Thanks ladies, I really appreciate it.
I was broken up with once by e-mail after a 10 month long relationship. I memorized the e-mail. It wasn't difficult. It read:
"Jess,
I don't want to be with you anymore.
sorry
-Guy's Name-"
I think that's why the e-mail format makes me feel so horrible. But my e-mail was nothing like that. It detailed the unsolvable problems in our relationship, our varied approaches to conflict (him, avoidance, me, trying to work through things---), the fact that we can't make each other happy in the long-run, and how I don't want to force him into ANOTHER year of long-distance relationship when the love of his life could be passing him by while he waits around for me.
And I told him I love him, but I don't think we'd be happy together forever, and he's an amazing guy, and that I hope he holds out for the right woman... because he deserves her.
....but I still feel like ****.