shape and atleast looking younger by this time next year..

ok arm is hurting from typing with the girl laying on it...gonna go read then crash!

lata all
have a good day!!

Leenie:hug: condolences to you and your hubby.

Hi everyone:wave: and a big Welcome to all who are just joining us.

I'm around, sort of. Been a bit of a draining day as the community where my in laws live has a couple of forest fires burning. My in laws were evacuated yesterday, thankfully they have a vacation condo a few hours away that they were able to head to today. Thankfully no one has been hurt in these fires and so far not many homes have been lost (9, last unofficial report) Hopefully the winds stay low as the one fire still isn't contained and a shift in wind will bring it back towards the homes. I've been wishing for the summer heat here, but if thats what it brings I'm grateful for our cooler, damper weather. We were planning on going down there for a visit in a couple of weeks but I guess we will have to wait and see how this all plays out.
I honestly don't know what I've been up to, still feeling very low. I have my last anxiety and relaxation group meeting on Tuesday and I finally get to see the counselor again next Monday.

I should get going and go to sleep. Hope everyone is doing alright.
Take care all,
K

G'day ladies

Lennie - :hug: I'm so sorry for your loss.

Hope - We all need to sleep all day sometimes. Don't let it ruin the part of your day where you are awake.

Pure - Enjoy Maine? It was pretty nice up here this weekend. Hope it stays that way.

Buddly - Keep us posted on your inlaws hopefully everything will turn out ok.


It's been a good day so far. Being that it's only 8:05 - haha :)
Nothing new really going on. Hope everyone has a great day!

Leenie - HUGE :hug: to you and yours - thinking of you. x

Hope - now I want Mexican food - LOL!

Marbear - hope the day continues brilliantly!

Buddly - those fires are awful. How was the meeting? Are they something you can do more of, if it was helpful??

Mom - 30 is NOTHING, you spring chicken, you! Have the best day you can - don't cry, just make it a super day to remember! When I turned 30, my friends took my out bowling and we played dumb game like 'Whack-a-Mole' - it was great! I still remember laughing til I hurt!!

Oogi, Purefire - how are you girls today? ;)

Sassy, where you at, chickie??

Nothing new here - starting to move around a whole lot easier, swelling is under control most of the day (nice and slim in the morning - dough boy by bedtime! :lol3:) and no real pain, just discomfort, and Tylenol is taking care of that. :yes: It's all progressing as it should, I'm sure - back to the surgeon tomorrow morning, so hopefully I'll get out of this one-piece compression garment and into something more manageable! hahaha

Have a great day, my chicks!
Heather :D

:)I want to thank all of you for welcoming me back. It will help to put things down, instead of holding them in.
I went to visit my son Saturday. It's about a 2 hr drive. He wasn't doing as well as usual. Makes for a bad week for me and hubby.

A little about myself: I've just turned 60 (so "momof4under5"...30 isn't so bad!) Been married to a great man for 41 yrs. Have twin daughters that are 40. A daughter that is 34, and my son will be 30 on July 30th. We have 12 grandchildren! :DExpecting our 2 great-grandchild.;)

I worked in sewing plants, mostly as an instructor for 18 years. Was in a car accident that put me on SS Disability at the age of 36. In 1993 I start volunteering at a christian TV Station. I'm the secretary, help in the control room, studios, etc. I help with the news at 4:30 to 5:00 each week day evening, and have a program on Monday nights where I try to sing. I'm not great, but, enjoy it. Working at the TV Station has helped me a lot with coping with all.

My husband lays floor covering.

I don't know much about any of you, yet, so for now, I'll just say I hope you all have a great day!

Hola Chickies.

How r u all? Me? Better than yesterday! lol. I called off work I was up and down all night and day to the bathroom.......:barf: So that combined with Zero sleep yeah I just called off and slept.

The new car drives really nice. We took the inlaws out to eat last week for a combined Anniversary/My mil's bday and they got to ride in our car and they liked it. I think my fil likes it better than his car and he has the exact same model, ours is just a year newer.

Thats about it. AF came to visit last night too! I am SOOO lucky! :rofl: I just woke up and was like "Seriously??" lol. But at least she has been consistent, coming every month at the same time by herself! :woohoo:

We got our kitten spayed and all her shots. You couldn't have telled that she even had surgery unless you looked at her belly! So she is doing good.

Well thats about it.

Take Care!

:hug:

I got home from work about 10:30 tonight and I have been eating ever since. I haven't done this in a long time now. Fried chicken, laughing cow cheese and crackers, fruit, nuts, whatever. I just hope I don't get sick from it. What on earth was that about? :?:

Hope - it's so odd, isn't it, when we don't KNOW why that happens? I did the same last night - no idea why...

Hang in there, hon. :hug:

Good to see you Sassy!! Feel even better soon! :)

Everyone else - have a great Tuesday!

Heather :D

G'day ladies.

Hope - TOM? That's usually what makes me go crazy with the munchies.

