Jennifer, you are right. No one should have to go through this disease. I know that you have been in and out of hospitals, so you've been in therapy of some kind, right? You know that what you are doing now, is bad for you. Hiding it from people is worse. I am no professional, and I have not had to deal with the types of eating disorders that you have. I have had to deal with other issues, like abuse of alcohol and food.
These were my ways of dealing with tough situations. When times got tough, or I felt lonely, I could dive into a bottle, or even better, a pizza! It felt so good going down, and that's all you care about ......at that moment. But shortly after, the regrets start, and you start beating yourself up and asking Why? Why did I do it?
If this is your first attempt to reach out for support, then here's a hand. I want you to know that I think you need to find a local group, so that you can talk to people with the same issues and problems that you have. Perhaps there, you will find the understanding that you need, and you won't feel as if people think you are strange because of what you do.
I don't. I think you are brave, and smart to reach out. That's the first step. Congratulations.
Michelle
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) I think that alot of us need to focus on what makes US happy and not those around us. 
