i know.. i am a lucky one... he is my biggest fan and it makes all the difference... i have 4 children and none are his.. he raises my children as if they were his own. over the past year he has seen me cry and cry about how quickly i gained weight. last jan we had a miscarriage and didnt know i was preg. the stupid docs gave me progestrogin to make me stop bleeding and then gave me the depo shot once ( which has estrogen.. which causes weight gain..) in the span of a month. my hormones were so messed up... and then i started blowing up... my eating habits didnt drastically change but i am sure i could have eaten better... a year ago i was a 180 lbs... a size 11 jeans... i felt good looked good .. and now here i am.. as of yesterday.. 236 pounds and a size 18... i have a horrible stomach ulcer and my poor liver has gotten damaged somehow.. this is my heaviest and i broke down and started to cry on the floor the day after christmas... my fiancee picked me up and said " we will do this" and we are... its tough... but i have an amazing cheering sqaud.. plus i will be able to get the extra skin removed and breast implants as soon as i get down to my goal and maintain it for a year. everytime i reach a milestone nick is going to send me to one of several places like the spa or salon so i can feel pretty
i am very thankful for him!