100 lb. Club - What's one of the worst food things you have done?

02-18-2008, 07:29 PM
I was just thinking about how much my life has changed and some of the horrible things I did to my poor body.

This kind of goes with the bingeing *and* secretive food eating.
I used to have a big sugar addiction (well, I guess I still have it, but it is under better control). Anything refined or white - I ate it, a lot of it. One of my favorite cereals was Cinnamon Toast Crunch. We had just gone grocery shopping, and then DH went to work. Well, I had to have a bowl of cereal, of course - in the middle of the afternoon. That bowl turned into 2, then 3. I realized I had eaten 3/4 of the box.
I was mortified that DH would see that, so I went out and bought a new box of cereal - and then proceeded to eat the rest of the first, then went to the dumpster to hide the box. This was years ago, and I still feel so shameful about it. Finally decided I needed to come clean and admit it to someone!

02-18-2008, 07:39 PM
I've done similar things, Lori. I knew that my eating habits had gotten out of hand when I realized that I was eating secretively. I was embarrassed enough about the amount that I'd just eaten that I'd want to rush back to the store to buy replacements and then quickly take out the garbage to destroy the evidence.... That's when I knew there was a big problem... I feel shameful, too.

02-18-2008, 08:01 PM
Binging in front of my 2 young daughters. :( I don't think they knew what was going on, but it was breaking one of my 20 year old binging rules to ever binge in front of someone else. And it was a blessing I suppose. It made me sad enough to finally commit to breaking my addition to food. This was in November of last year. We baked cookies during the day and when the girls told DH after he got home that we had made cookies that day, I lied (like most people with an addiction have done). I told him "We only made 1 sheet", when in fact there had been 3 dozen cookies. This still makes me very sad. DH knows my secret now.

02-18-2008, 08:14 PM
I also have doen stuff liek this! I really thought I was the only one especially eating en entire box of cereal and then replacing it that was so me!! Thanks for this thread it reminds me I'm not alone!

02-18-2008, 08:14 PM
I never did much to hide it, but once I came home with those Mama Rosa 2 packs of pizza. You know the ones that one pizza is supposed to feed several people? Well ate them both, and in one sitting. When I realized what I'd actually just consumed it was really embarrassing and depressing. :eek:

02-18-2008, 08:29 PM
I used to eat all the choclate ( a couple of lbs worth) after DH went to bed and replace it the next day. Choclate is probalby my biggest emeny.

02-18-2008, 08:30 PM
Yeah I have done similar things. I ate an entire pack of double stuffed oreo cookies in a night while writing papers for finals. I also ate 2 dozen chicken wings in a sitting, and washed it down with a large glass of soda and some bread and butter. (I know its gross, but it is something that I have done).

02-18-2008, 08:33 PM
I have had a real problem.

I used to eat a full lunch (2 french bread pizzas with coke was common), and then leave a half hour early to get my kids from school so I could go through the McDonalds drive thru and get a Big Mac MEAL and eat that... at 2:30pm...as a snack. I'd throw out the trash before I icked them up. "What's that french fry smell, mommy?" "HUH? What french fry smell?" And then I had the nerve to eat a full dinner.

While my kids were at school I would bake a recipe of choc chip cookies, eat them all and then wash up the kitchen before they got home.

I would take a tube of refrigerator biscuits, flatten them and deep fry them, roll them in cinnamon sugar and spread them with honey butter and eat them. ALL.

I would buy several candy bars, hide them, and when DH went out on an errand I would eat them. ALL.

I would tell my kids to save some pizza "for their little sister" and then eat it myself.

I would wait until my kids were asleep and then sneak into their rooms and TAKE candy out of their Trick Or Treat bags or Easter baskets.

All these things show that it was a *real problem*... because they are things I am ashamed I did, and not in my character. Thankfully I have stopped this kind of behavior. Sometimes I overeat or eat junk, but I don't do that crazy stuff anymore.

02-18-2008, 08:43 PM
Gosh all of your posts sound just like me! My best friend and I used to have a tradition for our birthday we'd make lasanga and cheesecake. Well, we had good intentions. We'd start with just one piece for each of us. By the end of the evening we had litterally split the entire lasagna and cheese cake and would consume them by that evening. Gosh I'm so ashamed thinking about it, sometimes it's just like my belly is a bottomless pit! BTW we don't do birthday dinners anymore!

