Normally I would stick this in the June NSVs thread, mainly because that is the one thread currently keeping me from eating all the chocolate biscuits my coworker brought back from France. But this is about frustrations as well as successes, so what the heck.
I don't know why I'm making excuses for posting a new thread. I guess I feel like I'm bothering people when I do. One of those 'I'm not good enough' behaviors that got me to my high weight in the first place, and a pattern I'm trying very hard to break.
Anyway! :sigh: I am still riding my latest plateau, which, four weeks in, I think I can officially label a plateau. I work out with my sister and she pointed out recently that this always happens to me, when it happens, right at the cusp between two decades. It also tends to happen around every 30 pounds, though this time I'm only 20 pounds down from my last plateau. So frustrating! This time I'm stuck at my high school weight, and I am determined to get into the 'overweight' range (around 158 lbs.) no matter what it takes.
In the meantime, the pants I am wearing today are a small 14 (as in, they didn't fit when I bought them, though my other 14s are all roomy at this point), so that's a small victory. They're still a 14 and not the 12s I was hoping to fit in by my vacation in a week and a half, but at least I'm making *some* progress. Thank God for yoga; it really does help shape your body even when you're not losing fat. I was a non-believer for a long time, but I'm totally on board now.
I post these tiny victories to remind myself of the progress I *am* making, since I tend to beat myself up when the number on the scale doesn't go down (STILL! You'd think after three freaking years I'd be over that), but also to encourage any lurkers who might be suffering a similar frustration and thinking about giving up to KEEP GOING. I've been at this three years with such slow loss, and no amount of badgering various doctors has given me a single reason *why* other than I'm getting older (I'm 36! That's not that old!).
But I'm not giving up, because I already cut up all my old fat jeans to make a
cute new skirt which I wore to work yesterday and got lots of compliments on. So I have nothing to wear except clothes that either fit or are too small, which means there's nowhere to go but down. If I can stick with it for this long, anybody can stick with it, I swear.