Summer's here! The Summer Palace is ready for us, all surfaces shining, cozy nooks are ready if you need to curl up and the kettle is always on. The gardens are glorious, the pool (and towel boys) at the ready and soft breezes blow on the Patio of Peace and Contentment. Let's move in!
Come on in and post your goals and how you intend to get there.
06-30-2008, 09:08 AM
Ah, the Summer Palace is just what I needed, especially the Patio. Thank you Arabella for getting the doors opened. :)
Arabella, you were not sticking your nose into anything or overstepping any boundaries. I've been trying to ignore the baking kick as tied to weight gain, but it is so apparent. It is the perfect example of me letting something slide out of balance in my life. I went far beyond what was reasonable, and I was eating considerably more of that sort of food than normal. I've already put the starter away, and my goal is to keep my new passion limited to once a week. I think I was trying to convince myself that with all my new activity I could sneak in more goodies than normal. Well, I probably could, but instead of sneaking, I basically backed up the entire truck to the kitchen door!
Now, we have a freshly strewn path of rose petals leading us to where, exactly? Time for me to set a plan for myself, but first I should reflect on what worked toward solstice. The most successful portion of the last challenge for me was that I am now taking a multi-vitamin every day! I've also incorporated movement into my weekly schedule on a regular basis. The gym has been a 3 time a week affair for an entire month now. It is so nice to have some success to build on. :D
A Run for the Roses suggests a sort of finish line, and I'm remembering Arabella talking about 21-day challenges. Seems short, sweet, to the point, but not a sprint. Where would I like to see myself in another 3 weeks, and how to I plan to get there? To reach my yearly goal, I need to be losing just over 1.5 lbs. a week now, so I'll set a physical goal of 5 lbs. As for my plan, a lot of it may sound familiar, but there are some items that will always bear repeating.
Journal--both food and exercise.
Eat regularly and mindfully throughout the day.
Do not go hungry during the day.
Do not eat in the late evening more than one time a week.
Fiber is a must.
Movement is mandatory--3 days a week at gym, a walk or some other movement the other days.
5k steps a day minimum on workout days.
Keep positive talk going. Squelch the negative immediately.
Engage my family in success--their own as well as mine.
Ok, that is definitely enough for now. The list feels balanced and doable. I'm ready to run!
06-30-2008, 12:29 PM
Yup, it's the dreaded End of Month workathon. I'll be back to post my goals and stipulations later.
Andria, I'm so glad I didn't offend you! I'm a bossy big-sister type, in case you hadn't noticed. I just know what bread does to me and I think it's pretty common with those of us who struggle with our weight. I don't think it's an accident that WW doesn't include bread in their CORE program. Sadly.
I bet your pound uppages dissolve into the ether in no time!
06-30-2008, 02:58 PM
andria- i love the title you came up with for this challenge! :)
arabella-thanks for starting the new thread! the description of the summer palace is so calming and soothing.
i tried to come up with a weight goal for last time, and know that doesn't really work for me, since my body is just so unpredictable. i will make this set of goals a plan for success.
-eat daintily and healthfully
-write in food journal
and listen to music often, and remember to have some fun!
i weighed in this morning, and have finally dropped some weight--5 lbs. i have been plateauing FOREVER, so it was nice to finally see a positve result. during plateau, i kept at same weight, went up 1 or 2 lbs., then down 1 or 2etc, over a long period of time. this was really a miserably long one, but i have to remember that eventually my hard work pays off, so i must keep going--- NO MATTER WHAT! my royal run for the roses begins now. happy monday to one and all.
07-01-2008, 08:07 AM
I'm here! I'm here! But I have to go to work. It's always something, isn't it? I will be following the rose petals this afternoon... can't wait to get all caught up again. See you later! :wave:
07-01-2008, 02:49 PM
It felt so odd sleeping until 6 this morning. Odd, but good! :D
We were up late celebrating with some other of DHs no-longer-intern buddies, so I was a bit sluggish and slow to get moving this morning. I did get out and do a walk, though. Journaling both food and exercise is going well so far. I'm back to using one of my favorite programs. I love how it learns my metabolism and adjusts my caloric intake accordingly to help me reach my diet goals. It also won't let me set any ridiculous weight loss goals, which kind of amuses me. And right now, I could not tell you why it is I stopped using it on a daily basis. I'm guessing it had a lot to do with life taking over. After three weeks though, it should be a pretty good habit once again.
If you all can't tell, I'm back to being in a good place and feeling like I'm moving in the right direction!
Kat, looking forward to the update! Are you remembering to take time for yourself yet?
wsw, I love your goals, but I especially love that your persistence has paid off! Congratulations! :bravo:
Arabella, hope your End of Month wraps up soon. I love reading your goals. :)
Well, I'd better get out of here. There are at least two business type phone calls I need to make today, but I'm thinking lunch sounds like a good plan first. It was so hot and humid out this morning, even with a good cloud cover, that I'm kind of wiped out. Dealing with bureaucracy isn't at the top of my list when blood sugar is low.
07-02-2008, 08:48 AM
Wow, the Summer Palace can still be a bit hard to find. We actually slipped to page two.
I don't have much to report yet, but I did have a good day of journaling yesterday. Everything that passed these lips was written down. I swear my husby tried to throw me a serious curveball by taking me out to an Asian buffet. Journaling does make you think twice about what you choose, though. Not only do you have to think about quality vs. quantity, but you have to consider whether it will be worth trying to figure out how to log it! :lol:
Got to run for now. :)
07-02-2008, 08:59 AM
By this much210.6. Can't move ticker until I'm under 210.5 but still... progress. And this way, I'll get to count the pound for this challenge.
I also measured myself yesterday and found that I'm between a size 16 and 18. In the winter I was between an 18 and a 20. So... progress.
This morning I tried on a lovely silky, soft dusky rose push-up bra that I've never been able to wear. Wimmens, I am wearing it! :o
K, some daily goals:
Weigh in daily and report on daily basis.
10k steps a day.
3L water a day.
Yoga, tai chi or qi qong daily.
Next to no flour and sugar.
One spurt of maximum energy output daily.
There are other things I'm trying to do on a daily basis, like read a poem a day, do one neglected task a day. But for the purposes of this challenge, I'll consider a day with these components a success. I do also lift weights 2-3 times a week and run 3 days a week.
WSW :balloons: FIVE WHOLE POUNDS!!! Huzzah, huzzah! That's what they call "The Whoosh" -- now may the whoosh fairy linger 'round the palace. :chin: Actually, I'm sure we've got a spare turret if she'd care to take up residence.
Kat, nice to see you dashing through the Palace. Hope you get a chance to come in and catch up soon!
Andria, "slept in until 6 o'clock" :rolleyes: I actually slept until 7 one day on the weekend. Did feel good. I feel a bit wimpy and a bit cheated to have gone to bed at our usual time last night and missed the fireworks (Canada Day yesterday). But I overdid it a bit yesterday and was tired. Still, I found it made me a little cranky... Well, I never said I was reasonable.
Kaylets, what's doin'?
Anagram, did you get back from your weekend trip?
K, :queen:lies, let's hit it! :cb: :cb:
07-02-2008, 12:42 PM
arabella-congrats on being under ticker, and going down in sizes!! woo-hoo! --and belated, happy canada day! i sure do hope that whoosh fairy sticks around the palace.
andria-journaling really does help, doesn't it. i still hate it :) but it definitely makes a difference. it was aggravating me yesterday, in fact, but i was glad i stuck with it. buffets are hard for me. kudos to you for sticking to your plan! glad you enjoyed being able to sleep in yesterday.
thanks for the support, and encouragement.
hi kat-glad you're here!
hi ceara, anagram, kaylets, and to all our lovely palace dwellers!
am hanging in there and sticking to my plan. i am sleepy though-not much rest last night and have lots to get done today, even though not going at full throttle. a queen's gotta do what a queen's gotta do, though, so i will just have to make the best of it. well, hope everyone has a good day. take care, all.
07-02-2008, 09:13 PM
WSW!!! Congrats and congrats again for being so patient and persistent and BEATING THAT PLATEAU!! 5 lbs is glorious! GOOD FOR YOU!!
WoodNymph! Dropping a size is so exciting too! GOOD FOR YOU!
Anagram.... Royals Running for the Roses is so original and SO Perfect!
Yes, I love it!
Silver! Good for you deciding to bake just once a week.... I too was looking just this morning at a rice pudding recipe.... It was in a list of "low cost recipes".....Well, the ingredients weren't costly but you either stirred on the stove for nearly 30 minutes or baked in the over for 40 minutes..... And then, we all know 1/2 a cup is NOT what we are going to have....
So....unless its something I can share with the neighbors, batches of rice pudding will have to wait......
AND YES, GOOD FOR ME.... I have parked the car further away for 3 days now and today..... DRUM ROLL PLEASE..... climbed 5 flights of stairs....
Very slowly....very carefully....BUT.... I DID IT!.....
And believe it or not, I am feeling that little zing you feel when you are ....what is it called...hmmm, MOVING..... Gee whiz... For me, its either all or nothing and pretty much for the past 2 years, its been nothing....
But thats ok, because I was quickly rewarded.....The stair climb uplifted my mood immediatley. I also am realizing when I went to the vending machine, it was so, so easy to pick the wheat blend stix instead of the licorice....
Oh, and by the way, I tasted an amazing Carrot Curry soup..... which actually made me wistful for my old mantra of trying 3 new things a week.....
I nearly forgot....
Here's my goals:
Keep walking, more today than yesterday.
Climb more stairs than yesterday.
Research and try riding a real bicycle to see if the expense would be worth it.
Does anyone know if you can ride a bike .... 25 miles or so... with achey knees...
will it improve or hurt them?
Okay my friends... I am excited. I am so, so glad to be back in the mind set.................Glad you're here too@
07-03-2008, 07:02 AM
I so thought I'd have a loss today. I was an :angel: yesterday -- food was perfect and I went out for a walk before bed to complete my steppage. Tomorrow's official WI. I'll just keep it up and maybe...
I've got something wrong with my knee, one of those glitchy little things that seems like something got out of place so I don't know about running or walking. I'm trying to get brave enough to take my bike out on the road. I used to bike a lot but now that I haven't been the traffic makes me timid.
Kaylets, nice to see your enthusiasm back in the Palace! That "moving" stuff is amazing, isn't it? I know when I'm feeling blah, depressed, stressed out, sad -- pretty much whatever -- if I just get up and do something I feel so much better. Fatigue is the only tricky thing -- trying to make myself rest when that's the issue.
Doctors often recommend cycling for people with bad knees because it strengthens the muscles around the knees to support them and isn't weight-bearing. I'd try a little ride and see how it felt.
WSW, not sleeping well makes things so difficult! I've said it before and I'll say it again, I don't think I'd be overweight right now if it wasn't for fatigue. When I feel rested I'm impervious to the lure of the cupboards. But if I'm tired... well, that's a whole other story. It's a little hard to go to sleep early enough these days when it's still light. :rolleyes:
Some day, I'm going to be able to stay up after dark. Possibly even go out :faint: If I could do it, I think I'd adopt the Mediterranean lifestyle: long, lovely evenings, early mornings and a siesta in the afternoon. I love being up early and late too, so that would be about perfect. :)
Andria, we simulposted yesterday. Asian buffet sounds awfully good and less dangerous than some other kinds. I keep reading that journaling is the biggest predictor of successful weight loss. There, I said it -- now, must do it. I resist it like a bad kid but when I'm not journaling I occasionally think back on what I've eaten in a day and realize that if I'd been journaling I probably would have eaten significantly less.
It's supposed to be hot today and I'm getting DGS, his cousin and taking them to the beach with my sister. So there's my fun for the day.
Let's make this a good one, goilies!
07-03-2008, 04:07 PM
hi kaylets. so nice to see you! thanks for that encouragement! wow---all the exercising you have done is impressive, i say.
arabella-thinking good thoughts for your official wi tomorrow.all your hard work will pay off!! i too would have been good at the mediterranean lifestyle. i used to love late nights in the past. physically, can't do them anymore, but definitely enjoyed them while i could.
and hello to all our lovely royals, one and all!
didn't sleep well again last night, which wasn't surprising, since my stress level is at maximum warp. water was coming up through my carpet last night in my living room near my bookcases. i called the condo. management company, and the plumber called me back. he said from what i described it wasn't a main pipe, but was probably from an outside drainage pipe, which would be considered community and so not my financial responisbility, but of course no way to know for certain until he sees it. he sounded nice on the phone, and told me to keep towels on the spot, and he would come out thurs. between 12-2pm, unless it got worse and if so to just call him back last night. it didn't get much worse, and towels worked fine, so i thought, it will be o.k. he also told me to take all the books out of the bookcases, so he can move the cases and lift up the carpet when he arrives.
i did take all my books off the 2 bookcases. at 2:30pm today, he still wasn't here, so i called. granted between 12-2pm is a window, but geez louise. anyhoo, when i called him 30 minutes ago, he said yeah, we've been real busy and are running late, oh, and i lost your number. he said he has a truck in my area, though, and will call me right back and let me know when they can be here. ok, haven't heard back from him for 35minutes now,and he even repeated my number back to me. this is soooo not how i wanted to spend my day.
i am so stressed about finances, which is on-going, and i've got to tell you this is not helping my stress level one little bit. plus my living room couches are filled with my books. the good news, however, is that i dusted my bookcases thoroughly and they are lovely and clean. alright---deep breath. once more into the fray--i will try calling back the plumber to see if i can get any e.t.a.
wish me luck, royals. i know---i know---what made think a workman would actually show up when he said he would. i must have been delirious from lack of sleep.
well, take care, all. i sure hope your day is going better than mine! :)
07-03-2008, 11:46 PM
I just sat here for the past hour, getting all caught up, and in the click of a key, *POOF* gone!
Kind of how the rest of my day has gone.
I can't re-create all that I wrote. You know, it's probably better it was poofed away... it was really kind of a downer post. Maybe I just needed to get things off my chest and move on. :yes: That's the ticket!
I feel better already!
Tomorrow IS another day. So...
Happy Canada Day, Arabella and Ceara! Happy Fourth of July, Anagram, Andria, Kaylets, wsw! ( I wish we had the appropriate smilies for the occasions!) Wishing all :queen:s (self included) a wonderful weekend!
07-04-2008, 12:55 AM
Just dropping in really fast, letting you all know things are going well for this royal. :)
DHs vacation started today, so I might be a little scarce around the Summer Palace the next ten days. Fortunately, he is still being supportive of me and my weight loss efforts, so there shouldn't be a problem getting in exercise or journaling. In fact, he promised to start exercising with me regularly as soon as his intern year finished, and we talked about getting that going last night.
I decided to shake things up a little bit today. Kaylets had mentioned bicycling, and since it looked like rain outside this morning, I decided to hit the recumbent bike and the mini-trampoline instead of walking. I have to keep the bike turned down to really low resistance, but turning it down also makes it so I can go a lot longer. Whatever works, right? Between the two, I put in 30 minutes of work, and it was fun doing something different. :)
wsw, You definitely don't need anything added to your stress load. Hope the water problem is solved quickly and on someone else's dime. Still, have to say I was impressed with all the work it must have taken to unload those bookshelves!
Arabella, hope your knee gets feeling better, and fast.
I've read a lot of similar sounding facts about journaling. I even know I lose more when I actually do it. My biggest worry is that I end up getting all obsessive about it, and the act of journaling actually becomes a sort of compulsion instead of a healthy tool to use along the way. Yet another thing in my life that must be brought into balance. I will be one amazing juggler by the time I get this all sorted out. :dizzy:
Kaylets, Wahoo for movement! Also, the Curry Carrot soup sounds divine. I love curry!
As far as cycling and unhappy knees go, I'd probably take the lead my post-surgery rehab folks did with me--they started me out slowly, with very little tension, on an exercise bike. It isn't the same as being out there, I know, but it is controlled and will allow you to build up. 25 miles isn't just whistling Dixie, even on a bike. But on the same bicycle front, there are some really cute bikes out there that aren't all that expensive. We just picked up a really cute Cruiser style one for my eldest for under $100. She is using it to get back and forth to her new job, plus she is already seeing weight loss benefits. Oh, and she doesn't have to fork out gas money for mom to drive her back and forth. :lol:
Ok, time for me to get outta here. This post has taken about 4.5 hours to finish because I was called away a couple of times. Ack!
Happy 4th of July tomorrow for those of us who observe it. :)
07-04-2008, 06:27 AM
What a lovely, enthusiastic Summer Palace! So inspiring to read all the goals and accomplishments. Most particularly, kudoes to wsw for her Whoosh! Now I know what I need. A Whoosh!
Vacation sounds like a great time to relax, andria - you must all be feeling a sense of relief that intern year is over.
How did you and DGS enjoy the beach, arabella? Your fatigue and not-being-able-to-stay-up-late battles echo mine. Of course, here I am up too early, actually not able to fall back to sleep since 1:30. But I have at least done bills and checkbook, etc.
But I need my rest. Had a nice weekend away and P. Twelve has been with me the last several days. Have been doing way too much (even for her, I think). But I get her to myself only a few days a year and we have SUCH a delightful time. Tomorrow (oops, that's later today) the rest of her family come. Tomorrow, Mom and Dad are leaving (supposedly overnight) so I can have a mini Mimicamp for the younger one. Later tomorrow DS and DDIL arrive. Sunday we all head to surprise party DBIL. I'm to arrive early to be sub-hostess until sister gets there with the honoree. Twelve and I made dream mints (definitely not non-caloric) for the party. After the after party, I'll be alone again.
Then I have TWO FULL DAYS to finish getting ready for my Quebec trip. I'm afraid my goals for the new challenge will involve just trying not to gain with all these activities.
Two good points - over the weekend away, I did go to the fitness room once and hit the treadmill for a good walk and yesterday (at her request) Twelve and I did a nice long (er than I'd have done alone) walk.
Of course my fridge is once again way too full of food.
And now I MUST try for just a little sleep - an hour would be nice. Good thing Twelve and I got so much in the last few so I can take it more leisurely today. Well until food making time, etc. I will NOT be going to the Fireworks with them tonight. Watching those on tv will suit me fine.
I will try to check in in the next couple of days but then will be gone from the 9th to the 19th or thereabouts.
None of the above, btw, are why I'm awake. I'm just worried about DD as she seems to me to be very depressed lately. She's been stressed for ages now but it seems to have downgraded. Am semi-rehearsing a talk w/DSIL if she's not a bit perkier/sociable. And a reminder to DD that I am not the enemy. Twelve and I talked briefly about it (confirming my feeling) and she says the sadness started about the time of the two recent medical procedures. Reason enough, I guess, but I think it may need addressing.
Nap, I must.
07-04-2008, 09:51 AM
Oh, so much to say and so little time -- I've got to run out to do the shopping and hit WW for WI -- I actually woke up today 2 whole pounds down.
I am thinking so many things at all of you -- will come back later to post. :hug:
07-04-2008, 01:42 PM
209.4. Finally, finally into the next decade and got to move ticker. :) The only thing different has been salads instead of soup for lunch. I don't think that there'd be any significant calorie difference but... maybe the magic of fresh veggies?
AND I'm getting smart -- today, instead of making a little jar of salad dressing, I made a big bottle-full of ginger-sesame that should last the week. I've got a big container of organic mixed greens and I'm going to chop beaucoup de veggies to throw in, too. :broc: :carrot: and all their colorful friends: red, orange and yellow peppers, purple cabbage, red onion, grape tomatoes, radishes... So then, the rest of the week, I'll be able to just scoop out ready-made salad and dress it.
Gosh, it would be swell if salads for lunch was what made the difference...
Kat, oh I HATE losing posts! And it just seems to happen infrequently enough that I don't bother writing them in something else first. I have occasionally when I've lost one hit the back button and found them intact, though. It's worth a shot -- such a feeling of relief to think you've lost one and then see it there.
:hug: So what's the matter, Sweetie? Hope it was just a bad day and today makes up for it.
WSW, I have to say you made me :lol: with your description of dealing with the plumber. Too hilarious, too true. :rolleyes: I was glad to hear that it didn't sound like you'd be re$pon$ible for it, anyway. Hope that mess is cleared away, too.
As always, you handled things with very royal aplomb. :encore: Roses for you!
Andria, glad to hear things are going well. Brave of you to put away the starter -- so hard to do things like that. And it's funny that you described baking as your new passion -- next time maybe you'll pick something less hazardous. Skydiving, rock climbing... :chin:
I remember a guy here that started a fabulous bakery. Slim and handsome when he started but then got heavier and heavier and ... HEY!!! So did I :dz:
He made the best cheesecake, croissants, etc...
I don't think you need to worry about getting obsessive with journaling -- I mean, how much can you journal, anyway?
Anagram, it never ceases to amaze me how much energy some of the kids put out and how much difference there can be from one to another. And they often seem to eat more or less the same amount. :chin: I don't understand it. I'm always frazzled by the time DGS leaves and always feel like there should be some better way to handle it so I'm not.
Sorry about your worries about DD! :hug: I think that blaming other people and being depressed go hand-in-hand. I hope she can learn a more positive way to look at things.
Kaylets, I used to make a pureed carrot curry soup... it WAS good. Must think about making it again some time.
:queen: Ceara, beith thou about?
Well. I want to get some pre-weekend house-cleaning done and have to run out for a few errands, maybe do some gardening. Have a fantastic weekend, :queen:lies!
07-05-2008, 10:02 AM
So far today, so good.... but I've only been awake about 2hrs and have only had coffee to drink.....
Well, there's got to be a positive side somewhere!
Last night, went to a BBQ with just a handfull of coworkers....all women. And ate things I havent eaten in years.... Onion dip.... crazy. I ate a few pretzels w the dip, ate a few more and then midway said "This is nuts".....
But, thats over. In fact, its a funny feeling not be stressing about it.
WSW.... did the plumber ever show???? I can relate to wondering how much the repairs will cost. One time, we had toliet plumbing issues and whent he plmber told us it was fixed for $75.00 I nearly kissed him.
He must have thought I was crazy as he had only been in the house less than 5 minutes but it in my mind $75 surely beat having to get a backhoe in to find a broken sewer pipe.
I'm hoping you're books are back on the bookshelves and the towels are off the floor. And that the repair cost is not on you or at least minimal.
Anagram.... I am so jealous of your trip to Quebec. I have always dreamed.....
Not this year though.... have big fun! can't wait to hear how things went once you've come home.....
Silver.... do you mind sharing the name of the Cruiser? We've had recommended to look at hybrids ( as they are lighter) and Touring bikes.....
In our area, we will have drive to ride ( at least at the beginning) so it means lifting the bikes so weight is a consideration.
Also, the prices around here are running at least $200 +
WoodNymph.... Thanks for the info about biking and knees..... Congrats, congrats congrats on getting into the next decade! GOOD FOR YOU!
Kat, I hate it when I've thoughtfully poured out my heart and the internet does a complete EDIT..... For me, I know its a big "just put on your big girl pants" but then again, sometimes we all need a good vent!!!
Try again, don't forget, this is the place to do it!
Ok... time to start a load of laundry and take advantage of the sun to get things dried!
Let's do this!
07-05-2008, 01:00 PM
Happy Saturday, all!
I've got to say I'm in a weird place lately... not really sure why. Just generally depressed, which translates into not really giving a hoot about healthy choices. I do make them, sometimes, but not with the enthusiasm I had before. Exercise has been dwindling steadily. I want to do well. I like how I feel when I'm doing well. I feel like I'm punishing myself for something, but I'm not sure what. I feel guilty all the time for I don't know what. (not succeeding?) I don't know what will make me happy, well, yes I think I do. Magically losing all this weight overnight would do it. It's like everything centers around the weight issue. Everything. My mother sent me a birthday card... supposed to be funny... there was a picture of three ladies on the cover, all in bathing suits, one of them fat. My first thought was, "Oh, sure... I'm the fat one, thanks, Mom!" Only thing is, I know that's why she picked out the card. (passive/aggressive much?) Yesterday I was at a party with Mom, my sister and her family. There was a couple there, both quite overweight, having a good time, eating what they wanted and just enjoying themselves. Every raised eyebrow and snide comment from my mother felt like it was aimed squarely at me. I wanted to say, "well, proportionately, their eating probably stacks right up next to your drinking!" but I didn't. ;)
I'm in a rut and I know it. I want to bust out of it, but I'm don't know how. Well, that's not true. I DO know how. I just need to do something, anything other than nothing, and that's a start.
I'm sorry to unburden here, but I feel better having done so. (Don't you wish my post got eaten again?)
I'm going to pull myself together now and go outside to do some weeding. Perhaps I can weed some desolate thoughts from my brain while I'm at it. I promise to return with a sunnier outlook!
Have a good day, :queen:s!
07-05-2008, 03:45 PM
Kat, I wish you were close enough to receive this in person... :hug: You really sound like you could use one right now.
Hon, it sounds like you are just cycling right now. You did so very well on the last challenge, but it is difficult to keep going at that amazing level and maintain what looks to us like a "real" life. I don't know about you for sure, but it sounds like you are going through what happens to me on a regular enough basis that I'm beginning to recognize the signs. First you get moving on a plan, change, shift, or whatever, and it feels really good. You and your body both respond positively, even though it is hard, because you know you are doing something terrific for yourself. The terrific overrides the hard.
The second stage is more work. You have already seen the ball begin rolling, so it doesn't feel quite so much like work, but it also isn't as easy as it was those first few weeks. Sometimes you watch a co-worker or friend just eating along with their fast food garbage, and you wish it were that easy for you.
The next stage sneaks in horribly and cruelly--you just don't see it coming. For whatever reason, it usually starts for me with taking one bite of something I haven't even desired the previous weeks. (Is any of this sounding familiar? I hope it isn't just me.) Sometimes it is a party or a stray comment that sets me off. I'll be looking over party foods, searching for the best choices, and someone will comment on how they eat what they want and then just exercise more later on. This person should normally be blown off because the most they have ever had to lose in their life has been 2.3 pounds, but the words stick. And they hurt.
The final stage before the upswing begins is usually some sort of personal flogging that is carried out with poor food choices and lack of exercise--yeah, those things we know make us feel good. Every thin person, every person who can eat whatever they want and not gain weight, and every overweight person that happens to be losing more weight than I am right now turn into the enemy overnight. I usually find myself looking up hokey weight loss pill or patch ads about this time in the cycle. I want the miracle, and I want it now! All I have is sadness, depression, and my old fat fortress to retreat into once again.
Okay, that is the cycle--at least it is for me. The one thing I am learning here, especially as I learn to treat myself better, is that the amount of time I spend at the bottom of this cycle fully depends on me. I'm guessing the same goes for you, Kat. Be sad for a few days. Mourn if you really need to. Then I'd suggest you choose to find whatever it is that spurs you back toward the top of this cycle. Sometimes I have to start it out angry; sometimes happiness is the best route. I never know what the action is going to be ahead of time, but as I recognize that this is something inside my own head and not something being done to me, I can usually make myself move on.
I've been at the bottom of my cycle a few times this year already, and you've been one of the amazing people to have helped pick me up, dust me off and get my feet back squarely on the rose petal pathway. Don't apologize for letting us know you are out there and need a little bit of help yourself. Just let us do it, okay?
07-05-2008, 03:58 PM
211.2 -- well, that's the expected Saturday morning bump-up. But I AM back to Day 1 again. I ended up resting longer than I should have yesterday afternoon and not getting enough time to get in all my steps. Hadn't done yoga or tai chi, no meditation or maximum effort... I ate well, though, so... no catastrophes either. But just thinking about the difference, there, I can see how the extra calories expended when I do it all would HAVE to eventually lead to weight loss.
Now this morning I've gotten in my woods woggle with an all-out sprint at the end of it and a full set of yoga. :D I had to push myself to do the sprint but it's kind of fun feeling FAST. I felt pretty slow for most of the run and also like it was difficult but when I saw my time it was as fast as I've ever done it. :cp: :cp:
I've found a couple of pairs of capris that I forgot about. One pair was so tight last year that I split the seam a little. They fit perfectly now -- there's that size down. And I've found a couple of summer shirts that fit now, as well. A size in a year isn't a lot of progress but... it IS progress. And encourages me to do better. :yes:
K, now it's several hours later. DH pulled me out to buy a table, chairs and umbrella for the deck. Can't complain, really, since I've only been angling for this purchase for several years ;) They're going to deliver it tomorrow or the next day. I'm officially excited.
Kaylets, parties can really do it for me, too. Sometimes I manage to go in with a plan; occasionally I can even manage to carry it out. But so often, I just feel like throwing caution to the wind. The worst ones for me are dinner parties with cocktail hours that go on for several. Complete with fattening apps. I'm not sure if I've ever come out of that one unscathed... Makes me think the next time we have people to dinner, cocktail hour will be an hour, then a nice healthy dinner followed by a variety of teas and coffee.
Kat :hug: Kaylets is right -- this is SO the place to express how you're feeling, ESPECIALLY when it's not all sunshine and rainbows. You know, we all have those times and we all really need the love and support of the Palace, which is always available.
That said, I wonder what's going on. Gotta be something to make you feel so discouraged, right after a triumphant challenge. At least, I'd think so if it were me. Internalized negativity from your mom? Resistance? My feeling is that whatever's going on, it's just a preparation for the next push. I bet your gardening will work its usual magic. That kind of labor is so great for working things through.
I've noticed a number of times over the years and my multitudinous gains and losses that I've often regained right after some recognition of a significant loss. For example, my husband telling me I look slim. Another time, when my son had a bike accident and a concussion, I remember being in emerg and looking at my leg and thinking "Hey, that looks like a normal person's leg!" and being kind of thrilled. But then it seems like I immediately started to gain again. I don't know what the deal is for me but I do see a pattern.
Well, I have blathered on, haven't I. Four o'clock here, must think what to do with the dwindling hours of the day here.
Love to all :queen:lies! Let's take this day and do our level best with it.
07-06-2008, 10:02 AM
Ugh. I am sick. Of course this has to happen during DHs vacation, and I have a job interview tomorrow morning as well. Please put good, get Andria healthy by tomorrow morning vibes out there for me!
07-06-2008, 01:01 PM
Sending healthy energy, Andria! :goodvibes: Rest and take care of your royal self today!
I'm on Day 2, have my steps and tai chi in already. Got the bathtub regrouted AGAIN, have a lovely new shower curtain and bath matt.
I'm hoping to get my corner of the palace spiffed up before I head to Colorado a week from Tuesday.
They've delivered the patio furniture and it just needs putting together. DH is painting in that corner of the deck right now. I said I'll put the furniture together but I think I'll go buy some annuals and see if it's done when I get home ;)
Speaking of which:
:queen: Anagram, have a fabulous time in Quebec (in case I don't see you before you go).
Kat, hope things have turned around for you today! I was thinking about your mom's comments about the heavy people. Man, I just hate that and I know all too well what you're talking about. My husband's whole family will often, in describing someone or talking about them, "Oh, he's a great big FAT man." or similar. I always feel like saying "Um... excuse me?" But I just sit there uncomfortably instead.
My MIL once said, talking about my sister, "Ellen's such a pretty girl -- nice and slim!" She always thought she was very tactful, too :rolleyes: No way was she making any kind of a comparison. :dz:
Again, I sat there quietly for a minute or two and then went upstairs to cry. I'm sure she thought, on some level, that comments like that would encourage me to lose weight. Funny how it doesn't seem to work like that :chin:
That was around the time of our wedding. And I have to give DH credit -- I was probably at my heaviest then. To be honest, I don't think I stepped near a scale so probably well above my highest recorded weight.
K, I guess I'll go see about getting some annuals. May Peace and Contentment reign! :love:
07-06-2008, 01:03 PM
Oh my gosh! I must say, seeing the butterfly closer to the end than the start is thrilling! Not much closer, granted, but definitely closer.
07-06-2008, 01:37 PM
...to be able to count upon the love and support that is here. I was just pondering the fact that I really don't have anyone (in person) to share these thoughts with that would; a. listen, b. understand, c. comfort. Thank you so much for all of the above! Andria, you have an uncanny ability to put into words exactly how I think/feel/am! Were we seperated at birth? :?:
Arabella, I know very well that cycle of success! then the deconstruction thereof. (I had to smile at the image of you sitting in the ER, admiring your 'normal person's leg.' Sounds exactly like something I'd do!)
I realize that this whole process is cyclical... speaking of which, (lightbulb moment!) I guarantee that my period will arrive next week. I don't know why this is always such a surprise to me. Didn't I just go through this last month? And the month before? I guess because I was never really bothered by PMS when I was younger. Now that those little hormones are hanging on for dear life as they dwindle away, they are making their presence known. BIG TIME!
Another light bulb just turned on... I was just thinking that about a year or so ago, my periods had pretty much stopped. I thought, "Okay, I guess this is menopause," but never had any hot flashes or any of the other 'signs.' Now that I think of it, I was working those awful hours, going to school, helping to care for my father. Healthy eating and exercise were at the bottom of the priority list. I'm trying to remember when I started getting them regularly again... pretty sure it was after I started a more normal, less stressful routine of sleep/healthy choices/peaceful thinking. :chin: Interesting.
You know coming here is much better than therapy anyday! Cheaper too!
I just dug out this little daily planner/notebook I had bought earlier this year. Had put it away because it didn't start til July... so here we are. I'm going to write a bit each day, just to keep up with these cycles, hopefully I can plan for and head them off at the pass!
'nuff about me. Jeez, way to dominate the thread, kat!
Andria... :goodvibes:goodvibes:goodvibes:goodvibes:goodvibes :goodvibes:goodvibes comin' atcha! Good luck at your interview, I know that you will WOW them! What kind of position are you interviewing for?
Arabella... Isn't that the best feeling, shopping through your clothes that formerly did not fit ? Wonderful! Nice job on the woggle/sprint! That bump up will be gone tomorrow, I'm sure. Eye opening, isn't it, when you don't exercise... it does make a difference!
Kaylets! Mmmm, onion dip! Wow, that's something I haven't had in years either! I love your attitude of not stressing... just move forward! Onward, ever onward!
wsw, Yes, tell us: Did he ever show? Just what you need when you're already stressed out--more stress! Cleansing breaths do help. Sending :goodvibes:goodvibes:goodvibes your way too! PS, congrats on that awesome loss! Plateaus DO end, eventually! :cp:
Anagram...Wow, you have been one busy queen! Sounds like wonderful quality time with your princesses and family! I love that you managed to get your exercise in there too. :yay: Enjoy your time away, come back with wonderful stories about Quebec and how well you maintained! :yes:
ceara...Hey! What's doin'?
I think I'm caught up now. I think I need to state my goals for getting my feet back squarely on the rose petal pathway, as dear Andria put it so well.
We leave for Ireland on Aug 21. Six and a half weeks. Maybe I'll scatter some shamrocks in among the rose petals!
In the interest of full disclosure, I just had a rather demoralizing scale moment. ~Deep breath~ 271. I managed to put 7lbs back on during my funk. Some of that may just be fluff, but it sure sucks to see those numbers back up there. Gosh, it only it were as easy to take it off! Well, there's only one thing to do about that, right? Get back to work.
