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heather_dw
01-15-2008, 12:54 PM
So a few years ago, I had lost 100 pounds which still had me at 276. Life happened and I knew I had had gained *some* but not too much. Well, apparently it was alot more than I thought. I have this crappy scale that I don't trust but I dusted it off and weighed myself.... 5 times...
I kept getting 332-334. 334???? Ugh!

I'm so pissed/disgusted/depressed and beyond upset right now. I feel like I'm starting all over again. Honestly, I don't know if I can do it. It's just too much, too far to go. I called hubby at work all upset and he tried to be encouraging but honestly, my first instinct was to quit. I don't want to be starting over. He says " you were 376 in 2004, so you're not starting over. It really feels like it. I feel like everything I've done the last few weeks was just totally pointless.
Argh, so depressed and hating on myself right now.
:(


Cassie501107
01-15-2008, 01:07 PM
Hi sweetie:hug:

Believe me, I know the feeling. Last year, I went from 289 to 224....then back up to 283! I was beyond disgusted with myself, but I took a look at my choices:

1. Wallow in self pity and continue to gain
*or*
2. Get myself up onto the wagon and get back at it.

Choice #1 seems a little ridiculous, right? So I did what I knew I needed to do for the sake of my life, and I dropped the weight AGAIN. For good this time!

You know you can do it, as you have before....so you know you'll do it again

We're here for you!

:hug::hug:

Lyn2007
01-15-2008, 01:07 PM
I know how that feels. It hurts and it seems like it is just too much to do, and it is going to take TOO LONG! But what helps me is to think, "I am going to weigh SOMETHING a year from now. The time is going to pass anyway. I can choose whether I am going to weigh more, less, or the same as I do now."

A year seems like a long time but it is going to go by whether you are losing weight or not, so may as well use the time for good. Right?

Never give up.


heather_dw
01-15-2008, 01:09 PM
334 just is INSANE though. It makes me sad :(

midwife
01-15-2008, 01:09 PM
First a BIG :hug:.

Second, you are not alone. Many many people regain weight and relose it bunches of times along the journey.

Third, we live in a society that is set up to encourage obesity. The commercials, the high fat, nutrient poor food that is everywhere. Truly for many people if they are not on guard, they gain. In the supermarket today, they had a special: buy 6 Lean Cuisines, get two half gallons of ice cream free. :o Constant vigilance is necessary to prevent weight gain.

Fourth, you KNOW what to do. You have the tools to continue on this path. And I would say (kindly), what is the alternative? Your health and future and life are so wonderful and so valuable. You are worth the work (and I know it will be a lot of work).

Have a cry. That's okay. :hug: And then get up there and read some success stories. It is possible to do it and YOU OWN THE TOOLS to make this happen.

Hugs to you!

KidsLibrarylady
01-15-2008, 01:10 PM
been there, done that. :( I am sorry that happened! On the upside, you know you are capable of losing the weight and you aren't starting over, exactly. As someone else said to me this week, you had a blip in your journey. Blips suck but you can do it! There was a woman on Oprah yesterday (?) who said she knew she couldn't lose all the weight but she knew she could lose ten pounds at a time. (I believe she lost 220 pounds.) I thought that was a wise way to look at the process. You can do it!

famograham
01-15-2008, 01:10 PM
Heather...STOP!!!! :hug:

You KNOW how to do this! You know you can do it! You've done it before!!!
I have to agree with your hubby.
The only way I was able to start over this time after a total regain PLUS 28 pounds....was to FORGIVE myself, let it go, and carry on! We CAN'T do this while we're hating ourselves.

Please....don't look at the big picture. Start out with maybe five pounds. Make yourself a five pound ticker, focus on those five pounds (or whatever you choose) and by the time you hit that first little goal, I think you'll feel better about your ability to do this.

But first of all, please stop beating up on my friend!

:hug:
Linda

BrandNewJen
01-15-2008, 01:13 PM
that's a tough one... but, your hubby is RIGHT! You've still lost FORTY POUNDS which is a lot less than NONE, and a whole lot better than GAINING more than your original weight!!! (which is what I have done!--- went from 250 down to 215, then WHOOOOM all the way up to 302)

Take the 40 as a gift and the 60 as a kick in the pants! You can do it. You just have to change your life FOREVER and make sure everyone around you knows that there's not going to be any of the "one day, honey, we'll have pizza again" or anything like that.

BrandNewJen
01-15-2008, 01:15 PM
"In the supermarket today, they had a special: buy 6 Lean Cuisines, get two half gallons of ice cream free. Constant vigilance is necessary to prevent weight gain." WTF?!?!!?!? arghhhhh!!! That's soooo ridiculous!

heather_dw
01-15-2008, 01:19 PM
I've been using my fitday program for 2 weeks now. The crazy thing says that I burn over 2k calories a day and my job is seated. That can't be right... argh..

