Depression and Weight Issues - May Chick Chat - 2009 Come Join Us ((hug))

Good Morning,

How did we slip into May? I LOVE IT!

Everything is in bloom, its beautiful (cept my sinus' are going crazy) but I'm not complaining LOL. I think my favorite thing to see bloom in the spring is the cherry trees and dogwood trees, the white and pink.. beautiful.

How is everyone today?

No plans for me today until this afternoon so I'm loving not having to race some where this early in the morning.

Whats happening by you?

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Morning Leenie.

I'm having a real bent toward doing nothing lately. I feel kind tired and like there is sooo much to do that I can't figure out where to begin.

On the whole, I feel good but ...

I've made a small list for today. I should be able to get myself through it and then sometimes I get extra stuff done just because I feel successful :)

Hey Susan I feel the same way... overwhelmed for sure and some times that makes me freeze in my tracks and do nothing. I try to look at small tasks and say to myself...others can wait, but if I get them done too, its a plus..YEAH ME!! lol

Good luck today :hug:

Hello everyone.Beautiful day in the midwest.Have a child being confirmed Sunday and a child graduation from high school in 3 weeks.Busy but fun!5 days in to my new antidepressant.So far so good.Have a great weekend.

Hi all - it's been a busy weekend that started out with the Cdn Cancer Society's Relay For Life on Friday night... and then just became a little emotionally exhausting. Feeling kinda worn down.

Hope - any news on your kitty??? :(

Hoping to pick up the remnants of my self esteem and self worth this month... you never know, this could be the month...

Heather :D

My kitty is still missing. I haven't seen him since monday night now. I do have posters up and I got one call today which I missed and the person left a message. I think it was a younger guy who was either mixed up on where he saw a cat that was ran over or just a prank. Not sure. The road he named is too far away for my cat to have been there or he did just see a cat there that couldn't have been mine b/c of the distance. I don't have my address on the poster. I miss him a lot but I'm trying not to dwell on it b/c he could always come home.

Heather, did you participate in the relay? Either way a great cause to get involved in. Sorry for the emotional stress you went through. Hey, when you pick up your self-esteem if you have any left I sure could use a little. :^: Needless to say I'm not feeling too sexy or successful these days.

hope4me, the summer before last my cat went missing for a little over a month. We put posters up everywhere and we called the humane society and the city's road services branch every few days to make sure they hadn't found her. We had pretty much accepted she was gone, but one evening I got a call. I figured it was nothing, because I had received several false alarms (lots of neighbourhood cats look kind of like mine), but I went. It was my kitty! She was very scrawny and missing some fur, but she was fine and she's never gone missing since. So don't give up hope. Cats can handle all sorts of ordeals.

Hope -- BIG BIG :hug: sweetie, I sure hope your kitty comes home safe and sound!!! My kitty that is now passed, went missing for a week and that was just torture for me, so I can sympathize!!!

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Good Morning,

Hope I'm sorry to hear about your Cat, I know when my two pups ran away a few weeks ago I was SICK !!!!! I hope he returns soon. One good thing about cats is they are survivors and are smart. Keep checking with your local shelters.

Nothing much going on today, work, cleaning, etc LOL... its alot but nothing different. Which is good.

How are you ?

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Morning ladies! May? Really? Eek.

Hope - :hug: I hope your kitty is ok and just out for a wander, and heading home now. :hug:

Heather - that sounds like a great May goal. I have my fingers crossed or you.

OK, me: did great the first part of last week, then things fell apart on the weekend. I noticed that my eating and journaling fell apart when I went out for drinks with coworkers. Drinking is a big part of the social scene here, but I don't think it works for me. So, I'm gonna give up drinking (alcohol that is) for a month and see if that helps me with my weight and/or my depression. Besides, it'll help with my finances too. I just hope I don't totally alienate my social network by doing it. Or, rather - if I alienate my social network, I'm gonna be dissapointed but ok with it.

Today I plan to 1) journal, 2) eat sensibly, and 3) take the dogs for a walk. oh and 4) drink at least 8 glasses of water. baby steps.

Hi everyone!
Wow May already!! Only one more month and the school year is over!!
At least spring finally arrived and we are getting some sunshine, that is always a huge help!!

Hope I sure hope your kitty finds his way home. Cats are really resilient.

Amarie good luck with the plan and alcohol is a big weight loss saboteur.

Sassy how are you enjoying the new house?

Big :hug: everyone.

I've been sort of up and down, just sort of coasting along. Now that its getting nicer I'm hoping things get on track.

Everyone take care,
K

Hi Leenie!! :wave:

Hi Amarie!! :wave: and Big :hug: to you. I things go better for you.

Hi Buddly!! :wave:

I am really enjoying the house. We are getting more and more done. My office is almost completed and we got the hall closet organized so its all nice and neat now, the kitchen is basically done, just need to do some picking up. The last room that really needs to be done yet is my husband's Guitar room. But at least the rest of the house is done basically!

