resentments = food obsession
This morning I met with a group of ladies in a setting that was not a meeting, and they are not in program. They cross talked, interrupted each other (and me!), did not listen, did not stay on focus, and generally drove me up the wall.
I walked out of there with some serious resentments. As soon as I was outside and could see my car, my first thought was to get something to eat.
I wanted to eat because I resented that these people didn't follow the rules that I had in my head. They weren't doing it MY WAY! How dare them!!
Ha.
I really hate this disease.
I didn't eat. I went to a meeting, and there it became clear that what I was feeling was resentful.
I don't have control over how other people behave, but I do have the ability to work on what I do with my feelings.
I can learn from today, and be better prepared for next week. I can start the time together with a request that we don't interrupt each other, and that we give everyone a chance to speak. (I'll work those meeting rules in one way or another!!!)
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