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Sweetcaroline
07-23-2008, 10:22 PM
Hi...
The last 6 weeks have been tough for me. Waking up exhausted with pain and dramatic swelling in my knees, ankles, feet and wrists everyday finally got me to the doctor. He did bloodwork and certain tests strongly suggest Lupus, Rheumatoid Arthritis or 'other' auto-immune or connective tissue disease and sent me to a Rheumatologist :( Needless to say, I was devastated. And within a few days my program was showing signs of weakening, I was slipping... I was going to work, coming home so tired and in pain, climbing on the couch with ice bags and going to sleep for hours...
I was angry at the world... because I had just started to get into a good program that I was positive about, I was exercising and not whining about it... And NOW this ! The next several weeks are going consist of medical appts... so they can figure this out, I hate being a patient !

To make a long story kinda short...... I am back to most of my old habits... I continue to eat OFF program, trying to convince myself that I can have the no sugar added ice cream and baked potato chips... I know I can, but not the whole container or bag.. I've have gained 8 pounds back... I am a mess... The ONE thing I did manage to hang on to and stay true to; is this site... I am in here a lot !! and I swear it has saved me from going right back to ALL my old habits... I just keep reading and reading...
Yesterday I woke up 'just knowing' I needed to stop the madness.. I must chose to get a strong body, a weak body will only make symptoms worse.. I felt strongly that I should try a more structured plan (currently counting cals).. (It was like taking your glasses off to clean them and saying to yourself, Geez, how was I seeing through those) Today I went to the library and picked up Fat Smasher book and started reading... Then read all I could here, and on-line.. I'm going to try it... I want to do this... I feel good about my decision and I'm going for it ! I'm hoping it will help with symptoms and give me some energy back so I can get moving again...
WISH ME LUCK !! Thanks for reading...
The smashing starts Friday !!


Mollikins
07-23-2008, 10:41 PM
WOWSER !! I can empathize with the pain, but I can't say I've ever turned to food for comfort. So I can't offer any advice in THAT arena. Support ? That's something I can offer -- LOTS !:)

I AM glad that you came back here to vent & align your priorities and share your story !! The first step is always the hardest .... even if it's your 100th first step -- at least you're taking it ! YOU GO GURL !!! :hug:

If ya ever just need a monitor screen to vent at, just PM me ...... I'm a pretty good reader. :)

GradPhase
07-23-2008, 10:43 PM
Don't let go, Caroline!!!


Clydegirl
07-23-2008, 11:09 PM
Caroline :hug: :hug:

I wish you lots of luck. You've taken the first step and you know what you have to do.

I hope the doctors are able to find out what is wrong with you.

If you have to have that ice cream get the WW English Toffee Bars.

Good luck, hope you feel better.

midwife
07-23-2008, 11:09 PM
We're holding on with you Caroline.

I can't imagine the pain you are in. I am so sorry you have to go through all of this. You know and I know that what we eat makes the biggest difference with our weights. So even if you cannot move the way you want, you can eat the way you need to. I'm glad you are sticking around. We are here for you through the hard times as well as the easy ones.

walking2lose
07-23-2008, 11:21 PM
Hang in there, Caroline. My sister has had lupus for about 14 years - she went through some very rough spells but is doing VERY WELL now. Don't give up!

You are stronger than you know you are!

EZMONEY
07-23-2008, 11:47 PM
My dear SWEET-C :hug:

First of all I want you to know that I have already sent up :angel: prayers for you.

I can't begin to know what you are going through right now, but I can tell you that you will not go through this situation alone...as long as I and many others are here!

My sister has lupus so I can understand a little of what you are concerned about at this time. We have several people in our church that have rheumatoid arthritis and I know it isn't easy for them.

I really don't know what else to say at this time...:( sorry....but as I said, I will be here for you....:p to the yankee's every chance I get ;)

chick_in_the_hat
07-24-2008, 12:22 AM
:hug: to Sweetcaroline...that's some tough :censored: you are getting hit with. Hold on, sweetie!!

SunshineCA
07-24-2008, 12:23 AM
Just wanted to welcome you and wish you the best of luck. :)

PrettyPaula
07-24-2008, 05:15 AM
dont let go caroline

we are all here for you, life is a series of ups and downs, things can only get better x

tigerchic89
07-24-2008, 07:50 AM
Today is a new day. If you find yourself halfway through the chips or ice cream, adn you realize that you shoudl stop now... just stop.. you don't have to "wait and do better tomorrow"...every little bit counts.

:bighug: dealing with teh medical stuff!

JayEll
07-24-2008, 08:14 AM
Don't let the drs. scare you. Sometimes they don't know what it is or what's causing it, even after all the tests. That doesn't mean you're doomed!

A good food program can help you a lot! I'm so glad to hear you're going to get back on track! Please do. :yes:

Were you exercising before your swelling and pain problems? Were your shoes new, or really old and not too supportive? Just some thoughts.

Hang in there... Let us know how things are going...

:hug:
Jay

bargoo
07-24-2008, 11:17 AM
Sorry you are having to go through this worrisome time. I know it would drive me straight to the ice cream freezer, but we both know it will not help. Being in the best physical condition will be the best thing you can do right now, I am praying that this is nothing serious and something that can be easily treated.

