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ChocLabLover
06-22-2009, 10:17 AM
One year ago today I made a life changing decision to finally take control of my weight once and for all. I had reached a point in my life that I was allowing my weight to control me. I was forgoing simple pleasures because I was so self conscious about how I looked. I avoided social situations at all costs. Simple things like going camping, going out with friends became a herculean effort. I was baffled about how much pain I was in on a daily basis. My knees were killing me, and the only shoes I could tolerate were flats. The only clothes I could wear were shapeless large size clothing. I was exhausted climbing a flight of stairs. I could not keep up in kickboxing.

The catalyst for me was when I was nominated for the Circle of Excellence at work. My worst fear was that I would win, because I would have to be filmed as part of video that would be presented at an awards dinner. The thought of my over weight face on a 12 foot screen basically sent me into a blind panic. Can you believe I actually tried to persuade my Director that I did not feel I should be nominated? They put it down to modesty. I put down to down right embarrassment. Despite (or in spite of) my protests, I won. In reality, this was a huge deal. You are essentially (among others) being recognized as one of the top employees in the company. You are wined and dined for a weekend with a final banquet at the end of it with a picture taken with the Senior VP of your area as well as the CEO. Privately, I received the news with a sinking feeling of dread. What would I wear? Could I avoid the video? Great, now I have to get my picture done. I realized that I was taking something that was meant to be a reward as a punishment. How twisted was that?

I suffered through the weekend without really taking any enjoyment in it. I look back on this now and realize how terribly sad that was (I even have a few tears in my eyes about it now today, reading that last paragraph). Enough was enough.

So, I made the commitment to myself that I needed to lose the weight. I worked with my doctor to build a plan that would work for me. I committed to staying on plan. I committed to only weighing myself at the doctor’s office and not at home. I decided that eating natural, nutritious foods had a much better long term payoff (losing weight) than the short term payoff of eating unhealthy, processed junk food and the short high I would get. I decided not to look at the total amount I had to lose, but look at what I could do in a month. One month, became two, two became three, and so on and so on.

Now a year later, this is where I am now:

*I have lost over 100 lbs
*I am proud of how I look and I am now working on getting a formal picture done of myself
*I kick a$$ at kickboxing and some of the black belts have to keep up with me
*I can now wear high heels (see an earlier post :D) and go into normal clothing stores and know that anything I pick out will fit.
*I have become an inspiration to people around me
*I have become an exercise junkie and I am forever challenging myself (latest passion – hot yoga)
*No more pain in my knees
*My self esteem is through the roof
*My relationship with food has changed-for me it is now fuel for my body to enable me to do my activities, not a treat. A treat is now new shoes, new clothing, etc.
*I know that people are seeing the person I was meant to be and not just the fat (not that it was the case, but I how I felt)

Those of you that know me and know I have been on this site for while know that I am not usually this verbal. However, I wanted to post some of my insights to help others on their journey.

*I thought it would take FOREVER to lose my weight. It didn’t. It was just a year-that is a drop in the bucket of my life. If I had not lost the weight, I know I would be sitting here now going why did I not just do it?
*My outlook on life has changed-before I thought nothing was possible, now I know anything is possible
*You can do this-for those of you just starting on your journey, know that it IS possible. Make the commitment to yourself.
*Look to others for inspiration-let me mention a few ladies here who have been mine (RockinRobin, cfmama, DCHound to mention a few)

I look forward to where my life is going now, and I can not WAIT to see what is around the bend.


Kootch
06-22-2009, 10:29 AM
Incredible story, and terrific transformation. A huge congrats to you - and thanks so much for sharing. It's inspiration like this that really helps those of us barely starting out...

Care to share what your plan of action was? Type of meals and exercise?

Great job!

susiemartin
06-22-2009, 10:50 AM
You are an inspiration.
I really needed to read what you had to say. It's been a shot in the arm :)

Sadly I can completely appreciate the entire video/pictures thing. One of my great regrets is not having my picture taken & video shot with Congressman Ron Paul in 2007 because of my appearance. I was mortified that my image would end up on national news & YouTube.
I will always, always regret it.

Thank you so much for sharing your weight loss and for reminding me that 1 year really is a "drop in the bucket".


thinpossible
06-22-2009, 10:55 AM
Wow, what an awesome story :) Thanks for doing what you did and sharing it here.

paperSkin
06-22-2009, 11:05 AM
Congradulations! This was an awesome post... a real inspiration. I think sometimes when we are bigger we don't realize just how much the weight really weighs us down. Not just physically but mentally.

CountingDown
06-22-2009, 11:07 AM
:hug: Thank you for sharing your story! AWESOME job you have done taking back your quality of life!!!
You are indeed an inspiration to those around you!