02-18-2008, 08:45 PM
I can remember doing this kind of secret eating when I was a skinny little kid....why???? What starts that kind of behavior? I am thankful I found this site and The Daily Plate! I haven't eaten a whole Pepperidge Farm Cake since!

02-18-2008, 08:46 PM
I never bothered to hide it, somehow I think I "deserved" to eat whatever the **** I wanted?! Soooo weird!!! I was never one to eat an entire cake in one sitting or something like that..no no, mine was a constant stream.... no breakfast...take out for lunch, hit mcdonald's for dinner, dairy queen for a blizzard for dessert, home and have a nap, then up and have a nice dinner....clean up..park myself in front of the tv by about 7:30 and til 12 or so, a nice steady stream...maybe a few scoops of ice cream...then a chocolate bar...then some coke & chips... oh yah, that's normal OMG!!!! I feel absolutely sick when I think of the amount over a course of a day I could put away! amazing!

02-18-2008, 08:48 PM
I can remember doing this kind of secret eating when I was a skinny little kid....why???? What starts that kind of behavior? I am thankful I found this site and The Daily Plate! I haven't eaten a whole Pepperidge Farm Cake since!

OMG I used to love those cakes! Coconut was my favorite. :( Unfortunately me eating an entire one was pretty normal. I convinced myself they were just SO small it couldn't be THAT bad! WRONG!!

02-18-2008, 09:04 PM
yeah I used to have a really bad problem too...

One time I visited my aunt and she took a long time making a HUGE bag of homemade kettle corn for me, her husband, and her. We all ate a little bit. Then once they went to bed, I ate tons of it. I was so full, but then I looked at the bag and there was only a little bit left. I though "Wow, I am really full but there is only a little bit left, I might as well finish it". I remember being SO embarrassed the next day when her husband was yelling about how he couldn't believe the whole bag was gone.

Just this last Halloween I would have about 8 pieces of candy as a "snack" several times a day. My roommate and I would also make huge pans of rice krispy treats and finish them in about 2 hours. We would also make huge pans of eggplant parmigiana and finish the whole thing.

I am really glad to be doing this because my sugar kick was so extensive...I could have easily gotten diabetes!!

02-18-2008, 09:28 PM
I was all about the holiday candy - so on Halloween I'd go to superstore or walmart and buy the biggest bag of mini chocolate candy bars I could find.. but I wouldnt really share it. I'd usually put it in a dresser drawer and grab a couple at a time.

At Easter (and leading up to) I'd buy a family pack size of mini eggs and do the same thing - keep them for myself.

Then there's the Christmas treats.. and birthday treats.. Thanksgiving.. other people's birthdays. It was all about the holidays. but I was defintly on track for diabetes too.

02-18-2008, 09:30 PM
Wow. What a great thread. I have to say that I would occasionally hide things I was eating (maybe one candy bar or a 99c bag of chips) - but I have nothing on some of you. :dizzy: (of course, I need to lose around 100 pounds so maybe I hid thing more than I thought... :o )

It really makes me appreciate you all even more - how difficult that must have been to go through and even more difficult to give up!

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02-18-2008, 10:02 PM
Oh Lord.

My big weakness is anything starchy - bread, chips, potatoes, etc. I can't count the number of things I've done. I don't think I could come up with a "worst". They're all bad.

Made a huge pot of mashed potatoes (like 4 large potatoes worth) and ate the whole thing myself, covered with butter and sour cream.

Eaten an entire loaf of garlic bread (dripping with melted garlic butter) in one sitting.

Eaten an entire bag of Cheetos on a car drive, and then gone thru McD's for meals. Actually car drives were the worst - I frequently drive 5+ hours to a site for my job and would buy 2 or 3 bags of chips PLUS stop at drivethrus along the way ... and eat it all by the time I got to my destination.

Eaten an entire bag of sour cream and onion potato chips mindlessly while sitting in front of the TV.

Made a hash brown casserole just for me and eaten the entire thing at one sitting.

Lord. I could go on and on and on. It's truly disgusting.


02-18-2008, 10:43 PM
Wow! I thought I was the only one!