So... There's an ice cream social today at work. I'm NOT going... I'm Not going... I'm not going... My coworkers are boys and can eat whatever they want, adn they keep asking me why I'm not going and telling me how good the ice cream is. Blah! One of them told me I'd break down and go - which is good becuase now he's challenged my will power and I have a point to make so I can't give in. Incentive is good.

Coffee time!
Have a great day! :)

Good morning y'all! I'm overloaded with southern peaches here. What do you do with all these peaches? Maybe grilled chicken topped with warm peaches served over rice? hmmmmm

Packing for camping....foster daughter coming back home tonight...hopefully that goes well...Thats about it not a lot of time to chat....lata

Hello all........
Well.......I need a couple of new pantsuits, so went shopping. Gee....if anything can depress a fat woman like me, it's shopping. Didn't want anything I tried on. Bought a couple of things that I'm probably gonna take back! I think I'm in the right place.........because, I'M REALLY DEPRESSED!!!:(

Gotta get serious with my weightloss!:o

Hope you all have a great day.

I haven't shopped for the longest time... it really sucks seeing a nice dress on display, walking into the store, trying the largest size, but STILL being unable to fit into it. Totally kills the self-esteem, or whatever t'was left of it.

Sighhhhhhh.

Good Morning :D

I agree, shopping for clothes is the pits. Even at my thinnest I could never find anything that looked good on me. I have rounded shoulders and that combined with my height... shivers !! lolol I do like buying my pants online at Roamans, I seem to have good luck with that store as they sell "tall" sizes.

Well lol, with that, have a good day chickies :rofl:

.

Forgot it was my birthday until one of the kids told me happy birthday! Thats what happens when you get old.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v185/Angel-Lover/Number%20five/hb1greb.gifWell...I was right....spent this morning returning.:^:
Just about ready to give up.

I've got to get serious about my weight! I got let down a couple of weeks ago, and it threw me. I had really tried to lose a few pounds. My clothes were looser, and people were actually commenting that I was loosing. Then, I weighed at the drs office. I had lost 3 pounds!:( I know it was just a start, but, I actually thought I had lost more. Anyway, it got me out of the mood. Since I just turned 60, she reminded me it was harder to lose, especially with all my meds.

Enough about that...........gotta go look for something to wear.........

Mom - Happy Bday!

Everyone else have a great day!

Happy Birthday, mom!! :balloons:

Momof4 :balloons:Happy Birthday!!:balloons: Hope you have a great one!!
Enjoy your camping.

Hi everyone,
It looks like they have most of the two fires contained and I just saw that people can return, but some are still on alert. Only three homes lost so that was good. Hopefully the winds stay down and they can get them 100% out. Not sure when the inlaws will go home, but I'm sure they will want to check out how much smoke damage they have to deal with.
We are having some beautiful weather here, total open fire ban for the weekend. Hubby got all the grass cut last night so it smells so nice out there.
My relaxation group is done not sure what the next one will be. It was kind of nice as 10 people were signed up for it but only three of us showed up consistently.

Hope and Sassy how are you feeling today?

Angel yes, shopping is one of the worse things going. The lighting in the change rooms sure doesn't help!!

Heather glad to hear you are feeling better and still time to rock a bikini this summer!!! Go you!

Well I have to go clean my kitchen, didn't feel like it last night and evidently no one else did either.


Take care everyone
K

Hello Ladies.. :wave::hug:

:welcome3: to all our newest member. It nice to meet everyone

Leenie ~ Sorry for your loss. :hug:

mom ~ turning 30 is really just another day. I turned 30 this year on March 8th. The only time it even bothered me was when my friends picked on me because I was thirty. Other then that the day just went by. Now most of the time I forget about it and don't think about being thirty. Have fun camping. Hopefully everything goes well with your foster daughter.
:bday2you:

Hope/Heather ~ Eating all day long happens. Sometimes you don't know what or why your are doing it. I sometimes think that your body is telling something and it wants food. Sometimes it can be the men in your life :tantrum: It seems most of them can eat whatever they want and not gain weight.

Marbear ~ Sometimes having a treat like ice cream isn't to bad as long as you don't have a lot of it. But its even better when someone challenges your will power and you can prove that you can do it.

oogi ~ peaches are yummy.

Angel ~ Shopping is horrible especially when your overweight. I refuse to buy anything else until I lose some weight. I only have about 3 shirts and 2 pairs of jeans that look right. I don't like wearing shorts anymore or even capri's. I hate to look at myself in the mirror when I buy anything. It make you seriously depressed.

Coming home on Monday from Maine didn't seem to work out. :spin: I actually ended up staying a few more days and got home about 3 hours ago. The weather was pretty decent tho. It only rained yesterday. As for my diet. It went completely out the window the whole time I was in Maine. There was constant cookouts and so much good food that I think all I did was eat.

I did learn how to make this really good pasta salad. Its easy to make it low calorie and low fat.

