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Old 04-21-2014, 11:11 AM   #27
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 127

S/C/G: 187.7/158.2/150

Height: 5'6''


Thank you all for your support. I honestly think that if I had the time to check in on these boards yesterday, I probably would have stayed on track. I was also thinking of emailing my coach today, just to stay accountable. Trying to hide what happened yesterday could lead to revert to my old ways, pretending to eat healthy in front of others, then stuffing myself with junky things when no one is looking. I refuse to be that again, it is so shameful and humiliating to go back there. I also refuse to turn 1 day of relapse into 2, then 3, then weeks on end. I also refuse to beat myself for it because as we all know, "relapse is part of recovery", and this journey is not just about losing weight, it is also about freeing myself from the bonds of my addiction to food. I also think that I learned a valuable lesson yesterday that will spring me into action and make me more aware of my relationship with food.

Started IP February 7, 2014
W1 - 5.3 W5 - 2.8 W9- 2.4
W2 - 1.7 W6 - 3.1 W10 - 1
W3 - 3.7 W7 - 1.9 W11-1.2
W4 - 2.8 W8 - 2.2 W12 - 1.2
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