I hope this is this right place to post this. If not, um, let me know!
This has been a REALLY hard week. Ugg.
I have been fairly gentle with myself as I go into this process. I spent the last couple of weeks of August and the first few weeks of September just really observing and recording what I eat, when I eat and drink. And then I started to slowly shift that into eating the way that I want to be eating (homemade healthy yummy food!) and trying to cut down on my alcohol intake. I found I was consistently eating well 4 days out of 7 and the other 3,well, not so good!
This week has been TERRIBLE!!!!
I think it's a combination of being super busy at work and feeling a bit lonely and a bit frustrated with everything.
On Friday I went out and had some drinks with a friend and on my way home at like 1 in the morning, thought a couple of slices of dollar pizza would be a really good idea. BAD PLAN. I woke up feeling gross and kind of in pain and I thought, I am abusing myself-like physically! Just kind of from the inside out. And I wouldn't physically abuse myself on the outside, so why would I do it with food.
It was kind of an epiphany for me.
But then I went on to do basically the same thing last night.
So here I am, Sunday morning, drinking my coffee and putting this out there.
Does anyone else find that the harder they try to succeed in establishing a healthy lifestyle, the harder the push back from these habits and comforts that we have developed over years?
I suspect I am not alone in this-but this morning, I feel pretty darn alone with it.