Ladypeacek gave you some great motivational ideas!
I was in your shoes back in 2005-06. I am 5'6" and weighed 252 lbs at age 44. I was working four or five 24 hour-a-day shifts a week as a Paramedic. Our eating habits were not good as we ate when we could, often fast food, and I was working with two different partners who each weighed over 300 lbs. I started feeling "not well" so wrote a journal of what I ate, how I felt and studied it. I began checking my blood sugar while at work as I was showing signs of diabetes. Sure enough, I was a diabetic. I tried the diabetic diet my doc recommended with total failure. The more I thought about the food allowances the more I obsessed I became about food. I found an Atkin's New Diet Revolution book at Walmart one day, and the journey was on. It was much simpler as all I really had to think about was not eating carbs except the two cups of salad or one cup of salad and 1/2 cup of cooked veggies a day. I was able to eat the salads and grilled chicken offered at many fast food joints. In nine months, I dropped 86 lbs. I also contribute my success to drinking 1/2 my body weight in water daily up to a max of 100 ounces (as recommended by my doc). I also began walking. I started out slow and worked up to 3-4 miles daily with 1-2 days of a 7 mile walk. While at work, I walked around the station building and driveways. Sometimes I would have to do a few laps, then go on a call, then come back and walk some more laps, and so on and on.
After I lost the 86 lbs, I treated myself to cosmetic surgery called Around-The-World (Body Contouring) which removed the hanging skin from my abdomen which hung down to mid thigh. It also included liposuction in the abdomen and buttock areas. Boy what a self-esteem booster. After surgery, I was able to maintain my weight by putting a picture of the large slabs of fat the doc removed during the surgery that couldn't be exercised off on my refrigerator. I also continued to walk daily and drink plenty of water.
I hope you glean something useful from my story. I have since re-gained 35-40 lbs of the weight on two occasions due to a work related accident that disabled me for life with a back injury. I am unable to walk or stand more than 15 minutes at a time. I happen to live in a county with a water park that includes a therapy pool which is heated year-round and is covered in the winter with an air dome. I am able to walk, jog and do a crunchies type of exercise while in the water.
I wish you the best and am here for you. Find what works for you and stick with it. In my experience, if you don't enjoy it you won't stick with it.
Grandma to 3 beautiful babies
NOTE- avatar picture is me at 208 lbs!
Restart March 24, 2014