Can I join this group? I have never really posted consistantly on this site, but I am ready for some accountability. I also am a HUGE binge eater so I will, hopefully get some coping tools from all of you........
I am feeling a little powerful, if tired. Have managed (barely) not to binge during this very stressful time. I am back and forth to hospital for my dad, and have been relieved from work for the time being. I have some homecare coming in for my confused mother, and that will last until the middle of February, so have some breathing room to find something else.
there are still no answers about my dads condition, he continues to worsen, tho only slightly, and none of the expected answers show up in his tests.
Somehow through all of this, I have had the strength not to turn to food as an answer.
I can only credit coming to 3fc for this newfound ability.
I KNOW I do feel better when eating healthy, BUT the temptation to high carb, high fat high sugar foods is very big. but the other thing I know, is that I will be less able to cope with things if I give into temptation. I really have a problem with hypoglycemia, and I will not cope if I have a sugar flux right now.
I have allowed myself small treats like a square of dark chocolate or a small oatmeal-chocolate chip cookie, but really, compared to my former ways, I am doing great.
And as I keep saying, if I can't learn to eat on plan when things are tough, I will never get control over my weight and eating, because life throws curves at us when we least expect it.
One thing tho, because of the driving and staying in hotels etc, I am not exercising much. I take the stairs at the hospital, and have done some walking, but am definitely feeling the lack of movement. Will have to come up with a plan for that.
sorry for another long post, may be a few days before I am back again.
Thanks sisters, this place is providing some stability in my universe.
Okay so I didn't do so well last night. I didn't completely lose it but if I did over indulge a bit.
It feels good to have somewhere to come and be accountable. It helps me to stay on track, the one that I'm back on as of today.
Just for now I pledge to eat healthy foods in healthy amounts so as not to interfere with my weight loss objectives.
sarati: you are I are about the same height, and your current weight is near my starting point, we are have the same goal weight. You are doing great.
Good for you to have come so far.
You have a great attitude, so just keep it up, a small wavering is ok.
It s not getting back on track that will cause the problems.
I have to say, the my few binges etc have been much smaller than they used to be , so less damaging too. And instead of guilt, I have been able to get back on track again. This is so helpful, and I hope we can support you to do the same.
The stress I had yesterday, trying to mediate for my parents ( my Dad has moved to my house for now, so that I can care for him as he recovers from his heart attack, and he is not moving back in with my mother and her smoking) was huge. I did "cave" and have a small bar of dark chocolate (about 30 grams). This is nothing of course in the big picture, I was actually able to reduce other calories, so there was no net effect on my calories.
But my point is, that over time, even the slip ups are less extreme, and therefore can't hurt us physically or emotionally the way the bingeing used to.
Good luck getting back on track, keep us posted.
Well I'm coming to the end of day 2. I feel better about myself than I did a couple of days ago. I have pulled out my dietminder food journal and it's back to basics!
((fatmad)) thank you so much for the encouragement. I shall take your words to heart.
I just found a podcast on iTunes by Kira Langolf about losing weight. She has some inspiring and encouraging words as well. She emphasizes positive self talk and self image. I just listened to the first one today. I can't wait to get farther along.
Binge-free challenge - Jan. 19 - 25
