LA Weight Loss - Letting go of secrets!

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01-20-2009, 06:09 PM
HI everyone. I have kept a lot of secrets about my eating in my life time. Things like eating before I get home and then eat the family dinner. Looking to see if anyone is watching while I sneak food that I know I am not going to count. Do you guys have those secrets. I did a post on my blog asking for people to anonymously send in secrets. It is pretty liberating to let them go and get them in the open I feel. Even if it is anonymous. Thank God I am getting better about it, talking about it more and such.:smug:

Beautiful Ace
01-20-2009, 06:13 PM
I used to order by whatever on the menu looked like it had the most food (not by what I felt like eating).

I used to binge when nobody was home because I was too ashamed to eat in front of them.

I've slept with guys just because I was insecure and thought if I did that, they would like me.


01-20-2009, 06:20 PM
Food was one of my biggest secrets- I'd always binge in private, sometimes going as far as hiding the food if anyone came home.

Took me a long time to get over the fact that everyone could see my dirty little secret! Everyone knew I was fat, and there was no hiding that.

01-20-2009, 06:42 PM
Been there for sure. Except I was with the ladies rather than the guys. Certainly hide my food life though. I laughed becaue obviously everyone could tell I was fat.

01-20-2009, 06:43 PM
Can I put those secrets on my blog?

Beautiful Ace
01-20-2009, 06:55 PM
Yeh sure:)

01-20-2009, 06:59 PM
i used to go to wendy's on the way home from work, then when my fiance got home, i would tell him i hadnt eaten and we would go again... only a few times but still..not good.

01-20-2009, 07:08 PM
i would make cookies then when they came up missing i would tell my wife i took them to work for everyone.....i felt so guilty.(was months ago ...never made anymore cookies after that)

Thighs Be Gone
01-20-2009, 07:08 PM
My secret was that when my hubby went to bed, I would make a plate of anything that I found and go to the computer until 12 or 1 in the morning. I was probably eating my daily allotment of calories in just that "snack" time alone. So, now I go to bed!

Another secret is that I once told my hubby I was going to the gym and went and bought a BOX, yes BOX of striped Little Debbie cakes and ate them instead.

Also, I would go to Krispy Kreme and get donuts--usually 4 or so and throw out the box before arriving home--I don't mean out the window..I mean I would find a trashcan so hubby wouldn't see it in my car

01-20-2009, 07:16 PM
All pretty familiar. Nice to know that I am not alone. Thighs, 4 doughnuts at kispy is my minimum. I love maple bars. I actually went to three stores to binge on them the other day and they were all out. Dang, I went home and had chicken and veggies. :smug:

01-20-2009, 07:18 PM
i used to go to wendy's on the way home from work, then when my fiance got home, i would tell him i hadnt eaten and we would go again... only a few times but still..not good.

I have definately done similar things. Like basically eating a full meal and then when my boyfriend or roommate would come home..I would act as though I hadn't eaten so I could eat dinner again.

01-20-2009, 07:19 PM
Are these secrets ok to post. I am comforted by them. No names, just secrets. Either way

Thighs Be Gone
01-20-2009, 07:20 PM
LOL, blog them BABY--I don't care...the truth shall set me free! :)

01-20-2009, 07:32 PM
Man you guys, you really stepped up to the plate with honesty. I am comforted big time. i love it hear. Glad I found this place. Keep up all you hard work. Great job.

01-21-2009, 03:29 AM
i used to go to wendy's on the way home from work, then when my fiance got home, i would tell him i hadnt eaten and we would go again... only a few times but still..not good.

Yup. I've done that. Before my fiance and I moved in together...I'd eat at home and then he'd pick me up and I'd said I barely ate. He'd then take me out for dinner. I'd go to Starbucks and indulge on treats and yummy coffee (adding up to 1,000 calories that day) to avoid binging in front of him. The Starbucks I go to has a small upstairs part where barely anyone goes so I hid there. Like a lot of you, I'd binge at night when no one was awake.

Oi. There's been a few times I ate a ton of nachos (full of meat and cheese) and ate 2 huge rice krispy treats afterwards. Those things were so addicting.

Secretly the reason why I'd eat so slow was because I'd get really sad the closer I got to the last bite. I wanted the food to last forever.

01-21-2009, 09:04 AM
When I would binge... I would always eat so fast (as if I inhaled it, it wouldnt count) :(... Either that or I would go buy a box of cookies, chew them up and then spit them into a napkin (all with the quickness and all in secret, of course). I always felt like people were grossed out when they saw me eating because I always thought they were thinking "that girl doesnt need anymore food, she has eaten enough for her entire family already" :(

01-21-2009, 11:13 AM
I never counted anything that wasn't part of a meal or snack. Like...sneaking a french fry or a bite of cheeseburger. Or if I got extra food at a restaurant I'd not count that, either. Or I'd starve myself all week so I could have a planned binge later on. Or, the worst, making myself sick after eating too much because I was ashamed.

Bah, all in the past now! I have to focus on the now.

Edit: Reading all your secrets...a lot of those are mine, too. I'd eat so many times at fast food places in a day. I'd go to one Wendy's and then I'd have to drive across town to another. I'm trying to give up the fast food stuff now!

Lucky Charms
01-21-2009, 12:19 PM
I would tell friends and coworkers that I was drinking a skinny latte from Starbucks when it fact it was a full fat white chocolate mocha with whipped cream.

I also occasionally tell my partner that I went to the gym when in fact I slept in late and did not change out of my PJs until noon.

01-21-2009, 02:15 PM
Man...It makes me realize the things I did when I first tried dieting that was in secret.

I'd eat less than 1,000 calories. One time I blogged: "I aim for less than 1,000 calories. Calculators online say I can eat about 1,700 so I'm good."

I'd want to binge so bad, I'd eat a piece of something - anything - chew it, then spit it out.

I felt completely guilty when I ate. All of the time. If I ate something that put me over 1,000 calories, I'd be so angry with myself I would end up crying myself to sleep.

I ate a lot of Lean Cuisine and Healthy Choice frozen meals. I'd like the cartoon clean just to know I ate every single calorie.

I had an odd outlook on food. Either I could eat it all or I'd eat nothing at all. It's like I was a compulsive over-eater/binge eater or I'd show characteristics of being anorexic.

I've come so far from these secrets. I finally let them go.