I recently decided to take control.. but its MUCH harder than I thought it would be.. My day is only about 3/4 over, and I've already eaten more than I had planned.. But I have taken an amount of control over WHAT I have overeaten..
After I woke up, I ate about 3 oz Tuna (canned in olive oil) with a piece of french bread the length of my hand. Also about 5 Jalapenos that were pickled in water, vinegar, and salt.
A little later, I finished what I started eating, but added 3 more peppers, and half a hand's length of bread.
I fell asleep for 5 hours because Im so lethargic all of the time..
After I woke, I drank alot of water, and played the PC..
I decided that I was a little hungry, so I ate 2 cups of couscous, topped with a sauce made of: Tomato paste, harissa (cayenne paste *super spicy!*), salt, tumeric, coriander seed and a lot of water (think like a tomato soup). It had chunks of carrot and onion in it.
Then, even though I was full, I still wanted to eat.. So I sat down at my computer with a bowl of soup.. Again, its the same base as for the couscous sauce, but with even more water, and extra harissa, cooked with a little bit of white fish, a good amount of parsley, and tiny little noodles, about the size of this "o"... Not many calories per serving.. But its enough for my brain to think Im eating...
Now, Im still sitting here, with half of the soup eaten, and Im not eating any more of it.. I still want to eat.. So badly.. But every time I try to take a bite of the soup, I get repulsed by it.. I ate so much of it in September that I really dont want to eat it ever again!! I think I found my way out of this craziness
Day 1.. OH MY _____