I would go out for lunch at McD's, then stop again on my way home from work. Then eat a full supper...then go out to the 1am at Taco Bell.

I would buy those huge bags of halloween chocolates and say they were for the kids who came to the door...but halloween would come around and the chocolates had already been eaten. I didn't want to be caught so I would run to the store and get more.

I used to buy alot of chocolates in duplicate...one for the house and one for me. Of course I hid the one for me and consumed it when no one was looking.

I used to take out the trash at all weird hours to hide the fact I had just finished an entire 1/2 gallon of ice cream in one sitting, or had just polished off an entire 6 pack of hersheys bars.

02-18-2008, 10:47 PM
PhotoChick - that driving is a killer for me too! I'd like to add another thought to this thread...because those urges just haven't magically disappeared. What is everyone else doing to combat this behavior that has landed us in the land of blubber?

02-18-2008, 10:50 PM
Well tonight after class I had an urge to buy a king size reeses bar! I dont know..I was doing so well with my eating today...I'll try harder to resist the urge next time. I've purged my food secretly a few times...I've wrapped by stomach with suran wrap And wore a gurdle under it. I remember eating a whole pizza alone. I think a lot of the times we do these things to ourselves to fill some void or to see how far we can go with ourselves or we do it because we can! It takes a strong person to figure the consequences...so I'm glad we all are doing that!

02-18-2008, 10:59 PM
Honestly at this point, after a year+ of eating healthy, I can say I don't have those cravings any more. In fact I'm actually repulsed by them. I stopped at McDs a few weeks ago for the first time in well over 8 months and after 2 bites of a regular cheeseburger, I just couldn't eat any more. It was too greasy and too much.

I honestly can't remember what I did to get past the cravings in the beginning. I know it was hard and I remember coming home and crying sometimes becasue I felt like I couldn't do it.

Now it's easier. My body has adapted to not having those things, so those quantities of junk and grease actually make me feel ill ...


better health3
02-18-2008, 11:01 PM
I'm sure we all have our stories, especially since, we all have been over 100 lbs overweight.

One of my binges that was an undeniable wake-up call was when I ate a whole 12 piece KFC dinner--by myself. I felt so sick and gross. I was attempting to feed that void. When you realization hits you, gahhh, it was so embarrassing; I was so ashamed. Now, I would never think of putting all that unhealthy food in my body, at one time. It used to be a mandatory 3 plates full of food at any buffet. How disgusting!!! I think we are like other addicts just in a different form.

02-18-2008, 11:17 PM
I've been a compulsive/binge eater for years, so picking a "worst" is tough for me. There have been many occasions where I would just eat everything in the house. The last binge I remember before I started my new journey to health was driving to town in the middle of the night, getting two double cheeseburgers and a large fry from McD's, then pulling into Dunkin Donuts for three sausage egg & cheese croissants and an extra large dunkachino -- all of which I ingested in less than an hour.

As for what I do about those urges now. Well, honestly, I don't go anywhere near fast food. And I have had a couple of mini binges, but because my house has been scoured clean of junk, one of those binges was of turkey chili and baked tortilla chips, and the other was fruit salad. I just couldn't seem to make myself stop eating them. This is a behavioral thing I'm trying to address with the Beck Diet Solution -- the whole mindless eating thing.

02-18-2008, 11:23 PM
I have spent thousands of dollars on "repurchasing" and hidden binge foods -- I think I could have saved up enough to take the family to Hawaii!!

Used to bake a tray of brownies after everyone went to bed and eaten the whole tray, many, many duplicate trips for fast food (from one drive thru to the next), I used to not be able to drive without "survival food" -- like if I'm not chewing, I'm going to crash (and that was back when I was thin :(). The worst was when I would get up in the middle of the night and crave something so bad I would go to the store at like 2:00 a.m. to get it (lived alone then) -- even scrapped up change from all over just to afford something.

I have a horrible habit that I've trained myself into because I'm afraid to eat around people (like no one notices I'm 100 lbs overweight) that the minute the house is empty or everyone goes to bed I swear I start to drool and can't seem to stay out of the kitchen, but I'm getting better.