TraceyElaine
06-22-2009, 11:09 AM
*I thought it would take FOREVER to lose my weight. It didn’t. It was just a year-that is a drop in the bucket of my life. If I had not lost the weight, I know I would be sitting here now going why did I not just do it?

This part hit home for me. I don't want to have that regret of "why didn't I?" I want my life back.

You are an inspiration as you already know. Thank you for sharing your story. It touched me and made me cry and reminded me why I am doing this.

Well done!:bravo:

bargoo
06-22-2009, 11:18 AM
Congratulations ! A fantastic story. I understand about the pictures . I have no " before " pictures as i would not have my picture taken when I was at my highest weight. I wish I had some, now. I would love to see the comparison.
By the way , your story is so well written , I think it is good enough to be published in a health magazine.

Torister
06-22-2009, 11:21 AM
Well what an inspirational post! Congratulations for this wonderful achievement!! What a great post to read on a Monday morning!

KnitALisa
06-22-2009, 11:29 AM
That's so awesome! Thank you for sharing, because for me this is really timely. Just last night I was journaling about where I want to be this time next year and I was being pretty cautious and conservative about my goals. It's amazing to see how much of a difference a year can make. You've inspired me to go back and revise those suckers to challenge myself and aim higher. :)

IrishRose25
06-22-2009, 12:16 PM
Outstanding!!! Thanks for sharing your success-- what an inspiration!! :)

sockmonkey70
06-22-2009, 12:50 PM
Thanks for such an inspirational post. I really needed that right now. You have done a fantastic job, and you should be very proud of yourself!

Beverlyjoy
06-22-2009, 12:50 PM
I am so proud and happy for you!!!!! WONDERFUL!

This is a tribute on 'deciding it's time'. Thanks for sharing your story.

time2lose
06-22-2009, 01:04 PM
What a wonderful post! Thank you for sharing with us and congratulations on reclaiming your life. You are an inspiration.

rockinrobin
06-22-2009, 01:20 PM
Amazing. Just amazing what a turn around one can make in one short years time.

Your story is SO inspirational and so thrilling that I've literally got chills reading it. And boy could I relate to it. Such a shame that things that are meant to be joyous have to turn into dread and loathing because of the way we look and FEEL. Such dreadful memories. And it doesn't have to be that way. IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY. And for you - it no longer is - yay!!

I'm going to PM Sandi and ask her to Sticky your post so that hundreds of others can read and be inspired by your wonderful post. Just imagine how many people can benefit from it and hopefully realize that they too can transform their lives.

Congratulations on an INCREDIBLE accomplishment. And I know 1 year from now we'll be reading about "2 years ago from today.........." Because I know, you're not going back to "that other life". Nu-uh. No way. :D

Pita09
06-22-2009, 01:26 PM
Carol, thank you so much for sharing your wonderful story of success. You are a true inspiration to all of us who are striving to achieve the same goal, freedom from being overweight.

I recently started a folder in my favorites titled 3FC inspiration threads that I can go to and read when I need a kick in the butt. Your story has been added. :)

Alana in Canada
06-22-2009, 01:50 PM
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I agree with the above poster: you write well enough for publication--shop it around and see what happens! You truly are an inspiration.

I'm grateful, too, to you for losing the weight. It shows me it is possible--it really can be done. I try not to think about how much weight there is to lose: I get all panicked. I try not to think it will take a year--I start to worry about the winter and what I'm going to do. But it's great to see you've kept at it...through all seasons.

Cinnamon
06-22-2009, 01:54 PM
Thanks for sharing your story. I love to hear all these success stories. Congrats on your great year!

TJFitnessDiva
06-22-2009, 02:12 PM
Congratulations!!! Thank you for such an inspirational post :)

:hug: girlie....here is to a lifetime of adventure & not sitting on the sidelines!

cynnymynn
06-22-2009, 02:15 PM
Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing this! I've been in desperate need of reassurance that this can, indeed, be done.

Rosinante
06-22-2009, 02:32 PM
Spectacular post! Spectacular achievement! Spectacular inspiration!

YOU ARE SPECTACULAR!

H8cake
06-22-2009, 02:32 PM
Congratulations Carol! It's been wonderful watching your progress over the last year. Isn't it a huge feeling of accomplishment knowing that you took a situation that was so miserable and turned it around. I can so relate to all you wrote, avoiding life because of the weight. I got to the point where I had to face the fact that I was missing out on my life and my kids lives because of the weight. You are amazing!

cfmama
06-22-2009, 02:51 PM
Your post made me cry.
Your dedication gives me chills.
You are without a doubt one of the most dedication people that I know and you SO DESERVE this. I know that we will continue to be amazing and in awe of your sticktuitiveness because you CAN and you WILL and you ARE fighting and winning this fight.