Big :hug:

Hi everyone! :)

Well, at least I managed to eat sensibly... sort of. Rinse, repeat!

Good job Amarie, but that makes one of us. :o

I'm just glad to be off tomorrow. I need to get something in the mail for mother's day to mom. I still don't know what.

Good to see you again Buddly, Sassy, and Butterfly.

Check in with y'all tomorrow.

Oh, no kitty still. :(

BIG BIG BIG :hug: Hope. I sure your kitty comes home soon. :hug:

Hi Girls,

Lets just take it one meal / day at a time.. be good to yourself :hug:

Leenie

Oh Hope :hug: you must be so worried! Thinking of you.

Kicking my *** into gear now - this last twenty pounds will never come off otherwise... have set my alarm for 5am to ru BEFORE breakfast - I hear it boosts the metabolism. I suspect I'll be asleep by noon! :faint:

How you doing, chickies??

Heather :D

Thank you all for the well wishes for my kitty. :hug: I haven't given up on him yet.

I was off today and wasted most of it sleeping. It was great don't get me wrong but dang, I want some more time. I ended up getting my mom a gift card to a restaurant since I can't be there to take her out. That's about the only thing I did accomplish.

Well, night night all.

Where is everybody today? It was kinda a long day at work and I'm tired. I need to get up early and get a bday cake for a co-worker. It usually takes something like dynamite to make me get up early. ;)

miss you all...

I'm here Hope4me but barely! I'm so tired. I had my 1st psychologist appointment today. I find the whole process kind of scary but hopefully it will help even though she probably thinks I'm crazy! Then later this evening I went to a zumba class so I know I'm going to be sore tomorrow. How is everyone else doing? Have a good weekend to all of you chicks if I don't get a chance to post later...I can no longer procrastinate my massive loads of laundry and the dreadful closet cleaning!

I'm here - struggling with stuff. One of these days I'm going to have to sort this head of mine out and stop struggling and just get on with it all! :lol:

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Hi everyone
11 days into my new antidepressant.I am not sure if this is going to be the one for me.It certainly has not given me any more energy.But maybe its too early to tell.We will see.Have a great weekend all.

So I thought I was getting up early to get the cake but then I realized I had hit snooze too many times. I had to get it at lunch. :o

I rushed home after work and got the yard mowed. We've had rain all week and the poor little dogs are fighting a jungle just to go potty. :jig: Tomorrow a couple of us from work are going to a coworker's house and mowing his yard and doing some cleaning. His wife has lung cancer and he is overwhelmed. Poor guy, he has lost 25 lbs and looks sick himself.

I actually get Sunday off this week! I never get a weekend day off. Wonder what's up? :chin:

What are y'all doing this weekend?

Hugs to those who are struggling. :hug:

Hi gang:

The scale isn't moving much at all, and I have to keep reminding myself that I AM doing this. I got my butt kicked in a yoga class this week, doing stuff that would have been cake for me in the fall. Sometimes that motivates me, and sometimes it knocks me down a bit.

I'm struggling with other stuff too right now... I don't feel like posting about it, though, but could use any extra hugs you all have to spare.

Hope - lol about your lawn. I have been putting off mowing my lawn due to rain so long that my mower won't manage it anymore! I'm going to have to borrow something heavier-duty.

Have a beautiful weekend everyone. Passing on hugs for my fellow strugglers.

A

Hi All!! :wave:

How is everybody doing???? I hope well!!!! :)

Hi Leenie and your right on that one. ;)

Hi Heather. I need to get my behind into gear as well!! :hug:

Hope -- sorry no kitty yet, but yes do not give up on him. :hug: I remember that we had a cat when I was a kid and he left for a long time and he came back one day like he'd only been gone a couple of hours!! Sorry to hear about your coworker! He is lucky to have such wonderful people to work with such as you all that care enough to come and help out! :hug:

Hi Amarie -- I have been struggling too lately, just no motivation, at least with exercise. I did get my behind motivated and got my home office all unpacked and organized!! :D :hug:

Hi to everybody out there in "Lurkland" :wave: Feel free to come in and say Hello!!! :) We'd love to here from you!!!