I did exercise two days in a row. We went swimming in a stream and it was so hard to do. The current was unbelievable. You could barely walk across with the current pulling at you. So it was like weights on your legs. Then we swam up to wear it wasn't so bad. There was a rope swing which I wouldn't go on but the guys did. The best part was floating back down stream to where we started. We had to work at keeping ourselves above water all the way and it was a workout on the arms.

Tonight for dinner I said I wasn't cooking. So we ended up getting Chinese. Yum. I had Chicken & Rice Soup and 5 Crab Rangoons.

Then of course today is my daughter's 6th birthday. I still can't believe she's 6. I don't get to see her today but I talked to her. I will be seeing her on August 1st. I can't wait.

Have a good night ladies. :hug:

Hello All! :wave:

First wanna wish Momof4 a Very Happy Birthday! :D

http://dl9.glitter-graphics.net/pub/1934/1934139zhps7g5l2y.gif (http://www.glitter-graphics.com)

I sooooooooo did not wanna get up for work tonight......:p its one of those rainy :rain: nights that you just wanna sleep........:yawn: Oh well at least its my "Friday"!! :celebrate:

Angel -- Yes I agree as well, I hate shopping for clothes for both me AND my DH who is not just "big" but very tall. That combination isn't easy to find, esp if you don't wanna spend a fortune at the Big and Tall stores! I'm the complete opposite of him I am short and fat! lol. I usually order my pants offline, it seems easier to me. Esp once I have a place I like. Shirts are pretty easy, but sometimes it can be a challenge esp if you like a certain style and they only have it in teeny tiny sizes! :rolleyes: Have you tried womanwithin.com? That is where I get some of my clothes, not too bad. Anyways, :congrat: on the 3 pounds weightloss! I see it as a loss is a loss! ;)

Buddly -- Sorry to hear about your inlaws, hope its not too much damage! I am feeling better, thanks, but I think I gave it to my DH as he is now sick. :p

Purefire -- Glad you had fun in Maine, I've always wanted to go there......Mmmm Chinese..........I love :love: Crab Rangoons!!!! :drool:

Well take care everybody!!!!

:hug:

:celebrate::bday2you: Happy Birthday Momof4!!! :bday2you::celebrate:




Good to see everybody, except Amarie- you still out there?

I'm with you on the shopping thing Angel, if I get out of the store without crying or having a panic attack I'm doing well. Some trips are better than others but yikes, it' s usually not pleasant.

Oogi, I saw a recipe that looked good with peaches. If I can find it I'll let you know. They are absolutely my favorite fruit.

Purefire, what's in the pasta salad recipe? I need one that is low fat/cal.

marbear-I hope the icecream didn't get you!

I'm off the next 2 days. Yay! I do have a dentist appointment tomorrow but then I'm free. I have so many things I need to do around the house. We'll see what happens. Hopefully there will be some exercise in there somewhere.

Hey Hope! :wave:

I hate clothes shopping -- its depressing!!! I love it when my friends or my MIL buys me clothes, because it makes it a lot easier and they usually know what looks better on me than I do!!! lol. GL at the dentist appointment. DH and I need to go in before I ditch my insurance in September. (DH has insurance and mine is total crap, but we should go and get a last visit before we lose the double coverage) I need to do some major cleaning but I don't wanna! WAH! :tantrum: LMAO. My DH has been such a sweetie lately, doing up dishes, doing laundry, vacuuming, etc..........but it still needs some cleaning yet. At least our car is clean -- as its brand new! HA! I need to get my behind in gear with the exercising thing. I am thinking about us going to get the treadmill and rowing machine at the in-laws that they are giving us and finding a spot for them, that way its right there! No excuses!!!!! Although I am sure I probably could find some if I really wanted too! But I really need to get back on the exercise. Have been eating bad too.........*sigh*

Well have a good one!!!!!!!!!

:hug:

Good morning ladies.

hope - the icecream did not get me! yay!

pure - glad you had fun in ME. The weather has been mush nicer lately - hopefully it holds out for this weekend!

buddly - hope all is going well on the inlaw front

I'm in heaven right now. I'm not sure if I've mentioned how obsessed I've become with frozen cherries, but OMG... The entire bag of dole cherries is only 220 calories - Ha! So that's my breakfast - with some yogurt.

I may be mia until Monday... not sure if I'll get a chance to pop back in later. One of my best friends from high school is coming up for the weekend. My birthday is Saturday - #26... ick. Imiss being 16. Not becuase of the youth and energy or any of that other nonesense - but because my parnets did my laundry, paid my bills, and the only responsibilty I really had was a few math problems every night and knowing when to show up at the mall on the weekends. The desire to be 16 REALLY runs through my head everymonth when I pay rent...