SO, Day 1. Here is my plan to get under 260 by va-kay:
Gonna do this is 3 day increments. Shooting for three excellent days in a row. Then I'll string 'em together to make 21. Tweaking, always tweaking!
Increase the DAILY movement of the bod. Minimum 30 min walk. Seek ways to sneak more motion in: taking the stairs, parking farther away, (which I really like, because there's ALWAYS a parking space out yonder!) practice balancing while I cook (stand on one foot, hold, switch--try it, it's fun!) Do squats or lunges instead of just bending down to pick something up. Ride my bike. Get to the gym! Take two Power classes a week. JUST DO IT!
Clean eating. Take advantage of the summertime bounty. Make a big salad at the beginning of the week to dip into all week long. And some delicious dressing. (I'm with you, Arabella! Howz about a recipe for your ginger sesame dressing? Sounds :T !) Cut back on carbs. Not eliminating, just being aware that every meal does not need bread, potatoes, rice, etc...
Water, water, water. And more water.
Daily journaling: thoughts/moods/events. Look for patterns, prepare for changes. Become more self aware.
Be kind to myself. Before rising in the morning, remind myself that I am good and deserving of the happiness that I seek. (seems kinda silly to put that down, but it does help!)
I guess that's it. I'm going to make a "Run for the Shamrocks" ticker for myself to keep track of this challenge, feel free to join me!
Wow, I've been here for about two hours now... time to get on with all of the above!
Have a wonderful day, my sweet :queen:s! Thank you again for being here and for caring. I hope I can always do the same for you!
07-06-2008, 01:56 PM
You popped in while I was droning on and on, Arabella, but I did have to comment... I honestly do not understand what motivates people to make their little comments, but they definitely DO think they are helping by saying such things... as if you would just say, "Oh! Yes! I should just get myself thin too! Then I'd be pretty!" After ruining my day and having a good cry over something similar, I've been known to go scarf a sleeve of cookies out of spite. Whom, exactly, am I spiting? No one but myself, of course. Only a fat person understands this.
Don't get me started!
BTW, I am thrilled for the downward movement of your butterfly! Seeing that really does make a difference, doesn't it?
07-07-2008, 06:45 AM
Silver, hope you are feeling better and am sending vibes that you can shine, shine, shine during your inteview....
Anagram... FUN being sent your way!
WoodNymph...New patio furniture in your palace! Yay!
Kat.... You're right.... I have found repeatedly although the "flow" is often absent, all the other 'symptons' still show up on time..... In addition, I too, am only about 20 minutes away from the usual familiy triggers setting me off too. Somehwere I read that within 2 hrs family members fall back into their "places" as children. I felt myself getting a little blue as my birthday approached too but luckily, I get kept forgetting it was coming!! Guess thats one advantage to being older.... I still work with people who take the whole week off to celebrate their birthdays.....
And you know, sometimes, we are just blue. Deep, indigo blue. Its not fun but it happens.
Listen, this too will pass. Sooner or later but it will.
You are loved.
Thought of the day:
"A rock pile ceases being a rock pile the moment a single man contemplates it,
bearing within him the image of a cathedral."
- Unknown Author
Question of the day:
Name a situtaion you made 'something out of nothing.'
PS.... DH and I bought mathcing "touring bikes"........
07-07-2008, 02:20 PM
210.8. Pretty much the same thing every time I have a loss - it seems to disappear for a couple days. I think I'm going to have to be extra careful to come out with a loss this week. A little carb control, I'm thinking :chin:
I'm :tired: today -- overdid it a bit yesterday and I feel like I'm fighting off something or other anyway. I'm not trying to do more than needs to be done today, get a little more rest and hopefully feel more energetic tomorrow.
Kat, hormones can make life difficult, can't they. I know I used to be just beside myself sometimes, either on the verge of tears 24/7 or ready to flee to a desert island. I think I'm (mostly) more even since I quit with all that business.
Kaylets, congrats on the new bikes! Hope you and hubby have fun! :bike2: :bike2:
Andria, hope you're feeling better today -- or that you could reschedule if not . :hug:
K, chitlins, let's make this a good one!
07-07-2008, 02:38 PM
Just noticing that I've been a member here for over 8 years. I joined at 231, went down to 194 or 195 once and then, somewhere along the way, let myself slide upwards of 256.
I guess nobody said it was easy.
07-07-2008, 09:35 PM
The interview went really well! Thank you all for your well wishes. :) Now, to just get me feeling well enough to do more than sit up long enough to be charming. Adrenalin got me through really well this morning, but I was so wiped out afterwards.
We are heading out of town tomorrow to go to Dallas for a few days. I plan on taking it super easy tonight so I can enjoy the trip. By the time we return, I should also be able to give a proper accounting of my weight loss for the last week. I was down 4 (gotta love the Whoosh faerie!), but I'm down another 4 since becoming ill. We all know that is due to dehydration, so I'm not even considering counting it. :lol:
Quick side note: Husby bought a Wii Fit today, and it looks like so much fun! I absolutely :val1: the Wii folks for making a video game that encourages activity and makes it such a blast you want to keep working out.
Ok, time to zoom out of here. I've evidently pushed my upright time beyond its max for the day. Blah.
Take care, everyone!
07-08-2008, 12:34 AM
Hello lovelies! What a difference a day (or two) makes! That, and the love and support of good friends! Today makes Day 2 of my mini challenge--two perfect days! I had a good session of gardening yesterday, with my Sirius tuned to the E Street Station... This Jersey Girl sang and weeded and dead-headed along with a Bruce Springsteen concert for about 3 hours. Sure made my day! Afterwards, Molly and I took a good long walk. As I walked, I wondered why I ever stop, damn it feels good!
Tonight I convinced honey to go to the gym with me for a swim. We were there for an hour, tops. I did laps for about 35 minutes, some squats and lunges for about 10 more minutes and was outta there. He suggested meeting there tomorrow after work! Coulda knocked me over with a feather, but also proves how "just doing it" feels so good, it makes you want more!!
Kaylets, You gave me such an image of wallowing in the deep, indigo blue... and then I pictured swimming up through the blues, lighter and lighter, to the top...where it's sunny and sparkling turquoise! I must remember that image next time I'm swirling in indigo!
Congrats on a good interview, Andria! :crossed: Enjoy Dallas!
Arabella...I don't remember what weight I started at here... will have to look into that. Sadly enough, I KNOW it was less than I am now! You are definitely in the ball park of passing previous low point! Hang on, girl!
wsw, Anagram, ceara... :wave:
Time to put the bod to bed... Nighty night, all!
07-08-2008, 07:23 PM
Just a quickie as supper is nearly ready and I really need a shower b/4 dinner...
Not such a bad day so far.... Far to hot and muggy to take the bikes out but we do have a plan for early Thurs am as we are both not working Thur and Fri....
Morning went very well, my double veggie burger breakfast kept me full till lunch.... but then about 2, I found myself at the vending machine.
But... I did make myself enjoy evey bite. And starngely, that seemed to be enough. Too bad it was more stress relief.
Why is it always so hard to just take a couple days off.? But, I will bit the bulllet and will go in early tomorrow and all the important things will get done.
Kat.... Yes, blue is a wonderful color. My favorite. I just decided to start decorating in it again. I don't care the fashion. As long as I like it should be enough!
Funny you mentioned going higher and higher almost like swimming.... I'm thinking swimming well would be lovely too.... We'll see how I can figure out to make that doable with the budget.
WSW....Are you still mopping water? I hope not....
Silver... Did they tell you when to expect an answer about the job interview?
Anagram.... I am seeing you in Quebec.....Making them wonder which Royal in among their midstl!
Woodnymph.... Don't let that scale get you down... its a trickster....
07-08-2008, 11:49 PM
So many things to answer. Arabella, love the butterfly being more than halfway too. And blue is my fave color too. Glad to hear youre spiffying - that's always a good sign. When we're down, who cares about spiffy?
kat, I'd say send the whoosh fairie my way but I've really not been doing much to deserve a whoosh - glad you earned one though.
Enjoy Dallas, Andria, and all of hubby's vacation. Hoping this is THE job.
Well, I'm all but ready to go. Driving to son's tomorrow, flying out Thursday. Will be flying in the day Arabella's leaving. Enjoy Colorado. And early good wishes for the Ireland trip, kat. I agree with all that's been said re cycles and menopause. I'd like to think I'm just in a bad cycle but I think it's more like a rut. And don't forget to factor in that you're still grieving your Dad, kat. That takes longer that most of us would like to admit.
When DD got here Friday, she and dh were their best selves again. For two whole days. Then whatever it is that affflicts him, afflicted him again. He's a whole different person then and I can see why it stresses her. So anyway I didn't go into my practiced speech because it wouldn't have made sense under the circumstances. Will just keep watching.
Yesterday in the midst of all sorts of things, I broke a tooth. Fortunately my dear dentist was able to see my yesterday. Recommended a crown ($850). Not the news one wants on the eve of a vacation. ;) Also fortunately, she was able to switch some things around to accommodate my leaving tomorrow so I had a temp crown put on today. Fingers crossed. But all left me a little more behind in prep so it's been another busy two days.
So yes, it's been hectic. Happy but hectic. I'm looking forward to doing very little while away. Famous last words again.
At any rate, I'll be gone from the Palace for at least a week and a half but will be thinking Royal Thoughts and sending hugs to all who might feel the need.
:belly: :belly: :belly:
07-09-2008, 07:57 AM
Day 1 again...But in a good way! I completed 3 excellent days OP, and will start another round... I took 2 aqua classes last night, then did laps for about 15 minutes, waiting for hubs to show up after he played a round of golf. Going back again tonight!
...could a habit be forming? :chin:
Enjoy your trip, Anagram! We'll keep your chamber at the ready for your return! :queen:
07-09-2008, 09:51 AM
Jeepers...found you! Am only at the bottom of page 1...will check in later!
07-09-2008, 12:46 PM
hi all. greetings from your soggy friend in plumbing and condo. management company ****! it has been one week now, and still nothing has been done repair-wise. yesterday morning, plumber came out to get water sample to take to city water co. to find out if the water coming up from my carpet is city water or storm water. they have no idea how long it will take to even get the results. manager at management co. doesn't return my calls either. she is just as rude and obnoxious as is plumber. finally got hold of her yesterday and was told even if this is a community problem and would be covered by homeowner's association for plumbing repair, any carpet damage or bookcase damage near water would be "your responsibility for your insurance company and your repair concern." no idea when any repair work will even start. wet area now getting larger too. i just put down towels every morning and evening and sop up as much water as i can in meantime. i am so frustrated and stressed. plus it is a pain in the neck having my books covering up both of my couches and ottoman in my living room, so i have been living with the "just moved in" look for a week now too. this queen is stressed down to her little royal toes. just trying to maintain weight now, and not worrying about trying to lose. was just grateful in fact to have maintained this past week. sorry for no personal posts. will come back later to do just that. in meantime, take care, all.
07-10-2008, 10:27 AM
Sorry, Lovies, but I'm all droopy. Work has been horrid, demoralizing and stressful. Yesterday I let it get to me and basically ate all day. I won't do that today, already have in most of my steps but I've got shiploads of work to do as well as stuff to get ready for the trip.
WSW, my sweet (if soggy) friend, I hope that situation gets better soon -- what a mess! It's very hard to keep one's royal spirit afloat when the Palace is in disarray and nothing much you can do about it. :grouphug:
Andria :goodvibes: for the job!
Kaylets, have a wonderful long weekend!
Ceara, yay! You found us!
Kat, glad to see you've got your Kat spirit back!
Anagram, hope you're enjoying your trip!
I will try to get to the bottom of this mood thing and swim my way back up. Let's take this day and do our level best with it!
All right... raising chin... straightening tiara... :swim:
07-11-2008, 07:58 AM
Just a quick note as am on the way to breakfast and then the aquarium.....
Couldnt make it to Billy Joel last night. I was so sick to my stomach I just couldnt imagine how I could do the show. I was sound asleep at 5 pm.
Feel far, far beter today. So the aquarium is on!
WSW-- How awful to still have water coming in and no one wants to take resposibility! Am I right that the management company told you its a problem other condo owners are also having? Are you friendly enough with any to confirm that??
If its true, perhaps group pressure can get some results.
This may sound harsh but you may want to consider letting the management company know that Action News may have to be contacted.
Kat-- swimming sounds so nice! I envy you!
Woodnymph--- Oh how I can relate! I have had so many days like that....
if you don't believe me, just take a look at me.....
Ceara...how are you?
Silver? You too? hows it going?
PS.... went riding yesteday with dh.... about 3 miles i'd guess....
07-11-2008, 08:25 AM
Am off today for a show...2.5 hour drive each way. I hope it is worth it! Must go and put hair in curlers and then finish dog and load....lots to do!
Water, food good...weight going in the right direction for a change :)
Wsw are you still swamped? How discouraging that is for you! I hope there is no more seepage and the problem gets fixed asap! You are a :queen: after all!
07-11-2008, 01:35 PM
plumbing perils of pauline-the sequel
when last we left our soggy queen, she had called the plumber at the end of the day on wed., and was told he got back the water sample results and it is not city water, "so very likely it is storm water. won't know for sure til come out thurs." did the queen hear correctly---the plumber would actually come out to the soggy royal dwelling on thurs between 11am and 1pm? surprisingly, the plumbers did show up yesterday morning around 11am and actually started to do something. rick, the owner of the plumbing company came out and brought 3 other of his plumbers with him. they moved the bookcase closest to the wet carpet, pulled up the carpet, actually looked underneath it, checked walls, whole condo, etc. and put fans under carpet to start drying it out. he said the floor was really wet. gee, no kidding! he did aplogize to me, though, which was pleasantly surprising, for hanging me up all day last thurs. and not sending someone out til the end of that day, for it taking so long to get some action (permission from the condo. management co. to begin the process, not getting someone out here to test the water until tues as the first step in their process, etc.) he seemed sincere anyway. he said the carpet was very damp too under the bookcase also. i wanted to just bang my head against the wall and say, what do you think i have been saying since last wed. night, but instead, i maintained my royal composure since i desperately needed him to actually find the problem and begin working on whatever it is, plus he was trying to be nice. the 3 other fellows were outside checking around, and then he joined them for a while. when he came back in, he said they have found the problem. hot-diggity!! rick said there are 2 storm drains outside my living room wall where my computer desk is located, which are completely clogged and forcing storm water to come in under my unit, since it has no place else to go. additionally, there is a main drainage pipe on a side wall of my building, which is also completely clogged, and when they sent a video camera inside that to see where the pipe goes, it comes out under my unit also right around where all the bulk of the water was coming up through my carpet. all 3 (drains and pipe) were the culprits. he said he got permission from the condo management co. to begin work on the (unclogging )repairs. he told me to leave the fan going under the carpet all day yesterday and overnight until he comes back this morning, which i have done. they are due back here sometime between 11am and 1pm again today. ok, so at that point yesterday, i was feeling very relieved because they would not have to be jackhammering through the concrete in my floor to reach a main water pipe, which they had thought was the case previously (had the result of the water test shown it was city water. ) (the main pipe for this building is under the cement slab under my condo. unit near where the water was coming up.) my bookcase is now in the middle of my living room wedged in between the couches and ottoman which are covered with all my books, as they have been since last thurs. now i can't get to my washer and dryer because the fans are under the carpet drying it out right in front of the washer/dryer closet. the warehouse effect is now complete. still, i am so glad they found the problem, and hoping that is really the case so that there is no further damage. anyhoo- i went out for a while yesterday afternoon after the plumbers had left, and when i came home and strolled in to my facility, there was brown water oozing up through the laminate slats in my bathroom floor. it looked like some primordial ooze from a bad scary movie. that was enough to just throw this queen over the edge. (the floor was by no means drenched, though, just many, many droplets of brown gunky water all over my bathroom floor.) i called the plumber and casually asked him about this. he said "oh that's not surprising. the air that is being forced under the carpet by the fans is causing more water to come to the surfac. it's not sewage water, if that's what you're worried about. just put down some paper towels, and it should be fine." putting down paper towels seems to be a cure-all, as he had kept telling me to put down paper towels to sop up water from the carpet for the past week. at this point, the fair queen straightens her tiara, wipes up the gunk on bathroom floor, shakes her head, walks back in to the living room, alias the warehouse with fans going under the mildewed, stained carpet,and walks sideways to be able to get to her desk, sits down and places dainty royal hands over face and sighs. this has been the plumbing nightmare from ****. hopefully, though, the plumbers will actually come back today, and get the work done, so there will be no more water. after everything settles down, i will get my carpet cleaned (which the condo management from **** said is not their responsibility. ugh!) oh, and the primordial brown ooze coming up from the bathroom floor is definitely not as bad as it was last night (though not stopped completely), so it may be that things are beginning to dry out. dare i hope? oh, and kaylets, you had asked if there was any damage to any other units, and no there wasn't--just my lucky condo. alright,it is now almost 1pm, and the plumbers have not arrived yet, but i am trying to think good, positive thoughts, which at this point, with very little sleep in the past week and a half since this has been going on, is quite a feat, i must say. --- and thus ends the most recent installment of the plumbing perils of pauline.
07-11-2008, 08:42 PM
hi arabella- it is so impressive that your butterfly on your tracker is more than halfway along! you always inspire me.
kaylets- hope you and dh are having fun with your new bikes.
ceara- hope the show goes well, and that you have fun.
anagram- hope you are having a lovely time on your quebec trip. what a pain to have broken your tooth before you left. good that dentist was able to see you, though, in timely fashion.
kat- that is so neat that you are going to ireland next month. i may just sneak in to your luggage. :) well, i guess these days one can't sneak, it would cost too much (lol), but if i could, i would. when you included in your mini challenge to be kind to yourself, it reminded me how important that is, and how it is often still hard for me to do regularly, but very worth working towards.
andria- kudos on that interview. hope you are enjoying your vacation in dallas.
well, plumber was a no-show today. i called, and he "said" he will be back tomorrow morning, and "just keeping paper towels down in bathroom, and keep fan going to dry carpet." i ate more tonight for dinner than i needed to, and know exactly why. i am absolutely on my last nerve. theoretically, if they come out tomorrow, and clean out drains, water coming in here should stop. i won't hold my breath. this has been a very long week and a half (and counting). geez, i have had it.
tomorrow, soggy condo. or not, plumbing repair or not----it is dainty portions for this bedraggled queen. hope all have a pleasant evening and weekend. thanks also for listening to all my talk of plumbing woes. did not mean to go on about it so much---it is/has been overwhelming me, and i really appreciate all your listening and encouragement. you are the best, ladies!!! :) nighty-night.
07-11-2008, 09:40 PM
I got the job!!! I got the job!!! I got the job!!!
I was supposed to be meeting with them Monday for a second interview, but I guess they decided that wouldn't be necessary. Wheeee! What a huge weight off my shoulders.
Things are improving in other areas as well. My stomach and gut still aren't up to par, but they are so much better than this time last week. I'm able to eat a lot more foods, but I have to watch the portions carefully. Not like that is going to kill me. :lol:
DH is still on vacation, so I can't spend too much more time here, but I absolutely can't leave without sending wsw a huge :hug: I have to admit that I wouldn't be able to maintain my cool much longer if I were in your shoes. Heck, I'd shred the condo management company if I were allowed in too close. And they are too responsible! If that main drainage pipe is on your building, and they are in charge of maintaining that sort of thing, how could they not be responsible! Aaargh! Keep your head up the best you can, and get those plumbers to help you put everything back when they are all done. The boogers deserve to do that much for you in return for how long they have put you out.
Ok, I have to scatterzoom out of here now before family come looking for me.
07-11-2008, 11:19 PM
Oh my... your tiara must be somewhat askew by now, wsw, what with all your plumbing woes. The things that try a :queen:'s patience! Sounds like you've been a real champ about it all... I can't say I'd be as regal about it. And just why isn't the condo mgmt NOT responsible for cleaning carpeting? Shouldn't they keep the drains clog free?? Here's a hoping that all will be resolved SOON!
Ceara, how went the show? Were the curlers going into YOUR hair or a dog's?
Kaylets... so sorry you had to miss BJ. I saw him perform years ago, and it was quite a show! Glad you're feeling better now!
Arabella... How well I know the feeling of fighting a crappy day with food. (how VERY well!) I hope today was better!
Anagram and Andria are off galivanting this week, having fun, I'm sure.
I am so bleary eyed right now, but I wanted to get a quickie in before I hit the rack.
Hey! The weekend's here! :cp: Let's make it a good one... plumbing woes notwithstanding...
07-12-2008, 08:29 AM
And in a much better mood -- coincidence? I've got to get my work life sorted out so it's not sucking the life right out of me. And I know I can do it, it just takes doing.
And trying to make sure things were ready for the trip seems to be stressful for me -- it seems like adding anything at all to the work stress makes it almost unbearable. I'm such a sensitive petal. :dz:
Of course what I should be doing is working harder on keeping my stress level down. Will do.
We've had hot sunny weather the last week + -- would be perfect weather for a cottage on the shore. Which I AM going to do next year. My neighbour has a house close to the shore that she may lend me for a weekend in August, though, so that should be nice.
212.6 this morning -- I had wheat yesterday (although, now I'm thinking of it, I didn't actually overeat) and last night was Friday night. So I'll be back to ticker (and under) soon. I'm getting myself determined to make the best choices possible on this vacation and not let it all go to heck in a handbasket.
A couple of days ago I did something I've been intending to do for ages -- I got a copy of a children's story I wrote years ago and some illustrations my son did for it and sent them to a local publisher. I don't know if they'll want to publish it or not but I thought, when I was looking at it again, that it was worthwhile and that ... I think someone will want to publish it.
Andria :balloons: :cheers: That's fantastic! Aw, how sweet! Now you get some time to relax and prepare, right? And no more interviews :cloud9:
WSW, darling, even with tiara askew you obviously kept your Royal sense of humour. Your PP of P story was quite entertaining. Nevertheless, I hope that's one chapter that is closed ASAP.
Ceara, hope the show was worth the drive! Did the pup have to wear curlers the whole way? :lol:
Kat, I'm going to see about channeling some of your gardening mojo this weekend. I got the beds along the front walk more or less respectable the other evening. I've got plants that absolutely have to go in before I leave here.
Kaylets, is the aquarium near you? I'd love to take DGS to one. I kept thinking how much I wished he and DS were with us when we went to the one in Atlanta.
Well, my plan for today and henceforth is to ENJOY my day(s). Life is beautiful!
07-12-2008, 08:57 AM
Aquarium was a big hit with all age groups! We made great time getting there, arrived at opening, let the younger ones lead the way, ate lunch b.4 the crowds gathered and left b/4 the worst of Friday "to the shore" traffic began. One "new teen" actually made a special point of saying "Thank you" both to DH and then to myself which is always gratifying when you're not so sure how aware they are of prices and who "hosted" the event. The 4D Planet Earth event was fun too. Special suprises that even made me laugh.
Today, DH and I are taking the bikes with us ( we are still too new at this to bike anywhere on the main roads.... I have a goal though!) to breakfast and then go to a local state park to get a bike ride in.
WSW-- So sorry to the hear that the plumbing saga continues.... red tape is so frustarting.... Have you thought abbout taking any photos?? I recommend you do.
Also, I know management companies often don't use logic when they follow the "inside--owner/outside--mgt co" rule....Is there a Condo board in addition to your condo mgt company??? If so, you might want to think about confirming the mgt's answer with the condo board asap and go from there.
Also, whoever the condo mgt contracted to do blding maintenance and landscaping should be billed for the carpet cleaning anyway.
Another thought---keep a really close eye on that carpet, area around it, etc...I don't know about you, but I wouldnt know unless someone else showed me what the beginning of of mold, rot, etc looked like. I'm not trying to scare you but you don't want to find out the hard way.
My dad was President of his condo board for a number of years. I realize each condo has its own rules but I am hoping to ask him what would've been the story if someone had water issue like yours. I remember on one occaision, the mgt comapny's contract was not renewed).
Another thing WSW, is to think of who you know who is in the legal profession. A phone call usually isn't enough (but sometimes IS) but it is amazing how letterhead impresses.
I tip my crown to how composed and regal you are throughout.... OF COURSE, you need to vent..... I'd be emptying the fridge too!
All will work out in the end, just you wait and see! I know you'll make sure of it!
I am going to run the vacuum around fast before we go so I don't have to do it when we get back later....
Hugs to all!
07-12-2008, 07:45 PM
]andria-congrats on getting the job!!!!!!!! how wonderful>
kat- hope your weekend is a good one.
arabella-hope you are enjoying your day.
kaylets-glad aquarium was such a big hit. taking photos is a good idea, as are your other suggestions. thanks.
thank you all for the moral support.plumber came this morning. said water coming up through bathroom floor was residual from water under condo after unclogging the storm drains. he did move the bookcase back, and the carpet seemed like it was dry to me when he left. some water came back under carpet a while ago now. am hoping that is residual water. called him again, and that's what he said-should dry out in next couple of days, since drains have been cleaned. i am not one bit hopeful about it, though, and he is done with his part, so i will probably need to get another plumber out on monday if this is not actually resolved by then. i really am on my last nerve now, and once again a bit concerned about water being near the bookcase. i was really hoping it would be resolved soon.he said he though condo management company should be responsible for carpet cleaning, and said he would call them on monday, but i am not too hopeful that management company will change their mind and do this. hopefully, i can get some much needed rest tonight and tackle once again tomorrow when more refreshed. that sounds good in theory, at least. :) well, a good evening to one and all. take care. /B]
07-13-2008, 07:59 AM
Good Morning all!
WoodNymph, yes, one thing about being in the "Mid Altantic" area is that we are close to many attractions. We went to the Camden NJ aquarium. Definitely impressed the "children" we took as well as myself.
If the crowds of other children were any indication, (squeals and shrieks of delight), we weren't the only ones impressed. This summer is the"Inner Shark" exhibit.
It was more econimical to buy an annual pass so DH and I are will return again a few more times..... Go at more of our pace and get a better look. Until the place got crowded, the kids made the way.
WSW--glad to hear the plumber came by again and that he's going to make a call for you too. It migh be exactly what's needed. Hope I didnt come on too strong but we Royals get defensive when there is an assault at the gates! Even if its just a sister Royal's Kingdom!!
Silver--sorry, I somehow missed the details about your new job.....I assume its teaching but .... that's all I seem to know.... anyway, congrats again! well done!
we went to our favorite park yesterday for a bike ride. This park also has recycling so I brought a pile of newspapers. In my area, you can pay for recycling pickup or drop it off yourself. I am afraid to put newspapers in the compost pile and hated to throw them in regular trash so was thrilled that I was double guilt free.... biking and recycling.
And I need to do a lot more biking from the photos DH took at the aquarium....Nothing like a photo of yourself for a reality check!
Got a little too warm yesterday so I have to keep an eye on that....
Too out of shape to be pushing too hard in the heat w/high humidity.
Food intake was pretty good yesterday.
We were in the grocery store and I almost fell over when I saw the price of my usual $3.99 bag of 2.5lbs of apples is now $5.00.
Have to eat more local, in season fruit and hope things turn around soon.
Time to move the laundry around.....
Lets have a good Sunday!
07-13-2008, 09:30 AM
kaylets-glad you are enjoying biking. you did not come on too strong at all. i appreciated your support and encouragement, not to mention the good ideas.
well, yesterday was not hard staying op. actually, it was one of the very few times in my life (lol) that i had trouble making myself eat something. i can literally count those times on one hand, so i know all this stress is really getting to me. already prepared though to start making phone calls tomorrow to try and get this resolved. this queen definitely needs a vacation! if i could afford to go anywhere, i would be on the next plane out of here. in place of that, though, i will try and get some much needed rest today. sleeping at night is definitely not one of my best events lately. once again, will straighten tiara, take care of a few necessary errands today, and then try and allow myself a little relaxation this afternoon. hope the remainder of your weekend is a pleasant one for all our lovely royals.
07-14-2008, 08:19 PM
Talk about hitting the floor running! I called up this morning to find out when I could pick up my contract for the new job, and I ended up finding out that my first training also started today. You should have seen me running around to get ready and out the door! This training lasts three weeks, and I know there is a new teacher training the week after that. Hopefully I'll have some time left to prepare for classes after that is all said and done. And for those of you who asked, I'll be teaching high school English. :) They still haven't decided what grades, but now it looks like freshman and seniors. Should be interesting, no matter what. :)
The rush, rush this morning actually worked in my favor. The eldest princess packed a healthy breakfast sandwich and snack for me while I was getting ready. I didn't have time to plan a lunch, but I made a careful choice at a nearby fast-food joint, and I also managed to stay away from the donuts and such laid out for us at the workshop. As long as I keep things moving this direction throughout the evening, I'll have a successful Day 1 under my belt. Wahoo!
I have dinner to make, shirts to iron for my husby, and homework to do for workshop tomorrow, so I can't stick around any longer for now. I'm sorry for no replies yet again! Hopefully tomorrow won't be quite so nuts. I was kind of broadsided with this training thing.
07-14-2008, 10:10 PM
andria-you sure did have to hit the ground running this morning. hope your training goes well over the next few weeks. good for you on healthy food choices, and especially with having to be so flexible today.
lost 2 lbs. over past 2 weeks.
very tired, so need to hit the sack. just wanted to check in and say howdy. take care, royals.
07-14-2008, 10:17 PM
Did I tell you about the park stickers we purchased? Here you can pay each time you drive into the park or buy the sticker for the year. If you are not a senior citizen, the annual fee is $27 vs $3 each visit. As you might imagine, it's one of the best buys around, even if you buy one for each vehicle. Which we decided to do as there are two state parks very close to both DH and my jobs. One park is for easier bike riding, the other is much hillier and will be a goal. Our plan is that DH will take the bikes with him to his job. After work, DH and I will then meet at the park. DH's job finishes an hour b/4 mine so he will probably get warmed up before I arrive. We'll avoid most of rush hour traffic this way.
It rained all day today so our ride this evening was spur of the moment once we got home. Because traffic is so fierce around here, it took us almost 30 minutes to get to another park. Luckily, it was well worth it as we nearly had the entire place to ourselves. Well, not counting the ground hogs, bunnies, lots of birds all looking for supper. We left just as the mosquitos were looking for supper too.
Starting to feel the legs firming up.... I am going to concentrate a little more on posture, trying to let the stomach muscles work too.....
Frankly, I didn't think bike riding would be so easy to get back into. And I am shocked to see how many bikes are everywhere. Just goes to show you.....
I seem to be the last one to be in on everything.....
I'm not even minding the helmut.... actually, I prefer it. Too bad its too hot to wear long pants and ride.... But, I am very cautious. Would rather slow down and let a car pass me. All in time.
Silver.... highschool English. My favorite. I wonder what the required reading is today. I hope the freshmen don't have to read the Scarlett Letter.... Although I guess, it could easily be made relevant. I was one of those students who get skim the book and pick up info from class discussions to get by with a high B.... That was one book even a bookworm like myself couldnt get through.....
WSW--- I was thinking, situations like yours with your water leak are exactly why so many Royals had a tower. Wouldnt that be such a pleasant revenge?
To banish the Mgt Company to the tower?
And everyone else? How are things in your kingdoms?
07-16-2008, 01:45 AM
Good evening, lovely queens! I'm on my way to slumberland, but wanted to make sure I got a post in before I slip away... :yawn::faint:
I've been teetering between good and not quite as good as I could be, but I know I could be worse. Will get my hiney on the scale in a.m. to see what's what, but after several hours of yard work today, I feel good. Cleaned up a corner of the yard that has been plaguing me for months. Hauled stuff to the curb. Planted the last of the petunias, bought weeks ago, into a nice big pot for my patio table. Watered everything, fed the birds, washed the patio furniture down and just enjoyed a lovely cool evening outside til well past dark.
Tomorrow after work, they're having Reiki demonstrations. Everyone in attendance will get a 20 minute session. I'm psyched to try it out.
Kaylets, I've been dying to check out the Camden Aquarium for ages. Pushing that higher up on my to do list, based on your recommendation! I love the great energy coming from your posts, about all your bike riding with hubby!
wsw... I'm hoping that you were finally able to get the rest that you need and that all problems with plumbers and mgmt companies, et al, have been resolved. :wizard:
Andria... Wow! Talk about jumping in with two feet! Very exciting, and it sounds like you're doing all the right things! High school English, eh? My favorite subject! After art. The rest? ...not so much! I'm very confident that your students will love you!
Arabella...my fingers are crossed for your book getting published! What a wonderful endeavor... your story and your son's illustrations! :crossed: :crossed: Sending gardening mojo your way, I had plenty tonight, though it was more maintenance than actual gardening. Lots more to do tomorrow! Lots to do everyday, really!
Anagram, I hope you're having a wonderful time away!
Ceara... how went the show?
'kay... I'm late getting into my bed again. I wanted to get up and walk before work. We'll see...
See you all tomorrow! :wave:
07-16-2008, 01:34 PM
All goes well! The trip here was a bit on the brutal side -- 16 hours from the time we left the house until we arrived back here. And about 3 hours sleep the night before but we made it through. Got about 6 hours sleep last night and feel pretty good today. The scenery is really spectacular.
We went and hiked/ran a mountain trail this morning, did some yoga. This afternoon we're white-water rafting. :eek: And my eating has been stellar. I am NOT going to get back home and found I've gained weight, nuh-uh.
I had a funny day on Monday. It was like I was trying to talk myself into eating more all day and didn't quite manage :shrug: Quite bizarre. I'd think of something to eat, think about the effects and not do it.
Kat, I'm excited about your Reiki session! I'm practicing sending distant Reiki so if you like it, maybe we can set up a distant session some time. It's pretty cool stuff.
Kaylets, you sound like you've been rejuvenated and reinvigorated! :woohoo:
WSW, you lost 2 pounds in THOSE two weeks! :eek: High Fiiiiive, Sister!
Andria, sounds like you're going to be busy. But high-school English sounds good. :)
K, Lovelies, I must go commune with the kinfolk. Let's make this a good one!
07-16-2008, 09:32 PM
arabella-so glad you are having fun. fresh air and beautiful scenery can't be beaten. thanks for that high five. :) i was pretty glad i have been able to hang on by dainty royal fingernail.
kaylets-i love the image of banishing my condo management company to the tower. lol! that is definitely where they belong. biking with dh sounds loverly.
kat-all your gardening and yard work was impressive, indeed. hope you enjoyed reiki demonstration today.
i am so hoping my plumbing woes are behind me now. when saw more water up through bathroom floor on monday afternoon,was a bit concerned. told it could have just been some residual water, and i am going with that theory for now, anyway. yesterday and today were dry in carpet area and floor (yeah!) , so i am daring to hope the siege is over, if only because so tired. will have to have carpet cleaned (no, management co. will not do or pay for it to be done, so to the tower with them!), but at least the finish line is within reach.
andria-i too loved high school english class. hope you get great students when classes begin. brings back fond memories of so many of the wonderful books i read. had one english teacher in 10th and then again in 12th grade whose enthusiasm really made those classes a joy.
anagram-hope trip is going well.
hi ceara! how are 'ya?
today, finally got a little rest. woke up much too early again, but at least lingered in bed and read for a while. boy, did i need that. had a few necessary errands to run, but did them at my leisure, and not too awfully humid today, for which i certainly was grateful. i took some stuff to donate to habitat-hand-me-ups also. during this past couple of weeks since i often had to hang around waiting for plumbers to arrive, i had gone through a lot of my stuff to organize and weed out, and hadn't realized just how much work i had actually done until took those things over to habitat today.
well, speaking of being tired, it's about time for me to crawl in to bed. hope everyone has a good evening. nighty-nite.
