100 lb. Club - Well I've really gone and done it now

This morning when I got home from work, I went to step into the shower and looked in the mirror. Much to my shock and horror I noticed my thighs are starting to droop, sag, wobble. Whatever you want to call it. :o

Don't get me wrong.
My logical mind knows that this was bound to happen being as I was so heavy for so long. It was just such a shock to see it. I obsessed over it all morning, cried a bit, wrote in my journal, cried some more and then WTH???? What do I do? I hopped in the car and drove to McDonalds for two hashbrowns and count them.....four sausage mcmuffins. :(

As I was eating the pile of junk, it didn't even taste good. But I could not stop myself. Anyone driving by my car saw this fat lady shovelling fast food into her face all the while tears rolling down her face.
Now, just a few hours later, I sit here in a daze. Why why WHY??? Why do I do this to myself? :?:

I have been doing so well and I am sooooo close to my first 50lbs lost and the first goal I set myself. So very close I can almost reach it. And then I go and throw myself off the deep end.

I still don't really know why I reacted the way I did. For heavens sake I know that thighs are hidden easily. Honestly, some days I think I am going stark raving mad!

Sometimes it takes a while to figure out all the why. In the meantime, all you have to to is pick yourself up and move on, right now. NOT tomorrow. Really, that is what makes maintainers - not never eating too much, but always moving on. If the food is making you feel yucky, take a nice long walk. Make sure you get good sleep tonight. Make sure you have plans for a healthy dinner and breakfast (do NOT try to starve to make up for it). You'll be amazed how different tomorrow can feel. :hug:

What Julie said.

Take steps now to counteract your morning insanity. :) Drink lots of water 'cause you gotta know you ingested 4 days worth of sodium from those sausage biscuits. Take a walk or get some exercise. Offset the grease and junk with some fruit. And prepare yourself now for a jump in the scale sometime in the next 2-3 days, or even tomorrow. You know it's not fat - it's not 3500 calories worth of food - but the water will be there.

Oh and DON'T deprive yourself or punish yourself for the rest of the day by not eating. :) I know that's the first instinct, but don't do that. Just be healthy.

As far as the flabby thighs - my thighs were flabby too, but I've found that exercise REALLY helps. Squats, lunges, stepups, climbing stairs, walking up hills ... seriously. The last time I had a wax, my waxer poked at my thighs and told me they were getting firmer! :) It was a nice feeling.

You've made amazing progress ... don't let this one slip get you down or make you give up. You can do it!! :)

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And ... uh ... could I have used any more smiley faces in that post? :lol:

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Believe me I know how you feel.
The problem with me was I would screw up, have a bad day, whatever, and instead of forgiving myself,forgetting it and going on, I continued to binge and b4 I knew it the weight was back. :o
So, we all have slips. Just remember tomorrow always comes, get back on the horse and ride it sister! :hug:
You can do it, you have already come so far, do not give up now.

Bravo for coming here and asking for help! It would be easy to let your slip today turn into a full blown slide, posting here and getting feedback is such a good move to counteract that.

Thank you also for being brave and posting what happened this morning, including your thought processes and subsequent actions. Believe it or not, you just helped a whole bunch of us newbies here. It helps to see a very brave lady successfully negotiate the daily challenges we all face with courage. It takes a lot of guts to admit a slip.

Hang in there! 50 lbs is an amazing feat. Keep up the good work!

I hate what my thighs are doing too - and I'm working out like a madwoman - there is good muscle under that mound of fat that slides around on the upper part of my leg when I change directions. I know that someday it'll be flabby skin, and that is even more depressing, but I am combining using one of those toning body lotions, to get the skin in the best possible shape with the exercise.

To me, it sounds like you've realized that you hurt yourself with your weight gain more than you realized, and you're punishing yourself. Honey, you don't deserve that. You're a woman who has lost 50 lbs, and we are an amazing bunch.

Thanks for sharing - this touched me more than I could possibly have imagined.

Uggghh...don't EVEN start talking about thighs...Hence, my screen name :(

I would completely reiterate what the others have said..especially in regards to water and movement..

It is cold today. School is canceled because of ice. I ate oatmeal and then I ate grits. That wasn't exactly right either!

We all want to hope that we can get through being severely obese without any consequences.
The loose skin is both a reminder of what we once were, and the result of a lot of hard work that had been done.

It is a bit bothersome to think about how hard you work, only to have loose skin - but it's okay. Don't sabatoge yourself now - you have done a great job!

Good job for accepting your mistakes and coming here for help. I hear so many women on here complaining of loose skin etc....

Yah, of course its annoying. And ALL of us wish when our bodies shrink we could lose the sagginess and stretch marks that come with being over weight. But I ask you this....how often are you naked or even in a bathing suit???? I would rather look good in clothes, which most of us are in 90% of the time, then continue to hate what I see in the mirror ALL the time. We can do all we can to fix the imperfections, but they are gonna be there. What if you saw a thin girl in the grocery store and knew she had a saggy flabby stomach, but there she is looking great in front of you. I think most of us would kill to look like that! So stay positive! You KNOW that if you had the choice to be thin and a little flabby you would pick that over feeling uncomfortable in your own skin all the time! You can do this! Just try and take those negative thoughts right out of the mix!

Duct tape!! (just kidding)....

I dropped 30lbs myself and I look in the mirror and cry (I have another 100+ to go to be "optimal weight". I'm new here, found this while doing research on South Beach (which I will be starting in January).

