I need to vent. I hope maybe people who have more life experiences can support me and give me advice.
Before I lost weight, I was in a relationship which ended last year. I found myself alone, had to move house and remain in england by myself. Whilst losing weight, I was also liking my wounds -relationship wise, so I was pretty low and kept focusing on me.
fast forward to "lately + new thin body". I have been told always I have a pretty face.
Me? when I look in the mirror, i do not see any major facial flaws, but that's about it. Sometimes, i do find myself pretty, but i think everyone does that! I basically consider myself more than the sum of my parts. I am cultured, funny, a musician, and many many more things. Back home, in greece, i have a lot of deep and meaningful friendships which have been my main support network through everything.
I cannot make friends in england.
Lately I am being hit on and on, and on some ways i am sick of it, because when i declare my disinterest, people tend to disappear. why?
i am not particularly flirty.maybe there's an english-mediterranean barrier i do not seem to understand.
all i want is some friends. people who have space for another person in their lives. but no, i get hit on and when i say "look, but, i thought we were friends... :/" people run off.
this happens with both men and women, and whilst i am not interested in men sexually at all, even with women i have not found one that it really "clicks" in order to push things forward in a romantic level.
i have thought about this for many days. and to a point, it might be a ridiculous post "booohoooo people flirt with me". how sad is that? but trust me.. when you're on your own, in another country, and all you want is a real friend... it sucks not to have one.
i have even thought if a solution would be to put weight back on and disappear again as a flirting candidate. but not to worry, it won't come to that. i lost weight for myself and i will keep it off for myself.