Having a bad day....
Today is my first day that I am "struggeling" with my OE... I had made a nice dinner for a friend and her husband who are visiting from out of town, and I have been doing well, but afterwards I have been craving sweets, chocolate, something! I keep going to the cupboards and to the fridge, knowing that I did not buy anything sweet while I went grocery shopping. But the habit of it... I feel out of control, I almost got into my vehicle and drove to the gas station to get a snickers bar! I didn't... The craving is starting to surpass, but that feeling of being out of control! I hate it. I keep telling myself I can do it, it will work, give it time... But it's so hard. Which I know you all know how hard it is, but it was so hard to not get seconds at dinner... So hard not to grab another piece of garlic bread... so hard not to eat until I felt like I was going to throw up from being so full...
Ok. I feel better now. Sorry for venting, but I know you all understand that out of control feeling, and I needed to talk to someone! I hope you are all doing well, how are you all doing?
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