07-17-2008, 10:19 PM
I'm amazed that its Thursday night....
WoodNymph... You are a brave one... white water rafting sounds scary to me... rocks and such make me toes curl thinking about it.... Oh and yes, I'm sending good vibes about your book submission too....Imagine, then we can say, "we knew her when she was ...."
Kat...isnt it something how we can keep walking around a pile of something but when we spend the 15-30 minutes to clear it away, we suddenly are jazzed to do so many other things.... I guess its just that old basic physics rule... a body in motion stays on motion.... hmmmmm.....need to spend some more thought on that one.....
WSW.... don't give up quite yet... maybe after you catch up on your rest you can battle some more.... I still wonder what the President of our Condo Assoc would say about your story.... I havent spoken to my Dad but I cant help but wonder.... but I vote for taking a break from all the plumbing issues for a few days, and see how you feel when you catch your second wind.....
Silver.... how goes your training?
Anagram... I assume if you had access to the internet you'd post and let us know how your trip is treating you....
Ceara... I think I saw you poke your head in.... Have you seen any of the Great American Dog on tv? Its cute.
Ok my friends... I too am off to dream land....
And yes, in many ways, I do feel invigorated. I am looking forward to early bike rides Sat and Sunday before it gets really hot. We are in Heat Warning Advisory.... Heat and Breathing Warning....
07-18-2008, 04:17 PM
arabella-good luck with your book submission. that is just so cool, but then you are one very cool royal.
kaylets-hope your early morning bike rides with dh over the weekend are pleasant. your invigoration is impressive and contagious. still feeling very worn out, and trying to get some rest today, but i agree that when i get my second wind next week, will tackle situation regarding condo. management company's decision once more.
woke up with chest cold yesterday, so am having to lay low. usual humidity back again, but that one day with low humidity a couple of days ago sure was a gift. glad i was able to get out that day and enjoy it. well, greetings to all our lovely palace dwellers. hope everyone has a good weekend.
07-18-2008, 08:22 PM
Wow. Went for a run on a woods trail by a lake/stream this morning and then to a yoga class with SIL and neice, followed by (repeated) sauna, hot tub, pool. After breakfast and shower, 10 of us headed to a chair lift to the summit, 11,642 ft. high. the ride up was pretty scary -- neither DH nor I realized that we were supposed to pull down the bar so we'd have that in front of us and something to rest our feet on. :eek: We made it, though, and had fun way up there. Mostly having group photos taken in front of incredible scenery. :rolleyes: The trip back down was a whole different experience -- I felt so secure with the bar across the front and a footrest. :lol:
Now back for a little rest before possibly going boating on the lake, followed by a big Italian picnic (don't know what that means exactly, but whatever!), a singalong and etc.
I'm going to try to insert a pic here from the whitewater rafting... Lessee, now...
WSW, hope your cold is gone ASAP! Probably a result of the stress of Pauline's Plumbing Perils. Thanks to the gods that's mostly over. I'm loving the low humidity in Colorado. It's amazing how much difference it makes. Temps we'd be sweltering in seem quite comfy.
Kaylets, after the guide gave us his introductory speech about the mishaps that could happen and what to do if they did, he said, "Any questions?" My first thought was "Is it too late to change my mind?" But it wasn't as scary as anticipated. Almost, but not quite. ;)
K, Lovelies, I'm going to put my tootsies up (pedicured on the trip up, so a nice coral for me to admire) and then get out there for more fun. Happy weekend to all!
07-18-2008, 08:28 PM
BTW, that's me, shrieking and laughing in the pic.
07-19-2008, 04:45 PM
a belated happy birthday to you, arabella!!!:grouphug: :bday2you::woo: so glad to hear it was the best ever. i love the picture. it does look like you are having great fun. what a wonderful way to celebrate. that was so funny about the safety bar. glad you had a safer, more relaxing time on way down with its use. well, continue to have a marvelous trip.
07-19-2008, 05:52 PM
THAT young thang is you, Queen A? I thought it was some kid along for the ride! It looks like a blast is being had, I'm quite envious!! Colorado is definitely on my list of places to see...
I'm in the midst of a cleaning bender that will have to do for exercise today. Believe me, I'm getting lots of it! (exercise, that is) There's enough dust and clutter and dog hair around here to keep me sweating for a while!
Once the time o' the month rolled around, as I knew it would, I released a few lbs, and will get an official WI tomorrow to use for my tickers. Certainly improved my mood and outlook... my rose colored glasses are back firmly upon my nose! :bubbles:
The reiki session was lovely and relaxing... I'd be muoy interested in hearing more about how a distant session would work, arabella! :listen: BTW, Happy belated birthday! :celebrate:
wsw... I'm so happy to hear that the light at the end of the tunnel of woes is nigh. :crossed: for no more mishaps!
Kaylets... It is HOT HOT HOT hereabouts, I'm hoping you got some nice early rides in before the heat came rolling in! :bike: :val2: :bike:
Andria... I can't wait to hear about your /new job and your training... and your reading list! :book2:
:wave: Anagram and ceara! Come back soon!
Okay, break time over, back to work for me! Have a great weekend, :queen:s!
07-22-2008, 12:55 AM
We just landed. There was a job application deadline for a communications officer with the feds that I was going to apply for but they`ve extended the deadline so I`m going to drink the rest of this frosty beer and head to bed. Long old day, 12 hours since we left Denver. Beats the 16 hours getting there though.
I am going to be royally PO`d if I haven`t lost weight on this trip. I have been SO active and SO careful. Will report in a.m.
Well the birthday continued as hoped, with much laughter and dancing and no overindulgence. On our way back to Denver on Sunday we stopped at the Hot Sulphur Springs Spa. 14 smelly (from sulphur) but therapeutic pools ranging from 90 to 112 degrees. We progressed upwards. Apparently there are a lot of minerals in them that do wonders. Natural lithium being one of them. According to the brochure, it makes one tranquil. Do tell. ;)
Today, at a Navaho jewelry and crafts store in the airport, I selected a gorgeous pair of turquoise earrings for my birthday present.
I`m reading the Eckhart Tolle book that was such a big deal on Oprah. I don`t agree with everything he says, but there`s definitely a lot of power in there. Definitely some great approaches to rethinking things and (although he doesn`t talk about it this way) getting out of a rut.
Kat, yup, that`s me, Miss Young Thang. As long as it`s not a close-up ;)
WSW, of course there were other people riding the lift that just left the bar up on principle :dz: But I was very happy to have it.
Oh my :queen:lies, I am ready to drop. And my Beck`s is gone -- off to dreamland for me. :yawn:
07-22-2008, 08:58 AM
210. We'll see -- I know I've had the experience of gaining temporary weight from flying so maybe there'll be a loss by Friday. :crossed: In any case... Onward!
Back to the grindstone for me today. DH has a couple weeks off. That's one thing that's appealing about the government job: real holidays. I think my application's pretty strong. And SIL who works with government says that she thinks there are a lot of spots opening up, so... maybe!
It would be nice to work with real live people again.
K, I think I'll put on some coffee on and ease into my day. Let's make this a good one, :queen:ies! Hocus-pocus-FOCUS!!! :wizard:
07-22-2008, 06:09 PM
kat- glad to hear your recent reiki session was relaxing and lovely.
arabella- good luck with your application. again, so glad you had such a delightful birthday celebration.
hi angagram, ceara, kaylets, andria, and to all our lovely royals.
still coughing a lot from chest cold, but able to finally sleep better last night, and grateful for that. a friend came over to visit this afternoon, which i enjoyed. hanging on to dainty food portions, and pleased about that. have kind of wanted to use cold as excuse to abandon food plan, but have not succumbed. very pleased about that. well, hope everyone has a good evening.
07-23-2008, 08:59 AM
208. Well there goes one :dance:
And maybe it has a friend or two that will follow it in the next few days? :crossed:
Getting back into the swing of things here. I feel a bit like I've jumped into the spinning skipping rope but more or less managing.
WSW, take great and gentle care of your own royal self. I'm so impressed that you're sticking to your dainty portions. What a :queen:!
K, I've got to update a page and then get to the gym. Let's make this a good one!
07-23-2008, 02:36 PM
arabella-congrats on loss of fluffy one! woo-hoo!
still having to lay low today, and drinking lots of herb tea to soothe my throat. have been listening to some books on tape, and watching some old movies, which i always enjoy. unfortunately, can't talk on phone to friends because i don't have much of a voice back yet. soon, though, i just know it. :) well, take care, dear royals, and a pleasant day to one and all.
07-24-2008, 09:12 AM
207.8. :cb: :cb:
I haven't been here in a long time. Hard to believe that I'm actually getting within hailing distance of Onederland, but it's true, it's true! :cloud9: Shall continue to push on and celebrate Labour Day (how appropriate!) in that fabled realm. That thought seems pretty motivating :hyper:
I slept about 9.5 hours last night and felt like I could have gone for more. Got the :coffee: on now so hopefully that'll bring me back to life.
Good gosh, it's quiet in the Palace! :queen: WSW and I are just rattling around here like a couple of royal peas, aren't we...
WSW, I hope you're feeling better today. I do kind of relish that phase of a cold where you're only fit for lounging and watching movies and reading novels.
Are there any other queenies about? Love to all, in any case. Let's make this a good one!
07-24-2008, 03:03 PM
arabella--wow! you are moving on down that scale. onederland will be yours in no time now! :) glad you got a lot of rest last night.
i am going to try and lay low again today, and knock this cold out. i'm supposed to get together tomorrow for lunch with my good friend, and don't want to have to cancel that. he is traveling a lot more now, and i don't get to see him as much.
well, at end of day yesterday, wanted to eat more but didn't give in. proud of myself for holding out.
hi to kat, andria, kaylets, ceara, anagram, and all our lovely royals. thinking of you. take care, everyone.
07-25-2008, 08:21 AM
208.4. Up, of course for WI day but still down a pound from the last one, I think.
Late dinner last night and I also ended up eating the crunchy part of DGS' cone with chocolate and sprinkles. Apparently he likes to get that kind of cone but doesn't actually want to eat that part. :rolleyes: Being a dutiful GM I ate it for him. I don't think those calories should count but I suspect they do. Also wheat and sugar, which can certainly have an effect.
WSW, I hope you have a lovely lunch with your dear friend today! Sending vibes for cold to be magically gone: :wizard:
I've got to get cleaned up, get DGS' lunch made for his day at camp and get to work.
Happy Friday to all :queen:lies, even AWOL ones ;)
07-26-2008, 07:41 AM
208.4. Same as yesterday, up .6 from lowest. According to WW yesterday, I am down 1.6 from last WI and, :queen:lies, I fought for every ounce. Howe'er, since I was actually lower than that I'm hoping to have a full two off next week. :crossed:
Yes, it is Saturday in the Palace. The house is not a total disaster area, DH is sleeping. I woke about an hour ago, opened the windows and sat watching the rain, drinking my tea and letting my brain settle. Today will be the first day since we set off for CO that I haven't been running like a mad fiend all day. I am extremely grateful that I've managed to stay sane throughout and actually lose a little weight instead of the usual MO. I was thinking yesterday how disheartening it is to get home from a trip and find I've lost ground. This time I just decided I wasn't going to do that. I'm beyond psyched about getting under 200 soon.
WSW, I hope you got to have lunch with your friend yesterday! I can't tell you how much it helps me to hear about your temptations and overcoming them. So often I'm good when I'm good but then the :devil: whispers in my ear and all bets are off. Now I'm working with the idea of actually resisting temptation. :faint:
Anagram, Andria, Ceara, Kat, Kaylets... How I miss you! :hug: Hope to see you in the Palace soon.
Have a fabulous Saturday, :queen:ies all. :wave:
07-26-2008, 11:24 AM
Glad your trip went so well WoodNymph.... the springs sound interesting.... Natural lithium sounds like a plus!!
And good for you getting so close to Onederland! You're on your way!
WSW... I didnt read all the posts but I am really hoping that your plumbing problems are now in the past....
DH thinks he has diverticulitis so he is taking things slowly today. I didnt sleep well last night but got up as usual and did grocery shopping. Stockpiling chicken breasts and Olive oil on sale.
I'm looking for blueberry bushes to grow in big pots... Wouldnt mind some peach and more apple trees too. And for the price of figs I just saw that might be a good idea too.
Otherwise, we had a wicked heat wave and then two days of thunderstorms....
I miss the bicycle already!
I think I will lay down for a bit too........
07-26-2008, 02:25 PM
arabella- you are doing great, and deserve the rewards of all those hard fought pounds off. here's to your official full two off for weigh in next week too. i am so impressed also that you did so well on your vacation---a very regal feat, indeed. glad you can relax today, and don't have to run around if you don't want to.
i feel like i am so far away from onederland, but you inspire me to keep going.
i was able to have lunch with my friend yesterday, and glad that i could. cold still hanging on, but definitely going in the right direction now. my friend and i laughed a lot. he will be going to nairobi on business soon for a few weeks. he loves it there so much, and is looking forward to the trip. i like hearing about it, and seeing the pictures he sends back.
kaylets-hope you are able to get back out on the bikes soon, weather permitting. hope dh feels better soon. also hope you got a nice nap/rest this morning.
i too am hoping plumbing problems are behind me now. so far, so good at this point, anyway.
i am up a pound but know i am doing everything i can be doing. didn't sleep well last night, and know sometimes that messes things up scale-wise. i have been sticking with good food choices and dainty portions, so i know this will pay off. yesterday, too, i had planned what i would have at the restaurant, and stuck to my plan.
this coming week, i have a lot planned and will be eating out a lot more than usual in the course of a week. as such, i am committing to coming up with my menu for each restaurant so as not to use a busy week as an excuse to fall off the proverbial wagon. i have been working too hard this past month to let myself lose any ground now. as a matter of fact, just as i was finishing up my post, a friend called me and asked me about dinner tonight. it will be fun, and after just having written that i will keep my committment to those dainty portions, i am bound by royal oath to uphold my intention. i also need to get on the stick now, and clean up my condo. i had planned to laze around and clean at my leisure, but it would not all get done in that case, so must away.
greetings to kat, anagram, andria, ceara, and all our dear queens. hope your weekend is pleasant, one and all.
07-26-2008, 11:32 PM
I'm here! Seems like this summer is flying by so fast, I can't keep up. I did manage to get a leisurely beach day in today, finally! Mom and I packed up our chairs and sundries and headed out today... it was a perfect beach day, just perfect. Sunny and warm, with the bluest of blue skies... ahhh! It was such a nice, relaxing day. We talked and we read, we watched the all the people, and then we ate crabcakes with a beer or two afterwards. :o I am pleasantly tired now, so I'll cut this short.
Arabella! You are doing it, girl! So very close! I'm so happy for you! :yay: :cp:
wsw... It sounds like you have a firm grasp on the situation, what with all your planning and commitment to continued good deeds! I know it will pay off handsomely for you! :cool:
Kaylets... mmm, blueberries! I tried growing them once and failed miserably. I hope yours do well. Apparently I can grow poison ivy, because now I am somewhat covered with it! Don't recall seeing any on my last big gardening bender, but it found me! All up my right arm, some on my face (?) and on my ankles. Very attractive I am!
Hi, Anagram, Andria, Ceara! Come back soon!
:yawn: Must rest now. Tomorrow we have big plans to clean out the garage. Woo hoo! Always a party here!
Nighty night, all!
07-27-2008, 01:36 PM
207.2. Which, in my accounting, gets rounded down. :carrot: :carrot: I'm getting closer....
Doing a dinner for 14 this evening. Did a lot of the cooking last night -- baked a carrot cake, cooked chickpeas for hummus and put together the rest of the ingredients, just have to blend. Chopped a gallon of rainbow-colored veggies. :)
Will forego the chips, bread, cake & ice cream. I'm making a brown rice pasta with shrimp, peppers and avocado in a basil/garlic sauce and a big Greek salad. All will be well. And I will be well-behaved because I am so NOT going to stop my progress now. Nuh-uh.
:cloud9: So happy to see more :queen:lies reporting in!
WSW, I'm glad your lunch was so lovely. Is Nairobi as exotic as it sounds?
Kat, we live 20 minutes from fabulous beaches and often don't get there more than a couple of times in a summer. And it's my favorite thing in the world! DH and I were walking this morning and he was saying what a beautiful day it was and I was thinking. Yes -- perfect day for the beach. I'm going to try to get there more...
Kaylets, so nice to see that the bikes have been such a huge success! I'm planning to try to get mine out this week. It's been languishing in the garage... poor bikey!
K, Queenies, let's make this a good one!
07-28-2008, 10:19 AM
Two days are not enough for a weekend. I shall start a royal motion to extend weekends to four days and make the work week confine itself to three. :wizard:
208.8 -- All perfectly according to plan last night -- didn't even get a chance to eat more than a smidgen of hummus with veggies but had pasta and salad late so that's probably to blame. I guess that's the thing with weighing daily. You do see the occasional bump-up.
Back to the salt mines for me, heigh-ho, heigh-ho.
Let's call it Fresh Start Monday and let that idea invigorate us!
07-28-2008, 11:43 PM
I am still alive! The workshop has been wonderful, but it is 7 hours a day of writing and learning how to help others write--in other words, exhausting. I've actually turned out two decent pieces, one of which goes into a class anthology and the other gets shipped off for hopeful publication. I'll let you know if the second is picked up somewhere.
I've been very careful with my eating, so I'm not up, but I'm not moving down, either. That could have something to do with the lack of exercise... I'm just so tired every night that I can barely keep my head up to do homework.
The workshop is over at the end of the week. I'll make sure to be back regularly by then--and back to my exercise regimen. I miss the gym, and I miss all of you!
07-29-2008, 07:45 AM
209.8. For no good reason. I had extra salad last night and extra pasta sauce but a very small serving of brown rice pasta. The sauce was almost 100% veggies but had olives in it. Maybe salt's the culprit... Whatever. Gain is silly and temporary. I packed up the leftover carrot cake and ice cream and took it to DS, reserving one piece for DGS who comes tonight.
I didn't have a crumb, not a lick of frosting. Didn't have a chip or a crust of bread. I've gotten over 10k steps every day, over 15k on Sunday. Drinking the water, eating the veggies. Yes, that gain must be temporary.
I'm convincing myself, here, who seems to be feeling sorry for herself and a little discouraged -- in that dangerous kind of mood that could lead to the behavior that gets us ACTUAL weight gains. I'll probably feel better after my woggle.
Andria, so glad to see you in the Palace! Your workshop sounds good, if exhausting. Homework? I disagree with it on principle. I don't know who had that idea in the first place but I think it's just collective madness that allows it to continue.
Anagram, are you back?
WSW, is your condo blissfully dry and order restored? Cold all gone, I hope!
Kat, sounds like you're busy. Are you finding the day shift eats up available time? But your day at the beach sounded good.
Ceara, are you and pups racing madly from show to show?
Kaylets, how goes the battle?
:queen:lies all, if any beith about, let's take this day and do our level best with it.
07-29-2008, 09:07 AM
Dear :queen: Arabella,
You have my solemn promise to take this day and make the best possible of the opportunities it presents.
I have so much catching up to do with everyone, and I'm getting desperate for support. My mother is in the hospital, and today we find out the results of a biopsy they did on her stomach lining. They are already talking about removing her stomach and the need for chemo. Mom went through chemo 25 years ago, and she says she will refuse it. I am not as close to my mother as a daughter hopes to be, and the guilt, sadness, and fear are about overwhelming right now. The reason I'm writing this here is because I need to let all of you know that I plan to get through this by feeling all the emotions and not trying to stuff them down with food. I don't need to be numb. I can handle this.
*HUGS* and a *Royal Wave* as I exit the palace for now.
07-29-2008, 10:53 AM
Andria, :hug: I know how difficult and complicated these things can be, how things can feel wrong in so many different ways at the same time. Stay with your feelings! If you can stand to, write about them. You'll come through stronger and better than ever. Remember you are loved! :grouphug:
07-29-2008, 09:04 PM
andria-sending a big hug your way, and lots of good thoughts and prayers about your mother's test results. let us know how you and your mother are doing. we have a candle in the palace window shining brightly for you. you are so right---eating won't make anything better. arabella's idea of writing about your feelings too sounds like a great one.
arabella-yes, your weight gain is some verrrry temporary aberation, no doubt. i swear, bodies sometimes just don't get that with all our noble and hardfought efforts, the weight should go down consistently and quickly. i for one, think they need to start getting that right.
my cold is definitely much better now, thanks. ready for it to be gone completely, though. things are dry once again in my condo. too. continuing to keep fingers crossed that all remains that way.
kat-your recent beach day sounds like it was loverly! glad it was so relaxing and pleasant. i love the beach too.
hello anagram, ceara, and kaylets! how goes it?
have been sticking to dainty food plan and exercise. today, scale down but have been playing with this same stupid pound for a while, so cautiously optimistic. in any case, will hang tough. take care, all.
07-30-2008, 08:46 AM
SHAME ON ME FOR BEING AWAY FROM THE PALACE SO LONG - I will sit down this afternoon, make all my excuses and catch up with all the Royal Goings On.
07-30-2008, 02:27 PM
So good to see the Palace filling up again! I have been busy... trying to do some extra time at work, when I can, to build up our vacation $$$ reserves! Seems like everytime we turn around there's something else that needs to be replaced or fixed!! AGGH!
Today is my 25th wedding anniversary. We had big plans for a nice beach day and dinner out after watching our daughter perform at a local theater. Weather is not being so cooperative, so beach is out. The show's sold out, and since we've already seen it, (but LOVED it so much we wanted to see it again!) we gave our tickets to her friends coming from out of town. And the saddest change of plans of all: we need to attend the wake of a young boy from town who took his own life a few days ago. He was a year older than my son, but they've been boy scouts together from the beginning. So very, very sad to contemplate that he was that desperate to escape the consequences of a few bad decisions he had made. I wish my son was at home right now, so that I could hug him and tell him how much I love him. Two more weeks and I'll do just that!
I seem to be moving at glacial-like speed towards my Run for the Shamrocks goal of 259, but I moving I am. My brief dip under 265 seems like an eternity ago, but I'm not changing that 1st ticker til I get below it...because I WAS there!
Hopefully, I'll get back in here tonight... so much to respond to, so little time!
Have a Happy Wednesday, :queen:s!!
07-31-2008, 09:12 AM
213. Amazing how that can happen -- six pounds up. Wheat is the culprit.
My dangerously blah mood the other day, coupled with the little gain for no reason left me seeing if I could gain for real. Of course I could!!!
Now, of course, I feel even more depressed. Didn't really enjoy it. Anyway, today's a new day and I'm going to feel better. Didn't get my steps yesterday but I'm off for a woggle and will get them today.
I almost didn't report in but thought better of it.
Let's do our best, Queenlies! I will, I promise.
07-31-2008, 03:49 PM
Well, Life got in the way of my coming back yesterday but I was resolved today to read all, catch up with my Royal Friends and start on a reply (which may need to be serialized).
Andria, my hopes and prayers go out that things will go well for your mother. Indeed, a difficult time; however I applaud your determination to FEEL it all. Painful though it may be, it is the best (and I've come to believe the ONLY way). I know you'll be as supportive to your Mom as you are able and please do come here for YOUR support. As so often with life, more is added when we are already overwhelmed as you are with the training and homework. But belated congratulations on the new job. It will be so difficult starting a new job with all that's going on but I'd suspect it would be even HARDER to be still looking for a job.
A belated Happy Anniversary to you, kat, and condolences on the loss of young friend. Always painful and, for sure, not the way one would choose to celebrate an important anniversary. But you have the BIG CELEBRATION coming up and I'm sure that will be AMAZING.
Kaylets, so sorry you missed Billy Joel but glad you're doing better and those bike rides do sound invigorating. You're not the only one in price shock! Fresh corn this year is (so far) way, way higher than last year and even the "bargains" I got today on nectarines, and cherries are higher than last year. I noticed in store today that many types of bread (which fortunately I don't buy much of) are inching towards $4.
wsw - As I read your saga, episode by episode, I could scarcely believe it! I'm hopeful it's been fully resolved. Somehow, I can't imagine why mgt co thinks carpet is your responsibility - don't think Judge Judy would see it that way. But I can see where at times you'd feel it's tilting at windmills to try to get better results. Glad your cold is finally gone and delighted about the 2 pound loss. You certainly deserved that after your harrowing experiences. I know I often say "I'm swamped" but you fairly literally were.
Wood Nymph - what a great picture! Sounds like a GREAT BIRTHDAY AND VACATION. And my fingers are crossed re the story submission (but then you are already a published author, no? - has it been a while since you went that route?). And congrats on the will power. With my gaining and your losing, we're fairly close again on the scale.
ceara, glad you popped in while I was gone. Waiting with baited breath for more reports......................
Well, that's a start. I have more to say (lack of yack has never been my problem). But I've been sitting at this computer for quite a while now and must get up and move about a bit before I'm sorry.
08-01-2008, 02:09 PM
210. So, heading back to ticker. It's incredible how many pounds I can pile on in two days, whether real or not. I know, from experience, that I can make them totally real in no time flat.
I'm going to be offline until Sunday afternoon -- going to sound yoga camp this evening. And I'm feeling anxious about it -- a big group of people, most of whom I don't know. Staying in a rough house with a few of them. I don't tend to be comfortable in unfamiliar circumstances. So probably good for me to go...
Here's where I'm going. (http://www.teresadoyle.com/gallery_rockbarra.htm) The house was built for a Daniel Day Lewis movie about the rag-tag end of a hippie colony.
Anagram, so happy to see you back in the Palace! Where have you been and what have you seen? :)
I've got to get a bunch of work done and *ulp* prepare to leave so... :wave: Have a good weekend, :queen:lies!
08-01-2008, 07:16 PM
Wahoo! I finished this section of training! I have a three day new teacher training next week and a single day the following week with human resources, but after that, I think the following four days are actually mine to prepare the the year. I'm trying to say that with a smile, but it is faltering a tad.
With the little time I have left of summer, I plan on getting back to the gym and regular exercise. Eating has been good, and I have kept up my journaling faithfully. The only link seriously missing here is movement to get the scale back to showing losses.
As far as my mom goes, they let her out of the hospital for a couple of hours today to get some things taken care of before they do her surgery. She does have a form of gastric cancer, and they will be removing a large portion of her stomach, if not all of it. She is in good spirits, though, and it sounds like she will allow for other treatments if they find them necessary after surgery. I'm being kept busy making sure everyone in the family has information and keeping them all calm. That's what the oldest does.
I've got to run away. Evidently we are going out to dinner tonight!
08-02-2008, 12:22 PM
I'll bet you WILL enjoy the sound yoga camp, WN, despite trepidations. I'd have them too.........House looks interesting though - yes ROUGH but with elements of charm.
Andria, enjoy those precious FOUR days. You've had a lot thrown at you for a short time. Glad to hear your Mom is more open to treatment though.. Don't envy her the surgery or treatment part, of course, and hopefully that will be "all" that's required. Ah yea, the eldest role - very familiar with it - I'm still the eldest but have semiretired ;)
WN, I was interested in your comment re weighing more after flying. I'd like to cling to that. I came back about 212 - have been hovering betwixt 208/209. Feeling somewhat slimmer than that for some reason. But still a big gain since December.
What a lovely morning I'm having. For the third consecutive day, I'm taking a RELAXING approach. I've been so stressed for so long (varying degrees) and have felt the need to go away for a retreat. Well, I noticed I had a four day period with no immediate time commitments so it dawned on me I could take a retreat right here. (I'm slow sometimes.) So once again this morning, I spent considerable time on the patio, did a little LEISURELY weeding and deadheading (I had already done the major work from being away). After I finally shower (soon) and watch CURB APPEAL, I plan to do a bit more patio time with a book. I have been doing some chorelets in between time but the plan is that this week's FRESH START MONDAY will be time enough to get back into the fray and the backlog.
WSW, congratulations on making lemonade from the lemons and getting some clearing/sorting out of the way while waiting for the plumbers. My heroine!
As to my trip, it was wonderful. I held up better than I would have expected to. They really have made those hills steeper in the 30 years since I'd been to Quebec City. I did a lot of resting too (again, I think, overdue) and made sure DDIL/DS had some "them" time. While he was working most of the time, he did have an afternoon to spend with us as well as a dinner or two and a cruise on the St. Lawrence.
Importantly to me, once there it dawned on me why I had come. Way long ago when I was a newlywed, it was the first "real" trip DH and I took and it brought back marvelous memories. I sat on a bench in a garden and savored them all and felt a great sense of completing a circle.
The first of the "formal" dinners was a knockout. The food was marvelous, of course, way marvelous. The dinner was held in a "decommisioned", marvelously decorated chapel. The lighting included lots of candelight and some theatrical lighting. The organ was playing - music from Phantom of the Opera and I kept waiting for a chandelier to drop. As the courses progressed, we were delighted with some marvelous voices doing many of the main songs from P/O with some movements through the tables, etc. They slipped later to arias from some operas and eventually into many other well known and liked lyrics. What a great treat! DIL and I stopped by chapel in daylight another day and while it was still beautiful, the evening magic wasn't there.
The entertainment for the other dinner was good and different but never reached the level of the first dinner. I met many of DSs co-workers/members and heard some lovely things said about him. I remind myself those who might have had some nasty things were maybe too well mannered to say them ;) but it did my Mama heart good to hear the good things anway.
I did my best (or close) and tried to make good choices but, all in all, it was just not possible to avoid all the good things. One midday I found a little grocery store and bought a cup packed with cheese and grapes and that felt like a feast too in its simplicity. The prices, of course, were out of this world and I wondered, as I often do, how people can manage who live in a city.
Then of course there was the inevitable piling up of stuff when I got home but I got that fairly well stowed away in a relatively short time. I also took off for Pville for Seven's Eighth BD party. Way to go yet for actual BD but they'll be in FL for that. It looks like I'll be here to stay for a while and any other problems that come up will land on my "tomorrow" list.
Well, in case we get any of the promised storms, I'd best hit the shower. Must be ready in an hour to watch "Curb Appeal" too. Important appointment.
Nice weekend, all.
08-03-2008, 05:50 PM
I keep putting off posting because I really want to reply to everyone instead of being a total ME ME ME like I have been. Figured I'd better get my backside in here though and do what I can before being called away.
Things are still kind of nutsy busy around here, especially since my girls' daddy called last Friday to inform us he was coming this Wednesday to spend 6 days. Nothing like a little notice... We're running around getting the house in order, and I've also been out buying school supplies at all the cool sale sites around town. I'm pretty set up for the girls and my classroom (I think), but we haven't done much in the way of school clothes shopping yet.
In truth, I think I'm running so hard because it keeps me from getting in my own head. Not a good place to be right now. The exercise and sunshine really are helping though. The days I don't get out, I've actually caught myself screaming at the family over minor stuff. And I don't mean barking or yelling at someone. Yesterday I had a total meltdown and screamed at my poor husband over something pretty basic. :o Thank goodness he is a patient and understanding man who knows just what to say when my crazy is showing.
On the upside, the combination of running around and journaling have helped another couple of pounds slide off. I realized today that I am 8 pounds away from my first 10% which also happens to be the halfway point to my year goal. Wahoo!
Before I move on to replies, I just want to thank all of you for your sweet words of support. As suggested, I'm trying to write out some of my fears and pain and sorrow, and I'm working really hard to not allow myself to numb out. Being super strict with my food is helping give me something solid to hold on to right now. I'm also trying to see this as an opportunity to heal some of the wounds left over from when I was 16 and mom had breast cancer. The whole year she was under treatment is still a blank for me. I can only remember a couple of very strong images, and most of those have been pieced together with the help of my siblings. Time to let it go.
Anagram, it sounds like you had a wonderful trip! I loved your description of sitting on a bench and just savoring the completion of your circle. That just gave me the warmest, happy feeling for you. :) Of course, the description of the chapel-turned-amazing-restaurant completely wowed me. Keep up your relaxed, leisurely approach. It seems to be working for you!
Arabella, I can hardly wait to hear about yoga camp! I wonder if the unfamiliar setup will make the experience better for you. Hoping so. :) By the way, I finished two pieces during the training, and even sent one manuscript off to a literary magazine. They are both short, creative nonfiction--my favorite method of getting something out of my head. It felt so good to be writing again!
Kat, congratulations on your anniversary! I know the actual day wasn't perfect, but your Ireland plans should more than make up. I'm still volunteering to go along, by the way, just in case you could use a third wheel... ;)
wsw, thank you for keeping a candle lit, and thank you for saying it straight out: "eating won't make anything better." You really hit the nail on the head. Hoping your cold is 100% gone and you haven't posted for a couple of days because you are out enjoying the world. :)
Ceara, are you still zooming around the country with your dogs? Hope you are having a great time. :)
Kaylets, I miss having a question of the day to ponder! I also want to hear more bicycle stories. It sounds like you are having so much fun with yours. :)
I'd better scatterzoom out of here and get back to work. This was a nice break, though. Spending time in the palace always does good things for my heart.
Take care! :hug:
08-04-2008, 07:58 AM
FRESH START MONDAY!!!!!
[SO HERE WE GO - a beautiful crisp morning today hinting of Fall. No, not quite ready for Fall yet but a HINT is nice.
I took my four "leisurely" days and enjoyed them immensely. Finished them off last night at an outdoor concert last night near a beautiful little "lake" in the city. Enjoyed RED MOLLY very much and it was a perfect way to end my little vacation.
One reason I did this (besides all four days being more fun than usual) is that I recognized to some degree that, after being stressed so much and so often, that I put a lot of stress on myself because it had become a HABIT. I sort of proved it already this morning by saying "I must, I must, I must" and then I realized what I was doing again and said "Yes, I must but there's no reason to become harried over it. I'm starting a whole new day and there's time to do a lot and more energy to do it if I'm not stressing about it". So :crossed:
It's tiem for me to keep reciting the Serenity Prayer and living by it again. I do it in a lot of things but the built up stresses can be toxic when carried over to all the little things of life. Gotta save it for the Big Stuff (and there's sure enough of that in life).
So off my :soap: and :goodvibes: to all in the Palace - residing or visiting. And off to a good day.
08-04-2008, 12:24 PM
Anagram is right, this really does feel like a FRESH START MONDAY!