Good news, #1 my Home Office is all done!! :woohoo: (we moved into our house in March) Good news #2: while finishing up my office, I found the Angels & Demons by Dan Brown, so I can have that to read after I get done with this last Twilight book. ;)

Well DH has been walking several miles at work and not just the total of what he walks all night long, him and his coworker have been walking :running: He said they did 8 miles lastnight. Which I am very proud of, but now I feel like a huge giant slob. :( I need to get it in gear I guess. We still have the treadmill at my inlaws that my fil is giving us, which is a really nice one, but it is HUGE and it does not fold up. Guess I shouldn't complain if its free, right? But I need to get into gear...........Feel like a slug, just slugging along..............:( Oh well just gotta get out there and do it.............:carrot:

We went to Indiana unexpectedly on Thursday. My mil wanted a cement goose for Mothers Day, we called all over in our area, nobody had them. So I remembered a little place in Indiana, where I am from, where my parents got me some things and figured since it was more of a rural area, that they probably would have them. So I called up my mom and she looked up the number and DH called and she said that they had a lot of them and they were only $16 each! So we drove out there and got that and an angel statue for my mom. :) So we met up with my mother and man is she SKINNY! I mean my mom has always been thin, but dang! I told her she needed to put on some pounds!! lol. Too bad I don't get my body shape from her or my father. :( Oh no................I have to be the big fattie...............I mean my mom's family, besides her and her younger brother are all "bigger" people, but still, why couldn't have I gotten that gene that I could be thin no matter what??? :cry: I know, I know enough whining!!! HA! :lol3:

But I am going to get her on May 20th after I come home from work that morning and get me some Zzzz's........I am also getting my hair highlighted at her hairdressers while I am out there. It is in bad need for it right now. I am thinking of not doing the blonde, it is so much maintenance for people with darker hair. But I have received SO many compliments on it..............Hard decision. lol.

Well I guess I should go now.......I'm sure if anybody has read through this whole thing they are starting to fall asleep now. lol. :yawn:

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Day four on plan. Just need to keep going - hang in there, chickies! :)

Heather :D

Just wanted to pop in and wish everybody a Very Happy Mothers Day!!! :D

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Heather -- WTG!! :high:

I was really really down yesterday evening. But after I got some sleep I feel much better. I think its honestly my hormones all out of whack. :crazy: I hope you all are doing well! ;)

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:yay: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MOMMIES :preg: (of the 2 legged and 4 legged variety!)

Big :hug: Amarie!

Way to go Heather! :carrot:

Sassy, glad your house is coming along. Sorry you been up and down lately. It's always a battle.

I was off today and got a few things done around the house but not nearly what I wanted. It is really frustrating. I feel like I just can't get it together with the housework lately.

Have a great week ladies.

I hope you ladies had a great Mother's Day. I'm back and the laundry monster is under control lol!

-Amarie...keep at it you'll get there!

-Sassy Chick that was so sweet of what you did for your mil! I'm glad you are enjoying your new house

-Congratulations for staying on plan Heather!

-Hope4me I can kind of relate...it seems like there's Always so much to do. I'm glad you got a little bit of time off this weekend

Howdy, howdy to everyone else! :)

I think the depression and other issues slow me down. This is my first day back on medication....I'm not going to let someone make me feel weird or guilty about it this time. I just know that's what I need to do right now.
Take care

G'Mornin' All. :coffee:

:hug: to all!!!

Hi girls! :wave:

Still on plan - was surprised to find today was Day 7... maazing how time flies by whether you're on plan or off, eh? ;) Thanks for all the positive feedback! :grouphug:

How's everyone doing? Butterfly - good for you. Sometimes we have to fight to do what's right for us. :yes: Proud of you! :)

Hope - what's shakin' chick? :hug:

Amarie - how you doing today??

Sassy, Leenie - thinking of you!!

Harris - still with us?? ;)

Chat soon - miss ya'll!
Heather :D

Hi chickies!

Sassafrass - wtg on getting the home office organized. Wanna come organize mine? ;)

Heather - yay Day 7!

I spent the first half of today crying intermittantly. And now I feel totally exhausted and dehydrated. Oh, and I have at least 3 more hours of work to do tonight before I can go to bed. The good (ok GREAT) news is that my quarter only has 4 more weeks. All I need to do is keep from falling apart until its over. I know I can do it.

Hi Ladies :hug:

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Good evening
Hope all are well.Busy week for me.Still trying to decide if I like this new antidepressant.Still pretty sleepy with not much energy.Anyway...Sounds like a busy week for all.
Amarie-Hang in there..your almost done chickie!

I'm not doing OK. Yesterday I made the appointment to have my Cleo put to sleep next Friday. I can barely breathe, let alone function. It HURTS.

Amarie-..........Sorry!!I assume this is a beloved pet.I have 3 dogs and cant imagine life without them.Take care of you.

AMARIE :grouphug: I'm sooo sorry! It's so hard to do what you have to do sometimes. It's great that you put Cleo's well-being ahead of your own feelings. Hang in there and do take care of yourself too. Cleo has a wonderful mommy. Big big :hug:

Morning chicks :wave:

Amarie - big :hug: - I am thinking fo you. You knwo I've been there recently, and my heart goes out to you. :(

Hope, great to see you! :yes:

Hi Leenie, Sassy, harris - everyone else!

Not much new here - still on plan, but the weight's SLOOOOW coming off - amazing how freaking fast it can pile on, and takes so long to creep off...