Thanks for the encouragement guys. I'm just really having a bad day today. I don't know how it got so bad. You just look at 334 and go "oh my goodness... 334??, how am I going to do it?" I don't trust the scale but I did it so many times and it gave me pretty much the same thing each time so it's probably accurate

BrandNewJen
01-15-2008, 01:21 PM
I don't like FitDay's activity tracker either... I say I walked 4.5 mph for 30 mintues and it only says I burned like 112 calories or something silly like that. Yet if you type it on any of the other million calories burned calculators online, you get a much larger number!

famograham
01-15-2008, 01:26 PM
I've found the same thing with Fitday's BMR thingy.
I decided to set mine to "bedbound". Because that seemed to be a more reasonable number to me. I know I can't eat something like 2600 calories and lose! Somewhere around that number is what it said for "standing housework"....I just don't trust that number!

And Jen...I'm happy to hear you say that, because when I look at my calories burned...it's a real bummer! Same with my treadmill. It sure FEELS like I'm burning more that 80-110 cals for a half hour!

I think it's because they don't take into our much larger size.

:hug:
Linda

aerotigergirl
01-15-2008, 02:28 PM
Heather--- That's exactly why you come here and talk to all of us! Because at some point, most of us have been right where you are. A couple of years ago, I lost 40lbs. Then, over the course of 2 years, I gained back --oh--37lbs! And I have only just started again.

There are loads of good quotes that have already been posted, but I'll toss out one of my favorites (from Warren Miller): "If you don't do it this year, you'll just be another year older when you do." So keep your chin up! You're already 40lbs ahead of me! :) You can do it.

Smiling_Sara
01-15-2008, 02:30 PM
what you need to take away from this is that you know you CAN do it!! Good Luck to you, make sure you stick around here and post, you will be encouraged. It's hard not to be with so many ppl fighting the same fight. :hug:

nelie
01-15-2008, 02:43 PM
Heather,

Welcome back :hug: You can do this. I know you are frustrated but you've stopped the gain. You've learned a lot from your experience. You can lose the weight.

The hardest part about losing weight is maintaining your loss. You've found out the hard way that it is no different for you. I know it is a hard lesson to learn but it can benefit you as you continue on your weight loss journey.

You aren't alone in this journey. We are here for you.

kimmieone
01-15-2008, 05:18 PM
:hug: The good news is you a chance to pull it back together. Take a deep breath and start completely fresh. Don't worry about the past, deal with now and plan for the future. You can do this!

heather_dw
01-15-2008, 05:58 PM
hubby says " you know.. you've been OP for two weeks but you didn't weigh yourself when you started. For all you know, you could have been at 340 or higher a few weeks ago

:dizzy:

aerotigergirl
01-15-2008, 06:27 PM
That's totally true, Heather! See, you're already on your way back down! Let your logical side win---what's done is done, you can't take it back... you are where you are... what you still have control over is where you're headed. You can do it!

GirlyGirlSebas
01-15-2008, 06:29 PM
Hi Heather,

You sound so unbelievably discourgaged and I'm truly sorry. But, you are at a crossroads now and must make a decision....to continue to lose the weight and to eat for life, or give up and stay the weight you are now....or, if you're like me, gain even more. Ultimately, the choice is all yours.

We have faith in you! You can put this behind you and keep going! We're here for you.

fiberlover
01-15-2008, 07:43 PM
You can do it! A backslide is no reason to hate yourself. You are human. Pick yourself up, dust off your hiney and get back to work!
I had lost 78 pounds, gained back 30 and had to relose that to get to the point I am back at now. It's hard not to get irritated with yourself for having to do all that hard work over again, but the past is past.

heather_dw
01-15-2008, 10:13 PM
I'm feeling better. It's still just UGH so irritating.
I did my WATP 1 mile and got down to 1600 calories. For some reason, fitday tells me that I burn over 2k in a day :o I'm not sure how accurate that is, but I've been getting under 1900 for the last two weeks and now I'm cutting that further :D

Sandi
01-15-2008, 10:16 PM
Heather!!! :hug: How nice to see you!!!

Sounds like you are back on track! Glad to hear it!! Those pounds will melt back off in NO time!!

Jen
01-15-2008, 10:48 PM
hubby says " you know.. you've been OP for two weeks but you didn't weigh yourself when you started. For all you know, you could have been at 340 or higher a few weeks ago

:dizzy:

Give your husband a huge kiss! It is wonderful that he is so supportive of you.

amouse
01-15-2008, 11:48 PM
before i got pregnant with my daughter i went from 220 to 180 then i got pregnant and you could have put a bike pump up my butt and i would have blown up slower then after she was born i was 170 straight after (i threw up the entire pregnancy and suddenly i could eat again lol..) i went to 250 with in 6 months of her birth lol.. then i ignored it and when i got on the scale in december 2007 i was 288.8 lol.. I gotta loose an extra 50 pounds then last time about double what i had to before .. but i dontcare it happened i cant change the fact so im just doing something about it .. so far ive lost 12.8 in a month :) you can do it your not starting over just hit a little speed bump :) like me ..

amouse
01-15-2008, 11:52 PM
, they had a special: buy 6 Lean Cuisines, get two half gallons of ice cream free. :o Constant vigilance is necessary to prevent weight gain.

