I think my troubles lately stem from tr stress of our upcoming trip. We will be going to visit my family in Europe. They live on the beach. Everyone there is really skinny. I've had to do lots of shopping for summer clothes because I've avoided buyig any for years and can't stand my old clothes anymore. That's a lot of stressful time spent in fitting rooms trying on bathing suits, shorts, dresses and other revealing summer clothes. It's easier to shop for winter that's for sure lol. I also have a fear of flying which is getting worse as I age. Every time I think about our impending trip which includes a couple of layovers (with a toddler!) my heart starts to race. I'm coping any way I can.
"Binging is a descent into a world where every restriction... is cut loose. At its core is a feeling of deprivation.. a feeling you can never get enough. Binges do not signify a lack of willpower or inability to care for yourself. On the contrary, binges are a urgent attempt to care for yourself when you feel uncared for. They are the voice of survival. Binges are the mark of the self that says, 'I am tired of feeling deprived, of being told I am wrong, that I am bad." - Geneen Roth