Hope you're all gearing up for as pleasant a weekend as possible! :grouphug:

Heather :D

G'Morning

TGIF for sure. Sorry I haven't been around much, I've been so busy and to tired to post some days. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

Heather it IS amazing how fast it piles on and how slow it comes off... its just not fair.

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Thanks everyone. I still hurt a lot, but nothing is going to change that. The kind thoughts are appreciated :hug:

Tack on another one to the fast on, slower than molasses off club... it'll take me a year to undo what I did in just 3 months or so... fooey.

Good Morning ladies,

I am newer to 3FC and just found this thread. I am trying to loose weight and boost my self-esteem. I am so glad that there is this forum; the people in my life (with the exception of my boyfriend) don't really know about my anxiety. My weight and lack of self esteem are the only parts left from an abusive relationship that ended four years ago. My wonderful man now is so supportive but everytime I look at my tummy I am reminded of why it's there.

I would love to get to know you ladies better.
Thanks for sharing!

:welcome: MissRicer! You'll love it here :) :yes: Are you on any kind of medication for anxiety/depression? We all understand here! :hug:

I'm doing pretty well - funny how the mood lifts as the weight comes off - that feels, mentally, like it shouldn't be that way, but for me, it is. And I get on track like this, and wonder how and why I ever got off!! Yet, I will again - we all do it. Human beings are weird!! :lol3:

Missing my chicks!

Heather :D

Amarie :hug: thinking of you. What a tough decision to make I am so dreading it when our Maxie reaches that point. :grouphug:

Hi everyone:wave:

Sorry I've been mia for so long, my mind has been sort of all over the place, still not quite sure where it is at the moment:dizzy:
Feels like I've been fairly busy, but I honestly can't say what I've been up to. DdB and DdC are away this weekend. DdC made the provincial junior national judo team and had to go to a training camp. Because I won't be going with her to nationals I figured this was a way of us easing apart, me letting go and her gaining more independence, I sent a sister as a buffer for both of us.:) DdA is working as is hubby so I have the house to myself for the first time in ages, its so weird.
Spring has finally arrived, its greening up out there and slowly warming up.
My eating has not been great, lots of poor choices. But I have increased the exercise, now that the roads are clear and its warmer its easier to get outside.
Better get going here, I still have a few more things to do before I pick DdA up from work.

Heather congrats on staying on plan! Good for you!!

missricer welcome, this is a great place and I look forward to getting to know you better.

Hope has you kitty come home yet?

:hug: to all

Take care,
K

Hello
Welcome Missricer-glad you are with us.Hello to all others.Windy and chilly here.Seriously thinking of going off my antidepressant.Sleeping 12-14 hours a day.I hate that!Thought I was supose to get more energy........NOT.Anyway I wil see what my NP says in a couple of weeks.Have a great rest of the weekend.

Hello All.

I hope you all are doing great.

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Hi everybody, quick stop in. I'm off today but have to be in a couple different places.

Welcome Missricer! We look forward to getting to know you.

Hugs to all who need it. :hug:

Still no kitty. I dreamed that he came home last night.

Check in later.

Hi Girls :wave:

Hi all. Doing a little better, day by day.

:welcome: Missricer. I look forward to getting to know ya!

So, I've never been one who can't eat when I'm stressed. This week, however, I went 3 days where I could only force myself to eat a couple apples, and a little yogurt. I felt like CRUMB, let me tell ya. I finally had to kick myself in the rear and force myself to eat. It's still a struggle, but at least now I'm keeping up the energy to stay moving.

:hug: thinking of all of you, and glad you are thinking of me too.

You know we are, Amarie! :hug: Confession - I hear ya. I have some kind of flu-like bug, and am managing little more than soup and some yogurt... it's not good. Funny how we WANTED those days when we hardly ate, eh?

Here's what I say: I eat like a bird - a pterodactyl! Or a vulture?? :lol3:

Hope - all my fingers and toes are crossed that kitty comes home. :hug:

Leenie, my love - great to see you. Can always tell when you're working too hard - we don't see enough of you!! :nono:

Sassy - how you doing, girl?

Come back other chickies - we want you here!!

At least tomorrow's a holiday here - suspect I need the rest.

Heather :)

Hello ladies,

What a wonderful welcome! Thank you!! And to answer a question, I have tried a few different pills yet some made things worse. I have been on prozac for around 9 months and feel much more myself.

You all seem so wonderul and supportive. I feel very fortunate to have found this thread!

To those other members who celebrate Victoria day, enjoy it tomorrow!
Feeling better just knowing that you all are out there! :)

Hi all. :wave:

Hope -- I hope your kitty comes home soon!!!

Hi Leenie!! :wave:

Amarie -- Sorry to hear you are stressed my mom and I are the same way. Infact in HS that is how I lost a lot of weight. My boyfriend (at the time) totally stressed me out. Yeah shoulda, woulda, coulda, uh huh, live and learn. lol. Heres hoping you feel some relief!

