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nikkibabyyyyxo
05-15-2009, 08:50 PM
so i just started my summer break from nursing school. i figured id finally have this summer to get my lifestyle changes on track. i started cracking down on monday and i just realized that i start up my summer job on sunday, and im scared out of my mind..its a mexican fast food place that ive worked at for the past two years but i havent worked since october bc of school. the best food ive ever had...the place where ive gained all my weight...and also the only place that would hire me for the summer. i went in a couple of hours ago and its like walking in there just says eat me! i wouldnt put myself in this place except for i really need money. and i just want to cry bc im so scared im going to fail. ive tried being healthy and dieting so many times while working there and it maybe lasts a week and im back to eating it. no matter how many times i always tell myself no and everything else im thinking, i just eat it anyway. i just dont know what to do...its like it completely takes over my entire body and mind and doesnt even give me the chance to think about it before i eat it and before you know it i ate a whole burrito. its hard to explain what goes through my head...maybe i really need to go to counseling or something about my food issues but maybe someone on here understands what im talking about and has some advice :-(


JulieJ08
05-15-2009, 09:12 PM
Do they have a fridge where you can put food that you bring? Knowing that food you paid for will go to waste may help you to go eat it instead of the fast food.

kiramira
05-15-2009, 10:56 PM
Nikkibaby!!! You GOTTA find another place to work. Keep looking, there HAS to be another option. This is like advising an alcoholic to take a job as a bartender!!!! YIKES!!!
Seriously, if you doubt that you'll be able to resist, then start looking ANYWHERES for another job. There HAS to be something else. House cleaning, child care, summer camps, sales associate at the mall, ANYTHING. Keep this job for the time being and do your best, but girly, start hitting the bricks for another job.
:hug:
Kira


harrismm
05-15-2009, 11:19 PM
Check at local hospital and nursing homes.You would be a great nurses aide with your nursing background.Its also great experience as you continue your nursing education.Plus...pay is pretty good.And you get lots of exercise!

nikkibabyyyyxo
05-15-2009, 11:50 PM
i would absolutely love having a nursing job right now. our local hosptial just closed :-( and ive called every single nursing home within distance that i can get to and they wont call me back or arent hiring...i even tried getting a job at subway where i worked 5 years ago but they arent taking anyone back. thats why this situation stinks so bad, and to top it off i sold my car last year bc the school i go to is in the city where they charge you $200 to keep your car in the garage so no car until i graduate next year :-( haha theres nothing in my little town, i guess its just going to take a lot of will power and if i can do this then i will prove to myself that i can do anything, thank you for all the advice though :-)

Jinksie
05-16-2009, 01:49 AM
i deliver chinese food, at the place i used to order from all the time, i can see where you're coming from.

I try to take my own drink and i eat before i start, and eat when i get home. If i dont eat before i go in, i carry some cut up cucumber (for example) in a tuppa wear container, in a small cooler.

shrinkingleah
05-16-2009, 02:07 AM
I have discoved a few healthy choice at our local mexican resturant here in town and it's actually pretty awesome. Just remember, Flour totillas are BAD! Corn are actually pretty good. Chicken is good as long as it is not fried or covered in some unknown cream sauce. Red meat is most likely high in fat. Try your best to bring your own food and if you MUST eat the food there, try to make your choices healthier ones that WON'T undo your day.

You can do it! I believe in you!

nikkibabyyyyxo
05-16-2009, 03:05 AM
thanks so much for the support. its awesome to have people that youve never even met believe in you...it means alot :-)

MileHighMama
05-16-2009, 11:48 AM
Nikkibaby,

I feel for you. You know, if you have to work there make a pact with yourself and with everyone here on 3FC that you will not eat one bite, taste, lick, that NOTHING from that restaurant will pass your lips. I really think if you don't start with a small nibble or "just one" of anything, you will be able to control it.

Good luck!
Pam

rockinrobin
05-16-2009, 12:18 PM
Nikkibaby,

I feel for you. You know, if you have to work there make a pact with yourself and with everyone here on 3FC that you will not eat one bite, taste, lick, that NOTHING from that restaurant will pass your lips. I really think if you don't start with a small nibble or "just one" of anything, you will be able to control it.

This is exactly what I was going to say. Make it a LAW. Your LAW. An unbreakable LAW - that no matter what - you totally refrain from eating anything from work. ANYthing. It will take the decision making process away - Maybe just one little bite? Should I? Shouldn't I? - No, you shouldn't it. End of it. It's simply not an option for you.

iMrsCiCi
05-16-2009, 01:22 PM
Oh gosh! I've been in the same situation before when I worked at a Japanese restaurant.
It is very very hard to look at all that delicious food and voiding it, BUT I usually brought a Lean Cuisine dinner or Smart Ones even Healthy Choice dinners with me (If they have a freezer and micro). Also, look at that type of food as your enemy, when you think "Oh my gosh, that looks soo good and I'm hungry" always remind yourself that it WILL NOT help you in any way shape or form! Try to eat healthy snacks too (like fresh fruit, veggies, or even a small salad) so that you wont be starving when you get off of work or at your lunch time! Hope this helps!! :)
Just hang in there! You can do it!! :hug:

SweetScrumptious
05-16-2009, 09:25 PM
Just think of it this way.... it isn't "your" food to take. As in, did you pay for the food? Nope [a way to trick this system is to NOT bring your wallet/money with you when you work]. Therefore, you can't have what you don't own.

