03-08-2009, 10:18 PM
Today was the best day. I really got to see why I'm doing this. The weather was unbelievably gorgeous so we packed a picnic and headed out to a state park close by. After our picnic, my husband and I and our 3 year old went hiking on the nature trail. Any other time I would have made an excuse not to do it, but I thought it would be a good way to get some exercise in, and I'm so glad I did it. Walking in the woods, holding my husband's hand and watching our son run around enjoying himself, I had a lightbulb moment. I got to see what I want my life to be like. I don't want my son to only have happy memories, but I want him to have happy memories of ME as well. And I don't want those memories to be me sitting on a park bench smoking a cigarette while he plays on the monkey bars. I want those memories to be of mom and dad holding hands, and mom kicking the soccer ball around with him I want to be a good example for him. I can't believe I've let so many opportunities pass me by because of my weight. He and his father are so much more important to me than anything I could ever possibly want to eat. I feel very lucky I got to see this today, and I'll have it to hold onto when this path I'm on gets hard.