So... There will be drinking. Probably lots of it. So I've already formulated a menu for next week, knowing full well I'm not going to stay on target this weekend. I figure - I might as well realize I'm not going to be perfect and have fun rather than feeling guilty about every single glass of wine and ruining my weekend. I realize it sounds like I'm making excuses - that's not really what I'm trying to do. My week next week will more than make up for it - I promise :)

However... I have a day of work and a therapist appt to get through before I start having fun. Oh and a bunch of cleaning. Therapist should be good (riiiiiight...). She was going to read that blasted story I gave her during my last appt. She agreed to email me so I wouldn't have to talk to her in person. I'm hoping she just didn't read it, and that she didn't decide we should talk about it in person. This is going to suck if she did...

I hope you ladies have a fabulous weekend!

:wave: Good Morning Ladies.. :hug:

Sassy ~ I can understand your not wanting to get up and go to work. I worked 3rd shift for 4 years. It was an ok shift to work but most of the time I didn't want to get up and go. The only thing that was good about going to work was the crew I worked with. I like being laid off for the moment but now I am looking for a job that is not 3rd shift.

oogi ~ I love going online looking for recipes. I go to one website alot. I went looking this morning and there are a few recipes for peaches and they are healthy.
http://www.eatingwell.com/recipes/collections/healthy_peach_recipes.html

hope ~ The pasta salad that we had last weekend was very high calorie, but I loved it. My boyfriend said I did a really good job making it for the first time. I am going to go shopping to get the stuff I need to try to make it low calorie/low fat. It should come out just as good. I hope.
The recipe is:
1 lb box Elbow macaroni
6 large hard boiled eggs
3 med or large tomatoes
2 med (7" long) cucumbers
1 cup lite or fat free mayo
oregano and salt and pepper.
~ Cook the macaroni like you normally would. ~ After you peel the eggs, just use the whites. cut them up into pieces ~ cut up the tomatoes ~ cut the cucumber into slices. (I cut them into slices and then cut them in half again)
~ Then add the mayo. Then add oregano and salt and pepper.
** Your going to want a big bowl for this. It makes a lot.**
I tired adding up the calories for this. The whole recipe comes to about..
1950 calories 76fat 73 protein.

buddly ~ Hope everything is going ok with you inlaws.

marbear ~ The cherries sound wonderful. I have so much fruit in my fridge, now I just have to go through it to see what's good. If I can save any of it. I'm going to cut everything that needs to be cut and put it all into a big bowl. My boyfriends mother likes the fruit dip that comes with the platters you get at the grocery store. We actually made a low calorie dip instead which was a tub of fat free whip topping, and fat free strawberry yogurt. It was so good.
It always seems to be so hard to stay on plan when we go away or have plans on the weekend. nobody's perfect. As long as you get back on plan when the weekend is over. That is what counts.


It felt so good to sleep at home. I missed my bed. I completely forgot yesterday.. We came home from Maine with 5 kittens. They are all running around the room. It's so cute. They woke us up this morning.

I have a bunch of cleaning to do this morning. With the kittens here, i am going to clean out my closet, so the cats have more room to play. They have to stay upstairs with us. My mother's boyfriend doesn't want them in the house. So today I am working on the upstairs to make sure the kitty's have enough room and can't get downstairs.

hope everyone has a good day.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v185/Angel-Lover/Number%20five/happybdaycake.gifMarbear!

Enjoyed reading all of the posts. Thanks to all of you that welcomed me!

Found out yesterday that my next great-grand is a little girl! I'm so happy! This makes 12 grands and 2 great-grands. And I'm not even old!!!;) At least, I don't feel it.....even with all that's happened.

I finally settled on a couple of pantsuits. Not crazy about them, but, I think it's more the sizes than the styles. I'm just not used to being this big.:(

Gonna go before I depress myself.........everyone have a good day.

:wave:

Work is busy busy... have a wonderful day chickies :hug:

Leenie

Angel, congrats on the new grand-baby girl! :bb: (and on the pant suits ;))

Purefire, thanks for the recipe, it sounds good and I think I have most of the ingredients already.

Marbear, have fun this weekend. It's a special occasion and as long as you get back on track Monday you will be fine.

Sassy, I had a dentist appointment too today. I had a cleaning a couple of weeks ago and had a filling today. It wasn't bad, be brave!

I was off today and made some really great and fresh food. I had a grilled chicken salad for lunch with lots of berries, fresh veggies and poppy seed dressing. For dinner I grilled mahi mahi and made mango salsa with a side of roasted asparagus. It's amazing how good your body feels when you actually eat healthy things. Go figure. :rolleyes:
I got a workout in too. I did a walking video and one of the Biggest Loser workouts. Have any of you ever done one of those with Bob Harper? I think he is a great trainer but he has NO rhythm, gets off count and completely rushes. You can't even keep on his count most of the time. The people behind him can't either. Everybody is keeping a different pace. It looks like they just threw it together. I'm surprised it was released that way. That has been true of every one of his I've tried. :dunno:

Thank you hope4me!
WOW.........that food really sounds good! Almost makes me want to diet............almost. It's so hard getting started. I've got to work up the will power. With health problems, I can't exercise, so I have to just about starve. I've done it before, but, can't seem to get going this time.

Don't work too hard, Leenie.