Heather -- We worked on the house some more on our days off. DH got the futon put together so when my mom comes this week to stay with us, she has a place to sleep at least! :) Its coming along, have a few things left to do, but its about finished! YEE-HAW! :carrot:

:welcome: MissRicer!!

Big :hug: to those who need it right now.

Hey gals;

Well, my week just keeps getting better and better... only not. Friday night my car got broken into (and by broken into I mean I forgot to lock it and someone rifled through it). I laughed it off because I didn't think they got anything. Wrong! Today I got a call from my bank wondering what was going on with me going a spending spree with my medflex check card. So today I am calling all my creditors and reporting any unaccounted for cards as stolen. Woohoo - still not sure why I had cards in my car anyway.

On the up side, my dosage of pzac was recently upped to help me get through saying goodye to Cleo, and it seems to be helping me see the humor in my latest misfortunes.

Heather - take care of yourself. I know what you mean, I used to "envy" my sisters who deal with stress by not eating. Not anymore. No energy = no anything. I am still struggling to eat, but am able to keep small amounts down more frequently, so I have a little more energy. Normally, I'd say I say I eat like Big Bird.

Missricer - I'm glad you have found a med that works for you. Happy Victoria day!

Sassy -funny to think I used to envy people who dealt with stress like this. No more.

Hope - I am keeping my fingers crossed for you!

'Night all.

Big Big :hug: Amarie.........So sorry to hear about your car getting broken into. :hug:

Amarie, I"m so sorry about your car. That's such a horrible feeling. I had it happen to me as well (broke the driver's window) and you feel so violated! Just remember, don't put up with any trouble from your banks about cancelling cards etc. you are the victim in this. Hopefully you are dealing with kind people.
In terms of upping your dosage, do whatever you need to do to get through. I hope you have friends and family that you can lean on.
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Hello to all my other new friends out there:)

Hello,

Any room for someone new? I enjoy these threads and it sounds like you all have a great one here :)
S

Hi everyone :wave:

Welcome Stacy the more the merrier!

Back to the grind tomorrow. Thankfully the rain sand chance of flurries in the forecast didn't materialize, it was a fairly lovely weekend. Didn't get much done, but oh well. The two girls had a great little trip. DdC is now very sore!! There was a pool at the hotel so they were able to go swimming as well.

Amarie I sure hope things start on the upswing for you soon :hug:

I better get some sleep so I can deal with tomorrow.

Take care everyone :grouphug:
K

:wave: to all my Buddies

Welcome Staccie, we're glad your here :hug:

Nothing much going on in this neck of the woods. I'm just greatful the warm weather is coming, mostly the sun shine.

Have a great evening Chickies, Love Yah !!

Leenie

Hi Everybody, I hope your all doing well.

I'm going to go and get my mom today, she is staying with us this week, she is on vacation.

:hug:

Hello everyone,
Welcome Staccie! I'm new here as well; these ladies are super sweet and wonderful.
Big :hug: to my new friends!

Hi everyone!!

Hope you are all doing well. Woke up to a couple of inches of wet snow yesterday, yuck, but things are suppose to be changing and getting warm, can't wait. I have to work both Thurs and Fri and if things go according to plan head out of town with my mother until Wed night. Should be an interesting trip.
I can't believe we are near the end of May already. June 12 is the last day of classes for DdC I honestly don't know where the time is flying to.

Well take care everyone and have a wonderful day!:grouphug:
K

Hi chicks,

Been off for a couple of days but back to the grind tomorrow. I'm not ready. I went to the dr. today and got my cholesterol, thryroid, and sugar level checked. I assume it will be about a week before I hear anything. I'm not expecting miracles since I've been eating like crap for as long as I can remember. Keep your fingers crossed. :crossed:

Amarie, thinking of you this week. :hug:

Hola Chicks! :wave:

OH Buddly, SNOW??? So sorry hon!!! I am sending some of my sunshine to ya! :sunny: I hope it works!!!!!! I hope you have fun with your mom! My mom is visiting me now! She is going to help me plant flowers!!!!! :D

Hope -- Hey Chick. UGH don't you hate going back to work after having a couple days off? I know I am going to DREAD going back on Sunday! But at least it will be GOOD money! (Memorial Day) I will keep my fingers :crossed: for good results on your tests! I need to go and get my levels re-checked, see if they have improved. They should have!

Anyways, BIG :hug: to everybody!!!

Just wanted to say hello everyone. I hope you are getting out into the sunshine this weekend. You're in my thoughts! :hug:

Hello all!

Last week was the hardest week I have ever lived through. Friday was absolutely beautiful - we did Cleo's favorite things, and in the end she went to sleep surrounded by those who loved her. I will miss her more than anything, but I really believe she was happy at the end, and that means a great deal. Thanks to all who leant me support. I know several of you have been where I am now. :hug: In honor of all the furry friends who've loved us.

