Aaaaaah Yeeah..... I think I found <enter deep echo> MY PEOPLE!!!
I was born & raised Catholic, but congratulate me folks, as I escaped without too much harm back in the '80s!
I have always been an incredibly Spiritually minded woman, and have searched for years as to where I felt MOST comfortable. After leaving the Catholic church, much to the dismay of my Catholic Sicilian Mother (who incidentally is STILL waiting for me to baptize my children into THE faith
) I found the Baptists and discovered, I was quite unhappy there as well, as was I in all of the christian demoninations.
Theeeeeen I found the Pagans, specifically the Wiccans. I dedicated, and went 1st and 2nd degree Wicca but found myself after 10+ years needing something different still.
Most everything I learned about in the Neo-Pagan counterculture I agreed with but yet, I still felt myself lacking something.
I used to have a girlfriend named Barbi who has since passed over. She always wore a pentacle AND a cross around her neck. When asked what she believed in, she simply said, "Barbi's Religion". When asked what in the world THAT was, she replied... "I believe in kindness. I think everything has it's good aspects, as there are always aspects that are bs. I have chosen to take the best of what's out there... roll it up into a ball, and believe in goodness!" I thought.... Now THAT'S brilliant!
In the past year, I have been studying the Tao Te Ching and writings of Lao Tzu. Man oh man, was HE ever an enlightened one! I like to think all the great Masters have something wonderful to teach, whether it was Lao Tzu, Jesus of Nazareth, Abraham, Ghandi, Buddha or Billy Joe Bob down the street who is asking "Can't we all just get along!?"
When I need strength... I meditate (call it prayer if you will), try to focus on what strength the Universe can provide me with... and walk past the Twinkies.
Anyone else find themselves in a similar mindset?
Namaste (I honour the Spirit that is in YOU and in ME),