I keep thinking my plan is intact, but I haven't been taking enough time to be good to myself. This morning feels like a good, fresh jumping off point with plenty of room to get myself back in balance. :)
Morning weight was 302.8 today. It feels so good to know that the 300s will be behind me very soon. It feels so good I'm actually not even stressed about the money I spent on pants two weeks ago. The tags are still on all but two of the pairs of pants (I think I bought 8 pairs that day?), and if I happen to need a smaller size, I think I'll be able to manage the "return" trip. Besides, if we needed to return to the Texas-sized outlet mall I bought these at (seriously, this place was about quadruple the size of any outlet shopping area I've ever been to!) that would mean that I could just as easily try talking my honey into spending a romantic weekend in Austin. Hey, this is sounding better and better!
Anagram, thank you for sharing the bit about stress becoming a habit. That one hit really close to home. I always seem to function so much better in a high stress environment, and I think it is because I've allowed it to become a way of life for me. It certainly isn't because I love it.
All right, time to get this day moving. I haven't heard from my mom all weekend, and I should get in touch with her. I also promised myself that there would be a trip to the gym this morning, no excuses.
Ok, I'm outties--scooping up my Fresh Start card along the way!
***Grrr... I forgot to hit the submit button!
08-04-2008, 01:35 PM
Congrats to getting so close to TwoTerville, andria. And it sounds like you're already planning to turn lemons to lemonades. Having to return slacks is a wondrous project in itself but a nice romantic weekend is a big plus. Maybe you can work that in while your unexpected visitor is in town ;)
I'm stressing again a bit and there's no good reason for it so I'm going to amble off and slow me down again.
Am considering a new car as a nice reward for myself. Reward for what, you say? For gaining weight? Well, no, maybe just for being me. And, maybe, just maybe I can find a way to make it a reward for getting back on track. Mmm. Looked a little this a.m. but thinking I'll just get a newer version of what I have. I've been very satisfied with my Camry. Of course, when I get to the "numbers", that will be the telling point.
Off to fold laundry, make a salad, all sorts of "exciting" things...............
08-04-2008, 09:01 PM
SO good to see a Fresh Start Monday.
Its been either too, too hot or TStorming...not good bike riding weather. And I miss it.
I needed to start the Black Cohosh for menopause again and may double what I'm taking.....either am dragging physically, mood to match or feeling just fine, mood to match again. Found a B vitamin blend sitting on my desk so started taking one of those a day when I remember and honestly, I can feel a difference in about 2 hrs after taking it. Wouldnt have believed it till I tried it.
Its made a difference 3 or 4 times now.......
Things very tense on the homefront. DS remains the issue. DH gave a date ultimatum that has come and gone with no one mentioning it. There have been some oblique references that I haven't understood and just didnt respond rather than "go there".
And believe it or not, politics are really creating tension too. Sometimes we think we know someone but realize we were wearing rose colored glasses.
Silver--- so sorry to hear about your mom......Sometimes we have to just let these parent relationship's be what they are and enjoy them for that. I know I myself, wasted far too much time "remaking" a parental relationship. Luckily,
I understood that there were many things I would never like but were far more that I could admire, respect and love.
Try to enjoy.
Anagram....full circle. And a home retreat. Sounds lovely. Very lovely.
Wood Nymph.... you know, I'm beginng to wonder if wheat is making me drag around .....
Wsw..... are things dry now?
Kat....So sad when these youngsters think they have only one choice......
These things are so hard on those left behind.
Ok my friends....
ceara, how are you?
Thought of the day:
"Dwell in possiblilty"
Question of the day:
"What could you possbily do?"
08-06-2008, 10:13 AM
And I need it. 212.6. Gain is mostly false, of course. Must not allow to become real.
I've been alternating between good and bad, having myself a little crisis. Not sure what it's about but... seems like some kind of coming to terms with stupid reality, maybe a last-ditch attempt to avoid same. And yet, I know it must be done.
Sound yoga weekend was wonderful but left me with the feeling that my life is much too constrained and limited. (Ahhhhhh!!! No wonder I've been depressed!) I've been exercising properly throughout, getting back to regular yoga practice.
Work is stressful (Yes, what else is new? :dz: ). Got to do something about it.
Kaylets :hug: Let's work on keeping our stress levels under control. Those DS issues can really challenge one, I know! But if we can manage our stress, we can handle anything! Oh, I love quotes and thoughts from yesterday...
Anagram, your leisurely days sound wonderful! I'm going to make sure that stuff is done ahead of the weekend so I can get a couple similar. And I fully intend to take 4 days the Labour Day weekend. :cloud9: Oh, Sister! Let us be serene!
Andria :woohoo: Look at you, smokin' along! You're going to be under the big milestone any day now. I really do feel like getting under these allow us to think of ourselves entirely differently. Am going to head back down, myself, inst. dashing away from the hurdle as fast as my fat little legs will take me.
Katgirl, when do you head for Ireland?
K, :queen:lies -- let's make this a good one!
08-07-2008, 12:25 AM
I can't believe it's been a full week since I've been here...this summer is really hurtling by! I can't really put my finger on what I've been up to. Well, work... okay, there's that. I worked 3 extra nights last week, and here it is, Wednesday again! Where does the time go? :chin:
I'd love to do a long, catch up post but I really should get my buns into bed. After work tomorrow, I have to go right to a meeting, and won't get home til probably 9ish. DH and I had a lovely beach day today. Weather was perfect, beach was glorious, and now I am one tired :queen: !
I promise to get all caught up again by the weekend! :wave:
I'll take one of those Fresh Start cards too, thanks!
08-07-2008, 09:40 AM
A few sniffs here and there of fall coming. To have nice cooler weather this weekend. lots of yard projects being saved until then. I'm still on a slower pace this week. Trying to beat the everlasting fatigue but it just doesn't go. Doctor's visit next week. Working on a long list!
Sorry to hear of the homefront stress, Kaylets. Didn't realize DS was still with you. I have a friend whose son moved back in (I think) 3 years ago "temporarily" and he's still there. Plus lots of grandchildren time when it's his turn. Both she and her DS are very, very stressed with the long term change to their lives. He keeps telling them he's leaving soon but first he has to get a job, doesn't he? Not fully divorced yet either and that's all been nasty. He's not running wild or anything - in fact they wish he'd go out more - it's just the general upheaval.
So how was the little "cottage" at sound yoga camp, WN? Hmm, constrained? Lots of room for exploration there. Self constrained? Expectations of others constrained? You'll win the crisis battle, I know. But to me it seems these battles (mine anyway) are on going. I'm still always going in various directions seeking out what it is I really want.
I think I had for a long time what I really wanted. And I'm lucky in that. But there were then things I'd think of and say to me "well there'll be time for that later". And here I am in later and don't seem to want to do any of those things. Some of that is the durn fatigue but not all. Quebec showed me that. But there was still a lot of fatigue there. Spent lots of big bucks on a hotel room to sit there and "rest" - not that I didn't enjoy it. But that and the four day respite and my slower schedule this week have shown me (as if I didn't already know it) that the fatigue isn't being overtired from doing too much. Stress level down a bit though.
So happy to hear you had a perfect beach day, kat. Another little mini-anniversary celebration. Like birthdays, one can't celebrate anniversaries too long or too often.
:wave: to andria and wsw.
No real plans except to hit gym (oops, they don't like to be called that!) and make me beautiful. Should go look for bathing suits before they're gone (if not already). Down to my last one and once I start wearing that (I should get back to pool) it'll be gone in three months and certainly NO suits available then, at least not on sale and that's always my first criteria(um?)
Let's sing a happy little song and get on with it. I'm planning to see "Mama Mia" tomorrow and then that music will be in my head for a while, I'm sure.
08-07-2008, 08:12 PM
Training the last few days has been so intense I had to think for about five minutes before I could remember what sessions I had attended. I knew there had been three days worth, but I couldn't wrap my head around the hours long enough to log them. My brain is spilling over with information right now. I just need some quiet time to sit and process it all before I forget what we learned. I did learn today that we have to complete 150 hours of teacher development every five years in this state. In the last four weeks, I've already finished 130. Yeah, guess I'll be covered. :dizzy:
The princesses are enjoying having their father here. I've been less stressed over his visit than expected, but I do wish I could spend time getting all this stuff together instead of dealing with a guest. *Note to self. Take a really long, pampering bath when his visit is over. I deserve it!
My mom called today, and her surgery is scheduled first thing on the 11th. I hope she doesn't find another reason to put it off, but I've been working very hard to distance myself emotionally from that portion of her decision. My mother's body is her own; the decisions she makes do not have to be the ones I would choose for her.
Ok, that all said, I need to get out of here and get to making dinner. I wish there was a place here that had healthy food for delivery. I'm too tired to cook, but I refuse to call out for pizza tonight!
*HUGS* to all!
08-10-2008, 01:41 PM
211.4. I seem to have lost steam but am working at getting a head up again. I've been good/then bad/ etc. Not sure what the story is other than not enjoying work and feeling like it's eaten my life. That could be enough. However... I'm trying to deal with reality, get back on track.
Also could be some level of resistance to weight loss, some resistance to getting life on track. :chin:
There's a (very) belated family party today to celebrate my birthday and one of my sisters'. So I'll have to be on my guard from the get-go.
I woke up at 4:30 this a.m. Sat in the dark with a nice cup of tea and enjoyed the quiet street and soft breezes. Went out barefoot and nightgowned to the back yard and did qi qong and tai chi. Now DH and I are back from our walk, steps all but in for the day already.
My workload this week is killer-level but after the week's out things should ease up a big. I'm just adapting, changing my attitude. It can be done. It shall be done. :yes:
K, several hours later...
Andria, that's great that you've gotten in so many hours already! Any chance you'll share your writing with us? I'd love to read it!
Kat, summer has an awful tendency to hurtle, hasn't it. I dream that it will be different when I've got my house on the shore and am freelance again with enough money to take it easy in the summer. :cloud9:
Anagram, I'm working with the idea of accepting the present, trying to be alive to the moment. Neat trick if one can do it. :yawn: In fact, a little nap sounds good. I might go attempt one...
WSW, how are things in your corner of the Palace?
Kaylets, hope DS stress resolves soon. I know, there's nothing much worse. So hard to look after our stress levels in these situations but it's our only hope!
K, dollings. DGS will be delivered in about an hour so if I'm truly going to nap (and I think I'll try) it behoovers me to go lie down. Love to all!
08-10-2008, 09:44 PM
Well, I had a WHOOSH this week - 2 whole pounds overnight - but two days later it's WHOOSHED right back up. But it was just in time as I was toying with the idea of chucking the whole quest. Can't do that now, can I?
I've had another of those lazy weekends. Topped it off with a little concert in the park this evening. Lovely - it even got "cold" when a good stiff breeze came up. I finally went back to tai chi - first since shoulder surgery. Think I'll head out again tomorrow.
I'm trying to get more "in the moment" too WN. I think it's working. But it's hard when there's so much stress. My stress level is considerable down since I took the trip last month and then have had the last couple of "relaxed" weeks. I think I was at an all time (well, not really but each stressful period seems that way) about six months ago and have taken steps and worked diligently to reduce that. I know it was still pretty high in late June - or high again. Now if the painter actually shows up next weekend and finishes the job............................................... ....well, if not, I'll just have to give up on him and get someone else.
I loved the visual of your nightgowned highness out in the yard exercising.....must have been magical.
Ah, I feel so mellow. Hope it lasts.........
:belly: :flow1: :belly: :flow1: :belly:
08-11-2008, 12:16 PM
A little of the "whoosh" went away again - a little mini-whoosh, if you will. So I'm back on the wagon once again. Sigh...........208.8.
Hope all goes well with your Mom's surgery today, andria. Is you guest any help at all considering your hefty schedule right now?
Rain this a.m. but a pretty and coolish day now. Things to do but no rush, rush so I'm planning on tai chi soon. Laundry and all sorts of "dumb stuff" but no rush.
Did you get your nap, WN? Hang in during rough work week - not even EOM.
Hope your weekend was good and relaxing too, Kaylets Lots of rain your way? Hi wsw, hope you're still dry and that your POP saga has some happier ending. Away again this weekend, ceara?
So - once again - and they come so quickly - FRESH START MONDAY!
08-11-2008, 02:31 PM
I thought I'd pop in for a minute before I head off to lunch. And by lunch I mean a good walk outside in the glorious post-torrential coolness. There is definitely a hint of a nip in the air. I love it, but still gives me that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that school's starting again soon...
Weight loss efforts are stagnating, but I'm happy there's been no gain. I'm holding steady at 268... I know that diligence and a serious boost in activity will take care of that. Also not stressing about it.
Oops... an interoffice email just came through about the need for extra effort to keep current, seeing as 'certain people' are going on vacation next week! :o I guess, seeing as I'm one of them, I ought to get back to work!
08-11-2008, 07:42 PM
My mom's surgery did not go well today. They opened her up and realized there was nothing they could do.
08-11-2008, 10:56 PM
Ahhh, Andria... what can I say? I'm sorry. :hug: We're always here for you if you need to vent, cry, scream. Take care and be kind to yourself.
08-12-2008, 09:55 AM
213.4. And it's a wonder if I can actually get off the ground, the way I've been eating the past few days. I did great on Saturday. Then, at the party on Sunday, many people remarked that I'd lost weight and looked great. Coincidence that I encountered an unprecedented level of food-pushing? And, to be honest, I could feel that desire to cut loose. Too much wine, too many "treats."
Yesterday afternoon, I remembered that there was a big bag of premium potato chips in the cupboard and ate the whole thing with salmon salad. After which I nipped around the corner to get a pint of Ben & Jerry's NY fudge chunk. Which of course I finished. Can you say "binge?" :o
:tired: I could not sleep for the life of me last night. Woke up gripped by the mother of all hot flashes, totally soaked. Got up, changed my nightie, did a little work, laid down again. Might have gotten 2 hours sleep all night.
I'm resolving to return to eating only while seated at the table when alone. I'd been doing so well, gotten cocky because I felt in control and let the prohibition slip. Heard that one before :yes:
And then we have Andria's news :grouphug: And I think, why do we (I) waste so much of our precious time and energy over this food/weight thing? Surely it should be background rather than front and center in our lives? Working on pushing it back, letting life come forward.
Andria, honey, we're here for you, as Kat said. My thoughts and prayers are with you. :hug:
Kat, glad you got the time to sneak in! Do you have any amount of time off around your trip? Sounds like you've been working too much.
Anagram, I truly believe that's the key, managing to stay grounded in the present. Controlling stress levels. There's a real solid correlation there. And those things that help one also help the other.
I must dash. Got a meeting in five mins. and then have to get to the woods for a woggle. Then DH will be on his way home for lunch...
Oh, my darlings, let's take this day and do our best with it. :love:
08-12-2008, 09:37 PM
Andria- So sorry to hear about your mom. I am sorry for her and for you too.
And yes, this is the place you can say whatever comes to mind.
This is your place.
We are here for you.
****Yes, Anagram, funny how these thoughts do come by and say,
Whats the point? .... and the answer is of course, because we do not like being this size!
I too feel as though I am dragging a lot. Started taking a B Vitamin complex and its amazing how much a difference I feel when I take it. Honestly, its more than a placebo. B12 is in it for sure. I also feel less on edge when I combine it with the Black Cohosh.
YIKES, I am grateful DS doesn't have any youngsters to bring home .....
THanks, that made me grateful.
DH is realizing his blood sugar numbers are very erratic which accounts for erratic mood swings too. That seemed to help just knowing it was the blood sugar numbers. We are hoping the weather will be not too hot or wild hail Tstorms ( which is what we've had now for nearly a month)...so we can get a real long bicycle ride in. In fact, he's exploring that on line as I write.
Lets try this again.... my mornings do flow so much better when I know what the Thought of the Day is:
Thought of the day:
"I've had thousands of problems in my life,
most of which never actually happened..."
Question of the day:
"Can you believe the Halloween candy is already in the stores?
Time for me to get ready for the morning....
08-13-2008, 08:02 AM
211.4. I suspect, at this point, that I've got some actual relosing to do. C'est la vie. I had a good day yesterday, despite fatigue. Reason being that I was determined, had my mind made up.
Kaylets, this weather isn't helping a bit! Exercise plans, moods... I LOVE the TOD and QOD, too.
TOD is a good one for me to keep in mind. What's the point of all this fretting over things? Life is so full of surprises!
Re: the candy in stores months ahead of any season -- well, you know it's to prey on and exploit people's addictions. First of all, it gives people an excuse to buy candy and tell themselves they're actually just being efficient, getting prepared. HAH! Then, when they work their way through the supplies, they go back for more. And the sugar :devil: has them in his steely talons. As soon as that holiday's through the candy will appear for the next one. I bet the ever-increasing rate of seasonal candy promotion is responsible for a sizeable chunk of :dance:
And you know, when you get off track it's so HARD to get back on. We must fight!
Anagram, let's link arms and charge the gates of Onederland, shall we? I've got to think that I'm dealing with resistance on some level here so I think that I'll have to get into attack mode. Resistance is futile!
K, I've got to head off to the gym. And I've got a big work day ahead. On the bright side, though, I've got a hair appointment ce soir so I hope to be gorgeous when next we meet. ;)
Let's hit it, :queen:lies!
08-13-2008, 10:04 AM
Another cool lovely morning here. Pato of P/C has been such a delight it's been hard to tear myself away.
Andria - I hope you have a PoP/C or something similar where you can go for short moments of peace. I'm so sorry to hear the news - sounds like Mom sort of had it right in her first reactions. You'll be on our minds and in our hearts. It's hard to believe how much life has thrown at you at one time but remember there is good there too.
Kaylets, those blood sugar things can be really tough. Hope you get in your long ride.
kat - you "certain person" you - nothing like them trying to guilt you! But you'll have the last laugh on your great trip. Wanna go, wanna go.
I'm on, Wood Nymph. I need something to get me back down. It's amazing how MANY times I've approached Onederland and managed to "save" me from crossing that border. My little "mental vacation" is continuing. I must get out of this stress mentality. Sometimes it's unavoidable but I am now firmly convinced that it can continue just as a "habit" when the pace evens out. I just have to remember that. Day beforeesterday when an unusually heavy amount of mial came, I found myself getting "agitated" about the amount of work that would be involved. But I stopped me before I got really into gear. Yesterday, only a flyer came. Divide by two and the first day's mail would not have seemed to fearful (though I admit the worst of the work is still sitting there ;) Anyway, it's been almost two weeks now and it's been wonderful. They say it's three weeks to change a bad habit, no?
Seeing doctor this afternoon so weight will be up on his scale. After all, I wear clothes there ;) But it's always a moment I hate. Have a long list to discuss with him. He always seems to take the time (billing more, of course) and does treat me like I know what I'm talking about. I do appreciate that.We only occasionally butt horns (like over my thyroid) and I would hate to have to change.
Other than that, just puttering on. I'm half heartedly trying to start sorting through more of DHs things. The garage stuff mostly since I figure that's a nice weather thing. So much there that could go............but I'm starting slowly - I seem to do that with everything.
High point yesterday - another outdoor concert (on lawn of library this time). A nice Americana/folk group called Voxology. Lovely evening, good music and the smell of popcorn tantalizing everyone. Sweet little teeners walking around selling that and other goodies......Yes, I bought some of the "other" but put it into freezer. It will be for me - eventually. But at least for now it went to freezer. I seem to forget when I have goodies there but when an "emergency" (binge time) comes, I'd rather have something I will savor and enjoy than do the mindless stuff I usually do.
08-13-2008, 07:21 PM
andria-i am so sorry your mom got such terrible news. i am keeping you and your mom in my thoughts and prayers. this is definitely the place to come if you need to cry, scream, or whatever you need to do. we are all here for you. sending you lots of hugs. take good care of yourself.
08-14-2008, 08:16 AM
Mantra - Stay calm, stay calm, stay calm. I woke up this a.m. feeling quite stressed and there is no reason for it. None at all and I will continue telling myself that until I return to my recent and much appreciated relaxed state. Had a good chat w/doctor yesterday, wt showed only a lb up on his scale.
I've weighed in consistently (4 days out of 7) at 208.8, so I guess I've kept a little of the WHOOSH - I really think that was a freaky day or I did something wrong to get the lower weight. It was still nice to see it.
I'm off the PoPC to see if I can regain some of my serenity. I think this is a perfect example of my theory that stress can become a habit after to many years of real stress and that I will need to continue conscious efforts. It's not like I have any MUSTS today. I even got GOOD news - the painters called and they plan to SHOW UP tomorrow. That's not CAUSING stress - it's more like RELIEF if it really happens.
Good Thursday, lovely :queen:s.
08-14-2008, 11:00 AM
Stress seems to be a common theme in the Palace. To some extent, may be result of full moon coming on. However, I also got a notice from the good folks in the revenue dept. that, by their accounting, I still owe them almost four thousand dollars. They changed something in my return (which I don't understand and will have to find out about) and also charged me a whopping penalty, based on that extra amount, for filing late.
We're not going to lose the farm or anything. And, at least so far, DH isn't freaking although that could change if it turns out I have to pay the whole thing.
Nevertheless, I keep getting reminders from the universe about how petty that all is. People losing loved ones, their homes, their health. I need to really remember how extremely fortunate I am and, really, how well everything is going in my life.
Anyway, just feeling sad. Maybe this is what I've been trying to fend off with extra feedings? Probably. So. Plan is just to feel it. I think I need to take some breaks from work to do some housework, because sitting at the computer is not helping a bit. Well, there's my plan for the day work, interspersed with housework.
Anagram, girding loins for the fresh attack on the gates of Onederland. I might post a separate thread to help focus.
WSW, how goes it?
:queen:lies all, let's take this day that we've been given and make it work.
08-14-2008, 10:35 PM
have another stupid cold, and quite a few attendant "ms technical difficulties, " so hadn't been around for a while.
coughing a lot, and throat still pretty sore, so have been downing a lot of herbal tea, which i am doing at this moment. want to respond to everyone, but really tired. will be back to do that tomorrow, or very soon, anyway. i did want to mention one thing that really tickled me earlier this evening. i had just logged on to my computer, and was checking the weather in nairobi (where my friend is now on a business trip.) just as i was checking the time, weather in nairobi-which was the middle of the night there, my friend logged on to his instant messenger, saw that i was online and im'd me! it was was 3am his time, so naturally i was surprised to hear from him. of course, i was sorry that he was having trouble sleeping, but it was so nice to hear from him just then. i was really tired myself, and was actually on my way to bed, but thought i would just check my emails quickly, and he had the same idea at the same time on the other side of the world. it was a nice reminder about how good it feels to be on the same wavelength with the folks we care about and love, no matter how far away they might be. well, i really am on my way to bed now. thinking of you all, dear and wonderful royals, and that has put a big smile on my face. :) take care, everyone. nighty-night.
08-15-2008, 07:25 AM
And yea, though I have still a shipload of work to do, I am happy.
Also despite 213 on the scale this a.m. I've had 2 good days but ate hummus & salad for lunch yesterday and brown rice spaghetti and salad for dinner. And both those things seem to give me temporary gains.
WSW, isn't IM wonderful for that kind of thing! It's so exciting to have these impromptu visits with people that aren't close enough to see in person.
I just got a Facebook notice that someone'd tagged me in a photo and saw a staff Christmas party from '94 with so many familiar faces. One a dear friend who died about 10 years ago. Brought a tear to my eye because I still miss him but it was good to feel that little reconnect.
Sometimes, I love the Internet :love:
Andria, how are you doing, Honey? :hug:
Anagram, painters painting?
Kat, yikes, your trip is coming right up!
I do have to apply my nose to the grindstone but wanted to pop in and wish :queen:lies a good Friday. Let's take this day that we've been given and see what we can make of it. Love to all, in Palace or on Walkabout...
08-15-2008, 05:53 PM
Thank you all for your support!
I flew out Tuesday to see my mom, and I'm still at the hospital with her. It has been a really good choice on my part. I'll be heading back home tomorrow, and I'll give a much better update then.
BTW, there is a wonderful meditation room just down the hall from here, and they have also built two beautiful garden areas for patients and their families. :) I'm taking advantage as I can.
08-15-2008, 10:04 PM
arabella-hope your heavy workload today did not dampen your good spirits. the internet sure can be terrific at times. i found an old family friend by googling his name quite a few years back, and we have been emailing ever since. it was so neat to reconnect with him after such a long time. we had lived on the same block, and our dads had been friends and tennis partners.
andria- glad you were able to fly out and see your mom. have a safe trip back home.
kaylets-i hope weather has been cooperating so that you and dh are able to bicycle more regularly. there have been a lot of electrical storms here too over the past couple of months. it's probably not any worse here than most summers, but it sure seems as though there have been more storms than usual, anyway. i liked the most recent thought of the day you posted.
anagram-"stay calm" is a most helpful mantra indeed. hope you are feeling less stressed and more peaceful. i certainly understand what a huge toll constant stress can exact. hope your painter arrived, and all went well today. those recent outdoor concerts sounded like they must have been very pleasant. i don't know why i have been feeling so nostalgic lately, but i was remembering going to outdoor concerts as a child in minneapolis. in the summer, there were free outdoor concerts by the lake, which i fondly remember attending.
kat-when do you leave for your trip? a very, very belated happy anniversary, by the way.
ceara-hi. how are things going in your neck of the woods?
i have continued with dainty portions and have been exercising as much as possible, a chest cold and various assorted technical difficulties notwithstanding, which i am pleased about. usually when i have a cold, i want to eat more, rather than less than my usual food plan allows (sadly.) ah well. the good news is i didn't give in to it. in the past almost 2 months, i have lost 11 pounds. i am trying to keep my eye on the prize, and not get bogged down with how far i still have to go. this is not always the easiest for me to accomplish, but a worthy goal nonetheless.
i looked at some old journals today. i had found them when i was cleaning out some drawers, and i flipped through a few. it was kind of interesting seeing where i was in my life at different times. i had almost forgotten how many years i have been writing in a journal---actually on and off since i was in college. i haven't kept all of them, but found i had a lot more than i had realized. well, i have gone on long enough, and i need to hit the sack. take care, dear royals. have a good weekend.
08-16-2008, 09:09 AM
213. Salt and a late dinner the culprits this time. :rolleyes: I've had three good days in a row now. Nevertheless, I am going to have to start pushing harder to get things moving in the right direction. I'm thinking journaling food...
I had an odd morning yesterday. The work stuff was very pressing, and continues to be, technical issues (not mine) causing problems. It was the day of a big annual parade that goes right past my house and usually I invite family over for the parade and lunch afterwards. This year, because of the work stuff, I didn't invite people. Nevertheless, a lot of people showed up (not, thankfully, expecting lunch but there for the parade). However, DGS wasn't there because I hadn't arranged for it, nor was DS.
And I found myself very tearful, missing the experience of that annual ritual... I had to mostly work through the parade anyway but went out to watch for a few minutes here and there and then would end up coming back into the house in tears.
For some reason, the parade usually makes me tearful. I haven't really worked out why that is completely but this year was painful for me and I had to come to terms with the whole thing by purposefully letting it go and deciding that next year I'll have a big party on that day.
It's something to do with celebrating being together, seeing the kids getting older, seeing changes in the family over the last year. I think something about the compactness of the event (no big build-up, like other occasions), the brevity and intensity. All seems like a metaphor for life, somehow.
Anyway, this probably sounds like a big fuss over nothing much but it felt like more. And I felt better for feeling it all and getting through it.
Whew. I seem to be going through some kind of emotional period. I expect it's healthy, though, and necessary. Hanging on... In some ways, I really feel like it's partially facing up to reality, growing up. I've had dreams that seem to indicate that's the case.
I feel like I'm coming to terms with the necessity of suffering pain in this life, understanding that we often need to experience pain to learn and grow. I'm sure that I've spent too much of my life trying to avoid feeling pain.
Funny how these things seem like revelations no matter how many times they recur. :rolleyes:
WSW, what a lovely long note! :) I'm so sorry you've been hit with another stupid cold when you'd just barely recovered from the last one. Darned opportunistic bugs will hit you when you're down, for sure.
Do you do Facebook? I've connected with a lot of people through it. I just love having that kind of casual connection possible, little glimpses into people's lives, being able to send people brief little communications, keep in touch.
:queen:lies, all, let's make this a good one!
08-16-2008, 04:16 PM
What a day yesterday was! And maybe the prescient cause of my stress the day before?
Shortly after Thursday's post, I had a call from a neighbor saying she was ill (virus, according to dr's office) and could I pick up some things for her. Sure and I checked in through out the day including telling her in last call, I'd be happy to hear from her at any time throughout the night and would gladly take her to ER if necessary. I heard from her at 5:50 yesterday morning, took her to ER and she died at 5:20 last evening. All 115 pounds of her who walked her dog long distances every day and who is five years younger than I.
So then there were the phone calls to neighbors (all her son came up with for me to do so far) and then the calls/visits again so far today. Her son is over at the house now and told me yesterday he'll stop by before he leaves again - hopefully to give me info on arrangements.
And, yes, in the middle of all of this, the painters came and are still here but about to finish up. Strange how life does, as you say WN, find ways to keep us in perspective.
So, while I read many things I want to respond to, I'm putting them on hold until I'm feeling a little less loopy. I thought I wasn't feeling/reacting in an expected way but realized this afternoon when people started calling to see how I'm doing that I'm in a bit of a shock/numbness and if I'm feeling loopy, it's ok.
It is so wonderful, wsw, that you were able to hold fast and lose 11 pounds, Pauling perils and all. I'm hoping to hold at least semi-fast and not use all this as a food reason.
Andria, so glad you were able to see Mom. So important and I'm sure a lot of past things are now trivial. This neighbor's one son has not spoken to her for years but I suspect one of the cars at the house now is his.............At least I hope he'll be there for his brother.
I think I'm welcoming Mr. Full Moon and maybe with a leetle Scotch once painters leave and calls slow down............................
08-17-2008, 08:04 AM
213.8. Seemingly, continuing to edge upwards but something's gotta give. Four good days in a row. My eyes are puffy, so I guess I've got more water in me than I need. So, of course, I'm going to need to drink more of it today :shrug:
Just watching some of the Womens' Marathon here -- holy smokes, running the way they do and not an ounce of jiggle anywhere. :rolleyes: Not that I'd ever aspire to that but... I like to imagine what it would be like. Gosh, they're like cheetahs!
We had incredible torrents of rain here last night. Just pouring -- I don't think I've ever seen the street with so much water in it. Today there's supposed to be some sunshine. We've been deprived, as I guess most us east coasters have been.
Anagram, :hug: What an experience! How difficult for you but how wonderful that you could be there for your neighbour in her time of need. What a blessing. I bet that does explain your free-floating anxiety the day before, too. Must have been a little surreal having the painters there at the same time.
Andria, how are you doing?
WSW, 11 pounds in two months? How did I miss that? :balloons: Woo-hoo for you! :woohoo:
Kaylets, hope stress is abating in your corner of the palace.
Kat, you must be starting to prepare for your trip. Exciting!
Well, I'm going to get me another :coffee: and then DH and I will be heading out for our big Sunday walk.
Love to all!
08-17-2008, 04:55 PM
arabella and anagram-thanks for the support! :) those 11 pounds were very hard-fought indeed.
arabella- your perserverance will pay off soon, and the scale will reflect your royal effort in no time----- i just know it. i understand about feeling wistful, as you described when watching the parade the other day. it is so important to allow those feelings and not try to push them away. it is great that you were able to honor those sad feelings as they came up. not an easy task, by any means! hope you and dh enjoyed your sunday walk.
anagram-i am so sorry to hear about the loss of your neighbor. it is good that you were able to help her out, as you did. it must have been a terrible shock for you. please be sweet and gentle with yourself. sending you lots of hugs and good thoughts.
hi kat, andria, kaylets, ceara!
not much energy so have had to lay low this weekend and try to knock out the rest of this cold. i watched some old movies, which i always enjoy, and listened to some good music while reading. i am wildly computer-challenged (very pitiful) , but i learned how to look up some songs i like on youtube, and was very proud of myself. i even saved a couple on my favorite website list. i know i must sound like i am still living in the 1800's, but for me, it was a pretty good accomplishment. :)
well, royals, i must away, and stratighten up my messy abode. take care, all.
08-18-2008, 01:08 AM
When I left Utah yesterday everything seemed like it was going well for my mother, but she had a huge downturn overnight, and she is back in the ICU again. This time she is bleeding internally and her liver is failing. They could go in and search for the causes, but that would be the third time she has been opened up this week. It also wouldn't be the last time this sort of thing would happen; the cancer has been very aggressive and is wreaking all sorts of havoc. My siblings and I decided that this would be the best time to ask the doctors to stop the extraordinary methods and only do things that will keep her comfortable. We just want her to be able to exit this world with some dignity instead of being drugged into a coma and breathing with a ventilator. It was a tough decision to make, because we all know our mom wanted to go out fighting tooth and nail. Today has been one of the hardest days of my life.
08-18-2008, 08:42 AM
Andria :hug: Bless you, Honey! I don't think that you and your siblings could have made any other decision. It would just be prolonging her suffering, the last thing that you want. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. :grouphug:
08-18-2008, 11:47 AM
Hugs to you, Andria. I also do not think there was really any other decision. I know it's is so difficult. I've had to do that several times and it was never easy even in those cases where that direction had been impessed on me many times. Plus just Friday I was with a young man who had to make that decision too. In that case, it probably would have made no real difference in time but would have inflicted more on the person involved for at least what few minutes she had left. Never, never easy.
207.8 this morning and, believe me, that's a real gift. No expecting to see it again tomorrow but Mr. Scale does his own thing sometimes. I needed the encouragement today.
Lovely weather again today as was the whole weekend. Only an eye dr. appt and a funeral on the schedule for this week at this point so my plan is to continue my relaxing program and let the more complete cleanup after the painter just get done slowly and one little thing at a time. Found some spots I will need to touch base with painter about but I like the color and think once things are spiffied, I'll be glad about the whole thing (as vs. glad it's finally (almost) done ).
:flow1: :flow2: :flow1:
08-18-2008, 09:06 PM
andria- sure sounds like the only decision you could have made, but that doesn't lessen how hard it must have been for you and your family. you are in my thoughts and prayers. try and take good care of yourself.
08-18-2008, 09:24 PM
anagram-glad the paint color is to your liking. :)
took a lot more effort today to eat daintily than it has in a while, but did, albeit very reluctantly, stick to my food plan. i can't believe how this summer has flown by, or the year, for that matter. it hit me when one friend who is a teacher, and another, who is in grad school, both reminded me that their school years have begun today. sometimes it really scares me how quickly time passes, and all the more reason to savor every percious moment. well, dear royals, thinking fondly of you all. take care.
08-19-2008, 09:37 AM
211.8. Subsiding... This is my fifth or sixth good day, so :devil: scale should be starting to back off, seeing I mean business. :dancer:
I've started a Onederland thread to help me focus on that goal and not "forget" how close it is and lose ground.
