Aw, Gretchengirl, don't be so hard on yourself.......
I think a bunch of us kind of lost it a little over the last few days.....and the REST of us aren't in the initial throes of quitting smoking! So give yourself some credit and let this run it's course....and listen to Tammy's wise advice. She knows whereof she speaks. I'd recommend going back to revisit
Tammy's "Quitting Smoking" thread just so you can see that you are now EXACTLY where she was in the same process of effectively quitting. And look at her now.....she continued to lose after an initial bump of a small gain in the name of evicting nicotine and other addictive carcinogens from her lungs forever!!
You'll get through this.....ok, pull out the binder and knuckle under because that's what you do......but REALLY, Gretchen, try to be gentle with yourself and don't beat yourself up for going through what seems to be the process for every other human on the planet who's quit smoking.
The quitting must be forever -- the small gain won't be. All of us here have the utmost confidence in you, so listen to us you stubborn girl.
We love you and are here for you.