Hi Everyone,
Well Saturday I went to the amusement park and I couldn't get the belt buckled around me on a Go-Kart. I was a little embarrassed to have to squeeze my way out of the cart in front of a line of people, but it really cemented my decision to really do this. After my family was finished with their ride I told my Mom that I was taking the first steps for a gastric bypass. I am very lucky that I have an extremely supportive and helpful family and husband, I know other aren't as fortunate.
But then I had other thoughts and I really began to examine things. Like afterwards we went out to dinner, and when I have gastric bypass I won't be able to experience "dinner out" like everyone else. Would
I be ok with that? I know for absolute certain my family would be fine with me eating a small amount and wouldn't badger me into trying a "bite" of something. But could I be ok with it? And really most of the year I think I would be, but no slabs of Christmas ham, Christmas cookies, a huge Easter brunch. My first thought was to wait after Christmas, and then I felt like an addict saying, "one more hit" and then it occurred to me that is what I am. Looking for one more hit of Christmas ham. I would never encourage an alcoholic to wait until tomorrow for help, I should hold myself in that same regard.
I know within time I can enjoy tiny portions of food I enjoy, but for know I need help, and really let others help me so I can help myself.
Did anyone mourn the "loss" of eating? How do you deal with that?
Thanks,
Michelle