SASSY, the dentist appointment reminds me. Do you watch American Idol? The winner a couple of years ago....Taylor Hicks..........well, his dad is my dentist! There are pictures of Taylor all over his office.

Purefire, I'm curious to know how you're going to keep those kittens upstairs. I've got 2(white one is "popcorn" and brown one "peanut" and can't control them at all! They're very playful, and get by me so easily.

Buddly, hope all is better for your in-laws. My heart goes out to them. I can say that I know what it's like to experience fire.:hug:

Hope all have a good day.

Good Morning Ladies..

Angel ~ Congrats on the new grand-baby girls and finding a few pant-suits. The kittens are being good so far. They stay together or in the closet which is now set up for them so for now it's easy to slip in and out of the door. The best part is they sleep all night but wake us up at around 7am.

Hope ~ your welcome and let me know how it comes out. I won't have time to make it until after I come back from vacation.

Marbear ~ Have fun this weekend and Happy Birthday.

Leenie ~ Don't work to hard.

Today I am working on stay OP. I've been off it for over a week now and I can feel it. If the weather gets better, I am hoping to get some exercise in as well. My boyfriends niece and nephew are sleeping over tonight so it's going to be an interesting evening. Going to spend the day with my son.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Good morning everyone :wave:
Just popping in before getting ready for work. Suppose to hit 30* (86*F) today. Would love it except I'm stuck in a small kitchen between the grill and fryers. But we do have a nice walk in cooler and somebody has to do back ups, so you know where I'll end up!!;)
Thanks for all the well wishes for the in laws. Hubby called them last night and they are doing really well and thankfully everything is fine. For as bad as the fire was only three homes and a trailer was lost. They even managed to save a saw mill which is a major employer, so many blessings.
I better get going I always seem to run out of time.
Take care everyone :hug:
K

Good Morning,

Happy Saturday :) what a long week this has been lol, TGIS. Any plans for the weekend?

Nothing much here cept cleaning and a birthday party this afternoon, and tomorrow is all mine :D seems like I haven't had a slow weekend is a long time.

Anyway.. have a great day Chickies

:hug: Leenie

Happy Saturday!!

Started my day with as much of the 30 Day Shred as I could handle--my body is not complying with my request to hop up and down. So, I shall do some housecleaning and burn my calories that way, prep food for the week, and drink my water. Also, we're going to TWO cookouts today and I'm terrified, but I'm going to bring water and tea to drink [stay AWAY from the soda] and probably pack some fruit and good food to eat.

Have a great day!

Hi ladies,

Ifyernasty, yeah if I do Jillian Michael's workouts I can't do all of the jumping. I also can't do all of the stuff in the plank position. I just can't hold myself up in that position for very long at this weight.

Heather, how's it going? We haven't seen you in a few days.

A couple of people noticed that I have lost some weight today. That hasn't happened in a long time. I'm down about 10 lbs from my highest. (My ticker is wrong and has been for a looong time.) It felt nice. I've been working at it slowly for a while and working out about 2-4 times a week. :crossed: Pray that I continue, I need to so badly.

What are y'all up to for Sunday? I'm working from 11-8pm. :p

Good Morning,

Welcome Ifyernasty, hope the bbq's were a success.. they are so hard.

Hope I'm so glad people are starting to notice your wl... :hug: it means so much.

Buddly when I worked in a nursing home I used to cook for 90 patients... the kitchen was wall to wall ovens and steam tables... boy do I remember sitting in the walk in freezers to cool off lol, working in those places is not easy.............hopefully you had a good day.

Mom .. happy belated birthday :hb:

Nothing on the agenda today :D :D :D :D :D

TTYS, Leenie

Thank you for all the birthday wishes. We came to the house to get some stuff and do some things then we are going back out. I gotta go bath the girls and then shower and we can get going. i will catch up on everything when I get back it looks like a lot of interesting topics and things going on. I am hoping I lose weight like I do when I am camping!! Ok catch you all lata!!!

Happy Sunday Ya'All! :wave:

Aaaaahhh yes another fun filled week at work! At least this is my short week!! :celebrate:

Only thing I got accomplished on my days off was stripping the bed, we flipped the mattress, washed all the sheets, comforter, bedskirt, etc. Nothing like a nice fresh bed...........;)

That was about it. Didn't have energy really to do anything else. :yawn: So I figure this week on my nights off I will try to get more accomplished. I am trying to think on how to rearrange our bedroom. Its small and we have a queen sized bed, so not too many options but its driving me crazy. :crazy: I am one of those that is not happy unless I can rearrange every few months. lol. Which our living room is the same way, no way to rearrange it due to where the tv has to be......ARGH! lol.

Hope you had a Great Bday, Marbar24! and just wait until you hit the 30's, then you'll be wishing your back at your 20's again! HA! lol. I just would like the body I had at 18, no desire to really go back to that time, but the body, yes it would be great! But know what ya mean about bills! lol.