I have flabby arms, flabby thighs, flabby tummy. But - think of how much better you feel with the weight you've lost!!!

Gumboot - you are an inspiration to me!!!!

:hug: We understand. Chin up and keep going. You're worth the better health and the fun of wearing smaller, funner clothes.

Oh, Gumboot, I know how you feel.

I haven't lost enough weight to see what will happen with my skin, but there were times that it scares me to death. I am currently single, but would love to meet mr Right one day.

The thought of somebody seeing me naked with stretch marks and saggy skin all over me, give me a little panic attack at times. Who wants to date somebody like that?? I know that I am pretty (under the layers of fat). When I was skinny, I use to get asked if I was a model about 5 times a day. But what if Mr Right meets the skinny me one day, thinks that I am gorgeous, but underneath the clothes I look like his great grandma??? :eek:

But you know what, WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK?? I don't know about you, but I mostly worry about what other people will think when they look at me. I know that I don't mind the stretch marks - it is not as if it hurts, and I don't even know that I have the marks, unless I think about it or look at it. I think the same goes for saggy skin. I decided not to worry about what other people think, and then I am fine with it! And if Mr Right has a problem with it one day... then maybe he isn't mr right after all.

I am not happy in my skin right now. I feel uncomfortable most of the time, am always hot, and I hate it. I am losing weight for me, and if I have saggy skin at the end - so be it. I can live with it. And if other people have a problem with my skin and marks - it is their problem, not mine.

As your on your weight loss journey maybe a personal trainer to help tighten up as you work to goal .But don't be hard on yourself . Your gonna be ok sweetie . Just keep moving forward one step at a time..:)

Exactly what Snoozles said!

I can't add anything more to the advice you have already received. I'm just adding my support! Hang in there, you're doing so well!

Thanks everyone. Today is a better day. A much better day. The insanity left the building :)

I took your advice, drank lots of water and exercised like I normally would. Later in the evening I shared with my husband what happend and we had a long talk. He reminded me why I chose to do this lifestyle change in the first place. It was not and is not about wanting to look like a supermodel.

My mother is dying from complications from neglecting her diabetes and overall health for a very long time. She is in complete renal failure. A machine is keeping her alive.

What did it for me was my sister. She was diagnosed with diabetes a year or so ago and is not taking her medication regularily and has not changed her eating habits at all. I found out a few months ago that by neglecting herself the way she has, she already has significant kidney damage. She is only 41. That is what scared the crap out of me. This is what has motivated me to lose weight and take care of myself. Luckily, I have not been diagnosed with diabetes and hopefully with this lifestyle change I never will. My doctor is keeping a close eye on it.

After our chat I felt a whole lot better and had a laugh about my "giblets" as he affectionately named my wobbly thighs. ;)
lol

Oh how I love that man! :D

Thank you everyone for your support and kind words. It really helped me get through the day. Honestly, I don't know what I would do without this group.

I found out a few months ago that by neglecting herself the way she has, she already has significant kidney damage. She is only 41. That is what scared the crap out of me.That's so scary.

When I flew back from Albuquerque this past Saturday, I sat next to a woman who was flying home from LA - my flight was her connecting flight. We got to talking during the trip and found out that she was coming home after 5 months in the hospital. She had just had a kidney transplant because she neglected her diabetes and her kidneys failed.

She also had her thyroid removed, had part of her pancreas removed, and had a trach tube, so had to speak by blocking the hole in her throat every time.

She was an amazing lady - and confessed that if she'd known then what she knew now, she wouldn't have been as stupid in her 20s and neglected her diabetes.

The thing that amazes me is that diabetes is a totally MANAGEABLE disease. My g'mom had it for 40 years and was scrupulous about her diet, her blood sugar, and her insulin. There's no reason most people who have it should have to suffer ... but people just think that if they ignore problems, maybe they'll go away. (And I count myself here - how many years did I ignore being fat .. you know?)

I hope your sister gets it together soon.

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Gumboot,

You are doing so well! You are right, drooping thighs are nothing compared to your health.

What a great husband!

I worry about my saggy skin too. I feel like it is already so squishy and i still have lots to lose! but we just have to keep in mind that loose skin is much better than that skin filled with fat!! It's much healthier too :D Thanks for sharing

I have similar circumstances to yours Gumboot. My Mom died of complications of diabetes this last year. My sister is diabetic too. She hasn't had any real complications yet, but she has terrible eating habits. Seeing my mom die from the disease was what really motivated me to lose the weight. My mom always used the loose skin as one of her excuses for staying fat. She would say that she didn't want her face to be wrinkly. I worried about it too. I do have saggy thighs and stomach, but those can easily be covered. I think they might get better with time, I'll just have to see. My hubby has been wonderful about it too. He actually loves the way I look in my jeans now. He asked me a week ago if he had told me how great I look lately. That made me feel pretty wonderful. My face really doesn't look bad, people tell me I look a lot younger. It's really sad that my mom used the wrinkles as an excuse, since I don't think she would have had a real problem with it. I feel so much better too, and that is so much more important than the saggyness that I worried about. Don't worry about those things, just keep on your plan and you'll be so glad you did! I'm glad you have such a wonderful husband, it really helps.

I feel for ya. My thighs are getting the same way. All loosey goosey and jiggly. I can't begin to imagine how horrible I'll look when I'm at goal but oh well. Better saggy and baggy then dead.