This is a bit of a bumpy time for me. The tax issues plus work issues both make me feel like doing whatever I can to avoid dealing. Hah. Three guesses what I'd use as a vehicle for avoidance? :hungry:
I felt yesterday like I was getting a cold, I'm sure thanks to the stress. Working on not getting it, though. I intend to look after myself very well today. I've already been working for three hours... time for my woggle!
Andria, how are you doing? Remember to treat your royal self with great and gentle care. :grouphug:
Anagram, what color did you go for? I'm still trying to get around to painting my bathroom ceiling and wainscoting (knotty pine right now :dz: ) and putting up one of those wallpaper trims that look like mouldings.
WSW, I'm always so impressed by how you manage to hang onto your dainty portions even when it comes down to a skirmish. Kudos! :encore:
This time passage phenomenon is really unsettling, I agree. And I feel like the less present I am in each day the faster it goes. So I'm consciously trying to pay attention, stop and smell the roses, gather the rosebuds... I must say, work and other commitments can really get in the way. :rolleyes: Nevertheless, we've got to fit in the stuff that makes life worthwhile. O/w, what's the point?
Kaylets, how are things in your wing of the Palace? Hope DS stress is abating. Missing those T + Q oD...
Kat, what's your departure date? 21st? Yikes! Have a fantastic trip!
K, :queen:lies, I must :running: and :yoga: Let's make this a good one!
08-19-2008, 09:39 PM
arabella-i saw your onederland thread too. i am too far away from that at this time to even qualify, methinks, but i did get inspired looking at that thread. see, all your hard work is paying off, and scale will keep moving ever downward.
so true about staying present in the day/moment as way of helping to not feel as though time is flying by (well, too swiftly, anyway.)
hope you were able to ward off that cold.
hope tax and work issues improve a.s.a.p!
still haven't been able to get out in past few days. hoping to tomorrow, though. ms technical difficulties more magnifiied when have cold, etc., but i just know i will be able to get out among 'em tomorrow. the more i get stuck inside, the more challenging it is to stay focused on food plan, but this is the time when i need to stand firm, and i will continue to do so, she said defiantly. :)
speaking of staying strong, i need to finish up some exercising for today, so i will get to it. greetings to all in the royal palace.
08-20-2008, 08:23 AM
Lovely, coolish fall morning. Good. Don't want miserable weather for funeral today.
I admire all of you who are able to stay focussed. I'm okay during day but doing a lot of mindless evening stuff. Yes, each evening I think "wow, another day gone" and usually don't feel there's enough to show for it though I think I'm go-going all day. Today I won't be. I'm going to polish dust off some woodwork, read two reports and go to the funeral. That's it. Anything else will be BONUS and completely unplanned.
The tax issue would have me really upset, Wood Nymph. Really. I was hit with an unexpected tax bill two years ago and just about took off into outer space. Fortunately, mine turned out to be relatively easily resolved in my favor but until it was.......................YIKES!
Hugs and prayers for you, andria, in this tough time.
Bon Voyage, kat - Kiss the Blarney stone for me! (Err, maybe not - I've heard some nasty stories re that but only AFTER I'd done the deed.)
So, it's time for breakfast and my tea is calling.........and I must yet check out the Onderland site.
08-20-2008, 02:33 PM
213. Still, not doing badly here at all. It will all go away again. Have to say, though, that I'm thinking of doing something SBish -- sugar busters, South Beach. Both work for me. I feel so much better when I focus on low-GI and don't overdo carbs. Not to mention the fact that I lose weight. :rolleyes:
I just got back from walking DH back to work and thence around the harbour. Very fallish here today -- cool, grey and blustery. I want some summer! I think it's supposed to warm up the next few days... :crossed:
Feeling a bit under the weather, I'm sure as a result of tax and job stress. I suspect that the tax situation is only going to be resolved by me paying the full amount but there's still some faint hope that they've made a mistake. In either case, I'll get it out of the way and get on with life.
Anagram, hope the funeral is okay and the rest of your day pleasant. What kind of reports are you reading?
WSW, it hasn't really turned into a cold, just a motley collection of symptoms and not feeling really well. Bah!
K, :queen:ies ... I'd best get some work done. Started at 6 this a.m. so I'm hoping to be able to sneak away earlier than usual. Yesterday was pretty much from 6 a.m. to 8 p.m.
Let's take this day and make it work for us!
08-20-2008, 05:09 PM
there is definitely no fall weather here. it is the usual hot and humid weather that easily continues through october. i hadn't been out in a few days+, and when i got out this afternoon to do some errands, i was almost surprised (duh!) when it felt so steamy and hot, hot, hot to me, after being in a/c for severaldays non-stop without having to brave the elements. of course, even with this heat, i would much rather have to deal with this than ice in winter, so i am not complaining at all. :)
sorry you're still not feeling tip-top, arabella.
anagram-hope it went ok(as possible, anyway) at the funeral today, and that the weather cooperated.
a friend who lives in ca emailed me some pix of his adorable little boys today. i always get such a kick out of that. they are growing so fast. gee, i can only imagine if i think that, time must go by like lightening for him, as a parent.
well, i was very grateful to be able to get out among 'em today, even if only to take care of some much needed errands. i have more on my list for tomorrow, also, and hopefully the novelty won't wear off by then. i am committing to staying op for dinner, and not overeating, which at this moment is sounding a bit too good to me. ok, need to make some phone calls. take care, one and all.
08-21-2008, 06:50 AM
Hello my friends.....
Dh's blood sugar continues to be erratic although he is seeimg some improvement. Thanks for your thoughts, it really does make a difference.
Rumors continue on job front...but from what I'm readiing, anyone in any kind of banking, mortgage, insurance, etc, etc, is looking over their shoulder.
I even saw a press release that one of those big, big outfits ( that we all thought had deep, deep pockets) was on a hiring freeze until further notice.
So I've stated putting out feelers, sorting through all my personal stuff on my desk( how did I wind up with so many sweaters, jackets, etc) so I at least know I am neat and tidy in that regard.
ANd yes, I too am handling all this in my favorite choice.....Not so bad input but the cravings are intense.
Hopefully, the weather will be good later this afternoon and DH and I can go bicycling... good for so many things
Anagram... I didnt read all the posts but saw mention of a funeral...I am so sorry to hear. My thoughts are with you.
And to the rest of my royal friends, I sorry I have to whine and run but its the truth at least. .....I am trying to be more proactive and worry less but this time around seems worse than the last..........
Here's the thought of the day:
Though of the day:
"The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny."
- Albert Ellis
Question of the day:
"Do you know how to fire a gun?"
08-21-2008, 08:05 AM
212.4. Next week, I'm hitting the beach. :yes: I've been doing well but not seeing those pounds falling off. And they pile on so easily!
Work a little better today. I got early morning stuff prepared ahead of time so it won't be like yesterday, when I was desperately trying to get things online until about 10.
Also, the sun is out today! I'm going to go for my woggle and then get spruced up. Meeting DH at the bank at 11 to discuss renegotiation of mortgage. Despite all financial reversals, we've been making progress and should have it paid off in another 5 years, all things being equal. Earlier if they're better than equal, which is my hope. ;)
Still feeling less than 100% but good enough to enjoy the day. So that's the plan.
Kaylets, ToD is such an important concept. As long as we blame anyone else for our issues, we're stuck, I think. Got to face up to our own responsibility for looking after things to make any progress.
QoD: :lol: Can just barely picture it, but the image strikes me as hilarious. I'm trying out Annie Oakley sharpshooter type images, slinky cool spy-type images, riding down dirt roads shooting out the window and yelling YAHOOO!!! type images.
Um, nope, I don't know how to fire a gun. Probably a good thing.
WSW, some days are like that, aren't they -- you just have "that feeling" from the get-go that although you're in control at the moment you'd just love to cut loose a little. Which, you know, is not such a bad thing to do once in a while. As long as the occasional doesn't turn into habitual, which is my problem sometimes.
K, :queen:ies -- Let's hit it! :carrot: :carrot: :carrot:
08-21-2008, 02:49 PM
Wow, I have missed so much...believe me, it was not for lack of trying! I've been staying over at work pretty much every day the last week and a half, came home exhausted, had some dental issues that needed to be resolved pre-trip, not to mention trying to prepare for the trip...WHICH STARTS TODAY! We're leaving for the airport around 4pm, flight isn't til 9ish, but we'll be heading straight into rush hour traffic on our way to JFK.
I'm so sorry to hear about your Mom, andria... sound like you've made the best choice, given what she's been through and what she faces. I wish I could give you a 'real life' big hug and tell you it's going to be okay. Hang in there, my friend.
There's so much I need to catch up on, I can't even begin to do individual replies. I still have to get in the shower! DH is bringing his laptop, (cuz he loves having too much stuff to lug around) so I might be able to sneak a post in from across the pond! If not, I'll "see" you all when I get back! :wave:
PS... no, I am no where NEAR my goal! The Run for the Shamrocks kind of... um...ran away from me! More like I from it! Hovering at 268 still, so maybe with all the hiking and biking and touring I plan on doing and the lack of good food (from what I'm told!) I might survive this trip with a bit of a loss after all!
Take care all...
08-22-2008, 09:16 AM
That lack of good food is a vicious rumor, kat. LOVED the salmon. It's not fancy food but the quality of it all was great when I was there. Be sure to include food data in your report. Have a great one - though I know you're there already!
wsw, I too am glad you're able to get out and about. Pace, pace, pace.
andria, warm thoughts beaming out to you at this difficult time.
Sorry to hear dh's sugar erratic again. Always difficult. And the job uncertainty adds so much tension. Yes, I know "our best friend" in these moments too well. The funeral was of a neighbor whom I had taken to ER last Friday and was with when she died (her son had just gotten there too - one of those "I think she was waiting for him" things).
With you again, Wood Nymph. Had an overnight increase of almost four pounds. While I know it will go down, sometimes these increases stay with me a long time and I always feel so puffy. Glad your weather has improved. Ours has been incredible. Very fall like mornings, warm (and starting to get too warm) afternoons.
Nope, don't know how to fire a gun. Would probably shoot myself in the foot which I always try to avoid doing in any circumstance.
Funeral was ok - lots of neighbors there. Estranged son was there and I was glad for his brother's sake. They've been working together on stuff, I think. They buried her next to her first husband, their father. Best for them, I think. And I don't think she'd mind a bit. She'd been having some regrets, I think, about that divorce (and maybe the twists and turns her life took) in the last couple of years. Many wanted to know details of last day, etc. as it was such a shock. Also gave me chance to clear up any misconceptions (was it a heart attack, etc?). I'm still picking up mail but that won't last much longer and then it will be more or less over. Hard to believe it's only a week ago - a very disconcerting week.
But there is good news, sort of. If they can find the car I want, I'll be getting a new car by next week. If they can't, well there's nothing wrong with my old one. And I can try again in a few months or whenever. I'm just being good to me ;) and hearing DH in my ear saying "go for it". Good to still be able to blame him for some things.
Starving so I'm off for tea and brekkie and then, hopefully, a MAH-VELOUS day. Wishing you all the same.
08-22-2008, 01:14 PM
This week has been a week and a half, so I am not sorry to see the end of it. We're supposed to have summer-like weather on the weekend so I'm going to try to talk DH into going to the beach. He always says there's too much to get done around the house but... you know, summer -- and life -- can pass us right by. I feel like a grasshopper married to an ant. Not to mention working as one.
Had a nice visit with DGS last night. When his mom dropped him off she was telling us that she was going to put him in cub scouts and tae kwan do, both of which would be fantastic for him. He's got a lot of energy and needs to channel it. The more sports the better, I think. He's a natural gymnast and would always rather run than walk.
Kat, glad you got a chance to stop by before you left. Sending you bon voyage wishes and hope your trip is a blast. A restful blast.
Anagram, glad DH can still be a bad influence ;)
K, I'm going to see what I can get done this aft to make my weekend nicer. Happy Friday, all!
08-23-2008, 08:37 AM
214. Yes, 214. Some combination of whatever little bug I've got going and the 4 pieces of sugar-free chocolate-peanut butter fudge I ate yesterday. Which I also blame on the bug -- and work, which prevented me from either escaping out into the sunshine or going back to bed. :rolleyes: Nevertheless, must get a grip.
Gorgeous day here -- I've got sheets in the wash to go out on the line and am preparing (Read: :cof2: ) to go out for my woggle. If I'm up to it this afternoon I'm going to head to the beach, even if DH won't come with me.
Hope all :queen:ies have a splendid Saturday!
08-23-2008, 11:39 AM
Hope you make the beach, Arabella. sounds good to me. I'm having trouble getting my RB (Royal Behind) in gear today so am going to go to the patio for a while and enjoy the beautiful morning by communing with nature a little bit.
Mr. Scale said 208 this a.m. which made me happy - I've been all over the place this week while trying to be much better about choices. We'll see. I could really beat me up for my behavior during a few of those late winter months.
Instead I'll be kind to me - I'm getting much better at that part, if nothing else.
212.2. South Beach will do it for me, I know. It always works, always makes me feel good. Once a queen has gotten her head around not eating bread and baked goods in any case, letting potatoes, rice and pasta go for a couple of weeks is not such a big deal. (HELLO LENTILS! And of course, our stalwart friend the chickpea.)
Full-bore start is tomorrow but I've begun easing into it. Having Mexican-spiced lentil semi-mash with salsa and avocado and poached eggs on top for brekkies. Sort of an SB version of huevos rancheros. I've come across some great-sounding SB recipes. Getting excited about this whole thing again!
It's another beautiful day. I slept close to nine hours last night and feel better for it. DH and I walked five miles and I've done a set of tai chi. I've extracted a solemn promise from him that we'll go to the beach today... and if he renegs I will go by myself -- with no assurances about what time I'll come back, dinner bedanged. :s:
Anagram, I'll be excited to get back down to that territory again, too. Soon, soon. And then we'll go lower. Onward and downward, as our old friend Amarantha used to say.
Speaking of whom... I took a look for the Empress and goddess-training-Eydie the other day and spotted them in yon realm. It appears that The Empress is weighing in around 126 these days, shooting for 120. And Eydie is achieving her dream of becoming a fitness coach. She just had three requests to teach classes in one day, I think. Marvelous success. :)
I really did just lurk and didn't pop in to say hello yet, although I'll probably do that. I miss all our :queen:lies that have passed through the palace and moved on.
DH just about has breakfast ready, so away I must. Hello to all queenies, sending good thoughts your way. Let's take this day that we've been given and celebrate!
08-24-2008, 11:34 AM
A day at the beach is a most fitting way to begin the South Beach regimen, methinks. Hope DH accompanies your Regal Highness and that you both have a truly splendiferous time - and yes, dinner be danged.
Wonder often re the two Wandering Royals you mentioned. Wonderful news re the Empress' number. And Eydie's stepping out of the box and becoming a fitness coach. Can't think of a more knowledgeable one than she and/or the Empress would make.
Through another gift from Mr. Scale, I was at 206.4 today and in total shock. It won't last with the upsies/downsies but I was glad to see it in any event as a downward trend sure beats the opposite.
Nothing much on tap today. Daubed paint on a few spots I was not happy with and am thinking of moving my plants inside a little early to see what total effect will be. I really was off my game yesterday in a strange way but I too had a good night's sleep (though not as wonderful as yours, Arabella - that should do wonders for you) and feel better today.
I do have a little inspirational story I'd like to share. Yesterday a neighbor called whom I've known of but never really spoken to. She has been for many years a fitness advocate and power-walked miles every day. She told me she is 83 years old now - yes, 83 - and still walks her six miles a day at 5:00 a.m. but now she does it with a CANE. I am just so amazed that she hasn't cut back the distance or anything and, yes, I'm amazed that at 83 she can walk that far even with a cane. Wow!
:flow2: :flow2: :belly: :flow2: :flow2:
08-25-2008, 12:31 PM
Yikes - 205.8 this morning. How encouraging (even if I don't quite believe it).
A great day for good news! Dear friend and neighbor got his kidney transplant yesterday and I'm floating on air over that. It's been a long wait (and it is his second so it's been an even longer battle).
08-25-2008, 12:48 PM
We made it to the beach yesterday and I stayed in the water for so long I was starting to get pruny. The water was a little on the refreshing side but totally viable. Doesn't look like much more beach weather this week but maybe next. You never know!
Didn't sleep very well last night. I worked before I went to bed and that often causes me problems. Speaking of work... ugh. I was stressed out within 10 minutes of starting work this morning. Now I've been at it for just about six hours and I begin to understand how work is affecting my life (that is, sapping the life out of me).
Nevertheless, on we go. South Beach has begun and some weight loss will cheer me up. And I've got a scheme going to help me make work more livable, involving closing out my email program except for a few times through the day, closing down instant messaging.
Anagram, your neighbour's walking really is inspiring. Six miles with a cane is amazing. Makes me want to get myself up to peak condition and then just keep doing everything. I guess that's the plan!
K, the most frantic part of the day is over. Will try to get some stuff caught up this afternoon, go for that walk that I didn't manage to get out for yet.
08-25-2008, 12:50 PM
Anagram! We simulposted (or I had my window open for several hours, maybe). Congrats on the WI -- you're smokin'!
08-25-2008, 07:50 PM
anagram-way to go--- you are sailing on down to onederland! that is wonderful that your neighbor friend received his kidney transplant yesterday.
arabella-glad to hear you and dh got to the beach yesterday. i love the beach too. sounds like a smart scheme you have to make work less stressful.
glad to hear amarantha and eydie are doing well. i think of them often.
i was thinking about you today, arabella, when you said you didn't sleep well last night. you know i sympathize(!), since i often have trouble sleeping, as i did last night too. i remembered learning about some meditation cd's from you a long while back, and i listened to one today, which i had not done in all too long a time. it really helped, and i will make more of an effort to keep up with this consistenly again.
kaylets- hope dh's blood sugar becomes less eratic and continues to show increasing improvement. sounds smart to be putting out feelers on job market, what with rumors continuing on job front. with all that stress, no wonder cravings have been intense at times. sending very calming and positive thoughts your way.
andria-sending you lots of hugs and good thoughts at this
kat-i hope you are having a grand time on your trip! :) will look forward to hearing about your vacation.
ceara-royal greetings. hope life is going well in your neck of the woods.
starting tomorrow and for the remainder of the week, i have quite a few appointments, so today did some of my chores around the house, including some paperwork, which i never seem to enjoy. after i got my least favorite things done, i looked at some old pictures, which i did enjoy. i also got pretty productive, and organized some shelves and cupboards which had needed it. i don't why, but i always feel good about being more organized. maybe it is just because i can find things easier, but it also makes me weed out the unecessary, and in my small space, that is pretty important. well, i seem to be on a baby plateau, and am hoping that it will break soon. i am standing firm with dainty and healthy portions--yes, i am!
a royal good evening to all our palace dwellers. take care, everyone.
08-25-2008, 11:47 PM
Thank you all. I've been sneaking in to the palace for quick reads, but there has been so little time or energy for posting between family matters and getting ready for school.
Mom did wait until my brother got back from China. They spent time together Sunday morning, and she passed away last night. I wasn't able to be there physically, but my siblings had me there on cell phone the entire time. It helped a lot, but I think I'll always somewhat regret my choice to be here with my own family. I just feel kind of distanced and lost right now, while they seem to have a sense of purpose.
Today was my first day at school. The students were great, and I can see us having a lot of fun together this year. They even sounded interested in some of the projects I have planned.
Food has been good, if a bit scarce. I've been too distracted to remember to eat a lot of the time. I'm trying to pay more attention to taking care of myself because it is going to be necessary. The school day is long and really exhausting!
We'll be flying out Thursday for the funeral. I'll try to make it back before then, but please understand if I don't.
08-26-2008, 11:06 AM
Oh, Andria, my deepest condolences! Of course, you feel lost and isolated but going for the funeral will help. And remember, you were just out there when you could have somewhat better time.
And it will be hard enough to be away the first week of school much less the first day! Hugs to you - you'll be getting good vibes from the palace.
And yes, for many reasons, take care of yourself.
206 this morning. I'm still a happy camper. Expected a 208 or so - and even that would have been ok.
Beautiful weather here so I'm going out in it for a bit. Haven't heard that they've found the car I asked for yet so I'm suspecting I won't be getting a new one right now as I won't be buying one once the $500 rebate is gone (unless they come out with a $1000 one ;) - was just being nice to me. They may still come through but I'm "adjusting" just in case.
Glad you got to beach, Arabella. Hope you make it a few more times. And, wsw, you are reminding me of the many places that need organizing here. I think later today I'll do a shelf or two in the garage as trash pickup is tomorrow. Kitchen and bathroom shelves in MUCH need. I must remind me constantly that I can do one at a time and it will get done just as well (or better) than if I make a PROJECT of it.
So on with the day (and the week)...............
:flow1: :belly: :flow1: :belly: :flow1:
08-26-2008, 11:49 AM
Andria, thanks so much for letting us know! Remember we're all with you and thinking of you now. :grouphug: I'm glad your mom didn't linger, and that you got the chance to see her before she went. Remember to be gentle to yourself now. I know it will be hard with school started but try to take a little time when you can.
213.2 this morning. Salt, I'm thinking. Gosh, sooner or later it's got to go. Right? And do you know who I take the matter up with if it doesn't?
Anagram, I'm so with you on that "project" thing -- actually keeps me from starting. Instead of taking a few minutes here and there and restoring order a bit at a time. I ask you: Does this clutter make my butt look big? I'm afraid the answer is "Yup."
WSW, we were in sync last night. I was ready to throw in the towel and have a drink but decided to meditate instead. And slept like a baby...
:queen:lies, let's take this day that we've been given and make the most of it.
08-27-2008, 07:19 AM
I am so overwhelmed! School and paperwork and forms to turn in and forms to fill out and and and... That isn't counting stuff I'm trying to wrap my head around with mom and funeral and flying out. I woke up at 3:30 this morning because I realized I couldn't sleep anymore from thinking about everything that actually does have to be done today. My siblings are trying to put extra pressure on to help them out with funeral service planning, but I had to draw a line. They are still pushing for me to write the obituary, but I finally got them to understand (I think) that I can't write it myself. Each one of us had a different relationship with our mother, and we all need to express that side of her that we know.
Anyhow, I had to come somewhere to let out a little scream before I go back to trying to finish my lessons for today and then get back to figuring out what the heck to have the substitute do with my classes.
The only thing behaving nicely at this point in time is the scale. 301 this morning. I will count it if it is still there when I return from Utah.
By the way, I am reading and thinking of all of you. I'll get off this mememe kick after I get back. Promise!
08-27-2008, 08:39 AM
211.2. So. Down 2 from yesterday (bounce bounce) but still up 4 from ticker. Gosh, I remember when the number started heading back up from 207 and I laughed, ha ha ha, at those temporary fluffies. Who is laughing now? :dance:
Nevertheless, perseverence will pay off. Completed two days of SB. Fought impulse towards a glass of wine again last night. The true test might be the weekend.
Andria, if ever there was a time for mememe, it's now. You're under so much pressure, I can just barely imagine. Usually when there's a death in the family, work just goes on hold. Starting a new job at the same time? Wow.
But how wonderful to be at the big milestone! You'll probably just slip on under and keep going. Not the way it usually goes but so much the better way. I remember when my dad died, a cousin who was there to drop off food said that she'd learned when her FIL died that "You can always eat" and that it had been such a comfort to her. But she had gained a LOT of weight, had never been heavy and now was. And it sure doesn't help in the long run.
Honey, keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. :hug:
It's a beautiful day out there and I am looking forward to a four-day weekend. I shall let nothing stand in my way!
Let's get out there and make this day work for us.
08-27-2008, 10:04 AM
Omigosh, andria, of course, this is a mememe time! Yes, most people at a time like this would have coworkers stepping in to cover, support, and you're just TOO new at this job. Fate has not been kind.
Well, Arabella, I ate out last night and the food was just exuding salt. Good otherwise and I realize my tastebuds are too keen on the tasting salt side. But I don't think I'm going to weigh in today. Yes, I laughed and scoffed at those "temporary" fluffies too. I'm afraid they've had the last laugh. Glad SB is going well.
I'm not as good at meditating either as I used to be. But I do take my time on the PoP&C every day. Several times sometimes. And it was especially boo-ful again this coolish a.m. Maybe I'll try a park walk today. been ignoring that in the heat but will pick it up come the fall color time.
Tai chi'd Monday, Fitness Centered yesterday. Feeling almost bouncy right now. Threw away a couple of little things in garage. Packed up a few more of DSs childhood things he can't part with (and DH's old softball glove for him), cleaned off an 8 foot shelf. Am going out (once I don oldest clothes) and sort out paints. Looks better already ;)
So - up I get from the computer. It too needs so much cleanup - the story of my life - and yet, compared to last year -----------------dining room is so much neater. LR, kitchen, hall/foyer painted - so there has been some progress. We must always look at the good things too.....................
Cheerios - no, not breakfast (mine was Slimfast to help counteract salt). I'm feeling a mite Brit this a.m. for some reason.
WONDERFUL WEIGHTDOWN WEDNESDAY
08-28-2008, 07:42 AM
210.6. SB going well.
I'm going to stay at a cottage with my mom and one of my sisters tonight. Sis said yesterday what a lovely indulgent time they're having so I'm going to have my guard up. It'll help me keep my head on straight for the weekend ;)
I got the tax issue settled yesterday. It turned out that I hadn't made an error (other than filing late and not having put enough into installments in the first place). They had taken money out of the account I paid it into and moved it to installments for this year. So I ended up owing under $2 thousand, instead of almost $4 thousand. This is good.
I must say, DH was very good about the whole thing, didn't freak out on me, stayed calm. This is good, too. :)
Four day weekend coming up. Do I need it!
Andria :hug: I'll be thinking of you. I hope your trip is good and that all goes well.
Anagram, that's the attitude -- progress, not perfection! I'm becoming increasingly aware that perfectionism is behind ... well, behind me sitting on mine a lot of the time instead of taking action. I get overwhelmed by the big picture and do nothing instead of a little bit. Yesterday I found myself attacking little areas of clutter or grime that I found myself in contact with. If I can just continue, my house will eventually be clean.
I'd best put on my boogie shoes and get out there and woggle. (Quite an image, eh wot?)
Love to all :queen:lies
08-28-2008, 10:11 AM
andria, dear - please accept my heartfelt condolences for the loss of your mom. this sure is the time and the place for me me posting here. we are all sending you lots of love and hugs. with the start of school and all that work and preparation, and having to deal with such a huge loss, and now traveling for the funeral, no wonder you couldn't sleep. please be very sweet and gentle with yourself. we are all here for you.
08-29-2008, 09:51 PM
arabella-glad to hear tax issue has been settled, and that it turned out better than originally was thought. tax issues are soooo stressful. must be a load off your mind at the start of your holiday weekend. good too that dh took it all in stride.
glad to hear that sb is going well, and that scale is moving downward for you.
anagram- kudos on all that tai chi, fitness center exercising, and all the cleaning out, packing up of things--impressive.
i am trying to keep up with doing a bit at a time of more projects around the house too. in my case, it is a verrrry little bit at a time, but it does add up to getting things done, and that always feels good.
good thoughts your way, andria.
hi kaylets, kat, and ceara!
have a kidney infection so not feeling too hot, but got all my appointments out of the way this past week, which was good. scale seems to be a bit stuck, but remaining on food plan, and know it will go down. have been watching some of the tennis open. i used to keep up with it a lot more, i realize, because so many players i don't know about. way, way back in my youth, i used to love to play tennis. ok, well, i am sleepy now, and am going to crawl in to bed. thinking of you all, royals. take care.
08-30-2008, 09:11 AM
212.6. Easy as falling off a log, apparently. Not that I did anything catastrophic but ... yeah, off the beach again. Totally frazzled at the end of the day on Thursday, things not going my way and when I headed out to the cottage I picked up a nice cold bottle of white wine. Had a few glasses and then two tiny pieces of chocolate. More frazzlement the next day packing up the cottage to head home and unpacking it into my mon's house, taking her for groceries and... when I put her groceries away I ate two pieces of PB choc. fudge in her fridge. Then for dinner I had a few oven-baked sweet potato fries. So definitely not on the beach. I did, however, get an extra 3.5 thousand steps.
Aaaaaaanyway... I crumbled under pressure. And I'm not sure whether I'll start SB again today or tomorrow, but definitely no sugar. Nuh-uh.
The cottage was not quite what the doctor ordered. The only access to the bathroom was through my bedroom, my mom needed a light on to guide her there and the alarm clock was accidentally set to go off at 6 so I didn't get the greatest sleep.
And when I arrived in frazzled state, they were in the main house having dinner with my sister's friends (who they were renting the cottage from). I'd been counting on a relaxing evening with my mom and my sister.
Later we all had a game of Balderdash, though and that was fun. I feel like these things are so petty but I found myself thinking I would have been better off staying home.
I did have a nice visit with my mom in the morning, though, and that's worth a lot.
Sorry to go on so much about my little trials. Silly! I need to be better at adjusting my attitude.
WSW, sorry about that kidney infection! Take good care of yourself! Hope it clears up soon :hug:
K, 'tis Saturday of the long weekend so I shall rejoice! :cb: :cb: DH and I are going to hunt for a new chair for the livingroom, our indulgence from his mom's estate (most of which, sensibly, went to paying on the mortgage). He asked me what I wanted and I said I want something either big enough to curl up in or that has an ottoman. He likes very solid furniture, so I feel like we don't have a single spot to sit in our house that I would really classify as comfortable.
He's not a curler-upper but I feel like everything we've got (all 20+ years, old, as well) suits him so we should be able to have one chair that suits me. :queen:
Hello to all Queenies, in the Palace or on walkabout! :wave: Let's make this day work for us!
08-30-2008, 07:02 PM
arabella-sorry to hear time on way to, and at cottage was frazzling, instead of relaxing. nice that you had a good visit with your mom, at least. hope you and dh find a snuggly, comfortable chair for your living room. spots for curling up are very important. i have a regular size couch and love seat that are very good for curling up, and though they are old, they are still very comfy and inviting.
having to take it easy today physically, but i did get out this morning for a little bit, and was glad that i could. my friend is back in town from nairobi. he is tired from the plane trips home, but is safe and sound at home getting some rest today. he emailed pictures of some elelphants, including an adorable baby elephant, which he saw last weekend at one of the national parks in kenya. i just loved hearing about, and seeing all the pictures of the countryside and wildlife in kenya. i would have loved to have traveled a lot internationally, and can completely understand why he enjoys it so much.
another good friend of mine was in a car accident on monday. fortunately, he was not hurt, but i know how scary it is, and i am so grateful he is ok!
i had a couple of moral victories this past week, which i felt good about. i took care of some yucky paperwork, and was assertive about not getting roped in to doing something i did not want to do. the latter especially makes me laugh at myself, because i am 55 years old, and still have trouble saying no at times, but i am a work in progress, and was proud of myself regarding how well i handled what could have been a sticky situation and to my detriment had i not been assertive. greetings from my wing of the palace to all our dear royals. take care, everyone.
09-01-2008, 09:59 AM
209.8. I WILL get back to ticker this week. And then, really, it's just a hop, skip 'n' jump down to Onederland. :cp:
Somebody's car alarm was going off here for about an hour and a half, starting at 6. I was awake, but... that's not what you want as background for first :coffee: of the day. I finally called the police and they came and did something, because it stopped.
We've got our best friend couple coming for dinner this evening. Too bad it's a "school night"! We'll eat earlyish so we can push them out the door by 8 or so. They're both retired and even though they know we get up at 5 it doesn't seem to register. I guess I can understand -- hard concept for me to grasp, too!
WSW, how nice for you to have your friend back in town! He does come back and forth a bit, doesn't he. How's the kidney infection? Feeling any better?
Congrats on your moral victories! I've got a real problem with impulsively saying yes (in fact, that's sort-of why we're having our friends in tonight -- when they couldn't come either of the other nights I suggested tonight. Time for me to change my attitude -- they're coming and I will enjoy them.). I need to learn to say "Can I get back to you?" and then THINK!
Andria, I hope you're home and having a recovery day! Remember to take care of yourself and remember you are loved. :hug:
Anagram, salt seems to do it for me these days more than it used to. Trying to cut back on salt but every time I taste something like feta my tastebuds throw a party.
Kaylets, how are things in your wing of the palace? Hope you're having a nice long weekend!
Kat, I'm thinking you must be back soonish. Looking forward to hearing about the trip!
Well, :queen:lies, I think I'll put my practice CD for The Messiah on and practice while I do some housework. Love to all!
09-01-2008, 08:11 PM
arabella-you are a hop, skip, and a jump from onederland now! woohoo!
bet that car alarm was a pain so early this morning, and for so long. hope you have a pleasant dinner this evening with your best friend couple.
feeling better today than yesterday, thanks, so things definitely going in the right direction. haven't been able to exercise too much, but that will change soon, and will be glad to get back to my regular routine.
well, salutations to all our lovely royals!
09-02-2008, 08:32 AM
213.2. I totally jettisoned my diet for dinner last night. Didn't go hog-wild but ate things like rye krisp with artichoke dip. Had two pieces of baclava for dessert (they ARE very small). Worse, in the midst of a perfectly good morning, I just nuked the 3 remaining pieces and had them for breakfast. They were little, and these pieces were breakfasty types -- semolina cake, a shredded wheat-nut thing. But low sugar? :no: Low carb? :no:
Best thing for me to do, I reckoned, was to pop right in here and confess -- after all, it's not the occasional "What diet?" meal that does in the weight loss efforts. No, it's the taking that and running with it. So here and now, I declare that I am only eating at the table when alone and only eating when I'm hungry. Calorie-wise, my breakfast would be within bounds. But I know I can't handle the sugar and wheat. So, here goes! Onward and downward! Hopefully swift recovery and lots of water will let me get back down again in short order. That's the perils of the daily weigh (and I did NOT want to report it :no: ). You see the bounce-ups. But if I don't, then one day not weighing in can become two and then three and before I know it I've gained 30 pounds. :dz:
Anyway, I'm not going to feel like I've destroyed my effort. Picking self up, dusting self off... Gorgeous fall-like day here. Sunny and cool. I'm going to pop the sheets into the washer to take advantage and have that lovely treat to look forward to at the end of the day.
WSW, there's a lot to be said for a good routine, I think. I need one myself, or I just lose all structure to my days. Seems to be a constant danger for me. That said, I'd better get those sheets in the washer and go for my woggle. So glad to hear you're on the road to recovery. :)
:wave: all Queenies! Let's make this a good one!
09-02-2008, 11:09 PM
arabella-it is definitely not the occasional meal that leads us astray. i sure do know what it is like to use that as an excuse to hop on a runaway train, and i will not get on that train, either. i didn't eat daintily at lunch today, and was thinking about how easy it would be to carry that through to dinner, but thought better of it, and hopped back on wagon. your post today really resonated with me. good for you! i was feeling discouraged because i am on a plateau, but started thinking about all my hard work this past 2 1/2 months, and that is what is important---the bigger picture. we can do this! :)
waaaaay past my bedtime, but wanted to check in and say hi. take care, all.
