Hayle-
Up until a few weeks ago, I would do the same thing and found it equally frustrated. I'm a senior in High school and am struggling with and ED and find that keeping busy is the best medicine. I really plan my meals a head, even cook or fix some of them in advance, and always keep healthy snacks on hands, like veggies and carrots, and when I feel temtptation to reach for smoething sweet, I grad an orange instead, and my sweet tooth is satisfied as well as my stomach. The way I got over weekend binging was a few things:
1) I did that 10Day Challenge on this forum, and didn't allow my mindset to change justb/c it was the weekend. I thought of how hard I was working and how I didn't want to start back in square one, b/c the junk food isn't really worth it. I mean, your satisified when you're eating it, but afterwards you(or at least I) feel like crap, and yucky, etc. B/c you truly "are what you eat" it's a hard concept to grasp, and I understand it enough to abstain from fatty, processed, sugary junk food.
2) I realized that subconciously or even conciously(sp?) I was say " Oh, it's the weekend, I am bound to screw up this week's hard work," and then I realized it was the mind set that I was in that was allowing me to eat like this. So, I told myself one weekend that I was going to end this habit of yucky eating on the weekends, and change the cycle... and with alot of perseverence, I haven't done it since then.
I also think that this webstie is great for support and motivation... As a person with bulimia, I have learned to try and figure out why I eat the way i do when I do, think about whether it worth ruining my teeth and screwing up my heart for the inevitable purging that is sure to take place only a few minutes after I eat the bad foods. In some ways, I think a lot of people need to find themselves in realtion to food, and you'll be able to avoid the targets the drive you to eat or not eat. I was once told that it's hard for a person w/ an ED to truly overcome the feelings and ways they eat, but you can find out what it is, and avoid it, and stay busy and social so you don't have time to fall into that cycle again.
Also, I think about, how I've been working super hard and am loving the way I feel, and why would I want to ruin that by eating bad food? Like I said before, it's just not worth the self-hate, and lack of confidence you feel afterwards.
I wish you lots of support and encouragement, I would wish you luck if I din't believe that you make your own. So, anytime you need a little help, you can always turn to this website, and surely get the motivation you need.
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