The trait that makes me the saddest is that I eat my kid's stuff -- anything I've bought for school lunches, they usually see 1 and I eat the rest before they can have any more -- any treat they get I eat, etc. Not something I want to teach them.

Rambling, sorry -- just a very personal topic that I definitely relate to, unfortunately, such a crazy obsession!!! I'll get there :)

02-18-2008, 11:31 PM
That whole getting up at 2 a.m. thing and going to the grocery store? Yeahhhh. Done that. Bag of chips and dip mix at 2:30 and thank God Kroger is open 24 hours cause I'd DIE w/out it.

Uh huh.

And you know ... even typing that, part of me wants chips and dip now. Good thing there's nothing in the house to tempt me and I'm NOT driving to the store at this hour! :)


02-18-2008, 11:53 PM
seeings threads like this reminds me i'm not alone. I can't even think of ONE worst i would do...
I started hiding food/binge eating when i was a little kid - I was "chubby" so my thin mother constantly had me on diets.
when she wasn't home or looking, i would grab entire boxes of granola bars or nutrigrain bars to hide in my bedroom. i would hide the wrappers in my closet or dresser until i could safely throw them away when she wouldnt notice.
I was a latchkey kid and i taught myself to bake so that i could make cookies, brownies, etc and just eat the batter.. often a cookie recipie (from scratch!) that was supposed to make 3 dozen cookies would only make 12 after i was done with it - and then i would eat those, too! I can still make choc chip cookies without reading a recipie because i did that so often..
then high school .. i was an althetic teenager and that is the only reason i wasn't morbidly obese THEN. breakfast and lunch were light, but not healthy. then, after school i would get FOUR hot dogs with all the fixin's from the cart, go home and order a pizza from dominoes, and then eat dinner once my parents got home. that's like 7 billion calories over the course of 3 hours.
mcdonalds? i WORKED there. i could eat all i wanted when i was there, and take things home. 4 double cheeseburgers during my shift and then a 20pc mcnugget later was not uncommon. on days off, i would walk to a closer one and order SIX double burgers, and take them home and eat them.
i didn't gain weight until after high school, because i continued these habits, without the practice and games every day.
so take those habits+ a couple nights of drinking, and that's how i made it to 250 by the time i was 23. I knew i had hit rock bottom one night after a night of drinking, i came home, stopped at the 711, got two 12" grinders, a bag of chips and then fried a pound of hamburger and melted a pound of mozz cheese in it. and ate it all.
and i still didn't do anything about it for several years after that.
the reason i'm NOT at goal yet is because i fell back into these habits during a very stressful period of my life. i'm lucky - i maintained and gained very little weight back.. but i could have been where i am now two years ago. NEVER AGAIN.

02-19-2008, 12:05 AM
I am a bad closet eater as well... I remember when I lived with my ex, I used to buy things like chocolate bars and candy and then hide it somewhere I knew he wouldn't look. That way I knew it was going to be there when I needed it and most of the time he would never even see it. The worst for me was probably the day I ate out of the garbage...
I had bought a tub of those gummy candies and eaten about two thirds of it in one sitting. I was so repulsed by what I had done I sealed the tub up and tossed it in the kitchen garbage. A couple of hours later I was combing the kitchen again looking for a snack and realized that the tub of candy was still in the garbage (by this point buried under other garbage). Well, I'm afraid you know what I did next... yep, I reached in and pulled out the tub and proceeded to finish the tub. Yep... rock bottom.

02-19-2008, 12:36 PM
Raw chocolate chip cookie dough, like Pillsbury...enough said!


traci in training
02-19-2008, 03:56 PM
I never hid it. DH was right there with me eating a whole package of double stuff oreoes in an evening. Three McD cheeseburgers for a meal (with fries and a shake). Splitting a large pizza.

I really don't know if I could do this if he wasn't doing it, too. Now we share one of everything. Oreos are not allowed in the house. If the girls want them, they have to keep them upstairs where I don't see them.

McDonalds stock is probably down - just from us 100 clubbers!

02-19-2008, 05:13 PM

I was getting so tired of hearing other people talk about their "awful food habits" and feeling as if they had NO IDEA what I was capable of consuming in one sitting. My whole family is big, but they're pickers...