*big hugs* girl. You rock.

unwritten
06-22-2009, 03:14 PM
Thank you so much for sharing. What an inspiration!! It can be done. :carrot:

Slashnl
06-22-2009, 03:19 PM
What an awesome story! Thank you for sharing. I can relate to a lot of it, too. I am working on making my own success story, so thanks again for sharing yours and being the inspiration you are!

ChocLabLover
06-23-2009, 08:25 AM
Thanks everyone!! Please believe me when I say that without the support and the constant inspiration I see and have witnessed on this site on daily basis I would not be where I am now.

DCHound
06-23-2009, 12:06 PM
I am sitting here in my cubicle at work crying, that is so not cool. :) You are totally, absolutely, completely, 10,000,000% awesome. One day I will be where you are.

Smiling_Sara
06-23-2009, 12:34 PM
So so awesome!! Thank you for sharing! It's stories like this and others I have read on this board that let me know it IS possible to get healthy

Arctic Mama
06-23-2009, 12:58 PM
This (and the other amazing successes on this board) has been such an inspiration to me! In the thick of it, with lots of new changes struggling to be cemented, it is sometimes hard to keep perspective. But I know soldiering on is worth it, and even losing SLOWLY I am still making such grand progress in the scheme of things.

Congratulations on this new chapter of your life!

Star2Be
06-23-2009, 01:04 PM
WTG on celebrating your one-year anniversary, ChocLabLover! :yay: I am SO proud of everything you have accomplished, and can relate to so many of the things you touched upon in your very thoughtful post... You are an inspiration to us all. :^:

dragonwoman64
06-23-2009, 01:59 PM
was so glad to read your story. congratulations! it really helps me to read it.

a few years back I was in the park and a woman approached me with a flyer asking if I wanted to be an extra in a movie that Tim Robbins was filming at the time (!!) That would have been so fun, and I didn't do it because all I could think about was how embarrassing it would be to try and get fitted for a costume (it was a period movie) at my size!

Delphi
06-23-2009, 02:36 PM
Thank you for sharing such a heart felt account of your story and congratulations my dear! :)

Breeezie
06-23-2009, 11:36 PM
I love, love, LOVE reading this! You sound so happy and have such great insight about your experience. I really appreciate that you shared this and I'm so happy I read it. You've amped my motivation, and I have to say, your "drop in the bucket" remark totally lessens some of my anxiety about time. Thank you for that. And major super congrats to you!

Windchime
06-24-2009, 12:26 AM
Thanks for sharing your story, Donna. I've been feeling kind of fat and lumpy the past few days, and your story made me realize that I need to step back and be patient with myself, that this year will pass and how I feel and look at the end of the year is up to me. Congratulations on your accomplishment; it's simply amazing how well you have done and it's a testiment to your hard work.

SnowboundChick
06-24-2009, 01:30 AM
This post was wonderful!

finni
06-24-2009, 03:34 AM
Thanks heaps for your posting. I have started so many times to try and lose the wieght and keep it off, but keep ending up back at the beginning, or even worse off. Yo-Yo-Yo! You have really helped me to keep perspective...what's a year?! Nothing...and fully lived life awaits.
Cheers from New Zealand
Sandie:)

mypunkrockromance
06-24-2009, 09:30 AM
WOW! That is really awesome! Congratulations on all you have achieved.

It's so amazing how much that story sounds like me. Unfortunately in my job I'm sort of forced to be in social situations and when I look around I see all these thin beautiful people and I feel like they are judging me. It's awful.

I definitely teared up reading this. It's what I've always wanted, and I can't figure out why I'm so scared to just do it.

daniela
06-24-2009, 01:41 PM
Congrats Carol and thank you so much for this post!

I like this..."One month, became two, two became three, and so on and so on." It's amazing when you look back isn't it?

DCHound
06-24-2009, 11:05 PM
I just have to keep coming back and re-reading Carol's first post. The joy is addictive.

Gretchy
06-25-2009, 03:42 PM
Wow! I've been off plan lately because of insane work/money stress, and put about 7 pounds back on. I decided to kick myself in the rear to come back here, and this is the first thing I read. This is the kind of motivation I need to get myself back in gear! Thankyou!

EyeSing
06-25-2009, 08:47 PM
OOH! Thank you for this post! I can't wait to get back into my high heels!! I needed that reminder! Thank you!

TexanGal
11-04-2009, 06:52 PM
Thank you for writing this. I've saved it in my notes and know I'll read it again and again when I have down times. You're such an inspiration. Just THANK YOU for deciding to share, its like you were reading my mind.