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kaplods
10-15-2008, 11:29 PM
I'm less than a pound and a half away from the 60 lb mark. It's really exciting for me, as it's my unassisted weight loss record (I lost 70 lbs in high school on prescription diet pills). I've only lost 60 lbs twice before. Once on Nutrisystem, and once after herniating a disc (the combination of pain and vicodin are a pretty effective appetite suppressant - also I was in the YMCA pool three times a day - though for the first couple months it wasn't so much swimming for exercise as treading water to escape the pain caused by gravity).

This past month I've been really sick with a nasty respiratory infection, and my typical change-of-season fibro flares. When my sinuses are plugged I tend to want to eat and eat and eat (feed a cold, feed a fever, I feed them all), but I did very well. Not gaining was an achievement. I credit my success to hot broth soups and sugar free popsicles (and my hubby for making the grocery runs to get them).

Hubby's idea of meal preparation is microwaveable soups, frozen dinners and fast food, and I didn't argue. I made the best choices I could given his idea of menu planning.

Another of his bad habits is wanting to bring me my favorites when I'm sick to make me feel better. I did pretty well (but I didn't turn down the cheesecake, I just asked him not to bring that again unless I asked).

That I didn't gain any weight has been a real achievement. It does strike me though, how very different my outlook is this time. It's so much about the longhaul that I'm less likely to be discouraged over small gains, or non-losses, or obstacles. Sure I would have loved to have spent this month losing steadily, instead of taking a whole month to lose 1 lb, but I don't feel like this month has been a "total loss," or a reason for discouragement as I would have in the past.

That's not to say I'm not a bit annoyed or frustrated that this month wasn't more productive. But it's nice to not feel constantly stressed while trying to lose weight. I've had to be a bit of a split personality as I've learned how to succeed at weight loss, and unlearned all the bad habits I've had. When I would start that old "stinkin' thinkin'" I had to remind myself to stay focused and stay positive. And while it worked, it was weird having to feel like two people Old Colleen and New Colleen. I'm having to remind myself less, so it's rather refreshing to feel like just one person (although hubby says I have personalities to spare).


JulieJ08
10-15-2008, 11:35 PM
:congrat:

You didn't lose them, you threw them away! It was no accident ;) :carrot:

PhotoChick
10-15-2008, 11:37 PM
Colleen - that's awesome. Good for you. I know when I'm sick I tend to want to indulge myself. It's hard to not say "well, I feel miserable and so I deserve this!" :)

Just think ... at 60 lbs you'll be 1/4 of the way towards your goal. 25% ... that's pretty incredible.

:D

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lizziep
10-16-2008, 01:44 AM
congratulations! it's encouraging to see you getting there. i also tend to want to eat eat eat when i'm sick. part of it is being home and being bored and feeling yucky- i just want to make myself feel better and food is just right there in the kitchen! you did a good job!

kaplods
10-16-2008, 03:57 AM
It is exciting, and for some reason the first time in this weight loss attempt that I've really seen and felt the weight loss as significant. Because I'm still pretty much in the same size as when I started (having for some reason, lost absolutely no inches in my hips), it's been hard to feel that the amount is significant (even though I keep reminding myself that it is, I didn't really "feel" it).

For some reason it hit home today. Last winter I bought a peach sweat suit, for cold night jammies. It fit, but was too snug in the thighs to be comfy for jammies, and I looked too much like a giant piece of fruit to wear it in public (think Willy Wonka's Violet Beauregarde as a peach or mango instead of a blueberry). I've been thinking of trying it on for a few weeks now, but I've been putting it off (afraid it still wouldn't be comfy), and finally tried it on tonight, and it's comfy. Yeah!

It is funny though how difficult it is to "feel different." If I list everything that I can do now that I couldn't do when I started, there's been a lot of progress in those 60 lbs - more so than any weight loss in the past (when I was young and active, even though very fat. The weight loss never made huge differences in my abilities like it is doing this time).

It's just really sinking in that I'm going to make it this time (as long as I remember that giving up isn't an option).

reddahlia
10-16-2008, 03:59 AM
I'm so impressed with your attitude!! It's very strong! Congratulations and best wishes!

pixiefalls
10-16-2008, 04:23 AM
Congratulations!! 60lbs is defintely something to hoot about. And I agree, with that attitude there's no doubt you'll reach that goal. Here's to getting to goal and maintaining a wonderful lifestyle;)

midwife
10-16-2008, 08:28 AM
:bravo:

FrouFrou
10-16-2008, 04:42 PM
CONGRATULATIONS to you! :woohoo: :bravo: :yay:

yoyonomoreinvegas
10-16-2008, 05:53 PM
You ROCK! :cheer3::woohoo::cheer2::congrat:

Your attitude is an inspiration!

murphmitch
10-16-2008, 06:07 PM
Congratulations! You are continually a source of inspiration to all of us. :woohoo:

luvja
10-16-2008, 06:11 PM
Whoo hoo :) Good for you!

walking2lose
10-16-2008, 06:25 PM
Yeah, Colleen... just 2 lbs. to hit this major goal! Way to go (especially doing well this last month when you had to depend on DH to feed you)!

I'm proud of you, and I'm excited to watch your ticker continue it's downward trend... slowly but surely!

kittycat40
10-16-2008, 08:50 PM
Kaplods, congrats! You should be excited. 60 pounds is excitement worthy :)

Like you, I am happy with my weight loss as it is the first time, in many many times, that I have lost weight without pills and/or hurting myself.

Really and truly healthy eating and exercise. Hooray for both of us ;)

:D

yoyoma
10-16-2008, 09:01 PM
Congratulations!!!

You and your thoughtful posts are such an inspiration!

kaplods
10-16-2008, 10:41 PM
I love this place so, so much. I've been a member here for five years, with no loss to speak of in the first couple years, but even in the no loss days, the insight and inspiration of this site was helping me look at myself differently.

I don't really look at this as a "battle" anymore. I'm not fighting my body and my self, I'm learning to work with, not against myself. It really feels great to put "the war" behind me. I'm not exactly sure when the "fighting" stopped. Some of it was pretty early. Even in my late teens and early 20's, I was starting to look at myself beyond the tradtional diet and fat girl mentality that I was raised with. I resisted the notion that I had to put my entire life on hold until after I'd lost every ounce of weight that I needed to. I think I realized pretty early that if I put off all my dreams until I was thin, I could die without having had much of a life.

I don't exactly regret my life path, at least not most of it, but I do wonder what my life would have been like if I'd learned some of these lessons earlier.

FB
10-17-2008, 12:03 AM
SO HAPPY for one of my favorite posters! Seriously, I have been watching your ticker so I could scream for you when you hit 60.
Sounds like I don't need to wait until 60...

SO YEAH ON YOU!

I've said it too many times, and probably am beginning to sound like a weirdo - but I adore all of your posts and wry witty humor.

kaplods
10-17-2008, 12:14 AM
I called my family tonight, and talked to my Mom and sister. When I was talking with my sister, I started to tell her about my weight loss accomplishment and the phone went dead - we're out of Skype minutes! Aaaaagh.

We don't have a landline, we use Skype (sort of like a cheap Vonage) and we buy our incoming and outgoing separately. For incoming calls, you pay a flat rate and for outgoing calls, you buy a bunch of minutes at a time, and when you run out, you buy more. Well, hubby has the credit card and he's out with the guys, and so I'll have to call my sister back tomorrow after we've bought more minutes.

I love the money we save with Skype, but I have to remember to keep track of the minutes before I make my phone calls - or at least get the important stuff into the conversation first.