Pure -- I like 3rd, but sometimes, just like any shift or job, it gets old! lol. I like it mostly because there are little or no management here on 3rd. Makes it a lot more relaxing! I cannot sleep anywhere but in my own bed. If we go on vacation somewhere, I can't sleep unless I bring something to knock me out! lol.

Angel Congrats on the Great-Grand Girl! :bb:

Buddly -- I hear ya on the cooler. I used to "volunteer" to do that too! hee hee hee. Glad to hear the in-laws are doing well!

Leenie -- hope you had fun at the bday party!

Hi momof4............Bye momof4! lol.

I hope you all are doing well!!!

:hug:

Hello Everyone.

Hope everyone's weekend was good.

Mine was ok for the most part. I went to the beach on Saturday and just sat on the rocks and read a book and stared out over the ocean. It was nice and relaxing. Today I spent the day out and had fun. Took a 2 hour drive that became really funny. We got lost in an interesting area and as we went it turned in a dirt road with trees all around us. It was fun to do at night. It ended up being over 20 miles long and we had to go very slow for most of it.

So I seriously need to vent....

The bad part of my day happened when I called my step-mother to see how my son was going. The conversation didn't turn out to well. My step-mother was going somewhere and my son didn't want to go so he ended up giving her an attitude. Then my step-mother went into my son's room and found him playing with knives. He's 10 years old. He keeps saying he wants to kill himself. Then he'll say he's joking and it will drop for awhile. Now I am really worried. Especially where he is playing with knives. I am done with him saying it. I decided that tomorrow I am taking him for a ride. We are going to go to the crisis center. I don't know what else to do.

Hi everybody,

I'm having a little anxiety tonight. I've got some things on my mind I guess. Nothing too exciting to share.

See you tomorrow.

Hello everyone....hope you all had a good weekend. Thanks for all the congrats on great-grand. I went to see the mommy-to-be yesterday....she's getting a little pooch out front!;)She has one problem, we hope will turn out ok. She has Placenta Previa. Dr. hopes it will change before baby is born. We just have to watch her close.

hope4me...sorry about the anxiety. Hope you're better.

Purefire....I'm so sorry about your son. DO SOMETHING NOW! Don't do like we did, and think all will get better. He's asking for help by even saying he's going to kill himself. There's something bothering him. Our 12 yr old grandson was talking that way about a year ago. One day in school, he snapped. He went into a rage and said he got into a fight with boys that were picking on him and said he was going to kill himself. He ended up in an institution for a few weeks. They found the meds he needed, and he is a new kid! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

I need to change furniture and beds around, also, but I live in a trailer since the housefire. It's almost impossible to move anything around. I'm just thankful I have it.

Everyone have a good Monday!:)

Hey chickas -

Hope - I hope you feel better today! Anxiety is no good...

Angel - Congrats on the Baby girl ( I'm a little tardy on that one - sorry!). Does the mom-to-be have any idea on names yet?

Purefire - I'm sorry about the troubles your having with your son. I agree with what Angel said above and your decision to take him to a crisis center. We're here if you need to vent :hug: On a happier note – I’m jealous of your kittens! We have two cats, and that’s quite enough for us so no cute little fuzballs for us. Just big fuzzballs who think they’re still small and fall off things . Do you have names for the kittens?

Sassy - Thanks!

Leenie - Hope you have fun at your birthday party.

Ifyernasty – I don’t jump around when I do the 30 day shred because I live in an old house full of apt’s and I don’t want the person below me to think the sky is falling. I normally do squats or something in place of jumping.

Buddly – hope you have fun in the freezer! 


Thanks for the bday wishes. My weekend was fun, but boy am I feeling it today. I may only be 26 in calendar years, but I’m 95 in people years. Haha – 9:30 is past my bedtime . I was up until after 1am 3 nights in a row!!! One of my best friends from high school came up Thursday night, and drama updates were shared over wine. Too much wine – not enough food = MAJOR headache Friday morning. Friday night we went out to eat and the hung out around the apt playing moronic drinking games. Saturday was GORGEOUS outside, and we had a picnic at one of the state parks Downeast. It’s my favorite place in Maine – I was happy the weather held out so she could experience it in its glory. Saturday night we met my other friend from Maine out for dinner, and went to a bar for a bit. Sunday my parents arrived for their week long visit. My friend left later afternoon after we did lunch with my parents. I feel bad because my husband and I are totally worn out and my parent’s visit just started. We’re such party poopers! Getting up extra early to exercise doesn’t help either – but I wasn’t good this weekend and promised I’d be super good this week to make up for it… oye.

Hope you ladies have a lovely day!

Hi all - no real time to catch up. Hope - you and I are the same person - anxious here too. :(

Have a good day all!

:wave:

Hi Ladies, sorry I can't play.. boss is here.

I wanted to give you all a big ol :hug: and some prayers.