Pack your own lunch instead! Bring some gum for your coffee/lunch breaks. I know the smells and visual of the "so good" food is intimidating but you will feel so strong when you DEFEAT it!

P.S. I am a nursing student too :)

Heather
05-17-2009, 12:12 AM
I agree with the others. If you feel you must work there, then you cannot set yourself up for failure. NO FOOD (from there) FOR YOU! :)

tlp06289
05-17-2009, 01:27 AM
Ugh, I feel your pain girl! I work at quiznos, and it is so hard to turn down the food, but I have started bringing a lean cuisine, or a sandwich, some yogurt, and some sunchips to snack on..the first week was so hard, but after that, it was much easier to control.
im a nursing student also :-)

Lachelle
05-17-2009, 02:05 AM
I agree with what the general consensus here is, that you should avoid the food at all costs...



HOWEVER, I can see the potential for it not working, too. I could see it happening where, you've been running around all day before work and didn't get a chance to eat anything, and you've worked half your shift and you're starving, and you decide to eat something, maybe a burrito. Then you feel like a failure, and like you might as well eat whatever there. I've been in that situation, and mine was also a fast food mexican place.
My suggestion (and take this for what you will) is to PLAN on eating nothing from the restaurant. On those days when you feel you must eat something, make yourself a healthy salad. It's a restaurant, they've got to have lettuce, tomatoes, etc. Make it a mexican-style salad with a couple chips crumbled into it and salsa for dressing.

Just my two cents.

lauralyn
05-17-2009, 08:45 AM
You could make a deal with yourself that for every meal you eat there you have to take $5 from your paycheck and donate it to a charity. While the money is going to a good cause it is not going in your pocket where it is also needed.

rockinrobin
05-17-2009, 09:45 AM
You could make a deal with yourself that for every meal you eat there you have to take $5 from your paycheck and donate it to a charity. While the money is going to a good cause it is not going in your pocket where it is also needed.

*For me* this would not work. Oh no. I could just see myself rationalizing it away. "Oh, but it's for a good cause, why the heck not?"


HOWEVER, I can see the potential for it not working, too. I could see it happening where, you've been running around all day before work and didn't get a chance to eat anything, and you've worked half your shift and you're starving, and you decide to eat something, maybe a burrito. Then you feel like a failure, and like you might as well eat whatever there. I've been in that situation, and mine was also a fast food mexican place.

Agreed. That is why it is absolutely ESSENTIAL to bring healthy on plan foods from home, so that you're never in a situation where you are faced with nothing to eat and starving. I also don't allow myself to get starving. Because when I do, it sets me up to make poor choices.

I do like this idea:
It's a restaurant, they've got to have lettuce, tomatoes, etc. Make it a mexican-style salad with a couple chips crumbled into it and salsa for dressing.

But it does go back to the fact that you would be eating food from "there". But in an absolute dire emergency.........

Lori Bell
05-17-2009, 10:10 AM
i just want to cry bc im so scared im going to fail. ive tried being healthy and dieting so many times while working there and it maybe lasts a week and im back to eating it. no matter how many times i always tell myself no and everything else im thinking, i just eat it anyway. i just dont know what to do...its like it completely takes over my entire body and mind and doesnt even give me the chance to think about it before i eat it and before you know it i ate a whole burrito

I just read a quote yesterday on this same topic, and I really thought about it and believe it to be probably more true than anything I've read in a while...

"If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, you're right" - Mary Kay Ash

I worked in a fudge shop between my Junior and Senior year. I ate until I was sick almost every day and gained a lot of weight. Wow, what a great Senior year I had, hiding from the world because I had gained 50 pounds and dieing of total embarrassment. I sure learned my lesson, and decided right them and there that such places are not in my best interest.

I hope you reconsider working there. I find it odd you can't find a nurse-aid job for the summer...I live in a small community and they are begging for help at nursing homes, care homes, and hospitals...

JayEll
05-17-2009, 10:44 AM
I really do think you could find another job...

Have you considered being on the cleaning staff of a hotel or motel? It's physical work, but you won't be looking at food all day long. They always need help. You can bring your own lunch, and you'll be burning a lot of calories as well.

Jay

JulieJ08
05-17-2009, 11:51 AM
I hope you reconsider working there. I find it odd you can't find a nurse-aid job for the summer...I live in a small community and they are begging for help at nursing homes, care homes, and hospitals...

My niece couldn't either, and she had her certification, and it wasn't even summer with more people trying to find jobs. She was definitely out there looking hard. Tough times.

nikkibabyyyyxo
05-17-2009, 07:28 PM
yea in my little town theres nothing...ive tried and they just arent hiring nurses aides right now and everything else is 45 minutes away which i dont have my car because of school. today was my first day back and i actually did good. i brought my own lunch and ate it and i did okay so hopefully everyday stays like this! thanks for all of the support :-)

rockinrobin
05-17-2009, 07:40 PM
yea in my little town theres nothing...ive tried and they just arent hiring nurses aides right now and everything else is 45 minutes away which i dont have my car because of school. today was my first day back and i actually did good. i brought my own lunch and ate it and i did okay so hopefully everyday stays like this! thanks for all of the support :-)

:bravo::cp::cp::cp::cp::cp::cp::bravo:

Atta girl! GREAT job.

You've done it once, there is no reason on earth you can't repeat it - again and again. Stick with your convictions. You will never, ever regret doing so.