!


OMG!!!is the shop run by:devil::devil: that is so stupid what would be the point of havignlean cuisines if you buy it for the ice cream lol.. sorry but that has completly blown me away

barbygirl43
01-17-2008, 12:35 PM
Aww Heather :grouphug: I know it sucks when you've done well in the past and then gain it back. I freaked the first time I had to weigh again. I had lost so much after having Nate but I didn't keep up with the eating/exercise and just packed on the pounds. I try to use the past in the knowledge I've gained from my endeavors and forget about the scale and all the shoulda coulda wouldas that come with going back there. This getting healthy business is a learning process and we have to take the good with the bad. I know I've learned a lot about myself and I'm doing so much better this time around.
Keep your head up. You can do it!!

heather_dw
01-17-2008, 07:06 PM
Dawnyal: I remember you from when I used to hang out here :-D
Nice to see a familiar face

I've been OP for 2 weeks, and I've exercised 4 days in a row which is not usual for me at all (even when I lost weight before) and the scale told me first 333, then 335, 336 and 338. I think my scale is a piece of crap. No way I could have gained, and that huge fluctuation of numbers is just not right. Hubby says to take the first number and use it, as it would give me a 1 pound loss :dizzy:

skinnyminnynow
01-17-2008, 08:22 PM
In the supermarket today, they had a special: buy 6 Lean Cuisines, get two half gallons of ice cream free.

LOL!!!! That is so funny yet so sad! :dizzy:

Izzy906
01-17-2008, 09:18 PM
Heather, been there, done that.........3 times!!! Lost and gained #50 three different times and once again I am faced with losing it again. It is discouraging but you know what......we know we can do it because we HAVE done it before. This time, lets just keep it off....OK

I'll help you if you help me :)

Izzy

gr8smyl99
01-18-2008, 07:22 AM
Heather - I feel your pain! I weigh right around what you do - and the thing that kicked me right in the pants was watching the biggest loser - and looking at those big guys and realizing that i weighed what they do!!

I've been on this yoyo for 2/3 of my life (yikes!!) - and while I haven't figured it all out yet (obviously) - I do know that after a week or two of being "on plan" and eating well I start to feel good enough to continue doing it.

I'd be happy to buddy up with you if you need to. I could use a buddy, too.

My best advice is to log on every day - no matter how you feel!! I know it helps me when my motivation is slipping.

Chelavon
01-18-2008, 08:02 AM
You can do it!!! The support sytem here is great as you already know. Besides you are not the only one who slips a little, we all do or we wouldn't be here today. Jump back on the wagon and keep riding with us!!!

heather_dw
01-18-2008, 10:28 AM
I think I lost 2 pounds!
My scale is crappy, but it gave me the same thing 3 times :D

barbygirl43
01-18-2008, 10:45 AM
Ok Heather I think it's time to get a new scale. :D I know it would make me go bonkers if I kept getting different readings on my scale over and over. I finally broke down and bought a new one because my BF scale only went up to 300 pounds. I found a BMI scale at wallyworld that was under 20 bucks and goes up to 350. I think they even had some a lot cheaper than that.
Good for you for keeping it up!!!!

PaulaM
02-09-2008, 11:01 PM
Sounds like you have a wonderful husband, he always says the supportive thing!

chick_in_the_hat
02-10-2008, 11:28 AM
The scale is due for an upgrade....the husband is a keeper!! WTG on 2 pounds gone!! :yay:

Also - Fitday's activity tracker is the crap. :mad:I have mine set at sedentary/bed-bound and I still think it's high. :dizzy:

And just for the record - you are NOT starting over. You have all that experience and knowledge from when you lost before. :carrot: I can personally attest to the fact that calorie counting and exercise works!!

Maybe don't think of all the weight you want to lose as one big block. Chop it up into 10 or 20 pound blocks with a reward like a manicure or cd at the end of each one. The weight is gonna take a while to lose. Think of it as learning to maintain along the way. Because what you are doing now? This is what we should all be doing all the time. Eating right and exercising.

This is the way healthy people live. And we're doing it!! :cb:

missymckibben
02-10-2008, 12:48 PM
I totally understand what you are going through. Just remember you are not alone.

Missy:hug:

missymckibben
02-10-2008, 12:51 PM
Heather - I feel your pain! I weigh right around what you do - and the thing that kicked me right in the pants was watching the biggest loser - and looking at those big guys and realizing that i weighed what

I wouldn't even watch biggest loser for the longest time. I hated seeing people with my weight on there. Huge denial.

Missy

Healthy Mama
02-10-2008, 04:59 PM
Oh Heather :hug:
Sadly so many of us have been there and done that. But, you are back, you are here like we all are and you CAN do it! You have done it before, you know how but like Jen said:

You just have to change your life FOREVER and make sure everyone around you knows that there's not going to be any of the "one day, honey, we'll have pizza again" or anything like that.

So true, so true...