Love you all.
Leenie

Hello, I know it's been a little while since I've posted but I was thinking of everyone. I've been super busy working 10/12 hours but luckily things are starting to slow down a bit. I'm getting close to my goal weight but I still feel big somedays. I thought losing weight would help me with my confidence and I'd feel better about myself, but I've been feeling really down lately. I hope everyone else is okay

Hey Chickas. Nothing going on here.

Hope & Heather - you ladies doing better today? :hug:

Hello :wave:

Purefire how did you make out with your son. I'm so glad you are taking him for help :hug: good luck sweetie, we are praying for you.

Leenie

Finally back from camping...loads and loads of laundry. Tons of stuff to put away...a trash stinky van, house to clean....stresss..

I think I figured out my lack of motivation most of the time. I only had a little bit of lexapro left so I took it every other day so I wasnt a long time without it. Well on the day that I took it I couldnt make myself get up and do anything I drug my self around. When it was nap time all I wanted to do was sleep. The other days at nap time I wasnt even tired and couldnt really sleep during nap. So I am going to get it filled and then take it every other day and see if it does the same thing is it does I am going to break it down and get off of it. Its what made me lay on the couch all day a few years ago. I got to the point I didnt even want to get up and get the kids food...I was in a good mood but no energy just lethargic really really bad.

Ok well gotta get going on stuff!!!

Lata

Hi girls,

Well, I have some news. Nothing is carved in stone yet but...I'm going back to school (I hope). I want to try to be a dental hygienist. I can't apply till February but I need several prerequisites that my psych degree didn't require me to take. I'm going to a community college tomorrow to try to sign up for classes like biology and anatomy etc. I will be going to part-time at work so I can try to make A's in my classes.

I'm excited and afraid. I fear going back to school after 17 yrs. :eek: Can I do well? Can I pass chemistry with a good grade? What if I do all of these classes then not get accepted into the dental hygiene program? Am I wasting my time? There only two programs in the area and they are competitive. Believe me, I have been losing much sleep over this. But if I don't try, I don't have many options...:o

Anywho, say some BIG prayers for me. I would really appreciate it.

Butterfly, good to see you again. Sounds like you have been working too much. How cool to be close to your goal weight!

Heather, what's going on? You doing ok?

Purefire, been thinking about you and your son. Did you go to the counselor?

Momof4, glad you are back. It sounds like you need a different med. They are supposed to get you OFF the couch, not put you on it.

Marbear, have you recovered from the weekend?

Angel, Sassy, and Buddly, how are your week's going?

Leenie, busy at work? Bet you could use another Sunday to yourself. :D

:hug: to those who need it and to anybody I missed.

Hi everyone!!

Hope congrats on the school thing! That is great! I've been thinking about it, but I can't pin down what I'd like to do, but I do know I'd like to get educated enough to find something that would support myself. I'm also worried that I won't be able to learn and retain anything. My mom and I were talking about taking a program and what my bil suggested was take a single course first before laying out all the money for the whole program and that would show us where we are at and hopefully raise the confidence level. Congrats again for taking the first steps!!

Purefire how are things going with your son?

Butterfly good to see you again.

How are you feeling Heather?


Hi Leenie, Angel, Marbear, Sassy, Cathy, Raven, Amarie and everyone else! Hope you are doing well.

Summer is still here, loving it even tho it is a little to hot, but I'm not going to complain it finally feels like summer. Our fridge has been acting up and I guess with this heat it just couldn't take it anymore and yesterday morning it sounded off, so I checked the freezer and sure enough things were melting. Long story short the new fridge arrived today. We have ice again. Saw my counselor yesterday and finally let her know that I'm just so unhappy with life. We've been concentrating on the anxiety and panic and I guess I felt the need to try and deal with the general unhappiness. At first she suggested I talk to my dr about a med review, but I'm trying to cut down on all of them so we are working on a few things. Hopefully I can figure some things out.
Haven't been exercising and have been making poor choices. I wish I was one of those people that would exercise when feeling stressed instead of turning to the deep fried goodies.
I should go here, its after midnight and I have a sink full of dirty dishes. One good thing about the fridge dying when its hot, you sure can clear out a lot of stuff.
Take care all,
K

Hi Chickies,

Happy Hump Day !! its dreary and foggy and just blah out today. We are expecting flash flooding this afternoon.. I hate that. One year I lost my car due to flash flooding, thats when the water drains in the street can't keep up with the amount of rain and well, the streets pretty much flood. My car was completely covered with water. I don't work in that same area but nonetheless, its scary.

:hug: to everyone, bless you all.

Leenie

Hi girls - thanks for thinking of me... just struggling a bit here. Healing is taking it's time, and emotional crap is getting me down. :-/

Hang in there, all, and I will too ;)

Hope - that's awesome! I went back to University later and never looked back!!

Good Morning Ladies.

Things with my son are going better so far. I didn't take him to the crisis center. My stepmother said he didn't need to go. I couldn't do anything about it. My father and stepmother have custody of my son. (long story) So I talked to my son about it. He's not happy. All he wants is me. So I have some decisions to make.