09-03-2008, 07:54 AM
212. I did manage to nip it in the bud yesterday. Had a few impulses but sternly kept myself to eating at the table, which is so helpful to me. It occurs to me that I pretty much live on a plateau, with occasional little dips and rises. :rolleyes:
Never mind. I know if I wasn't putting effort into this my weight would skyrocket.
I did have 4 Rye Krisp with some hummus at lunch. Evil? No, but I think the gluten affects me. I feel tired today so I'm going to make sure I don't take any in today.
WSW, it's just like I was saying somewhere else on the forums, sometimes there's just a certain kind of energy around. Yesterday I felt good, good mood, calm... but inclined to happily eat baklava for breakfast. Sort of a "Whoopee!" attitude. Yeah, we know where that leads us. And we're not going there. :nono:
Let's get out there and make this a good one, :queen:lies!
09-03-2008, 08:51 AM
Flying by really quickly, sort of waving at the palace and wishing I could stop in for a R&R...
Thank you for all your kind thoughts and well wishes. You have been more than :queen:s for me, to be sure.
The funeral was simply beautiful, and it was so comforting to be around all my siblings. I was able to bring home a couple of things that belonged to mom, and that is helping a bit as well. What I really need right now is time to take a day out and just cry, but school isn't going to allow for that. The paperwork behind the scenes is killing me, and all the meetings are sealing the deal. They don't warn you about this part.
On the good side, the weight seems to still be moving down. I guess it is because I am so busy? I'm not entirely sure, because I haven't been journaling the last couple of weeks. Anyway, the scale said 299 this morning. I'll wait a couple of days to see if it sticks, but have to tell you that it was shocking to not see a 3 as the first digit.
Arabella, love to hear you are pulling out Messiah practice stuff. It would be so much fun to be out singing with a group! And you know you are right about the effort keeping your weight steady instead of moving up. Keep steady. It will move the right direction again, and we're keeping our fingers crossed that it is sooner instead of later.
wsw, you mentioned plateaus, and I couldn't help thinking of the beautiful mesas back home. The view is so incredible up there, and maybe that is what a plateau is all about; we need to take a moment to enjoy where we are before we move on down again. The thought is kind of fuzzy, but maybe you get where I'm heading with it.
anagram, thank you for mentioning meditation and taking pride in the little things you are doing. It really reminded me to do the same for myself.
There are a zillion more things to say, but there is no time left to do so this morning. I'm still trying to sort out the mess the substitute left behind. I left it all in the middle of my desk when I walked out of the school at 6 last night. Just couldn't deal with one more thing, and figured it would still be there in the morning. Much easier to face some things with a fresh day behind me.
09-04-2008, 03:43 PM
Flying by here to bump us up. Awfully quiet in the Palace.
As might have been expected, since I had a plan to make work bearable, I got a whole pile of stuff loaded on me. Anyway, digging out from under.
Still plateauing -- and I've had it with this view! (although I loved the metaphor, Andria!)
Andria, the funeral sounds perfect. Odd concept, I know, but it's so meaningful and helpful.
I'm so excited for you getting to Twoterville! :woohoo: This really seems like a very significant time for you, with the passing of your mom and your new job too. Try to take a few moments for yourself, whenever you can. :hug:
Back to woik. DGS is due to arrive any moment, too. Must prepare!
09-06-2008, 12:06 PM
211.8. No mystery why I didn't lose the weight last week. Yesterday I ate a big bag of brown rice chips. I have to say, they were delish and not 100% :devil:ish but the whole bag was too much. Not that I felt that way, sadly, but calorie-wise. Around 800. Oooh, and must not forget that the day before I ate lots of blue corn chips and had a pint with my friends Ben & Jerry, if you get my drift. :dz: Sometimes I think those boys don't WANT me to stick to my diet.
Today I've started journaling and leaving my journal on the table so that I can't sneak eat and think it doesn't count. I was doing great when I did that before (that's when I lost the last chunk of weight). Why did I stop? :chin: Oh well, onward!
Feeling better physically and spiritually. I did my entire yoga sequence both yesterday and today. It's incredible how much difference it makes. I've been getting my 10k steps every day.
It's a beautiful day out there. Warm enough to take my tea out on the deck this morning, when lovely pink clouds were drifting across the sky and the leaves were rustling in the breeze. I thought "Why haven't I been doing this more often?" And then I remembered: :rain: August was the wettest month in recorded weather history here and I guess we're going to get torrents tomorrow, Hanna ganging up on us with a cold front called Gustav chasing her. Whatever. Today is gorgeous! :flow1:
I might take a ride out to the shore later today... wonder how chilly the water might be...
:wave: Hope all lovely :queen:lies are having a wonderful weekend. Love to all!
09-07-2008, 04:17 PM
I am one naughty :queen: and deserve a slap or two on the wrist. Have not been checking in regularly for some reason and am lucky not to have gained a ton or two as is my wont when I stray too long away. 207.8 this morning and I consider that a gift.
I'm glad you were able to get some comfort at the funeral and with your sibs, andria. Hopping right back to work too is no picnic. You will need that day to cry - even if it's in bits and pieces. But it's so wonderful you're seeing that 2 number. Hang in and hang on. You've had so many changes in such a short period of time - just go with the whirlwind as much as you can and, eventually, life will seem sort of "normal" ish again. Whatever your new "normal" will be.
Loved the mesa thought too - and maybe it would help to consider my long plateau a stay on a gorgeous mesa. I agree, Arabella, if I were not at least "on and off" about my working on my weight, Lord knows what I'd be like. I could be lots better but I sure could be lots and lots worse. If fact many moons ago DS commented to me that I'd been working on my weight as long as he could remember and it must be discouraging not to be able to get it down. My reply was that I had to keep working at it because it would be so much worse if I didn't. Still true.
Keep hanging on to that resolve, wsw. You'll have another swoosh one of these days shortly - like when and if cool weather ever comes. Humidity makes me hang on to water too.
Stick to that "making work bearable" plan, Arabella, no matter how much they try to throw you off. A beach day should help - or a beach couple of hours - or meditating about the beach. I'm sure that stress plays a role in your weight battle somewhere - I always felt that was way true of Empress too - and maybe all of us in one way or another.
As to where this delinquent has been - beats me. DD & the princesses were here for a couple of days. Two gym trips, one tai chi. Oh, and I got my new Camry - Royal Blue btw as befits a :queen:. Just put my 100th mile on it today. My "be nice to me" gift (now I'd better start earning it ;) )
I've been trying to be leisurely the last few weeks and it's been working. I know hectic times will be coming up again soon so I've been taking advantage. So much rain for you, Arabella, and (up until Gustav and Hanna) we were on track for our dryest August ever. I didn't venture out on yesterday's rain but it's lovely outside today. Just put in some uplifting patio time. This coming week has a habit of being one of my most reliably "depressed" weeks of the year. Noticed it many years ago - always ascribe some of it to hay fever but that hasn't been too bad this year so far (though certainly showing its miserable face) and oft questioned if it had anything to do with soon becoming a year older. So I'm trying to head that off any which way I can - see if I can beat the "down" trend in that area of my life and get another area heading "down" that struggles to keep going up.
So I'm glad to be back in the palace. Looking for that Ireland report too as soon as kat comes down to earch a bit. Hey, Kaylets - we need a little fresh inspiration................
So what was it I was going to do next? Hmm, senior moment - I can't remember but it's not like I don't have lots to choose from.
09-08-2008, 09:40 AM
210. I'm on my third day of good behavior. WW CORE, only eating at the table when I'm alone and journaling my intake. Also leaving said journal on the table where DH can see exactly what I've eaten and how much. No more sneak eating!
Very happy to realize this a.m. that I can still make my October Onederland goal. Ahhhhhh! Generally I neglect to wake up until the goal is impossible.
I've been feeling a lot better, a lot less "stuck." I tackled a few cleaning jobs that have been nagging for an incredibly long time. And now they're done! Lots more where that came from but I can do it. :cb: :cb: I'm starting my "one neglected chore a day" challenge again. And my house will be clean! :woohoo:
Anagram, so lovely to see you back in the Palace! Your new chariot sounds just lovely -- enjoying the image of you tootling around in it.
Yes, I've got to stick to my resolve and make work bearable. I know I'll be more productive if I'm not burnt out too. I think the issue is partially stress and partially just that overwork makes me lose the time, energy and will to have any fun in life. Ugh. Fighting that!
I've been consciously stopping and taking a few deep breaths through the day. It's amazing how much it helps stress, mood, etc. And it's something you've always got time for. Huzzah!
Missing all Royals! As my mom used to say: "Come home, come home! All is forgiven." ;)
Let's take this day and make it work for us!
09-08-2008, 11:28 AM
206.8 today but eating out with Singles group tonight so don't think I'll weigh tomorrow. Mexican and I'll try for good choices but there's always that salt thing. However, I think I need the company enough that it's a good trade off.
Nice out this a.m. and did read paper on patio this a.m. again but want to spend some more time outside doing putzy little things before it's time for tai chi. Then some little errands to be accomplished but they're still fun in my little go-mobile.
Good for you, arabella. A task here and a task there and it may not ALL get done but it will be closer. I did a few little shelves here and there over the weekend too. In no particular order - just what the mood struck on. In my younger years, I'd have made it a BIG project and never got it all done that way either ;) Also started pulling a thing or two out of closets here and there. Saw neighborhood is having a fall garage sale (which I wasn't expecting). Thinking about it Have a week and a half - might just put lots of FREE things out on a table and leave the garage door down. Hmmm - we'll see how it goes. If I get enough together by then - otherwise it will just be smallish trips to SA or GW.
Anyway, time for another cuppa and a few more leetle chores.
09-09-2008, 07:45 AM
210.4. Fourth day of CORE, eating only at table, journaling. This WILL work!
Things are starting up again for the fall. Choir practice, sound yoga, writing group. I've been practicing The Messiah for about a month now, just playing the practice CD and singing along while I'm cooking or cleaning up in the kitchen. I'm going to sing the heck out of it this year!
Anagram, I have faith that a task here and there will eventually get it all done. The place is not really a shambles, just areas that aren't getting the love they need. I decluttered one of my built-in china cabinets yesterday... :)
And I've taken to throwing out/recycling items as I come across them instead of stuffing things I never use back in the drawer or cupboards. It does seem connected to weight loss efforts. It's like I'm overwhelmed and not dealing with stuff globally or I'm being productive globally. I guess that makes sense. :chin: It feels like coming out of depression getting back on track.
:wave: :queen:lies! Hope all are well and happy, wherever they beist.
09-09-2008, 03:47 PM
Woke up to some nasty thunderstorms today, did a little business then hit the gym and had a pedicure. (Yay, me). Having trouble getting in the swing of the rest of the day though. Was careful at restaurant last night and not feeling TOO swollen. Did an early weigh in which was good but was not "official'. We'll see tomorrow. Being careful again today so as both not to gain and also not to upset stomach which doesn't like too much of that spicy stuff.
A nap seems like a good idea but I think I'll force me to make one more phone call before I give in..........................
:belly: :belly: :belly: :belly:
09-10-2008, 11:31 AM
206.6 this a.m. I'll take it. No long term effects apparently from my Mexican night out.
Lovely today so I'm heading out for some casual shopping. Shoes, mebbe, also maybe a new little rug for the foyer. Nothing serious.
And this afternoon, I get to babysit for my little doll next door - almost six months old now. Unfortunately, she's supposed to be sleeping. Hmmm - nah, I couldn't bear to wake a sleeping baby.
Tai chi'd Monday, gym-ed yesterday. Lazy today maybe.
I can hear you singing from here, Arabella.
:flow1: :flow1: :flow1: :flow1: :flow1: :flow1:
09-10-2008, 01:28 PM
210.6. Stellar behavior, though, so I know it will budge eventually. And I suppose I did just relose a few pounds -- those :devil: "temporary" fluffies. Hah!
That said, though, Anagram kudos on your exciting -- and pretty danged consistent -- WIs lately. You'll be a Onderlander in no time -- huzzah!
The singing is good -- I mean "good for me" as opposed to "good singing" of course. :rolleyes: Although the practice is definitely helping. I'm getting through passages that I was half-faking before. Yay! Maybe you can actually hear it. My cat says it's altogether too loud -- as soon as I start to practice, she wants to go down to the basement (also her response to thunder -- coincidence?).
Tonight's the first writing group meeting. It will be great to see everyone again. Gosh, though, the summer just flew past.
I'd better get back to work. Heigh-ho, heigh ho...
C'mon, :queen:ies -- let's hit it!
09-11-2008, 12:36 AM
I just caught up with reading. Sounds like things are going well out there, Arabella and Anagram. :)
There is catching up to do on my end, but I just don't have the energy. It isn't a huge or surprising saga. I'm dealing with some depression, and I'm trying to dig my way out already at school. My weight is yo-yoing up and down about 5 pounds every other day, and I don't know whether I'm coming or going any longer.
Pretty much sums it up. Wow, I'm a freaking bundle of sunshine... :dizzy:
Reading here did lighten me up, though. I love the image of Anagram tooling around town in her new hotness. Did I tell you guys that Tony and I went out and bought a Camry to celebrate my contract signing? Can't remember. Anyway, I adore it, and Anagram, I get the feeling that you feel the same way about yours. :) As for Arabella and the singing, I totally get what you are saying about the singing being "good for you." How does singing soothe the soul like it does? I caught myself belting out Christmas carols in the car the other day. Hey, they need practicing too!
Ok, I think my husby is patiently waiting for me to finish clicking away here and come to bed.
Have a good night, all. :)
09-11-2008, 09:44 AM
209.4. Huzzah! Sure came on faster than it's coming off but :shrug: what's a :queen: to do? Sweep royally onward, that's what.
I've been on track since Saturday, journaling and etc. since Monday. I'm really happy with WW CORE again. It's great to have points to save for things so I can have a splurge at some point and still be on track. I remember what a great feeling that was.
Writing group was lovely last night. We laughed, we cried, lots of hugs and cheers. I feel good today -- tired, because I didn't sleep well but that "all's right with the world feeling" that's been a little scarce.
Andria, so happy to see you in the Palace! :hug: Hang in there. I can just barely imagine being in your situation right now -- so much to deal with. Try to be gentle and kind to yourself. And when you've got time for nothing else, you've always got time for a few deep breaths. It's amazing how much that helps.
I think the singing does a lot of things -- like meditation, it helps to stop all the "chatter" in our heads. Plus, of course, it actually changes our vibrations. I know sometimes when I go to sound yoga, I'll actually be achy and tired -- to the extent that walking is a bit painful -- going in and feel fabulous, totally painfree when I come out. It's incredible.
Gorgeous fall day here, bright and sunny and cool. I went for a woods woggle early and did some yoga. I'll have to get out there again at some point, though, and get some more of that sunshine. :)
Let's make this a good one, Dollings!
09-11-2008, 12:47 PM
206.6 again today. Liking it and getting hopeful. Probably the result of so many people blowing me off for lunch/dinner this week ;) Three people were going to "call" about lunch this week. One is for tomorrow so there's a possibility she (usually reliable) will or maybe all three will call for the same day.
And today is the third day in a row for a possible movie/dinner. This one has had a physical problem though. I'm thinking if she doesn't go tonight, I'm a big enough girl to go myself because the film might change tomorrow and it's one we both missed in the first run.
I'm going to have to find another outlet for my social activity - I need more but don't want anything with responsibility involved. At least not right now. Sort of trying to avoid "work" too because those things always seem to "grow". Low 70s today so maybe an outside trot instead of treadmill. No tai chi tomorrow either. Teacher away celebrating his first anniversary . Weekend plans up in air too. I think that's what's bugging me. Everything seems so unsettled including the fact that I'm waiting here for a time challenged person who's 45 minutes late right now. Sigh........................
But am remembering all this is petty.....dear neighbor got his kidney transplant two and a half weeks ago and is now back in hospital after energency surgery yesterday for a blood clot. His even dearer wife and I have had amazingly parallel lives but neither of us needed this one - DH passed away after an abdominal blood clot related to surgery for his kidney problems.I talked to her only briefly as she left for hospital this a.m. and felt like I was sitting in her skin.
So lack of lunch dates and later service people - yep, all petty. Perspective, perspective. And it's kept me from fighting the salt battle after each "eating out".
:flow2: :flow2: :flow2: :flow2: :flow2: :flow2:
09-11-2008, 08:18 PM
I see that folks are doing lots of interesting things....
As for me, I started digging around in the family geneaology,(Dh's side), found enough to keep me interested, then took a break and got interested in a couple of gaps in my own family. My mom kept telling me about her frustration in finding a couple of things and I decided to take a look. Well, at one point, I was actually reading page by page of the the St Paul, MN 1885 census but it was worth the blood shot eyes. The names were so mangled, no search engine would've worked as we'd never try the name as with an L and a K instead of an R and a B.....
What I learned mostly was about myself....that as long as it looks as though I've got a tiny chance of finding what I'm looking for.....or even when it looks hopeless.... Some might say persitent... others....might say obsessed....
So....new cars and singing? Hey, at least I can drive and hum....
Lots of coughing and sneezing in the kingdom.... I have been avoiding it but have it all around.....
So. I am back in the world of the living. I need to start limiting my time in the census. Its not good to be so glued to the screen.
What's else is new ??:hug:
09-11-2008, 11:08 PM
Bringing some cool news to the palace!
I am a great auntie! My eldest niece just delivered her baby by c-section. Cyri (I think that is the spelling?) had to be delivered early due to some complications with preeclampsia, but when my sister called last, everything was looking good. :)
Wow, does it feel good to have some life affirming stuff going on!
09-12-2008, 09:25 AM
I went to my WW meeting and found myself getting excited about this whole thing. Which always helps. I'm 1.5 away from 40 pounds off since I started at WW again (I didn't go until I'd lost from high point on ticker). Mind you, that was year before last. So I get home and I'm looking at my record and feeling a bit discouraged about how slowly I've lost. That's just the kind of thinking I need to stop, absolutely. Because, whatever, here I am, almost 50 pounds lighter. And if I hadn't put in the effort (even if sporadically) I'd still be as heavy as I was.
So... getting psyched about being recognized for 40 pounds off next week! :cp: :cp:
Hey, :queen: Kaylets! So THAT's where you've been. That kind of stuff is fascinating, isn't it. There's a village and castle ruins in England with my family name (Wigmore) that are connected to my family somehow but I'm not sure exactly how. Itching to find out!
Andria, congrats on the new addition to the family. Is Cyri a girl baby? Births in a family that follow so closely on a passing always seem so significant. Such a powerful reminder of how life works, flows through us.
Well, 'tis Friday. I'm getting DGS for a visit later today. DH has a work engagement, else that would be nixed on a Friday night. It's another gorgeous fall day. Got the gym and yoga done, a bit of walking. But I'll get out again to make up my 10000 steps in the :flow1:
Happy Friday, Queenies! Let's make it a good one!
09-12-2008, 12:58 PM
Andria, so glad to hear of new baby! They sort of change the world, don't they? Nice sometimes to remember that we too were once new babies and world gladdeners.
Kaylets, your searches sound great. I was into it for a while too (with my Dad) but now my sis is the family guru on that - took it up when she retired and went in deep-diving.
Arabella, so proud of you. I admire your total dedication (little side forays excluded, of course). So Royal of you.
205.4 this morning - won't see it again soon, I suspect, but nonetheless so much mor encouraging than a 210 or so of a few weeks back.
Rainy here today. Probably off to grocery store. DS coming next two days but he's my healthy eater so he'll eat what I eat - or is it that I'll eat whatever he eats? Whatever - looking forward to his visit.
So - FRIDAY it is - whatever kind you want - Frivolous, Fat Frightening, Fantastic, FUN - it's our to make what we will of. Weekend Plans?
09-13-2008, 12:22 PM
Hey all... wow, have I missed y'all! I can't believe I've been home for almost two weeks now and this is my first post. Not for lack of trying, I have started several posts and get called away, sidetracked, re-routed, etc. I'm actually at work now, trying to get myself up to speed with my pile of charts. The week after I got home, another girl went on vacation, so we're all a bit behind, but the nice thing here is there is no pressure to get things done NOW/A WEEK AGO. I've been staying over a few hours each day and should finally be all caught up when I'm done here today. (I'm on a break at the moment!)
So, may I just say that IRELAND IS WONDERFUL, I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK! Without children this time. Good grief, what were we thinking? They say they enjoyed themselves, but it was hard to tell sometimes. DH and I had a grand time, however! It was beautiful, just beautiful. Easy to see why it's so green, too... RAIN! Lots and lots of rain! But it was nice rain... Soft and misty, totally tolerable and inoffensive! There were flowers everywhere and they were breathtaking. I thank the rain. :rain:
We happened upon a castle originally inhabited by a clan with my maiden name! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunguaire_Castle Descended from a king, no less! Maybe I really AM a :queen: !! Mind you, there's pretty much a castle, or ruins of such 'round almost every other bend! After 7,000 pictures, even I got tired of "ooh! A castle! Get the camera!"
Driving was challenging, to say the least... though I did not drive at all. (for which we were all thankful) Dh did a fine job, eventually... first two days were extremely stressful, though!
:fr: :yikes: :fr:
We covered a lot of ground, saw and did a lot, ate well, drank some (mmm, Guinness!) and I have since declared this to be my favorite vacation... so far!
What with all the hiking and hill climbing and traipsing hither and yon, I came home having gained nary a pound! Standing firm on 268. I saw a few fluctuations up, but am currently there. Gee... I guess that means that regular exercise allows one to eat well and not gain weight... :chin: so, therefore, if I increase the exercise somewhat and curb the eating a bit... I'LL LOSE WEIGHT! Wow! Who knew? :shrug: As I sit here in my office, there is a 5k race, sponsored by the hospital, going on outside. I have made it my goal to participate in next year's event. No, really! I WILL be there. You heard it here first! Only 364 days to train! :yes:
I have a lot of reading to do to catch up with all queenly pursuits, but must get back to work. I've gone 15 minutes over the time that I had allotted for "playtime."
Here's hoping that everyone has a happy, restful, lazy, productive, whatever-you-need-it-to-be weekend!!
09-13-2008, 01:51 PM
209.8. A little diversion last night, nothing serious. Doesn't take much, though, as we know. Having pesto pasta & Greek salad for dinner tonight so it won't likely be down tomorrow but I'm getting that kind of dinner out of the way early in the week so it doesn't interfere with next week's WI. :s:
I had an email from the editor of the local Arts & Entertainment magazine that I write for sometimes asking me if I'd like to cover the symphony season. That will be nice. I get a season pass and get paid for it :) Also asked him if he'd like a ghost story for the October issue and he said he would. I've got an interview lined up with a local actor about a ghost that haunts one of the theatres. It would be nice if I could do that one in time but if not I've got others collected already for the book.
Welcome back :queen: Kat o' Ireland! I was thinking you must be around. Lots of work, hey, pre and post-trip. WTG you for maintaining througout. Re: revelation about diet, exercise and weight loss -- that one really surprises me from time to time too. If only we'd known! Next I'll find out that a lack of exercise combined with stuffing my face leads to weight GAIN! :faint:
Anagram, hope you're having a lovely visit with DS. It's such a gift, really, when they're grown up to have some extended time with them.
Hope all :queen:lies be hale and happy this weekend!
09-13-2008, 03:48 PM
I've just come to the realization that it is high time I did something new. I'm feeling pretty darn good today. We were supposed to have horrible rain and wind this weekend, but the hurricane to the south of us decided to not be so awful. Instead of clouds we have sunshine, and I can feel those bright rays all the way inside my heart. I'm starting to get back on top of things at school, and I've been doing some cleaning around the house today. Nothing seems as gloomy and dark as it has. It feels like somehow my soul has been set free and I can BE again. What an incredible gift!
My husby has set plans for our first real family vacation this Christmas. We will be flying to Orlando and spending a week at several different theme parks. I am so excited! I've never in my life been able to take this kind of vacation before.
When I woke up this morning, I told my sweetie that I would like to lose enough weight before the vacation that I don't have to wear a seatbelt extension on the airplane. That would also make it possible for me to fit on more rides in the parks. It seems like a very worthy goal, and the timing couldn't be much better. I will need to lose somewhere between 2-4 inches around my belly to reach that goal. I have no idea how much weight that would mean losing, but I guess the inches and all would probably come out about right if I refocus on my year end goal. I've let the last couple of months slide away from me, but it is time to focus and get rid of the excuses. No more excuses! ...I'll probably have to come up with a better mantra than that, huh. :)
Arabella, grats on scoring concert season passes! There is something about being paid for doing something you love that just can't be beat. Also, pre-congratulations for you WW goal! :)
Kat, WAHOO! So glad to see you back in the palace! Sounds like Ireland was as incredible as you hoped and maybe a bit more. :) Also, you get a wild round of applause from me for not gaining on the trip. Impressive!
Anagram, Hope you are having a wonderful time with healthy foods and your DS. :)
Kaylets, oooh, you have stepped foot into one dangerously fun obsession, from the sound of things. I remember spending two days in a row pouring over microfiche in the genealogical library in Salt Lake City when I was a young teenager. My mom and I were looking for some records that family had lost, and when we found them, you would have thought we'd found a buried treasure chest! As much fun as it was though, I'm ever so grateful that all those records can be found in more easily accessible ways now.
I'd better be getting out of here. I'm trying to get in some rest time, then I need to get some more school and house work done. My birthday is Monday, and I do NOT want to spend even a single portion of it cleaning up.
09-13-2008, 10:08 PM
hi royal ones! need to catch up on posts, but wanted to stop in for a quick hello. my fingers aren't working that great right now, but will be back soon to say hello, and post individual responses. have been thinking about you all. :) take care, and a good evening to everyone.
09-14-2008, 10:57 AM
208.6 this a.m., despite pasta/pesto and Greek salad for dinner. I can usually count on a bump up even from small portions. :cp:
Back from our walk around the harbour and I'll walk to the cafe for an interview with a woman I know about her ghost experiences this afternoon. And I'm already close to 10k steps. :) Overcast now but it looks like it could clear up :crossed: I could use me some of that :flow1:
Andria, I'm loving the spirit! Those days when everything is suddenly clear are such a gift. Let's keep it going!
WSW, sending you good energy :goodvibes: Thanks for popping in to say :wave:
DH has breakfast just about ready (he does always make Sunday breakfast). And then I should see about getting some software loaded to possibly have speech-to-text capacity for this interview. It would sure save a lot of work if I only had to edit the stories instead of transcribing and editing.
Hoping all :queen:lies have a wonderful Sunday!
09-15-2008, 02:13 PM
209.6. Despite perfection yesterday. Ah well, that's the peril of the daily WI.
Took me hours to get to sleep last night, probably combination of interview, full moon approaching and watching a Rolling Stones concert documentary last night. Way too much excitement for this delicate petal before bed. :dz:
I got a great ghost story for the book yesterday, very compelling. Unfortunately, the write-up for the magazine is going to take more time than I thought so my time here is limited. I just couldn't stand to see us dropping down to the bottom of the threads!
Also wanted to report in that I'm still on track and this train goes to Onederland!
Hope all are having a great day!
09-15-2008, 09:02 PM
arabella- all your hard work will indeed pay off on the scale on your way ever closer to wonderland. almost 40 pounds down since you started back on ww----woohoo! way to go!! neat that you got a great ghost story for your book. hope you sleep like a baby tonight, and that you haven't had to overwork too much today, anyway.
andria- happy birthday!!!!!! :)
your christmas vacation sounds like it will be fun, and so nice to look forward to. glad things are getting somewhat more under control at school, and that things are feeling brighter for you now too.
anagram-happy birthday!!!!!! :)
hope you enjoyed your visit from ds. you are doing so great on your way to onederland. hope you are continuing to enjoy your new car.
kat- very glad your trip to ireland was such a delight! it sure sounds like it.
kaylets- the genealogy research sounds very interesting. hope it goes well.
hi ceara-how goes it?
hanging in with food plan. having a lot of "ms technical difficulties." haven't been able to get out for a while now, but looking forward to lunch plans with good friend on wed. it will be nice to get out, and see my friend. a couple other friends came over to visit this past weekend also, which i enjoyed. well, thinking of all our lovely queens this evening. have a good one. take care.
09-16-2008, 06:54 AM
208.8. I've been tracking everything and doing everything I should, so I know it will come off.
There's sound yoga today and tai chi tonight. I can feel that I need it -- work stress is starting to get to me again. I intend to go out to sound yoga at lunch and tai chi this evening.
Do we actually have twin :queen:s? What a great day for the Palace!
:balloons: :hb: :cheers:
Happy belated, Anagram & Andria -- I hope you were both treated royally!
WSW, you're always so inspiring -- look at you hanging onto your food plan! :woohoo:
K, I really need to get out for a run and then get to work. Let's make this a good one!
09-17-2008, 12:33 PM
Well, belated HB to :queen: andria - yes, we just must beeth twins! I'll be doing lots of catchup as well - soon! Thanks for the BD greetings, Royals.
I'm suffering a birthdya bumpup. DS took me out to dinner Sat for my birthday and I took him out for lunch on Sunday for his recent birthday. Then I headed to Princessville for an actual Monday birthday dinner out with her Serene Princess and the younger princesses. Came back yesterday to the usual lots-of-little-stuff to catch up on. A nice birthday - always a nice birthday when you can see loved ones. I'm trying to figure out if this is a good year to stop counting and I truly believe it is. Last year was ok but this number is just too high.
Ah, the magic of Ireland - sounds like the place has still "got it". I had the castle experience as well - Knappoque (?) (McNamara) in my case. Yes - we got to saying "ABC" (another bloody castle) after a while but still fascinating.
Loved the idea of "working" at the symphony, arabella. And there you are - a ghost story in waiting if you don't get to do the new one in time - so you are truly prepared.
Must rush off though I'm loath to. But it is a lovely fallish day here today as well and I must be out in it for a while at least.
Always nice to get back to the palace.........................................
09-17-2008, 05:40 PM
210. For no good reason. I didn't manage to exercise yesterday -- I've got some little bit of a bug or something and was just tired (not that that excuses me -- I definitely could have walked. But didn't). Ah well, seems to happen once or twice a month.
Anagram, we've got a lovely fallish day here today too -- nicer than much of our summer was actually. I'm going to get in a walk around the harbour after dinner to complete my steps quota for today.
Hope all :queen:lies are well.
09-17-2008, 07:10 PM
anagram- glad that you enjoyed your birthday festivities. it sounds like you were well celebrated, as befits the queen that you are.
arabella-writing about the symphony and getting the free pass to the concerts that it affords you just sounds so cool. enjoy! i love going to the symphony. hope you are feeling better a.s.a.p! i swear---this being noble and not getting a reward on the scale is so aggravating, as i well know. you will be rewarded though soon. you are doing great!
a nice fall-ish day here too. what a pleasure. i was able to get out for a while this afternoon, and it was delightful. just getting out made me very grateful, since it had been a while. my friend had to cancel out on me for lunch plans today since he got too tied up with work, but i got a couple of much-needed errands taken care of, so at least i was productive.
i realize i hardly ever say what my weight is. believe me, i rarely ever utter it unless absolutely necessary (lol!), but i think i probably need to say it "out loud" to keep going in the right direction. i am plateauing at 230. ok, there i said it. deep breath. because i can never tell at what rate my body will let go of weight, i know i can't set weight goals time-wise, but i will keep going with my food and exercise plan, and i will continue to stand firm so the scale will keep going down. i too weigh every day just to keep myself honest, and even though it is feeling frustrating now, i am committing to contuing with that also. well, i hope everyone has a good evening. take care, all.
09-18-2008, 08:12 AM
209.2. And, I suppose, I was bouncing around a few pounds higher a couple of weeks back. But... sheesh! I really deserve a loss. Maybe tomorrow :crossed:
I've got a big family party to go to tomorrow night, for DGS' birthday as well as other family members. I've got to shop, cook and bake a fire-breathing dragon cake -- after I find an image I can use for design. Yikes. Planning to stay on track at the party, too. :yes:
WSW, it does me a world of good to get out, too. I'm stuck in the house a lot because of working from home and I really need to make a point of getting out every day.
You know, there's real power in acknowledging our realities. I truly think it helps us move on.
Well, :queen:lies, I'm off for a woods woggle and then time to make tracks in about five different directions. Let's make this a good one!
09-18-2008, 10:23 AM
arabella-you do indeed deserve a big woosh loss, and it is coming!!!! absolutely!
sounds like you do have a lot of preparation for upcoming party tomorrow.the fire-breathing dragon cake for dgs sounds like it will be a big hit. :) well, i need to get moving so i won't be late for one of my regular doc appointments, so i must away. i am holding at same weight again this morning, but hard work will pay off soon, definitely, as it will for you, arabella. supposed to be another mild weather day again today, so i am looking forward to that. i had a dream last night in which i was thin, and walked normally with no assistive devices. wow-no wonder i woke up smiling this morning. :) almost as nice as if i had seen a big woosh-weight loss on demon scale. ah well---can't have everything, i guess. a royal, good morning to one and all. take care.
09-19-2008, 07:47 AM
208.6. Exactly .2 down from last week's WI :dz: I know this is how it goes sometimes, but I don't have to like it do I? :mad:
Tonight is the family party for multiple bdays, incl. DGS. I've got a chocolate dinosaur cake in the kitchen that I intend to transform into a fire-breathing dragon.
I am SO not going to go over my points tonight. I've fought so hard to get to where I am that I'm just not going to let it slide. Nuh-uh.
WSW, what a lovely dream! Like a preview of heaven. :cloud9: Ahhhhh, the whoosh fairy :angel: May she stop by all our houses real soon!
Happy Friday, :queen:lies -- let's make it a good one!
09-19-2008, 09:29 AM
See, wsw, that wasn't so bad, was it? Just remember all the progress you've made - the hard way. And what a lovely dream. Try for that one every night.
A fire breathing dragon? Wow - will be some party, I'll bet. We're staying so close in weight, arabella. Just wish we were staying close a tad lower.
Yes, whoosh fairy should visit us all once in a while. My whoosh is TEMPORARILY gone again - celebrated b.d. once again last night with friend. Nice evening. Then didn't sleep as well as I'd have liked so will drag a little today.
However - TA DA - I put out a table of "FREE"s for the neighborhood garage sale. None of which shall find it's way back to a safe haven. Probably what will go has already gone but it was stuff from garage I'd never use. We'll see. If I had any ambition I'd continue searching (it wouldn't be hard) and replenish a bit. But - in line with "a little is better than none" - I'm happy to have done as much as I did. Also took some nice things to an organization that will take them to VA hospital and also assembled a little pile to go to my sis who will take them to a woman who takes things to women setting up housekeeping when leaving a shelter for abused women. (What a sentence - I know better.)
Add the stuff that actually made it to trash and recycle and I feel I've made some real progress at least in that area of my life this past week. Probably the only area where I've made progress but at least it's some progress. Way more that could be made there too - just as in my weight battle.