I started walking again. The garden plot I have is about 1 mile from my house - and it needs to be watered daily. Sure, I could set up a soaker hose, but instead I think I'll walk there everyday and water it my own darned self. Should help me get some movement in!

Hopey - I've got my fingers crossed! Good news on the tests?

MissRicer - I did get out in the shunshine - and have the shiny red nose to prove it! Thanks for the thoughts :hug:

Hi MissRicer :wave:

Hi Amarie -- BIG BIG :hug: I know it was so hard for me when we had to put my dear sweet cat, Puddy to sleep. But like you said he is in a much better place now and he is no longer in any pain. But I know its difficult and like my mil told me, there will be times when you will see something random and it will just remind you of your furry loved one and you will just burst into tears and it has happened to me. First time was when I had to pick up his food bowl and wash it and put it away. (yes I kept it lol) I balled like a little baby. lol. Then there are sometimes if I watch a movie or something it will remind me of him. Just random things like that. lol. WTG on the walking! :carrot: I started walking on my lunches. I walk the parking lot. I figure at least I am out and walking, better than sitting on my bum. ;)

Big :hug: to those who need it right now. :hug:

I know I have been MIA for like over a month. I am having the hardest time. Ok I was soo set on losing weight and was faithfully tracking calories everyday and doing well with them all for about a month. Then my husband started cooking and I kept slipping up and after feeling guilty every day about eating the wrong things I just quit really caring. Then after I had bugged my husband about watching the calories. After I quit he started getting into the calories. Now he tracks his EVERY day. I am going thru so much crap and find myself eating the junk and drinking the soda. I have an addictive problem to the wrong type of food. I did read Raven's post on the sugar and am going to take her advice and look into it.

Right now I am about to go over the edge...YES I have taken my meds only missed two nights this week. But there is sooooooo much. My kids are really driving me crazy not listening, fighting, screaming, crying, they just get into everything and dont care (I know its kids) but the money they are wasting. The boys had to crawl up on the sink and get the mouth wash down and dumped in the tub. Then they took the new febreeze spray I bought and sprayed the whole bottle. We just painted and they wrote on the walls. They begged for these new water swords and broke them with in 24 hours. Like HOW Do you teach them to take care of stuff. I mean there are times that accidents happen when they are doing the right things...yes they are boys and they are going to be rough on stuff. BUT I am going crazy. They tear the house up in seconds and dont clean up. My husband is always grumpy and complaining about something. I am really really trying to do more in the house so he has to do less. He works all day long then will come home and cook or clean stuff up or do something so it makes him work the whole day long. I just cant seem to get to bed at a decent time and cant make myself get out of bed. I rushed home from church today to straighten up the little mess the kids had from last night that way when he got home it would be cleaned and he wouldnt complain and he came down and complained about the cat liter. Like ewww....

On Friday I had a long day While I was trying to shower the kids got into cookies and kira 3 yr old came up just crying saying it hurts. After an hour of her crying I got it out of her it was her tooth. SO I got her into the dentist. I had 6 girls coming over after school for me to do their hair for the social that night. SO I ran around her for 40 mins trying to do everything I needed to do then took her to the dentist. Sat there for almost 2 hours listening to her scream to find out they had to do a root canal on her. Came home and girls were already here changing so I started doing hair. Did 2 girls makeup and 2 girls nails. Then while I was doing that my 6 yr old tried to make his own pb sandwich and then my 1 year old started eating the pbutter. Then the 4 yr old starting dipping oreos into the pbutter. From a new jar of pb there was 1/4 left and 6 oreos out of an almost full pack. I got all the girls out the door tried to clean up and here kira 3 yr old starts throwing up. I am trying to get kids dressed and make sandwiches and help keep her puking in the bucket. Husband gets home and complains he has to eat a sandwich and complains there is jelly on the floor...which I had picked up cause my son didnt put the lid on and when I used it the lid fell off and the jelly came out. I had such a long day but everything I did was not good enough. I ended up breaking down and telling him he hadnt said anything nice to me since he had been home. I had killed myself that day for everybody else but it wasnt good enough. I did all those girls hair just because I love them and wanted to help them. I like doing hair too but some of them didnt have money to go get it done...

So anyways...usually these feelings go away after a day or two but I am just getting worse. I am ready to lock everything up in my house and become a drill sargent. It might cut my work in half but wont be a very homey place. Like the boys clothes they have a mess in their room they cant put their dirty in the basket and tear out clean to find what they want....


AHHHHHHHH I am sorry this is my first post coming back but I made myself come back because I have no where to turn I am bout to go off the edge. Any help or advice would be great.

Thanks girls!
me

Aww mom, big :hug: girl. So glad to see you back here - we've missed you!!! Hang in there - it'll get better; we've all been where you are, and it does pass, chick. :hug:

Hello everyone else - well, it's sadly official - I turned 40 on Saturday. *sigh* Most of the time I'm fine with it ;) :lol:

Not much else of news - unbelievably STILL recovering from The Plague, but getting better... sloooowly. This was a baaaad one.

