Dear WindWood,
I am so sorry for the loss of your companion. I know how it feels to lose a precious pet like that.
We lost our little male Scottie (who was just 1 week shy of 11 years old) this past September. I have never grieved and cried so much in my life. I could physically feel the pain in my stomach. We still have his mother who is nearly 15 years old - very old for a Scottie.
A couple of things that were helpful to me were:
We went to
www.rockitcreations.com to get a pet memorial. In fact we also bought one for our first Scottie, as well. The rocks come in different sizes. The one we designed has a picture of a Scottie on it, his name and the years he was with us. Whatever you decide to put on it is etched with a lazer. They really do a beautiful job.
While I was at the site, I looked at some of the links and found some pet loss sites, some beautiful poems (Rainbow bridge, etc. If you don't have that, please feel free to email me and I will send it to you -
[email protected]), they have a chat room there where you can go and read the posts of others who are sharing about their loss and also talk about your own if you wish to. I bawled my head off while reading them, but I truely do believe that I needed to let all those tears out, as often as I need to, until I am done crying.
It also helped that my husband and I grieved together. One time I was in the kitchen and just heard him sobbing in the office. I went in and just held him.
And, I had people in my life who would just listen to me talk about him as often as I needed to. What a gift that is. Please feel free to email if you would like.
I also tried to be self-loving and take care of myself by getting enough sleep, eating healthy meals, being around people who loved me.
My daughter gave us a blank check for Christmas for another Scottie dog. There were no litters available at that time and part of me just wasn't ready yet. Although I KNOW I will fall in love in the first 28 seconds.
I wondered if the grieving would ever subside, since it was so intense. It continues to be painful, and I miss him every single day. But, I can think about him now with out such intense grief. And I do want to remember all the joy he gave us and how much fun we had with him and that we gave him. Life was such an adventure for him and he enjoyed every minute of it.
I will keep you in my thoughts. I'm sending a hug your way.