Made it to gym once this week. Tai chi this afternoon unless friend calls re previously scheduled but then cancelled luncheon. At this point, I think I'd rather not but she's had a death in family so it's her call. I'll go if she wants to. Don't HAVE TO overeat (repeat as required).
I'm glad you got out and about, wsw, and I can see you make an effort to as well, Arabella. I need to continually find reasons to go or I'd be back at old weight in no time. Plus blue. I love the contentment of my home but the need for people contact is so strong. I'm casting about looking for some other new interest to give a good kick in the pants to my interest level. Hoping for something out of my comfort zone since going with the "singles" group was such a success to me.
Well, while it's still nice and cool, I think I'll take a broom around the garage (all my stuff is outside so it's a good time to hit it). I'll feel SO PROUD if my garage just looks neater. There's even room on some shelves!!!!!!!! Not totally reorganized yet but maybe someday.
:broc: :broc: :broc:
09-19-2008, 08:46 PM
Boy am I glad I slowed down long enough to get here!!! Finally!
Okay..... Yes, you DO know someone who is involved with the 85 BILLION Loan the Federal Reserve to the World's Largest Insurance Company.
Yes, you're right, I'm the person you know.....
And, right about now, you probably still know more than I do. Although I am beginning to figure it out. Except for these "Complicated Credit Instruments"...
So, now what? Well, its all up to whoever buys what......
And yes, I am one of those "profitable divisions" the press continues to mention...... SO......
Seems like a really good reason to stress eat doesn't it???
well, I thought about it and.... decided the job, the Fed, the banks, the this, the that.... I have no real control over all that outside stuff....
I need to be healthy and strong for whatever will happen next .....
I really think I heard that CLICK that Woodnymph talks about it. It sure sounded like a click to me....
Happy Birthday Anagram!!!
Sure am glad its Friday~:carrot::carrot::carrot:
09-20-2008, 01:32 PM
209.6, post party. Also, post-party kitchen clean-up which included forays off-wagon. :o I may not have gone over on points, because I had a lot of them at my disposal, but I didn't really track. Howe'er, not so bad and not so extensive and totally back OP today. :yes:
I had a very pleasant surprise yesterday when I went to official WI. I considered not going because I thought I might just be the same. However, to my delight, I weighed in 1.4 down from the previous week, giving me -- YESSSSSS!!! -- a total of 40 pounds off at WW. Mind you, over a period of more than 2 years, but still... a landmark. And I am ever more determined, I am.
I ordered some cardio dance workout DVDs -- despite objections from DH :dz: I keep saying, well, let's just say what our individual spending allowance is and then use it as we see fit. I'm confident that I'd have more money to spend and ... sheesh! It would be nice not to get grief every time I buy anything. I think I'll keep pressing for this accountability because I'm sick of feeling like Daddy controls the purse strings. I contribute plenty, $-wise and otherwise. :strong:
But... my point was, really, that I'm excited about the DVDs. I LOVE to dance and it will give me more ways to exercise and get in those all-important steps. Onward I dance! And I'm proud of me for just going ahead and ordering them anyway.
Anagram, good for you and your declutter progress! :cb: Really, these improvements make so much difference to our state of mind, don't they. I've been doing little tasks here and there as I go along and each one gives me such a glow!
Yup, let's start bouncing a few pounds down, shall we?
Kaylets, huzzah for the click! :encore: I LOVE that "need to be healthy and strong for whatever comes next" -- Maaaaan, when is that NOT true? Let's do it! (K, let's!)
May all :queen:lies have a blissful and healthful Saturday! :wave:
09-21-2008, 09:17 AM
"I need to be healthy and strong for whatever will happen next ....."
Wow, I am so in the "next" portion of that statement right now, Kaylet. Last week I was all fired up and ready to move on, and then the bottom dropped out of my life once again. I really don't enjoy drama, and I don't like having it as a part of my life, but I can't get away from this one, either.
I can't really explain yet what is going on, mostly because I don't understand it all, but suffice it to say that I'm about as stressed as I was with my mother's cancer and death. And I'm not dealing with it as well as I should. My eating is slipping backwards toward comfort instead of good, clean fuel.
I've been avoiding posting here because I have to sound so cryptic right now, and that doesn't feel right. As soon as I am able, I'll share the rest of the story. Until then, I have to remember to keep myself healthy and strong, not only for myself, but for my family. Healthy and strong isn't found at the bottom of a French fry container or swimming around in the dregs of a pint of ice cream.
I'm going to head out of here and do some nice, quiet meditation before the day really gets going. Wish me luck!
Take care, and have a great Sunday, all. :)
09-21-2008, 04:49 PM
I woke up early, did a little work, went for a long walk and, somehow or other here it is almost dinnertime. I'm having one of those days where I feel like curling up in bed. Well over my steps for today, anyway, on for 14k and I did some tai chi. Food totally OP.
Andria, hope life drama eases up pronto! Remember to breathe -- seriously, those deep breaths help a lot. I've also heard that they help to kill a craving. Haven't tried it for that :chin: Generally I give in much too quickly.
Another week coming up tomorrow. I think I'll try to get to bed nice and early and get a good long night's sleep. :yawn:
09-22-2008, 09:56 PM
Goodbye, sweet Summer - Welcome Fall - best time of year as far as I'm concerned. Hope it works out that way.
Congrats on reaching your 40 lb goal, Arabella. That's so affirming!!!
And, Kaylets, our Connection to all the News. I'm trying to not pay too much attention until things settle a bit. No wonder you've been hearing rumors of layoffs, etc. But you're right - not a lot you can do and eating won't help. I'm trying to convince myself of that too.
Oh, Andria, you certainly have had much drama in your life lately and I hope this mysterious latest chaper will resolve itself quickly so you can get on with enjoying life.
I'm going to be gone a day or two again. DD having lithotripsy tomorrow for another kidney stone, this one three times larger than the last and still in the kidney so dr. has warned her she'll need to be on painkillers, etc. while trying to pass the pieces once it's blasted into smaller pebbles. So don't know when I'll be back as it depends on how well she does.
I did try something new over the weekend but know already it won't be my new "open door". Going to find one though.
Well, going to turn in early tonight so I can get up nice and early and be on my way.
Hi, wsw, kat, ceara. Hope all's going well.
I've enjoyed this nice fall weather and hope we get lots more of it.
09-22-2008, 10:14 PM
No excuses, I just need to get my self into high motivation mode once again. I finally got around to watching The Biggest Loser... oh, if that isn't motivating, I don't know what is! They did a thing where they showed what your internal organs look like covered in fat, and how it affects your body's actual age... One man was my age, (51) but with the weight and all the health issues associated with that, his body's age was somewhere in the 70s. 75, I think? Scary.
I had taken today off, originally because DH was off, but he got an offer to play golf with my brother and jumped on it. I don't blame him, the weather is perfect for a day on the links! I've been puttering around here, catching up on the decluttering that I've been meaning/trying to do, and more importantly, I made all the appointments that needed making: routine physical, mammo, gyn, eyes, I even contacted the community college to take a course that I had missed last year when my dad died. Still waiting to hear back on that...
I'm actually looking forward to seeing my primary doc, haven't seen her in over a year, so I've lost a chunk of weight since that last visit. It's two weeks til that appointment, so I'd like to kick the efforts up a notch or two and really impress her.
Geez! What the heck is wrong with me?! I'm happy to do what's right for me, for her, so why not for me?? :?:
Note to self: think about adding shrink to list of doctors to see!
Last week, I made a point of hitting the gym four nights in a row...haven't been back since, but I had the best of intentions for today! Definitely tomorrow.
This post has been sitting here for, literally, HOURS, waiting for me to finish and send... I know I've been terrible at keeping up, but I feel as though I have very little to contribute... I'm boring myself with what I've written so far, but I don't want to not post, again. You guys always inspire me to do better, I hope that inspiration kicks in again and that I can soon return the favor.
Please forgive the dismal post and lack of personal replies... it's been all I can do to muster up the nerve to post this!
I promise I'll be better soon.
09-23-2008, 07:16 AM
Good morning, :queen:lies! It's a crisp -- wow -- I was going to say :sunny: but it seems to have clouded over in the last 2 minutes. Sheesh! Maybe it'll clear up again. :crossed: I'm heading out for a woods woggle soon. Walking to sound yoga at lunch. Walking to tai chi tonight. By the end of the day, I should be :yoga:
Anagram, hope all goes well with DD's procedure. We'll keep your spot warm while you're away.
Awfully curious about that "open door" -- care to share? ;)
Kat, I'm always so happy to see you in the Palace, whatever it is you've got to say. Don't deprive me! :hug:
I went through a doldrums-y stretch after I got home from Colorado. Do you think yours is related to vacation being over? BTW, there's a 21-Day thread going that I'm posting on. I'm finding it really helpful to keep me motivated.
WSW, Andria, Kaylets :wave:
OMG -- TBL. Those losses were insane. Didn't one guy lose, like, 29 pounds in the first week? And the "loser" lost 9 pounds the first week?
It's a little unfair because the people who lose the most are going to be the ones who've been eating the most crap before they started the program. All that stuff that makes the body hold onto water.
:chin: Imagine how quickly we could get to goal @ 29 pounds a week... Hmmm... guess it's not going to happen. That's just about as much as I've lost in a year within the last decade or so :dz:
Nevertheless, we're making this happen, shall persevere and prevail. Fluffies begone! :dance:
09-23-2008, 01:57 PM
Thanks, Arabella... I need to be needed! So here I am, and in a much better mood today! Go figure. I got on the scale and was wholly disappointed with what I saw...which sometimes sets the tone for the day...BUT! As I was looking for a blouse for work, I came across one that (last time I tried it on) was a wee bit too snug to wear and be comfortable. I was desperate, so I tried it on, and lo and behold, no pulling at the buttons, not even when I sat down! Dare I say it's a teeny bit loose? I DARE! I DARE! :yes: :cp:
So that was a serious mood booster. That, and this glorious early Fall weather, which gladdens my heart!
Where is this 21 day thread, by the way? I'm game! Halfway through Day 1, totally OP food-wise, & packed and ready for the gym after work today.
Okay, I could really sit and post away, but I should get back to work... I just wanted to share and let you know I'm okay. I have a dentist appt after work and then I'm hitting the gym, so I don't know if I'll be back tonight, I will try.
Have a great day, all... :wave:
09-24-2008, 07:14 AM
PLease direct me to the end of the line for the kicks in the rear! My click must have been only a sound effect.....
Just kidding really, its a daily struggle....and boy oh boy, the stress comfort of hand to mouth is soooooooo wired into the royal forehead.....
But today.... I promise .... 2 flights of stairs....
That way, I CAN get it done, even if the noreaseter gets here early!
Silver.... I am so sorry to hear about your mom. You are a good daughter. I am sure you mom knew that. (Here's a virtual hug).
And hello, to my other Royal Friends!!!
Late last night, announcement that the FBI is now investigating 4 outfits....
My employer being one of them..... I would expect that would be bound to affect the sale to pay back the $85 billion borrowed from the Fed.....
Now what was I saying.... "Need to be strong for the next...."
And the hits keeping coming!!!!
Here's the thought of the day:
"Too much of a good thing can be wonderful!"
Question of the day:
"How did your parents meet?"
HERE WE GO WEDNESDAY, HERE WE GO!:D:D
09-24-2008, 10:58 AM
And I'm making some progress towards clambering back on top of the ever-shifting ever-growing pile of work. Hoping to make more progress throughout the day so I can leave "the office" feeling comfortable this evening.
208.6 this a.m. It would be lovely if I could squeeze off a loss in time for Friday's WI. I really am behaving awfully well, doing everything I should. Keeping track of everything. So it will happen sometime. :yes:
On a whim I decided to look at the other numbers on my scale, for fat % and etc. Fat is at 34%, according to the scale this is in the healthy range for my age group. At 256, my fat % was awfully close to 50%. I'm definitely still fat -- but I guess there's a lot of muscle under that :dance: coating.
I've also lost a pound of abdominal fat and am well within the healthy range there. So -- progress. But I want to see it on :devil: scale!
Kat, glad to hear you're on the upswing! The 21 Day thread is in these same Support ones: "Every-Day" 21-Day Challenge -- Simple addition spells success!!" I swear, it's making a huge difference in helping me stay on track. Red Balloon posted the thread and she's added the concept of pauses. When you state your challenges you also state how many pauses you'll allow, 0-3. So then, once you get a few days under your belt you can have a do-over if you need it without losing ground. Excellent motivation for getting back on track because according to the rules, you haven't screwed up, just paused. So far, my pauses have been for minor infractions rather than capital crimes...
Kaylets, so sorry about the :stress: - Yes, food is just so available and relatively socially condoned. Just try to look after yourself. Remember to breathe! I'm starting to get to the point that when I feel stress coming on I automatically take in a big, deep breath and it really helps. Getting bent out of shape about a situation just makes me less able to deal with it. :hug:
K, :queen:lies, let's get our crowns on straight and tackle this one.
09-25-2008, 04:01 PM
arabella-pound loss in abdominal fat-woohoo! and fat percentage being in healthy range-way to go! soon the scale will also reflect all your hard work.
kaylets-what a stressful time you are going through! hang in there, and as arabella said so wisely, remember to keep breathing. sending lots of good vibes your way.
liked your qod. my folks met after my dad had been on a bad (boring) blind date earlier in the evening, when he stopped in a restaurant for some coffee. (they were living in l.a. dad was from minneapolis.) dad ran in to a friend of his mother's who had also moved to los angeles, and she said she would like to fix dad up with a lovely girl whom she just happened to be with that night. after dad's boring experience earlier that evening with a fix-up, he said no thanks, but when she pointed to my mom at their table, he said well, i suppose i could come over just to meet her. he was introduced to my mom; they had a late night date that same night, and 3 months later, they were married. the night of that first date, my mom said she went home, and knew dad was the man she was going to marry. i just always loved that story, and thinking about it made me smile. so, thanks for the smile, kaylets.
my parents never really had the chance to retire together, since they died when they both were in their 50's. the neat thing was that my mother had suggested to my dad when they were first married, that they pool their money and "retire" for a year(well, depending on how long they could actually afford to do that) while they were young and could enjoy retirement. that was a pretty radical idea in those days. (i am 55 years old.) anyway, dad thought it was a little nuts, but said he would do it, and at least compromised by only working part-time, and mom stopped working. they had a great time for almost a year of being "retired." they played tennis a lot during the day, went out for lunch together, went to art galleries, jazz clubs in the evenings, etc. and they both said it was the best time they ever had. it was almost as if my mom had some premonition of the future. anyhow, i am so glad they were able, and smart enough, to have done that. after my mom got pregnant a couple of years later, then they moved back to minneapolis.
anagram- hope dd's lithotripsy went well, and she is doing well now, and with not much pain until final fragments are passed. i know about kidney stones, lithotripsy, etc. and those kidney stones are miserable.
hi kat-good to hear how you're doing. whenever you are not around, you are definitely missed.
andria-thinking of you.
i had lunch with my good friend yesterday. he is so busy at work, i had kind of thought he was calling me yesterday morning to cancel out, but good sport that he is, he had just asked if i could meet him at a restaurant across the street from where he works since he had back to back meetings yesterday. i bring all that up only because one of the things i really admire about him is how he is able to focus on the present, and really be present in each situation and not distracted as would be so easy to do. his good attitude and humor always reminds me how important it is to be present in the moment, and to enjoy and savor it.
i still haven't lost an ounce recently, but i too am remaining vigilant, so know eventually the scale will reflect my efforts. i finally slept o.k. last night after 3 previous nights of very little sleep. those insomniac jags have got to go! well, i have been thinking about all of you, and missing you. i had a bit of an "ms technical glitch" again of late. well, dear royals, have a good afternoon. take care.
09-25-2008, 08:12 PM
Breathing in, breathing out, breathinnnnnnnggggggg innnnnnnnn and breathing ouuuuuutttttttttttttttttt......
Of course, what was I ever thinking, I should've had the driver bring me directly back to the palace for a consult with the Royals.... I must have been overcome, verklempt or just having a Royal moment.....
Yes, yes, yes, its true..... I need to breathe innnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
and then outttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
Thanks, you are all so wise. And WSW, you're lunch story reminded me of a lesson I thought I had learned long ago.... I always do so much better with a break.... and especially to catch up with friends is a wonderful way......
Ouch, kidney stones!! I sure hope there are pain meds available...I watched my bil with the same and boy oh boy......
WSW.... My folks are from the same area as your Dad.... My mother's people from St Paul, MN and area and my Dad was all over Minnesota and Wisconson.
My parents met at work. My Dad was already there do accounting I believe and my mother came in as a "temp" for the dept. My father says "She only had to be shown something once, she was the smartest person I ever met".....
Less than 2 yrs later, they were married. I was born in Chicago, moved east when my Dad was transferred when all the companies were gearing up to go to computers in 1963.
I've been digging in the Minnesota and Ohio census's and its a real eyeopener. Today, I was looking at the Mining records in PA for someone on DH 's side of the family and the pictures of the young boys in miners caps was even more eyeopening.
One thing for sure, these last few weeks of stock market/credit crisis has really made me realize how spoiled I am to my lifestyle. And I like to think I am frugal.
I guess I am being very philosophical tonight and I apologize. I should be asking more how all the Royals are...
WoodNymph!! Congrats.... DR OZ says losing belly fat is most important... Well done!
Anagram!! I hope all goes well!
Silver!! Q WSW is right... Breathe in, Breathe out....
Kat-!! believe it or not, Dr OZ had a guest on the show about people whose moods improved with B complex vitamins. I found a jar of them on my desk and I take one a day. And believe it or not, within 6 hours, I felt a marked difference. I forgot to take them 2 days later and my mood was edgy. I remembered for sure the next morning, and by noon, brighter, more like myself.
Sunlight too. They suggest the first 10 minutes, no sunscreen to get the effect of the "Cheerful" stuff in the sunlight....Then put the sunscreen on
...... All I know for sure, is I have seen a couple of people around me and I believe women are misdiagnosed and over medicated. Just because we are crabby, edgy and letting people know we are doesnt make us Bipolar....
Sorry, that was my editiorial for the day too.....Naturally, some people are Bipolar....not as many women as the doctors around here seem to be finding.
Ceara....How goes it?
:hug: to all~
Thought of the day:
"Sweet, sour, bitter, pungent, all must be tasted."
- Chinese proverb
Question of hte day:
"What is the best kind of pickle?"
09-26-2008, 10:33 AM
207.6. .8 off at WW this week. I'll take that as a promise of a bigger loss next week. :yes: I've been tired and slightly under the weather for about 3 weeks now -- something that seems to be going around. V. proud of myself for not sliding off wagon. I'm sure I would have if I was not journaling and was allowing myself to eat in front of TV.
WSW, it's always such a treat when you can manage a nice long post! :) I loved the story of how your parents met. I'll have to ask my mom to tell me her story again... :chin:
Kaylets, thanks for the B complex reminder. We're taking them these days, too, but I love hearing about that kind of response to things. Vitamin D's a big one now, too, especially for those of us that can't get enough from the sun for most of the year. I'm thinking of looking for some full-spectrum bulbs for my office.
I've got a splurge meal planned tonight -- nachos & beer :T Emphasis is on the "planned" -- I've got lots of points saved for it and will journal, so 'tis all goodly. Tomorrow night my sisters are coming over for dinner and a dance party but it'll be mostly healthy food and extra extra exercise, so good too.
Well, it's Friday. Almost October, too. Makes me miss :queen: Punkinseed. :cry:
Let's make this a good one, Queenlies!
09-26-2008, 07:33 PM
Aaah, back in the Palace - and it's Fall, too. All is well.
Wonderful losses, Arabella. Loved the folks meeting story, wsw. Truly a charming scenario - movie script maybe? And your life sounds like a script too, kaylets, with the investigations, etc. Glad you're back on track with the gym and all, kat.
DD is doing ok, it was a super big stone and took more passing of pebbles. Don't know if she's done yet. Had painkiller before she left facility and took ONE once she was home. ONE! She had so much pain BEFORE the procedure that I think she considered most of the later pain to be "discomfort". Got lots of Princess hugs as my reward.
So, I'm back, sort of out of kilter all around but determined to pull it together. The one thing I continued on was my decluttering. Yesterday I went on Craigslist (first time ever) and listed two similar items not taken from my "free" thing last weekend. I had close to ten responses and they were picked up this afternoon. They had belonged to dh and I couldn't bear to just throw them out even though I thought they were old and useless. I also made a call and found a place that will accept my "collection" of packing peanuts for reuse, took old flags to neighbor who will put them in a collection box of similar. broke down cardboard boxes for recycling. Also planted some grass seed to take advantage of today's rain, etc. Now I'm planning a leisurely weekend, sort of. Not pleased with my weight loss/exercise attempts this week but durn happy with the decluttering. Though many miles still to go.
My parents met, I understand, at their local dance place, ironically named "The Palace" and brought together by a cousin of Dad's whose brother was seeing my Mom's sister. Dad's cousin became my uncle too.
Arabella, I'll satisfy that curiosity. I took advantage of a free weekend trial on a matchmaking site. Yes, I did. It was sort of hysterical in a way. And WAY out of my comfort zone. Enough men posted in my age range but nothing much appealing to me (and I'm sure they'd say ditto). The Most hysterical thing I saw was posted by a 74 year old man - he was looking for a woman "old enough to be married and YOUNG ENOUGH TO BEAR A CHILD". Well, it was an interesting experience and more than enough to teach me that wasn't something I'm interested in. Men my age are all interested in women MUCH, MUCH younger - at least on that site. But - no trial, no learning. Looking for something else newish. Watch out for coming announcements ;)
Time to decide on something to eat - no clue what I'm hungry for - just know I'm hungry. I did have a plan but it's not appealing to me now so I must come up with an alternative.
Should have lots more replies but when I'm away a while it's always tough to catch up. Good to be home again - here in PA and also here in the Palace.
09-28-2008, 04:24 PM
So, it's a quiet, rainy Sunday here and I'm feeling lazy - nothing new about that. Had an esp. good day yesterday for some reason. Nothing special, just lots of little bitsy odds/ends. Satisfying so far today as well. At 207.6 this a.m. No improvement to speak of. Have dinner planned. Going to take another swirl around garage to see what ONE little (and not too hard) thing I can do there. If it's not raining hard, I'll take a swirl around the ouside as well and pull a tired flower or two. Then maybe a look through the guest bathroom to see what I might rearrange there. Then back to Sunday paper, I think.
I'm having two cousins coming Thursday evening into Friday morning. Haven't seen either in quite a while and looking forward to it. Sort of a challenging week coming up in some ways, good week in other ways. Next Saturday will be the 50th anniversary of when DH and I married and I'm mulling over how best to make it a GOOD day, not a melancholy one. I have some ideas and I think I'll be able to shape the day to my liking rather than let it overwhelm me.
DD seems to be doing ok, still passing little pieces of the monster stone.
Lovely quiet relaxing weekend to all the :queen:s.
09-29-2008, 09:38 AM
I'm looking forward to the reports of all the busy, lovely weekends that have gone on for the Royals!
Not to be so rainy today. Lots planned. Yesterday did get worked around to be a nice and somewhat productive day. But TODAY .....TODAY IS YET ANOTHER FRESH START MONDAY - THE FIRST OF FALL...........SO HERE WE GO, ROYALS, HERE WE GO!
09-29-2008, 10:42 AM
Fly-by report. Crazy end-of-month here until Wednesday. I'll be in then!
Happy Fresh Start Monday, Queenlies!
09-29-2008, 01:46 PM
anagram-all that de-cluttering is very impressive and inspiring! you are getting so close to onederland. hope you enjoy visit with cousins at end of the week. hope upcoming rememberance of anniversary date will prove to be a good one for you, rather than melancholy also. be sweet and gentle with yourself, as you so richly deserve.
arabella-good luck with end of month work. --and speaking of being so close to onderland.
kaylets-hope you are still remembering to breathe throughout all that you are dealing with now.
hi kat, andria, ceara! thinking of you all.
fresh start monday. i am still holding at 230. there will be a loss soon---i just know it. i have another leak--this time from ceiling in washer/dryer closet, which i think is from the a/c. not sure. of course, it started yesterday--on a weekend. anyway, a friend is coming over to look at it after work, so i can hopefully at least get an idea if that is the case or not, since not sure if need plumber and/or a/c repairman. also have ant problem again, which has been taking a while to resolve, and is frustrating. eventually, my pest control company gets it resolved, but in the meantime, it is aggravating. i keep my home very (almost compulsively) clean, and know it is nothing i can control, but nonetheless, it creeps me out. ok, so bottom line is---this condo is often very challenging, as it is now. would love to be able to take a vacation. since i can't afford to go anywhere, must come up with ways to de-stress and relax, which cost no money. i will put on my thinking cap. in meantime, i am committing to standing firm on food and exercise plan, and putting energy towards getting this latest repair taken care of.
calming, relaxing deep breaths---. need to grab some lunch and then get a few errands done. take care, royals.
09-30-2008, 08:21 AM
wsw, what a stress - another plumbing/maybe problem. Plus critters - yes, breathe - breathe - breathe.
arabella, thinking of you as usual during your stressful EOM. Missing you - and ceara, kat, kaylets, andria.
I do feel good about recent decluttering - but there is still SO much to go and I go so slowly. Still, I will follow The Royal Rule of accentuating the positive. Made another phone call yesterday re "home" for some other little things - will take care of them soon too.
207 yesterday morning - ok with that but it's still up from the 205.6 I "accidentally" and briefly hit a little ways back.
DD was felled by a stone trying to pass yesterday. Hoping it will make it's way out without further medical procedure. they had mentioend a portion still rather large that might require stenting. So I've put myself sort of "on call" until that one is resolved.
So - I'm off to make it a good day - have been having some pretty good ones lately. Love FALL - can't believe September's gone already. Pink dogwood is now nice and red and beginning to see more and more touches of color.
TERRIFIC TUESDAY :queen:lies.............
09-30-2008, 09:04 PM
took me most of day to find someone who will come out tomorrow morning. the plumbing in this building is such a nightmare, a lot of plumbers and hvac companies won't mess with this. anyway, the repairman who fixed my heater this past winter is coming out tomorrow morning. at least he's a brave fellow. have all my fingers and toes crossed that it won't be some very big, expensive, long drawn-out repair.
anagram-your good attitude always reminds me to think positively. while waiting for return phone calls from repairmen, did some de-cluttering around here, and that made me feel productive. all of yours has really inspired me. only a spit away from weight you "accidentally" hit a ways back is great. hope dd passes that remaining kidney stone fragment a.s.a.p and no further treatment proves necessary.
was really having trouble thinking of what could de-stress me this afternoon and then put on some good music, did some breathing exercises, and then wrote a couple of letters to friends, and thinking of them finally made me smile to myself. speaking of smiling, thinking of you lovely royals always has the same effect on me. have a good evening, everyone.
10-01-2008, 09:32 AM
Good luck with the plumber/hvac people, wsw. Yes, music does wonders, doesn't it? And can be chosen to fit the mood.
HEY, ROYALS! IT'S FALL - MY OCTOBER JUICES ARE FLOWING - MY BEST MONTH OF THE YEAR - MUST REMEMBER TO MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY MOMENT!
10-02-2008, 07:11 AM
Here we go Thursday!
Saw the hairdresser two nights ago to be prepared for my business trip this weekend....
Hair is a little too short but that was nothing in perspective to what I saw in the mirrors trying on clothes last night.....
Oh, my, this Royal literally called DH from the Dressing Room AGHAST!!!!!
( Why I was so shocked is really puzzling but......)
And here it is, " Well, its one cupcake at a time."
And that's a quote.
The unvarnished truth.
Yes, its up to me.
Talk about reality check. Almost got whiplash right there in the dressing room.....
HERE WE GO THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS.... Big meetings tomorrow, new Chairman announcing which of our companies available for sale ......GULP......
Thought of the day:
"You got to be careful if you don't know where you're going, because you might not get there."
(Lawrence Peter "Yogi" Berra, American baseball player and manager, born 1925)
Question of the day:
"Do you use maps or GPS?"
10-02-2008, 08:52 AM
208.6. And on track, but I had two very very bad days, Saturday and Monday. And both, I think, from combination of stress and a failure to plan. Now I'm still feeling stressed by EOM spillover but am determined to make life more pleasant. I had a dream last night that someone asked me how I was doing and I responded that I felt like I didn't have enough time to either do my job well or enjoy life. Ugh. Usually dreams don't lay it out like that but that requires no interpretation.
Anagram, I love the way you're looking ahead to the anniversary and making plans. It's so life affirming to honour these days and so definitely the right approach.
I'm coming up to the one-year anniversary of my ex (in no way comparable to the loss of your DH, but significant, nonetheless) and I suspect that's contributing to my emotional unease. I'll take a leaf from your book and think of something commemorative I can do.
Oh, in fact, I just remembered that I've got a story of my trip to Savannah that is intertwined with the news of his death. I'll work on that. And do some other commemorative thing, like a walk on the shore (we had that love in common).
WSW, not another leak! Please tell me the Plumbing Perils of Pauline is not a series.
I'm impressed by your music and letter writing. Reminds me that I don't have to either just feel stressed or eat to calm myself (like that works anyway :rolleyes: ). I did put on some quiet background music while I was working the other day and it made things much more pleasant.
Kaylets, how many times have I been there? It never ceases to amaze me how I can hide the true state of affairs from myself. All I've got to do is stay off the scale and only look in "friendly" mirrors.
It just blows me away what a complete and utter shock it is, in any case, trying on clothes. If it's not the shock of not fitting into things it's the shock of what I look like up close and personal under those gawd-awful lights. :eek:
Good luck with your news today!
K, I'd better get out for a woggle before the rains start again. Speaking of which, we've had the dreariest, rainiest August and September on record. Maybe yet another reason for my state of mind.
Whatever, shall work to improve that. Have a good day, :queen:lies!
10-02-2008, 12:32 PM
Hugs to you, Arabella, as you come to terms with all the reasons for your "downiness". Yes, do the things you and ex loved together and give you emotions the respect they deserve. It's all a part of you and who you are/became.
And hugs to you, Kaylets, as you wade uncertain territory and also face the "mirrorwoes". I'm there too - just too much of the "dryer shrinking my clothes".
And hugs to you, wsw, as you plumb the uncertainties of your most recent water woes. So draining to have to deal w/household problems when we'd rather be doing the fun things. And not to mention the pocketbook drain..........
I'm at 208.6 today too, Arabella. Ate a great lunch out yesterday. Enjoyed the company and the food but not the aftermath.
Well, great plans and all................my cousins who were to come today for a much needed visit had to cancel. DH of one had emergency surgery yesterday. And of course I got that call when I had just come home from the grocery store with things I don't normally buy.............
On the good side, place is more or less in order, laundry done and now I won't have to change the sheets again, checkbook up to date, etc., etc.
DS "might" come up this weekend and food can be shared with post-operative friend (what won't freeze well)....
SO - it's October and I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE October. Feel like a new, younger person today. Cool, brisk, blue skyed - at least for today. Wunnerful, wunnerful, wunnerful. After today's doctor's visit, I'm planning another of my long "vacation" weekends. Good days for exercise outdoors. Still nursing sore shoulder from gym overdo (and I wasn't doing much).
Have a great trip, Kaylets, no matter what news come from the "brass". I'm trying my best to ignore all that's going on in the financial world and hoping eventually I'll come out without too much damage. Have never totally recovered from losses in earlier and lesser changes but mostly the higher prices scare me to bits. Grocery store very scary - another reason to eat less, I guess.
I want to hear lots of strains from "The Messiah" emanating from your waterloged territory, Arabella. A soul lifter any time. And remember, it's October, October, October. Two ladies in the group I lunched with yesterday were saying how they hate October because it reminds them winter is coming. I just kept repeating I LOVE OCTOBER, I LOVE OCTOBER, I LOVE OCTOBER. (January and February are another story but they're still far away.)
Durn, I wish I could change her outfit to orange ;)
10-02-2008, 08:01 PM
Am looking at nearly a perfect day 1....
even did the stairs....
Once at lunch time
Another about 3:30....
Drank lots of Earl Grey and had a med container of soup instead of the vending machine trip....
WSW.... YIKES !! I would not be at all pleased with more water issues either .... Here's hoping your next update will be less water and more FINISHED.....
Anagram.... yes, grocery prices are scaring me too. Am using a cheaper store more often but nearly fell over when a "Medium" Miracle Whip ( salad dressing/mayo) was $5.00. It would last forever except DS ( yes, he's still here tempoarily) uses mayo like it was a side dish.
I am thinking more and more soups and so taking advantage of my "Better" food plan to carry more meals and cut way back on cafeteria purchases.
Maybe we can share tips ion ways we've found to stretchhhhhhhh our $$$$. I am eager to see what other folks do..... I am always looking for new ideas....
Wood Nymph.... You are so, so right....its seeing what I really look like.
Silver.... How goes your battles?
Kat...How about yours too??
Luckily, when I came home from work tonight, Dr Phil's show was about food that helps your brain deal with stress and son of a gun, there they were.....
Beans, Lentils, quinoa, carrotts, mushrooms, etc, etc......
Of course, good for you means good for your brain and all that goes with it.....
Why didnt that occur to me before??
As odd as this might sound, having a "food plan" is oddly comforting.
Is that because its the only thing right now I can really control??
Could be. But its also a relief to quit pretending that the weight isn't there.
I'm not ready to see the scale but I am ready to
I'm washing clothes tonight so, off I go....
And no, I havent heard any more news about the job. Not a peep. Even the rumor mongers were quiet today....
10-03-2008, 04:56 PM
Sort of grayish and cold today but it's STILL OCTOBER. I'm planning a walk a bit later. Missed tai chi as I was sort of in "on call" mode. DD still having lots of pain w/kidney stones and saw dr. today. If she had to go hospital or something, I was prepared to dash down. He thinks she's doing ok and eventually the "lead" stone in a bunch will pass then the rest will. If not by NEXT WEEK or so, he'll DO SOMETHING maybe the week after. She is awfully upset but said I shouldn't come today. We'll see about tomorrow............
I've been doing my usual stock up when on sale and coupon thing. But am much more careful about using up a lot of gas for a little saving. But I'm not stocking up as much on some food items because I use a lot less than I used to and sometimes change about my food patterns.
My declutter today was that I had to go to the bank anyway so I took all the accumulated change and ran it through the counting machine. It only came to about $60 but that's now in the checking account and I gained perhaps a foot of shelf space in a closet because I threw away the container and decided I'm not going to accumulate change any more - it was really something DH did more than I and I just haven't made that change yet. So now, it's done. Soon I'm going to have no excuse for not having always neat shelves ;)
I'm looking forward to a good weekend no matter how it turns out. I did have a nice little plan for tomorrow and don't know how that it will work out now. So I sort of started on it today....Better Early Than Never. Besides who says I can only "celebrate" one day. I seldom drink but I had a most enjoyable Scotch/Rocks and a semi-nap this afternoon.
