I had a , no i chose to not pay attention to my caloric intake. I am supposed to stay below 900 calories per day. I obviously did not. Too much wine lead to too much carbo-bingeing.
So here I am facing the next 8 days between now and yom kippor. I must re-commit to my 900 calorie limit.
I must refrain from wine b/c it is a trigger for out of control consumption. I must only have the tinsyest of tastes of challah and honey, no full slices.
I hate being fat and out of breath and sick with heartburn b/c I over eat. I must work through the hunger so I can get used to not stuffing my self sick.