I had planned to move into my own apartment in a month. Right now I don't see that happening. The apartment I want now would mean I would need a room mate. I have a friend that is surpose to move in with me when I move, but I am not sure I want that anymore. I want a place of my own that will just be for me and my son. So I am going to stay living at my mother's for a little longer. Plus I need to find a job. Hopefully I will have one soon.

On top of that my moods keep shifting. I hate it. My weight keeps going up and down. It's back at my start weight. I've been making poor choices with my eating and I haven't been exercising. I have to get back at it. I feel better when I'm in control of it. I feel like I don't want to do anything again.

This whole school thing has been a big bunch of CRAP to deal with and figure out. I had two options to choose between and have finally decided to go the easier route. I'm not usually one to do that but the other would have required 9 classes I had to complete before I could even apply, the other only 2. Either way I have no guarantee of acceptance into a dental hygiene program after I take the classes. I've been sick over the decision but I just have to take a chance I guess. Why does it have to be so complicated? I just want a career with a decent paycheck, do I really have to give up my firstborn to get it? ;)

Buddly, sorry you are struggling so much. It's so hard to the meds regulated, but it looks like you are doing everything you can to try to fix it. You should be proud of yourself for trying so hard with the counselors.

Purefire, sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I hope your son is doing ok. It's hard to support yourself, let alone someone else. Life will come around for you. Hang in there.

Oh hope - it's so hard, isn't it, to try to choose 'the right course' of action... but every road will lead somewhere, so you have no doubt made the right decision. for you, right now. :) Hang in there - it will SO be worth it!! :hug:

Thanks Heather, I need some reassurance. :hug:

I'm annoyed with myself because it's been about 5 days without any exercise. I already feel more bloated and my pants are slightly tighter. (No it's not my imagination.) I have intended to do something everyday but something has gotten in the way. What I mean to say is that I have let something get in the way. I need to get it in my head that I just don't feel good physically or mentally if I don't work it in. I know that I let the stress of getting my school stuff together occupy my time.

I need a good :kickbutt:

Good Morning Ladies:wave::hug:

Hope ~ Most of the time anything you want to do that is important to you always seems complicated and hard. It also takes time. Don't stress out to much over it and take it one day at a time. Going back to school can be such a pain. I want to do it to. I keep starting and then get aggravated and say whatever. I am going to send in the paper to find out more information about a school that I want to apply to today. It's time to get moving. If your mind is set on it, You will do it. ~ I am also in the same place with the exercise. I haven't done any in 2 weeks. I feel like crap and my jeans feel so much tighter. I've also gained so I'm not happy with myself. Either something happens or I just don't want to do anything. Just relax and try to work it in before thinking about anything else that will stop you.


I was just thinking that years ago when I was here.. someone had started a weekly food/exercise log (thread). Where you posted everything you had to eat during that day/everyday and what you did for exercise. I think I use to always get my exercise in and eat almost right when I was posting/sharing it.
I don't know if this would be a good idea but it is an idea, if anyone wants to do it.

I am actually feeling a lot better. I am trying not to worry about anything. My son is doing better. I've spent time with him everyday this week. The only thing I am worried about is that I am going out of state tonight. I am going to Indiana for a week to see my daughter. (another long story). I will be away until Aug 9th. I plan to call my son everyday. Hopefully that will help a little.
I am actually all packed and I think my mother is to. Which is amazing. We are driving so it is going to take about 16 hours to get there and we're driving straight there. So it's going to be fun. I can't wait to get there. I miss my baby.

Have a good day ladies.

Hi everybody, come out, come out wherever you are! :wave:

Nothing exciting here. I did workout tonight but after a day of very poor eating. :p I'm off tomorrow but I'm going to df's biker party to help out. My future is pretty much beer and mosquitoes, and I don't like beer...;)

Good Morning,

I can't believe I woke up at 5 AM .... :dizzy: I AM NUTS !!!!

Purefire :hug: things will work out, one step at a time right.

Hope going back to school is a big decision, your gonna do fantastic.

Buddly I'm glad your talking to your counselor :yes:

Heather, how's the new bod?

Angel, Marbear, Sassy, Mom, Oogi, BlackCat, Butterfly and the rest of you lovely chicks, have a blessed day ~

Leenie

Hello ladies...
I've been down with the flu for several days.:^: Feeling better....but, now, got a 3 day Praise-A-Thon at the TV Station where I volunteer. So, I'm very busy. I did go back and read all the posts. Hope you all have a good weekend!

Hi everyone:wave:
Wow its August 1!!!! I am so glad we are getting this nice hot weather, its not good for the forests, but it at least feels like summer. Another nice thing is that I'm getting to use my clothes line.
Not much new here, just trying to tred water. Booked the 14-18 off so we can do a quick trip down to the in-laws.

Hope how is the biker party going??

Angel take it easy so you don't get sick again.

Leenie 5am!?! I thought 7:30 was to early!! Hope you have a good day!

Pure good to hear that you are feeling better.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Take care all,
K