Under 200
As of Saturday, I am under 200 lbs. AND I've lost just a hair less than 20 pounds now. I can't help but ruin my own happiness, though, by convincing myself that this isn't that big of a deal because I only got UP to 200 lbs five months ago.
Then again, I also weighed 195 lbs at the beginning of last April. That was the highest weight I had been since hitting goal in September 2006. Over this past summer, I lost 13 lbs over 13 weeks, which when school started turned into gaining 35 lbs in 4 months. My point is, I really really want my weight to be going down for good now. I'm tired of knowing what my life is like at goal but not doing anything about getting that feeling back.
Gosh darn-it I deserve this! And even if I scared that I'm wrong, I do actually believe that it is going down for good.
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