How are the rest of my chicks??

Heather :D

thanks heather I hope it does....

Going to my moms for the day will give me a lil break cause the kids go and play and dont drive me crazy!!

BIG BIG hugs :hug: momof4 :hug:

Hello Heather!!! :wave:

Good morning everyone.

Beautiful day here again. Thanks Sassy that sunshine you sent has arrived;) The snow was definately a shocker, well not the snow but just how much there was.

amarie :hug: I know your Cloe is happy and her passing sounds so peaceful and loving.

momof4 big :hug: we are so glad you are back. I've been wondering how you were doing. I'm sorry that I have no advice other than hang in there and maybe keep repeating the serenity prayer :shrug: it will get better and enjoy the break at your moms.

Heather glad to hear that you are starting to feel better.

Sassy good for you for walking. During the winter I would try to walk the parking lot while DdC was in judo. Now that it is still daylight and the sidewalks are clear I go around the block. Any movement is good!!

Hope hows it going? When are you next days off?

Missricer did you get out into the sun this weekend?

Big hellos and :hug: to everyone else as well!

Have to try and get DdC into the chiropractor this week and hopefully he can help her. She's been losing feeling in her right hand and feeling pain in the elbow she dislocated in Sept.

Anywho I'm off have a great day everyone and take care,
K
I'm trying to attach some pictures of what we woke to May 20/09 Hopefully it works.

Hello ladies,

Heather, belated happy birthday! I say you're 30 with 10 years experience! :)

Amarie, I'm so sorry for your loss. It is always such a hard decision to make. Even though you know it was what was best, it doesn't seem to make things feel any better. You're in my thoughts. :hug:

I'm actually struggling myself today. It really seems to come in waves lately. It seems that sometimes I can handle life better than others. I had my first anxiety attack in months last night; it's always debt related. I know that this too shall pass.

Thanks for listening (reading :) ).

Hello All. :wave:

For some reason I just feel crappy today. :barf: I just wanna go back home and go to bed...........But alas have to make that $$. lol.

Buddly -- Glad the sunshine made it to you! Holy Smokes! Do you all normally get snow in May? I know when we lived in Upstate NY it could last until April, but I don't think May......Yes I agree any movement is better than none at all. I just feel sooooooo pathetic because I can only make it around the parking lot once then my leg starts killing me.........:( But I'll get there eventually! Just have to do what Dory said in Finding Nemo, "Just keep Swimming....." ;)

MissRicer -- Big :hug:

Has anyone else done the potatos not prozac? What results have you had. I really am thinking of checking into it. I have realized the more I try to stop eating and drinking the wrong things the harder it is and my pepsi and sometimes the junk is like an addiction. I have to have my pepsi. Maybe a pepsi isnt that bad but its the fact that I HAVE to have it. Not a oh maybe today i will have a pepsi that sounds good...its give me a pepsi or I am gonna knock your head off...LOL...That is just the same as being addicted to cigarettes or alchol. I really need to fix this. I cant get myself to eat right because I cant get past this. I want to eat healthy and be healthy but just feel controlled by all the junk. I read the sugar sensitivity and it is like me to a T!!! LIke I am the creative type of person just found out I use my right side of my brain. ANYWAYS was just wondering if anyone else tried it and wanted to know what everyone thought..I AM DESPERATE...I almost sent in my app for biggest loser thats how desperate I am..I need my life to CHANGE....I dont want to look back 20 years from now and wonder what happen and why it took me so long to get my act together. Ok enough blabbering..YEP I AM BACK...time for the long posts again!! Just like my girl sassy!!

Thanks chics...lata

Love and hugs to Judomom (Debbie) whose husband has lost his battle with cancer.

We love you, we are thinking of you.
Heather x

Heya - I'd like to introduce myself as well. I recently lost my job but i'm not too bothered (though I probably should be) because now I have taken it upon myself to get some proper exercise in the day, prepare good healthy meals and watch my calorie intake and get the house in order because it is a complete mess. I absolutely hate having a 9 - 5 office job because I'm just sat all day in front of a computer and I never eat very well either. Then when I get home I'm too tired to do much - tired from doing nothing but sitting all day! - and as a result the house is a complete tip! So I'm taking this opportunity to get my house and my own body sorted out! (I am looking for jobs as well but it definitely doesn't hurt having some time off).

It's great actually because my fiance works as a postie in the mornings and I've been going to work with him the last few days and that's really great exercise and it gets me out of the house and into the fresh air. Plus more time with him :)

So yeah, that's my story, lol

Welcome BATB, nice to have you with us :hug:

Hi BATB - nice to meet you.

Big hug to everyone this week.

Sending special thoughts for Judomom - I have no words, I am so sorry for your loss.

Heather - thanks for letting us know the sad news.

