Sorry to hear life has been so rough,
but you seem to be heading to a better place now. You CAN do it, and we're all behind you. I love this site - it's great!
I also have a 9 and 4 yo, but a 6 yo in the middle too. I love docs too, don't have any right now, but I want another pair when I have thinner calves! I used to have bright purple ones which I adored, but they went the way of the dodo one year.
What plan/program are you using for weight loss/lifestyle change? There's lots of info on all the boards here - check them out when you have time. Looking forward to seeing you more,