Life Can Be So Good - Especially When It's October! I'm going to think up some more ways to be nice to me now.
HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND, :queen:lies - I may not be in for a day or two.
10-04-2008, 09:42 AM
And so it is! I woke up this morning with that "new lease on life" feeling. On Thursday I took in a sound yoga class followed by a tai chi class, my first one in a couple years. And I'm excited! :hyper:
Then yesterday, I had lunch with an old friend and in the evening, DH and I went to our neighbours' monthly First Friday drop-in. I can tell that all this was just what I've needed. I feel renewed. I'm excited about life again and it strikes me that it's been quite a while since I was. I had a dream one night that I was spelling out, very slowly, in a notebook: d-e-p-r-e-s-s-e-d. And I think I have been. But I'm back, Babies!
I went to the thrift store and bought a couple of beautiful "new" red tops, one a close-ish fitting pucker-y (smocked, I think, we'd used to call it) and one a faux-suede patterned one.
Now today I intend to putter, do a little writing, maybe take my mom to the library. And then this evening we're going to dinner at our best friend couple's. And tomorrow I get a whole fresh weekend day! :)
Kaylets, that anti-stress food list was interesting -- I must see if I can find it online. Was there something they all had in common or was it a number of different components? I'm thinking B vitamins are in the beans...
Anagram, I have been practicing for The Messiah a bit but we've got a Rememberance Day concert on November 11 with all different music. I'm trying to practice for it but I don't have a practice CD so it's a bit more difficult. And not quite as much fun :s: Nevertheless, practice I must so practice I will.
The weather took a wild turn after we came home last night -- incredibly windy and torrential rain. Still windy today but dry. I'm just going to finish my :coffee: and head out for my woods woggle. Hope all :queen:lies have a lovely day!
10-04-2008, 10:40 AM
Brrr - feels a little Novemberish this a.m. but I'm sure it will brighten. Your sudden storm sounds a bit winterish as well. However, it's still October.
Good for you and your "new day", Arabella. You've just been working too hard. I know I definitely need a certain amount of "get out" and if I don't get it (and I sometimes have to work very hard at it) I can get downish in a very wee amount of time. Interesting dream and so clear too. I had one this week that seemed so much more clear than most - involving irritation mostly. Irritation going back many years but finally requiring acknowledgement. There was another a couple of months back that also was more clear. I'd really like all my dreams to be that way - most that I remember at all are confusing.
I do envy your wide range of interests and variety of friends and groups though. Must work on mine a little more. Still looking for that next thing to poke a toe out of my box.
Well, didn't get called to DDs yet! She had a little "breakthrough" yesterday and felt better for a while. Then more stones started moving. I'm absolutely amazed at how many she's reporting. The doctor says the big one broke up very well - it was just so big that there are just so many fragments. And that it all might take a couple of more weeks. Needless to say, that news DID NOT charm her.
So it's semi-settled. DS will come today and we'll go to church tonight where his Dad's name will be mentioned and where altar flowers are in his name. I think I know where I'll ask to go for dinner afterwards. Maybe. Then tomorrow, he gets his chore list. I must try to keep that list low so he doesn't get the idea I love him only for his muscle.
The maple in neighbor's yard (which I see from the window just to my right) is in full color and gorgeous. It's bro - right next to it in my yard and dug the same day from the same place -is just beginning to think about it. This is every year; I'm wondering if even trees of the same species have different "personalities".
10-04-2008, 10:54 PM
Its official. Most of the US divisions of the world's largest insurer will be sold, divison by divison. There's a possiblity of course, that someone might be a couple of our divisions but it all remains to be seen.
And, I leave Sunday for a conference in Atlanta regarding what I do.
Yes, great way to network. Except I still have so many birdies flying around my head, I just would like to zone out and let it all sink in.
But I will go on the trip ( with other coworkers) and be grateful I am bringing my Ipod.
So, there you have it.
I will be back on Wed afternoon.
I will not have internet access. Just a low guy on the totem pole.
10-05-2008, 06:42 AM
Just a quick note this morning to say goodbye. It's an odd feeling this morning.
see you on Wed!:hug:
10-05-2008, 10:05 AM
Hi all! I know...a long-g-g-g time. I'm sure a lot has happened to you all and I will have to take time to read all the posts. Later.
I am well and I hope you all are too!
10-05-2008, 04:11 PM
Lovely :sunny: fall day out there today. I'm a mite tired -- not enough sleep the last several nights and a bit too much wine at dinner last night.
The Royal Consort and I went for a long walk this a.m. so I'm already over my alloted 12500 steps. Done some yoga. We came back and had breakfast, lounged a bit and went back to bed for a nap. :yawn: I even dozed a bit, which is unheard of for me.
It's crisp out there but I was thinking I might wrap up in a blanket and go out and do some writing. I've got an idea for a couple of ghostly-themed pieces that fit a couple of newspaper spots. 'Tis almost the season. :bat: Aw, now I miss Punkin again!
But there's our Ceara! :wave: Always so happy to see you. Looking forward to hearing an account of your walkabout.
Anagram, I think you're right -- when life seems to be all about work and recovering from same I start to feel like "What's the point?" pretty quickly. And, like you, it doesn't take that long. Fortunately, it doesn't seem to take a lot to make a positive difference either. :)
We don't have a lot of trees with changed colour here yet. I'm surprised because we've had some cold nights and I thought that was what did it. I did gather a big bouquet of them when I was walking around the harbour yesterday though: flaming red, burgundy, orange, gold. I intend to wax them and decorate Thanksgiving table with them (ours is next weekend).
Kaylets, sending you some centering vibes! :goodvibes: I can understand 100% how you feel discombobulated. I always feel like that when I'm going on a business trip anyway and with all the other stuff you've got going on... :hug:
All other royals: :wave: I'm thinking about you. Take good care of yourselves.
10-06-2008, 12:02 AM
So, it appears I got lost on the way to the palace, but I finally made it back! I'm a little bedraggled, and the crown is knocked a bit askew, but all in all, I'm not too much the worse for wear.
I spent too long catching up on posts to leave one of my own tonight, but I thought I'd better let you all know that things are starting to clear up, and my world is looking a lot brighter. I even got my new gym membership (free with the insurance for my job!), and the entire family went today. It felt so good to be doing something that positive for myself. :)
10-06-2008, 09:02 AM
I caught up on all the posts last night.
Andria, sorry to hear about your Mom. :grouphug: :congrat: on the employment. :hug:
wsw....a stalwart :queen: in the face of great obstacles! Good job on the weight loss!
Arabella.....your loss is a huge step in the right direction....a size a year is nothing to sneeze at. How long did it take you to gain those sizes? Perspective is what we need all the time.....and your little uppies and downies in the late summer. You were just adjusting for that final swoosh to onederland! You will do it!
Kat :dizzy: Sounds like you are as busy as ever....and that your new job is definitely agreeing with you.
Kaylets...I'm with you on that clothes thing. Those lights are harsh. And keep us apprised of that financial boom...it sure is affecting everything!
'K. Have an eleven o'clock appt with the chiropractor...which is a good thing because my left side of my shoulder is very ouchie this am. I want to go for a short woggle...I did 32 minutes total yesterday with 1 min walking interspersed with 1 min running....to a total of 10 minutes running, 22 walking. I take a stopwatch and time myself. Also ladies, drinking that water is tres important.....glug, glug!
:turkey: :turkey: :turkey:
10-06-2008, 06:00 PM
I am breezing in (once again, SORRY!) to say I'm still out here... just seems like there is no spare time whatsoever anymore! I'm killing the last few minutes at work, doing this, before I can punch out... then I'm off to the dentist. He and I are becoming best friends, can you tell? Tomorrow I have a meeting, Wednesday a dr appt. At least I'm getting all caught up, healthwise... mammo last week, GYN next. Then I think I'm done with the health stuff. Well, not DONE, just up to speed!
We had a celebratory brunch gathering, in honor of my dad, yesterday. Very nice. He would have been thrilled with the crowd!
Weight continues to teeter totter... Must keep that cupcake thought in mind, Kaylets!
Gotta run... will really try to get back in later. Miss you all!
10-07-2008, 08:30 AM
Another good day. I continue to walk eventhough the shoulder is ouchie. Actually the knots have eased up this morning slightly. Heighdy-ho, off for a coffee and heating pad!
Have a great day all!
10-07-2008, 08:14 PM
will respond on the morrow but just wanted to sneak into the back door of the palace and tell one and all that I am very contrite. Got through Saturday ok but after DS left on Sunday, my day just seemed to deteriorate and I had me a good pity party/siege of melancholy on Sunday evening and felt ENTITLED to devour stuff (familiar feeling, anyone?).
So naturally yesterday I felt physically miserable and still down - that "feed me" never takes away the bads, does it?
So yesterday and today were better. Walked outside twice today, did tai chi yesterday. Well, sort of. Instructor was held up in traffic, facility director came over and led a couple of stretches, then said "you're on your own". So I stepped out of my box and said I could lead a little. I did and it was hilarious. The group was laughing them selves silly when the instructor showed up. But laughter is good for us, no?.........................And I was thinking of :queen: Eydie all the while and how that little step out of her box led to a lot different in her life. Won't happen here but think I picked up a new friend in the process. Hoping she'll be anyway.
So - sneaking back out through the alley again. Hope to be back holding my head a little higher tomorrow.
10-08-2008, 04:14 PM
A good and bad thing in itself, I guess.
Anagram, we synced again, almost -- I had my attempt to get rid of the bads on Monday -- no more successful, either. I ended up feeling quite depressed. And, of course, several pounds heavier. :rolleyes: Yeah, tell me why I do that again?
Ceara, looks like you're doing AWESOME!!! :woohoo:
Kat, always love to see you flying through the Palace. Hope you get some time to breathe soon. (But remember to breathe anyway, in the meantime.) I'm glad your brunch for your dad went well.
Andria, you too -- breathe! Congrats on the gym membership!
K, I've got to fly again :bat: Take care, all!
10-08-2008, 09:06 PM
a"me-me" check in--sorry no personal responses for now, but will catch up soon, i promise. my leak still not fixed because parts for my heat pump and a/c condensation tray not even made anymore. at the very least, would have to get a condensation tray custom-made, or just replace the whole heat pump system which is on its last leg. bottom line is---very expensive; parts have to be ordered, some custom-made, and any of the repairs will not even be able to begin for at least a week+. this place is driving me nuts, and i am so scared about financial situation. when the repairman took out the tray this morning (finally), the one he brought to replace it didn't fit. he couldn't put the old one back because it was so eroded, it literally was falling apart. because of that, i cannot use my ac at all until a new condensation tray is put in, which would have to be custom-made, taking a week or more--blah, blah, blah. with no a/c for so long, feeling really stressed because physically when i am hot, i feel awful ms-wise. if stress level highest ranking is a 10, i would say i am at about a 12+ right now, so just needed to vent in a safe place. thank you so much for listening to me, dear royals. trying hard not to dive into some chocolate cake over all this, because i sure know that would only make things worse. i really do sound whiny, i know, but i guess that is how i am feeling, so hoping getting all this off my definitely more than ample chest (lol!), will help to relieve some of the tension. again, thanks for putting up with me! i have been up way too long today, and need to get some rest. take care, all.
10-09-2008, 09:13 AM
:sunny: Although the forecast is for it to cloud over and start raining within the next hour so I'd better get shod and get out :running: soon.
I finally got the scale to register back down to where it was at the low point in July. OMG -- if I could only keep my head together in those weak moments and remember how long it takes to recover from a backslide, even a little backslide. :no: Yikes. I've got the mojo to hocuspocusFOCUS! :wizard: now, though. No quitsies!
I went to my writing group last night and it was so much fun! We did an exercise that started: Open your junk drawer... I was cracking myself up as I wrote and then thinking "Ooh, better stop -- what if they don't find this amusing as I seem to?" Luckily, everyone laughed a lot, wiping tears from their eyes. Then I just basked. :)
WSW, :hug: Bless your heart! Poor Pauline. My goodness -- people buy condos because they're supposed to be trouble-free. What a pain! I can't believe the excruciating stuff you've had to put up with. I hope that it cools off for you there soon -- maybe at least the weather could cooperate?
Be sweet and gentle with yourself!
K, Dollings, I'd best get out there before the :sunny: goes away and the :rain: starts.
10-09-2008, 11:45 AM
arabella-anniversaries of losses of loved ones is always so difficult. honoring those feelings, as anagram said so well, is very important and doing something commemorative does seem to mean so much. glad scale is back down to where it was. yes, hocuspocus focus--your mojo is inspiring my mojo. :) sounds like writing group last night was fun.
kaylets-hope your business trip went well. ---speaking of major, on-going stress. i am inspired by your dealing with so much turmoil and stress, and am trying to marshall my fortitude with you as an excellent example.
looking in store mirrors-so not my idea of a good time either. i absolutely needed a couple of items recently, and dragged myself in to the store. still at same size (which i was expecting, though of course will be happy when smaller one is called for), but got what i needed and high-tailed it out of there. trying on clothes in stores is definitely a good reality check, and equalizer.
anagram-glad that you are enjoying fall and your favorite month, october. hope the recent sore shoulder is all better. also hope dd is feeling better, and kidney stone free, or very soon to be, anyhow. when you described your siege of melancholy on sunday evening and feeling entitled to devour food-----could i ever realate! the melancholy was sure understandable. as you and arabella so lovingly remind us, you deserve to be very sweet and gentle with yourself. loved hearing about helping out with tai chi class before instructor arrived. smiling just thinking about that scenario.
kat-hi! nice to see you! celebratory brunch gathering in honor of your dad sounds like it was very nice. that's neat.
ceara-so good to see you in the palace! hope your shoulder is soon to be pain-free. i am definitely sympathetic to shoulder pain. it's the pitts!
shoulder stuff must just be in the air. this afternoon, i am having cortisone shot in my shoulder---just couldn't take the pain anymore, so giving in and doing what my orthopedist suggested doing a couple of weeks ago. have rotator cuff problems and arthritis in both shoulders, and my left one has been the culprit of late.
andria-glad to hear that things are starting to clear up, and that your world is looking brighter. new gym membership sounds nice.
plumbing perils of pauline----the series continues. thanks for the hugs, arabella. :) i could definitely use them. the repairman called this morning, and i had made the decision to have one thing at a time repaired, even though in the end, it will cost more. coming up with the money for both is just too much for me now. right now, i need a working a/c the most, so that is what i am having done now. well, it will take at least a week just to have that part custom-made, but the a/c is my first priority and coming up with the $500 + for that now is going to be hard enough, so the new heat pump will just have to wait. with that pan as eroded as it was, he said it was amazing i did not have a big flood of water. (the leak was bad enough, believe me.) last night, it was cool outside and i was very grateful. the nights should be ok for this next week---the days are another story, but i will take a lot of cool showers, and keep lots of little ice packs in the freezer at the ready to cool fevered royal brow and dainty wrists at a moment's notice. :)
i woke up way too early again this morning, but have been productive, and glad about that. got some exercising in, ate a dainty breakfast, and now just need to stay awake so i don't miss my doc appointment later. well, thinking of you all, dear queens. take care.
10-10-2008, 09:48 AM
again, woke up way too early this morning, but at least once again, have put the time to good use. have several appointments today, which is fine with me, since will be out in a/c. i've only been without a/c now for 2 days and one night, and it has been really rough already. the thought of a week or so makes me quake in my boots a bit. actually, thought it might not be too bad, but i was wrong about that one! ah well. anyhoo, glad i got that cortisone shot for shoulder yesterday. granted, it hasn't kicked in yet, and may not from 48 hours to a week, but just knowing it will grant some relief, as will the return of a working a/c, reminds me things will improve. pretty warn out right now, though. have been making myself weigh in and write down food in journal daily, because this is the time that is just tailor-made for me to give myself an excuse to jump off proverbial wagon. well, lovely royals, i am off to my appointments now. thinking of you all. take good care of yourselves, everyone.
10-10-2008, 11:51 AM
And it's :sunny: AND I've got today through Monday off. Yay!
I'm officially at my lowest since about 5 or 6 years ago. .6 off at WI this a.m. Will work hard this week to have a more substantial loss next Friday.
Went to tai chi last night -- it really does wonders. I was tired but went anyway. Still tired afterwards, but in a really nice mellow mood.
I'm going shopping for groceries -- stuff for Thanksgiving Day feast chez nous on Sunday. I intend to figure out what I'm going to have in advance and then stick to it! I've already got 25 extra points saved...
WSW, someone just posted this in another thread: "I wish I could bottle how awful I felt yesterday, so I could reuse that feeling when I think food will help anything other than actual need fuel hunger." Sure hit home for me. I generally feel so bad, stressed out, depressed, hopeless after a binge. And eating to feel better? Wow. Just doesn't work.
But it's like temporary insanity when I'm tempted. I'm not thinking "Here I go on a binge -- waaaaaa-HOOO!" More like, "I'll just have a bit more of that..." and I have it and then I'm suddenly remembering what else I've got in the house or can buy or make. And then the :devil: has me. I think I'm going to come up with some symbol to put on the fridge that stands for that evil.
Just keep taking gentle care of your own sweet self. Try to stay as cool as you can. Hope a/c woes are fixed pronto and that the cortisone shot kicks in ASAP! My dad used to get those for arthritis.
K, :queen:lies, it beith Friday. Let's make this day work for us!
10-10-2008, 07:33 PM
I got back Wed evening and am finally starting to feel more on track.
WSW---YIKES ! YIKES! YIKES!
How awful! I do not do heat well and can only imagine!
Here's to the pan being completed early, the breeze to be nonstop and those icepacks to remain icy!
Wood Nymph--Yes, if we could only bottle that feeling so we could remember!
My trip went well. Bumped into someone I worked with a long time ago who is doing well. Two bad about 2.5 hrs from where I live. But perhaps something could be worked out. Also have a possible lead in a field I worked in nearly 20 yrs ago. Not my favorite but right now, I am thinking I might be better off leaving insurance .......
I really hate the thought of it but I really must make a move while I can.
I am meeting someone I used to work with ( but the same company) in a few minutes. I am hoping she might have some insight on how much time we have.... I suspect some pruning will be done before the final sale is made.
And then when the sale is made, there is no telling if any will be kept on.
I don't even have a full 5 yrs being back with this company so any severance would be slim.
So. I am on the look out. Am considering any viable opportunities here in this area.
This certainly has been an interesting year!
10-11-2008, 03:10 PM
Hey all... so...here goes nuthin: My sister was diagnosed with breast cancer yesterday. There was an abnormality on her mammo, biopsied earlier this week, she got the news yesterday. The good news is they caught it early and it's very treatable.
What a reality check. You're just going along, living your life, and WHAMMO! That life is turned on it's ear in one fell swoop. I'm sad for her, but hugely hopeful. Needless to say, we'll be marching for breast cancer next Sunday! (weird how I just happened to save the info (re: the walk) that came in the mail a few weeks ago, before we knew anything... when life was still normal) :chin:
THINKING POSITIVE THOUGHTS HERE. I will not dwell upon "what ifs." Moving forward.
I will truly try to keep up here, but at this point, my head's just not in it 100%. I know you'll understand...
10-11-2008, 04:24 PM
Kat, I'm sorry to hear about your sister's diagnosis. Thank goodness it's so treatable and the prognosis looks good. Take good care of yourself! :hug:
Kaylets, I'm glad your trip was good! Sending you some job mojo :wizard:
Well, I've been chugging along here. Thinking I may get to move my ticker again soon. I've got a big TDay dinner here tomorrow night and am making my plans to get through it unscathed. Really, so many great foods that are even CORE. I will stay on track! :yes:
Hope all are having a lovely Saturday.
10-12-2008, 10:13 AM
Just a quick check-in...we're in OK right now, leaving after we show today and heading for Amarillo Tx and then onto NM...having a good trip...fighting my dear friend the munchmonkey. I just don't eat when she does, or I'll be the size of a small room!
I'm aiming for a maintain or loss this trip...which would be a first. I usually gain 5-10 pounds when I'm with her. I won't fit my nylons, never mind my clothes if I do!
wsw...what a mess for you! Geesh! Four more days to go right?
Will try and catch up with the rest...good going Arabella, lower numbers are good. Kay...hope you get your opportunity and dream job! Kat...hang in there, at least it is an early diagnosis! I wish they'd work on prevention a little harder instead of just concentrating on "cure". We live in such a chemical filled envionment!
TDay dinner tonight. AND coincides with an actual weight loss -- 205.8 this morning! :D So I'm planning what I'm eating this evening very carefully, so as to avoid a nasty bump-up tomorrow.
Ceara, I so totally agree with you. It drives me nuts that the Cancer Society is so focused on finding a cure instead of looking at why incidence rates are increasing all the time. My husband just read "The Secret History of the War on Cancer." Not that there's anything we didn't think before but it's so disheartening to think that the toxic environment is tolerated for the sake of profit and they seek a cure instead of trying to address prevention.
WSW, sending cool thoughts your way!
Kat, sending good thoughts for your sister.
Anagram, I guess you've gone to be with DD -- hope all is well!
Kaylets, I'm feeling like this is going to work out well for you -- hang on!
Andria, hope all is well in your corner of the palace.
Let's take this day and make the most of it!
10-12-2008, 08:35 PM
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO OUR NORTHERN QUEENS!
KAT, so sorry to hear of Sis' diagnosis. Glad prognosis is good. Brunch to honor Dad seems like a charming idea. Normal? I'm not sure I know what that is any more and you seem to have been on that upanddown track lately too. As has Andria, for sure and I hope things are improving there.
Dear wsw - it is absolutely unbelievable what's been going on with you. I empathize because I too do not do well in heat. That you can cling to "dainty" is marvy and a tribute to your royal character.
ceara, glad to hear from you and avoid that otherwisegoodfriend, the Munchmonkey.
Kaylets, so wise to be working things out before the ax finally falls.
The Palace seems to have moved to Stress City.
Congrats on low number again, Arabella. Hope dinner tonight went well and left you with a warm glow.
I was back at 207 today after a week of the upsies/downsies. The funky mood has persisted a bit even though I DO LOVE OCTOBER and it has been very lovely. No I never did go to DDs though I was on call all week. She's still passing some stones (hundreds by now, it seems) and she had gyn appt this week re fibroids, etc. Decided to get LOTS more info before she decides on what to do.
Did not sleep well last night either (full moon coming) but woke up remembering some bad dreams - things going WAY back to adolescence. Then had back pain - now that's a new one - have had it before but not for a long time. Shoulder still unhappy too - the one on which I had surgery but I don't think it's the tear again. MRI had shown lots of other things there, arthritis, bursitis, etc., etc. I think joining the gym might have been a bad choice for me. All I can do lately is treadmill and abductor/adductor.
So I did get out for walk that ended up being moonlit (last night too). Have a big chore planned for morning. Bought a new outfit and will be taking it to be hemmed here and there.
10-13-2008, 07:06 AM
Katrina! So sorry to hear about your sister! Lots and lots of positve thoughts coming both your ways!
Hugs to all in fact!
Sorry to be brief but I need to get on the road.....
Thought of the day:
"Grey skies are just clouds passing over."
Question of the day:
"What is your favorite kind of pie?"
10-13-2008, 11:47 AM
Happy Thanksgiving! :turkey:
QOD: Any kind of pie that my mom makes is my favourite.
Another day of travel under my belt...we ate at the Big Texas steak house last night in Amarillo. Good steak. Need less to say I am not hungry this am...coffee, banana and yogurt for brekkie.
Am currently waiting to leave. I do a lot of that.
:turkey: :turkey: :turkey: :turkey: :turkey:
10-13-2008, 12:30 PM
I really behaved well last night but had a few too many rice crackers with dip and so weight is back up to 207.2 this a.m. I expect it to be banished again tomorrow and I AM GOING TO HAVE A GOOD LOSS THIS WEEK.
Nice to have the day off to recover from the party yesterday. It was good, but DS had to work (I'd been hoping he'd be able to get here) so it seemed mostly just like a nice dinner party rather than a real Thanksgiving. Hmmm... I hear me being insufficiently grateful... Working on fully accepting my life as it is at every moment, being grateful for my many blessings :yes:
So nice to see :queen:lies in the Palace!
Anagram, sorry you got funky! Sometimes it just seems to come out of nowhere. Who knows -- the moon? Anyway, I guess life could never look so spectacular as it does sometimes if that was our constant perspective, huh. If that makes any sense.
Kaylets, mmmmmmm... pie! :cloud9: I can't pick a favorite but... pumpkin, pecan, rhubarb, lemon meringue (I even like spelling "meringue" :) ), mince, oh, of course apple. My mom used to make the most sublime apple pie you could imagine -- exquisitely flaky pastry, cinnamon-y sweet tender flavorful apple filling.... mmmmm... (Did I say that already?) Yeah, I think those ones are my favorites. All but the lemon and pumpkin served warm with ice cream. Pumpkin with whipped cream. OMG, stop me. :lol: Thanks for the visit to pieland, at least in my head. (Better there than on my thighs...)
Ceara, sounds like your trip is a real challenge food-wise. Are you going to have a Thanksgiving dinner at some point or are you dodging that one? When do you get back home?
WSW, sending you cooooool thoughts!
Kat, Andria :hug:
K, Dollings, let's take this day and do our level best with it. :)
10-13-2008, 04:03 PM
happy thanksgiving, arabella and ceara!
kat-i am so sorry to hear of your sister's diagnosis. at least the prognosis sounds good. am sending lots of good thoughts and hugs to you and your sister. take good care of yourself.
arabella-sounds like your thanksgiving dinner party was nice, though certainly unfortunate that your ds had to work.
anagram-sorry to hear your shoulder is still painful. also sympathize with trouble sleeping the other night. last night, woke up after a nightmare and couldn't get back to sleep. i know that is always so unsettling. glad to hear you are still enjoying october.
kaylets-hang in there. my favorite pie: banana cream.
ceara-glad your trip is going well. good for you by not getting tempted to eat along with good friend, munchmonkey. :)
thanks for al the support re: a/c woes. i left a message for the repairman friday to see if could give me any better guestimate of when repair can actually be done, and never heard back. left another message a while ago, but trying not to lose hope. have a feeling he probably took a long weekend with today off for columbus day. anyway, i am sure hoping that is it, because if i have to start all over again trying to find someone who will even work on this, i will be ready for the looney bin. well, actually, i already am. have been using table fans, but certainly need more than that. by this next weekend, it will be cooler though. between all the aggravation and much-too- warm temps in here, i am feeling quite stressed. ugh! ok, enough of my whining. just needed to vent that. well, i need to get some errands done, and also nice excuse to get in to some a/c. thanks again, dear royals, for all your cooling thoughts. :) you are the best! take care, everyone.
10-14-2008, 09:59 AM
G'mornin', g'mornin'.........well, I did me even better last night and got even less sleep. Had talked to wife of recently kidney-tranplanted neighbor and he's back in hospital. I think that unsettled me some and then I got onto other things. But I'm determined to have a good day today and it WILL include some outdorr time as we're still on a lovely weather kick and our colors are nearing peak. I haven't taken a good drive to leafpeep and I need to.
Sending peaceful vibes to Kaylets as you weather the job storms!
And to you, kat, re sister and andria, re all recent stresses.
Put blacktop on part of my driveway yesterday - painters had left some white marks and I decided to use partial can of sealer left in garage - killing two birds with one stone. Covering marks and getting can out of garage. Certainly far from an expert job but I'm secretly pleased (oops, not a secret now!) - sort of an "out of the box" thing for me.
Today's "big chore" involves lots of computer time and I'm not looking forward to that. Bleech!
Pies - I've never met many I didn't love. Esp. fresh and home baked. Let's see - peanut butter, pecan, pumpkin, cherry, blueberry, peach would probably be my top choices but the list could go on and on. even "funeral pie" but that wouldn't like me very much any more. Oh, mince I'm not fond of and while I still like a good shoefly once in every couple of years, I'm not as fond of that as I once was. Never was able to bake a decent pie myself.
Plus, Arabella, right as usual. Moon full today and I oft have sleep troubles around then. Usually my love for October conquers all - we'll see what happens when we get back to more Octoberish weather.
GArabella, glad dinner went well but, yes, not the same w/o DS.
wsw - I'm feeling like wringing necks for you. Putting off my next projects because they involve bathroom floors and I'm SURE they will involve more once we start. You just don't have the "put off" choice.
ceara, what a trek you must be on - lotsa miles but hopefully lotsa fun.
:belly: :turkey: :belly:
10-14-2008, 05:59 PM
Well, :yawn: I'm tired today despite sleeping like a log last night, full moon coming on or no. I went for a woods woggle this a.m. and did some yoga but mostly dragging my a$$ today. Accomplished some stuff at work, went out to vote. But lackluster. Hope to be energetic tomorrow -- 'twould make things so much easier. I'm off to tai chi in a few minutes (it'll also get me out there to see the full moon :) ) but I think I'll leave after the first part. They do a set, do some exercises, take a tea break and then do another set. I just want to keep on going and then either stop for tea or stop and skedaddle. I'm going to start agitating for that model soon...
Anagram, the question must be asked: What is funeral pie? Bet it's good. Our leaves are still not at their peak, for whatever reason. I'll have to get my mom out for a leafpeep tour when they get there.
WSW, I bet that repairman was just taking a long weekend. I sure hope so, anyway! :crossed: I'm like Anagram, just itching to go give 'em what for on your behalf. This is ridiculous! :mad:
K, Queenlies, hope all have a lovely evening!
10-15-2008, 06:51 AM
Yesterday fell apart at noon time....
Seems I thought I did something in late July that was not. And it went downhill from there.
I called DH outside the building by cell phone but that was only to catch my breath and to control myself.
I wound up not having lunch, staying an extra 1.5 hr( voluntarily) to look at a few things and try to get my feet back under me......
I have to do some serious thinking..... I'm not sure I have the focus to get thru this "sell off" and do as much as I have been doing.
Did hit the vending machine twice but that was lunch I guess. Luckily DH had a big chicken soup waiting when I got home.
Sorry to be just me, me, me .... I promise to be more cheerful next time.
Thought of the day:
"One's first step in wisdom is to question everything - and one's last is to come to terms with everything." - - Georg Christoph Lichtenberg (1742 - 1799)
Question off the day:
"Name your favorite outfit."
10-15-2008, 09:12 AM
Oh, Kaylets - I hope today goes better. Yes, serious thinking. Maybe the problem came from working too much...I know you were putting in a lot of o/t. And kindly remember the palace rule which prohibits apologies for me-me-me posts.
Slept well last night too, Arabella, and d r a g g i n g still this a.m. Trying to think of fun things to incentify me today. Shall I go way outside my box and finally go (temporarily) blond? Dragged me out for another moonlit walk (at dusk but moon was so bright already) last night and said hi to him this a.m. when I walked out for paper. And that didn't do it? Nope, though it usually does. Maybe our expected cool off will bring a change for me. Nothing is any worse than usual and I can still look back on my recent declutterings and feel good about that - that would usually do it too. Nope - can't figure me out sometimes. So will try to just cling to something remotely resembling wsw's dainty portions and find something else to shake it up (in a good way).
DS coming back this weekend for a frolic of sorts with a friend. DD's plans to come (enroute elsewhere) have fizzled so I have lots of free weekend time to come up with something good. DS is going to help (sweetheart) with some of my computer tasks - which helps my downer mood in that direction.
What say thee, :queen:lies? Blond for six weeks or so? Oft lasts a bit longer for me. Hmmm - not a light blond. Thinking more of the honey blond of younger princess. I think she'd think it's a hoot but maybe she LIKES being the only blond in the family. When she was about three, she thought my white hair was blond (at least in not being dark) and I had to explain "gray" to her.
Well, anyway, I won't get any energy together sittinghere. Finish my tea and then off to the shower. Might get a callback or two that will help point my direction to me.
:turkey: :belly: :turkey: :belly: :turkey:
10-15-2008, 09:14 AM
MMM - favorite outfit might be my pink flannel pj's with bears and penguin print.
Or the new teal one I bought last week (on sale, of course) which is off being hemmed. I have ACTUALLY bought THREE new outfits recently, plus a new pair of jeans. I think I thought that might help me lose enough weight to render them unusable ;) :) ;)
10-15-2008, 12:05 PM
Forgot this one - "funeral pie" is basically raisin pie - supposedly so called because (before the advent of canned pie fillings) when fruit might be in short supply and one needed a pie for a funeral, one could always use raisins as a filling.
10-16-2008, 08:51 AM
And all through the house, not a pound was stirring -- not even AN OUNCE!!! :mad: I know this always happens, loss is just slow, but the scale registered 205.8 on Sunday, then a minor diversion from perfection, followed by four solid OP days and I can't get back to Sunday's weight? :rolleyes: Sheesh!
Nevertheless, I'll persevere and maybe tomorrow I'll get my reward. :crossed: I'm heading out for my woods woggle. Tonight I'll have a light and early dinner, followed by more walking, sound yoga and tai chi. If there's any justice...
Anagram, thanks for the information about funeral pie. I made an interesting discovery by accident one time when I was making my oatmeal -- added both raisins and cranberries and discovered that the result tasted like cherries! I've since had squares that someone else made with raisins and cranberries. They announced, too "It tastes just like cherries!"
Kaylets, :hug: Those work things are the worst! I can be just beside myself about work situations. Hope this one is all better today!
WSW, hope you've had some meaningful interaction with A/C repairman!
Ceara, are you home yet?
Kat, Andria :wave:
All right, Wimmen, let's take this day and make the most of it.
10-16-2008, 10:22 AM
Cloudy today but warm and I am reduced to hoping that the whoosh fairy comes in tonight on the approaching cool front. Still feeling off-plumb and finally giving in to it being a slight flare of the RA,
I know the feel, Arabella. I had a nice one-day 205.6 a few weeks back and 207 has been the closest since. 207.4 today. Got in the dusk walk again last night but too sorta cloudy to enjoy Mr. Moon.
Off to grocery to stock up on some specials, then tomorrow to my regular store. Enough specials this time to make the drive work - it's close enough.
The cranberry/raisin thing sounds great as I love cherries and don't eat nearly enough of them.
So have a good one :queen:lies - Let's make it a THOROUGH THURSDAY and have an almost perfect one.
10-16-2008, 12:55 PM
Mmmm... the squares I had were like date squares, only with the cranberry-raisin filling. Very good and mostly healthy...
We're really synching on the weight -- I've been either 207 or 207.2 every morning this week. :crossed:
10-17-2008, 10:10 AM
crisp, nice outside. My kind of weather. And getting nice and colorful.
Haven't weighed yet, expecting nothing much despite a string of pretty good days. Walked a bit in park with walking sticks yesterday. After walk in grocery store. DS coming tonight so I'll have lots of healthy food around - once I do the grocery run this afternoon.
Kaylets, your honchos just can't seem to avoid publicity. Hope that doesn't add to your stress though I'm sure there's buzz.
Love anything w/dates, Arabella. You're making my mouth water. Have been meaning to look up some new recipes (for my new lifestyle ;) ) so might have to add some of the raisin/cran type.