07-01-2008, 10:32 AM
Hi. I've been here before, but it's been a while. I "tried" to come back a few months ago, but for whatever reason it didn't "stick" and I slacked off again. But now I am back...again. And ready to start over....again. I do see some familar names/faces, but I am not sure if anyone remembers me. I'm Christy. I'm 31, from OK. Around this time last year, I started posting here. I was counting calories, and using WATP and lost 21 lbs in about 2 months. I was sooooo excited! I had found something that worked for me, and as long as I could fit things into my calorie plan, I could have it, so I didn't feel deprived. In fact, there were some days it was almost a struggle for me to get in all the calories for that day. The WATP helped me to not be self conscious about exercising, because it was in my own home, no one to point or stare. Like I said, I was on a roll and loved it. Then, I got bronchitis. Just sitting still would send me into coughing fits....forget about doing any exercise! It took me more than a month to get well, and in that month, I fell off the calorie counting wagon as well as the exercise wagon. I can't tell you why I didn't get back up and start again after I was well. I just didn't do it. And now, over time those 21 lbs I lost have almost all come back to find me. I've been unhappy with it for a while now, but for whatever reason, wasn't unhappy enough to actually hold myself accountable for it. But now I'm to a point where I am done feeling so unhappy with myself. Time to get going again. I am probably picking the worst possible time to start again. Not that there is ever a bad time to start trying to get healthier, but I know I will have BIG roadblocks in my way. My hubby is a member of the OK National Guard, and he will be leaving next month for deployment training and then by sometime in October he will be in Iraq or Kuwait. In some ways, his being gone will make it a little easier on me. I can throw out the stuff that he can eat that I can't. I won't need to worry about whether my eating plan is something he likes. But I know the sheer nature of what he's doing will make me worry and stress. Like a lot of women, I tend to turn to food when I am stressed. I also know there will be at least a couple of "come home safely" receptions/dinners for him between now and then that I will have to deal with. But his being gone is also going to be a motivation to me. First of all, hubby has a little bit of a spare tire right now. I know the work he will doing coupled with the great gyms that he will have access to will have him coming back in so much better shape. I don't want to be the "fat wife of a hot, cut soldier" when he comes home. (Vanity? Yes, I admit it.) But the big reason I want to do this while he is gone is so that we can hopefully have a baby once he comes home. We've been trying for the last 6 months, but so far no luck. I can't help but wonder if my being so out of shape isn't at least partly to blame. I also want for him to be able to come home, be dismissed from formation and be able to pick me up in one of those sweep you off your feet hugs. So, that's my story. I know what works for me and I'm going to go back to it. But I know I need support. So y'all please, help keep me on track and motivated. Thanks!