Meanwhile I've sunk - either into a deep depression or a really big pint of Hagendas. At least, I seem to be trying to eat my way out.

Take care everyone;

BIG :hug: to everyone.

Hi ladies,

I've been gone a few days, nothing serious just busy. My tests weren't good. My cholesterol is up over last year and of course I still need my thyroid meds. The strange thing was the a couple of liver tests were slightly elevated. I don't know what is up with that. I have to be retested in 6 weeks to see if it goes back to normal.

I MUST start exercising daily to try to get my cholesterol under control before my dr. puts me on medication for it. I don't want to take anything else. I've done my eliptical the last couple of days. It's a start.

Amarie, I hope you find your way out of this soon. Take care of yourself and maybe do some cardio to get the endorphins going. I'm sure that's just what you feel like doing. LOL

Big hugs again JUDOMOM. Still praying for you and your family.

Momof4, I've never heard of the potatoes vs prozac diet.

WELCOME BATB, can't wait to get to know you better.

MissRicer, I feel your pain with the debt situation. Just do what you are able to do about it, make a plan, then try not to dwell on it. Easier said than done I know.

Heather, you feeling better yet?

Buddly, the snow is so beautiful, not what you want I know but beautiful never the less.

Hugs to everybody else who needs them.

Hope i am sad I was waiting for you to post I thought you would be excited I was back....LOL..Nope I got one sentence..LOL...but hey thats better than nothing right!!!!

Ok well had a good night at youth....getting ready for a lockin friday night!!!

Gonna go to bed and read!!

Hi all, and :welcome: to our newest members!

Hope, I'm working at about 60% capacity, and worn out at the end of the days, but I am SO much better than I was last week that I am plodding along. It's been a very LOOOOOOONG time since I was that sick - seriously, $50 bills could have been falling from the sky and I would have stayed in bed thinking 'I don't care.' :lol:

Hang in there chicks - we're plodding through, nearly to June!!

Heather :D

:lol: Momof4, I'm so sorry. I have been reading daily but what's in my head doesn't always show up on a post. I've been so tired I haven't posted much. I will let you know however that when I saw that you had posted I was on the phone with a friend and I immediately told her I had to go so I could read your post. :D The curiosity was killing me.

I've written a few 'where are you's' in my posts while you were gone so I should get some brownie points for that right? ;) Either way I'm glad you are back and ok. :hug:

HOPE-Yeah when I was catching up on the post I had missed I did see you asked where I was that is why I figured you would be sooo excited I finally posted again!!!


So yeah long day but feel accomplished. I think this is the first time I cleaned the WHOLE house in a single day. With the kids it is impossible to get the upstairs and downstairs all in one day. I completely scrubbed the kitchen even under the fridge and stove!!! Scrubbed down the table and chairs, scrubbed the plastic mat under the table, swept everywhere, cleaned two bathrooms, cleaned the boys room, cleaned my room, cleaned girls room, swept the whole upstairs...but yeah I felt very accomplished and tired!!!

I am gonna go read and hopefully dose off quickly!!! Tomorrow night is the lockin for my youth. I still have more stuff to prepare for that before tomorrow night so I got a busy day. Then the saturday the boys have a field trip to Delgrosso's (amusement park). That will be fun on NO SLEEEP.... I am glad I am young and can keep up with all this but I tell you when I get older and kids are gone...I wont know what to do...

Ok have a good night everyone!!!

OH YEAH PS....ONE WEEK TILL THE BEACH!!!! YAAAA A much needed vacation..our first family vaca!!

Momof4, the whole house in one day? I'm impressed, especially with kids.

I took a nap after work and had a wave of depression wash over me when I got up. I don't know why, not that we usually do know. I had worked out a couple of days but missed the last two. I don't know if I crashed after that or if I'm upset at myself for not exercising. I wanted to try to do at least 30 minutes a day of something. I plan to do a good workout tomorrow since I'm off. I really just need to follow through with my cholesterol situation.

Anybody doing anything this weekend?

I did get my longer workout in today. I'm glad for that. This day flew by and it's back to work tomorrow. We saw the disney movie 'UP' today. I was suprised at how depressing it was. It was great but sad at the same time. The end was positive but it definitely makes you think.

Judomom, still thinking about you today. :hug: How is your doggie feeling?

What are the rest of you up to?

Well here I am.........yay. My last few hours of freedom. At least this is my short week. Gotta keep repeating that. lol

We were gonna have a cook out with all of our friends in a couple weeks, but I decided I really don't want it. Mostly because our "Friends" really aren't our "friends". They would only come for the free food and to be nosy to see the house. So I don't want that. I want people to come over who want to spend time with us. So we're not doing it.

I dunno I just really haven't felt like being around people lately. I guess mostly I am just fed up with all the fake crap that people try to feed me, like they really care, I know better.

Anywho, hate for this to sound "Depressing" but that is how I feel I guess. lol.

Ta Ta for now!