Pumpkin you should try reading the book "Have your cupcake and your skinny jeans, too". Being obsessed about food is no fun at all. The author teaches about how you can change your relationship with food by breaking the binge/diet cycle.
"Things are as they are. Looking out into it the universe at night, we make no comparisons between right and wrong stars, nor between well and badly arranged constellations." - Alan Watts