I literally tell people that I'm "rarely stuffed" and it's sooooo true!!!! Like another person said, I ate such "epic proportions" of food throughout my life that it would be hard to describe just one!!! And, like others, my husband was there with my chowing down the food... we both became such AWFUL, un-embarrased eaters around each other.

So... I'll pull one out for you. Even though I've lost 22 pounds since I started this January '08, we did have one MAJOR binge a couple weeks ago. We went to a bed and breakfast the weekend before V-day... and we figured since a gourmet meal was included in the package, we should also buy some valentines chocolates to eat in bed that night. So we downed the 4 course meal (steaks/prime rib) and came back to the room where we ate an entire 1 pound of sponge candy.

The next day comes and we get a free country breakfast. We down that (pastries and muffins included YUM). We went home and we said (I know, we should learn to just shrug it off and move on) we said, "Well, since the diet is blown this weekend, let's go out and buy horrible foods and get it over with."

So the two of us went out and then ate for lunch: a package of 6 corndogs, a full bag of tortilla chips, an entire jar of cheese salsa... then later that night we ordered a large pepperoni pizza (finished 3/4 of it) dipped in blue cheese... that came with 2 free orders of garlic butter breadsticks (about 8 per person). GONE. ugh...

It's awful---- but at least I'm not alone. Even with a month and a half of dieting, this mythical "stomach shrinking" thing has not occured (and never has in my long history of dieting!!!)

02-19-2008, 05:40 PM
I was in the grocery store yesterday and in the cream cheese section there was this HUGE tub that said, "ready made chocolate cheesecake filling." By Philly. It was a big thing you are supposed to spread into a 9" pie crust to make 8 servings. As soon as I saw it, I thought, "If I were not eating healthy right now, I would have bought that tub, went home, and would have eaten the entire contents with a spoon before the kids got home from school."

And that's the truth...

02-19-2008, 07:38 PM
I would buy several candy bars, hide them, and when DH went out on an errand I would eat them. ALL.
I would wait until my kids were asleep and then sneak into their rooms and TAKE candy out of their Trick Or Treat bags or Easter baskets.

I did both of these things. Chocolate was and still is my enemy. They say get the dark chocolate it is good for you. I would eat the whole thing. Definitely a trigger for me.

02-19-2008, 08:05 PM
I was in the grocery store yesterday and in the cream cheese section there was this HUGE tub that said, "ready made chocolate cheesecake filling." By Philly.

Yes! I had the same thoughts a couple of months ago...I saw this stuff in the store and thought that I could eat the whole tub of that stuff on graham crackers. I wonder how many people have actually done that? I won't ever buy that stuff, even if I did decide to make a pie. I know better!

02-19-2008, 08:08 PM
No sweets but roughly a bottle of chardonnay every two days from 2006-2007. I think that qualifies as binging on an item with sugar in it.

02-20-2008, 10:37 AM
No sweets but roughly a bottle of chardonnay every two days from 2006-2007. I think that qualifies as binging on an item with sugar in it.

or edging towards being an alcoholic! :lol:

02-20-2008, 11:38 AM
Great thread, Lori! It brought tears to my eyes and really helped me realize how far I've come.

I have been a secret binger since I was a child, I can remember at about 5 years old hiding in my grandmothers closet (no lights on) and eating an entire box of Valentines chocolates... and it only got worse from there.

I had a regular habit of going to McD's and buying dinner for me and my husband but I would buy twice as much for me and eat half of it on the way home so that he only saw about half of what I was eating... and the worst of it, we only live 1 block from McD's so I was eating 2 double cheeseburgers and large fries before I got home - ONE BLOCK AWAY! ... and then eating 2 more double cheeseburgers and large fries when I got home. I would even ask for my extras to be put in a separate bag so that the trash was contained in my car and I could hide that and throw it away later... oh wow!

I am happy to say that I have not even been to McD's in over 7 months and currently don't have the desire to go there but everyday can present a new struggle. The first few months of changing my eating, there were many days when I would just go home and cry after dinner because I wanting something else... I don't know how I got past this but I rarely cry over food now.

And there it is... my ugly secret. DH still doesn't know about the McD's binges but he does now know that I have an eating disorder. Actually, I have told most of my family and friends about it and I'm quick to remind them of this when they offer me junk food.