Tomato
07-24-2008, 11:26 AM
Hi Caroline,
Don't give in to the temptations and stick to healthy heating. I hope the health issue was a false alarm but no matter off, you are always better off when eating clean versus junk. Hang in there, baby!

Sweetcaroline
07-24-2008, 07:28 PM
My goodness, thank you so much for your kindness and support... :angel: It means the world to me right now... I haven't shared any of this with my family yet... I've just remain out of sight. (location allows this)... and some dysfunctionality.. LOL... but I get on here and share parts of my life and sometimes forget the potential outreach this forum allows us... I am so grateful for that...

Since I joined this forum in March, I've felt a connection here like no other.
Yes, the next couple of weeks are going to be tough, but I want to make good decisions and have clear communication with the doctors, and I can't do that filled with carbs and sugar... I am so much clearer off 'whites'...
Anyway, I wanted to say Thank you and please stay tuned with me...:hug:

Making my Fat Smashing shopping list right now..... :write:....might be back with questions..

EZMONEY
07-24-2008, 09:16 PM
:club: helping you to SMASH FAT kiddo....:frypan:

Sweetcaroline
07-25-2008, 07:48 PM
:club: helping you to SMASH FAT kiddo....:frypan:

Oh... and I'll take any extra help I can get... Actually was a very good day for smashing... As of 6:50pm I'm OP down to the crumb...

Sweetcaroline
08-08-2008, 09:13 PM
PITY PARY WARNING... <snif>

OK so after 3 weeks of waiting and wondering how my life will be impacted by a diagnosis... I've been anxious and trying not to 'worry' and staying busy. Trying not to 'medicate' with food... (I did well with that)

I went back to the rheumatologist today, all the blood work was back and the Dr. confirmed I have mixed connective tissue disease... and what a big blob, dense and vague disease it is... all the blood work and symptoms confirm lupus, and even more specific blood tests suggest scleroderma, and sjogrens sydrome..
I was in shock because lately I've been feeling a lot better. She explained that a few weeks ago I was having a 'flare'... that's why I was so sick. She said the fact that I was really bad a few weeks ago and now feeling pretty good just locked up the diagnosis for her........ geez, I thought feeling pretty better was a good thing.... I left the office with a prescription for Plaquinil (yippee another med to pay cash for...) another lab slip, list of appointments for physical therapy, pulmonary function tests, a CT of chest, echocardiogram and several 'long' bone xrays... she wants 'baselines' of lungs, heart etc, apparently these autoimmune disease 'could' affect most any body system, especially lungs, kidneys etc... she explained she and I would be seeing a lot of each other for awhile... oh boy... (I knew I should have pick a cute male doctor... LOL)
So this is just a little scary... That was quite the half hour of life changing information then I was sent on my way....
All I want to do is EAT... EAT.... EAT... except I'm not hungry.. weird, not hungry, but still think 'food' is going to help, haven't eaten much at all today... I'm going to roll with that for awhile... So my plan after the shock wears off, I'll call my sister and chat...
Thanks for listening...

JulieJ08
08-08-2008, 10:20 PM
Sounds like you have a good doctor. Getting yourself back on track is just what your body needs.

get fit in ky
08-08-2008, 10:41 PM
Oh Caroline:

I wish I could say I don't know how you feel, but I do.

I was 38 years old and couldn't stand up when I got out of bed in the morning. My fingers were so swollen I couldn't bend those little fat sausages! I'd limp to the shower and after awhile be able to straighten up. I went to work every day in pain but other than the limp, no one could tell I was sick (rheumatologic diseases are sometimes invisible). Not that I was looking for sympathy, but it sure put me in a bad mood (and I'm not a moody person). At the time, I weighed about 160 (I'm 5'6"). I had just really gotten into the swing of taking care of my body with proper diet and good exercise habits. My husband thought my symptoms were because I had been doing lots of cardio and had just started weight lifting regularly. But then I found out that I have rheumatoid arthritis.

Jump ahead 14 years. I've been on steroids, plaquenil, sulfasalazine, methotrexate (oral and injected), numerous NSAIDs, etc. I have flares where exercise seems impossible, but, for the most part, I find ways to sneak something in. I didn't gain any weight despite three years of daily steroids, and am now down to just a weekly MTX injection. I hadn't had a flare for several years until just a few months ago, requiring a couple weeks of steroids. I'm soon to be 52 and have lost 13 pounds in the last year. I've dropped 2 pants sizes in the same time. And I'm still plugging along (tortoise, not hare) as weight loss is the only thing I have left to help my disease. The less weight, the less stress on the joints.

The way I see it, keeping myself in the best shape possible is the only thing I have control over. It will allow me to handle the bad times when they come. PM me if you need to talk or vent.

chick_in_the_hat
08-09-2008, 11:49 AM
Oh Caroline - I can't say I know how you feel, but :hug::hug::hug::hug: anyway. Take care of yourself.

EZMONEY
08-09-2008, 09:18 PM
:hug: SWEET-C :hug:

I can't tell you how sorry I am for your pain and struggles right now. I, as I mentioned before, am a little aware of what you are going through because of my sister.
This is not a pity party dear...it's the real deal....you have every right to vent/cry/complain....whatever you need to do!

I am so proud of you for your efforts to make the best of this situation!

We are here for you :hug: