Oh, I always forget that a new week means a new thread... I was beginning to wonder what happened to everyone on last week's thread! D'oh! Hehe.
Day
16 here... And still having trouble staving off the urge to binge.
In fact, today during class I was doodling in my planner - I'm such a bad doodler, heh; all of my papers are completely covered in them!! - and I actually drew a picture of a "binge monster" surrounded by all the foods that I've been craving to binge on(/foods that have been a part of bad past binges) and me next to it, curled up in a ball and saying "
no. no. no. no." over and over again... I'm sure it would look/sound more than a little corny to someone who doesn't struggle with binging, but that's pretty much exactly how I'm feeling right now. Grrr. Well actually, no--at this exact moment, I don't much feel like binging, I guess. I'm about to eat my usual evening snack of an apple, which will be nice... But earlier, my friend and I stopped in this health food store that I absolutely LOVE because they have tons of vegan food, and it was *so* hard not to buy out the whole store and gorge myself--there are plenty of foods I can usually avoid because the "normal" versions
aren't vegan, but if you put me in a store like that where I'm literally surrounded with vegan alternatives, that's just inhumane!! So that definitely triggered a BIG desire to binge. I just wanted to inhale all the cookies, cakes, soy ice cream, etc... Bad Meredith!! It may be vegan, but it's still
junk! Luckily, I totally foresaw myself having that exact reaction, so I made sure NOT even to bring my wallet into the store! A little drastic? Maybe. But it worked!
Another victory is that, at least just for this week, I'm trying to focus on upping my calories juuust a little. I definitely tend towards the occasional *overly* restrictive day, and while my binges usually make up for that and keep me from dipping too low for too long (heh), I worry that if I stop the binging I might not actually be taking in enough on a daily basis... So I'm eating a little more--healthy stuff, of course, but more. And I was surprised at how much more energy I had today! So, that was nice.
I'm proud of these 16 binge-free days. Really proud. I don't want the string to end...
Good luck to all of you ladies with the upcoming week, too! You can definitely count on me to keep checking in; I have a feeling that I will really be needing this forum during the next couple of days!
Binge-free challenge ~ May 4 - 10
to the new, old and old new people! I love reading about everybody's daily struggles and triumphs over the binge monster. Hope everybody has a good, on plan, binge-free day! 
