So I'm trying to be good and eat on plan and get myself healthy. But i have this weird sick need to rebel. I don't know where it's coming from... well I have an idea... but it's still disturbing me.
i guess i feel like since I can't be "bad" with eating what I want anymore... I'll do it in other ways. I was going to get pierced today, I bought a pack of cigarettes and have been secretly smoking again, I scrape up some change and get something from the vending machine at work... all in secret from my husband.
He's driving me nuts!! Trying to tell me what I can and can't eat, how I should be exercising, when I should be doing it. I just want him to back off, but he won't. So I guess I'm rebelling against him by doing things that I know would piss him off if he knew?
How sick am I!?!??!
anyway- does anyone else feel this need to be a rebel? what do you do to combat it without giving in? I can't start smoking again!! I can't keep sneaking vending machine snacks. And there are only so many places a girl is willing to get pierced!