My second time here...
hi everyone, I was here I guess a year ago and am back.I posted on the intro board a little of my story, but will repost some here. This is actually my third time on the 3 fat chick board, but the second time here the 100lb club.
Weight has always been a problem. for me, I came to the site a few years ago to loose 60 lbs, but never lost and wasn't comitted enough to stay. Last year I came back because I knew I needed to lose weight. Food had become my friend after being uproated from Louisiana to N.c. because of Hurricane Katrina. I have no real friends here, or family. So food became my friend. I ate, and it was easy being a SAHM. My husband uses our car for work, so I am home bound most of the day(there is no park in walking distance), and my kids are in school , so it is just me and food. Last year I was 269 when I began my journey and actually went down to 250, but things I planned went down hill and I turned to food. I left my free weights gather dust, along with my exercise mat and weighted ball. I bought a Elliptical machine with my tax refund last year and it was used as a statue.
These past months that I let everything slide, I began to love cooking and baking, my clothes got tighter, and I was tired more and more. My feet became swollen and my thighs rubbed together so much I got sores.
I guess I decided to stop this downhill spiral when I had to look for size 26 pants. 3 weeks ago I began the change. I have stopped all junk food, desserts( except for the occasional dark chocolate or fat free frozen yogurt), no fried food, sunday morning Krispy kremes and biscuits. I am eating much better and have worked my exercise routine up to 35 minutes , 5 days a week. I am able to do 16 minutes on the ellipitical, when I tried last year I could only do 2-3 minutes. My clothes are looser, my feet are back to normal, and I bought a scale yesterday which made me feel horrible. I thought I was maybe 256 or something( trying to deny the truth), I was 280 last night, this morning I am about 277-79 . I feel horrible. I am obese. I am so scared. How do I fight this. My husband is naturally slim, and eats and eats. He doesn't stop me from eating and says " you have to eat". My son is going down the same path he is 17 and wears a size 38 pants( he is 5' 11"), and just eats and eats. My daughter is 9 and weighs 135 lbs( she is 5 '2"). I just don't know how to keep this up. How do I not stop exercising, or eating right? Please the suggestions would be great. Because everytime I start trying to get healthier I stop and just gain more and more weight. Help. tia
Cheryl
|